Disclaimer: I do not know any of the guys of MCR....This is purely fictional, except I own Shannon Haven, as she is a form of myself, and I own my friends, Darla, Shannon, Teri, Amber, ect....except everyone famous. So, don't sue. This was created from a dream of mine, no more, no less. Enjoy....

-1-------My name is Shannon Haven. I have looked after many people who have been put in danger by certain circumstances or just plainly because of stalkers for years. So, I work for the CIA. Some say I am a professional at it. Surprisingly, it has been almost two months since my last assignment and it has left me to wonder if things have started "calming down", or they are withholding information from me. Whatever it is, I am suspisious. It is not everyday when you have a normal life. I am 25 years old. Crimson, almost black, hair a bit past my shoulders and almost colorless eyes that I inherited by my mother.

At this moment, I am sitting on a barstool at a club downtown from where my apartment. It was a fair apartment. Not as expensive as I can afford, but I do not want to cause any suspisions. Staring up onto the stage of the local band, the frontman, Chris, was jumping around like a manic, like normal. He was your best friend, so was Jennifer, Teri , my roommate Shannon Sauvey and Etain, who were back at home. They knew completely of my job that can put them all in danger, but has yet done so.

But the secret job that no one has known of, and that I end up doing every night, is vampire slaying.

Yes, I am a Slayer. One of the very few who are yet standing and not corrupted. But the supernatural activity has been quite light nowadays. Not much of a challenge. My old mentor, Yalkin, before leaving my life completely, told me that my strong will had protected me. I think otherwise. I think it is because I feel as if I am dark already. Barely smiles, sometimes forgets to breathe. Oh well. Back to the present.

Feeling more bored by the minute, I push up from the chair, wave at Chris before turning to leave, and jolt out of the club. While walking down the sidewalk, I shuffle out a stake and clutch onto it as I walk down the darkned street. Another surprising thing hit me right then. No one was out?
No vampires? Shaking my head, I walk onto a bright street and unlike the other one, it was crowded with people. A window with a tv on showing music videos catches my attention as I walk past as it starts playing My Chemical Romance's Helena. The music video was great. I like it alot. As it ended, I look down at the ground and then back up and started walking back down the street and towards my apartment. Holding onto the shaking railing, I rush up the stairs as it starts raining in the cloudy night sky. I unlock the front door, walk in, and slam it behind me hearing the automatic doorlocks lock the door. Throwing the stake and handbag onto the couch, I walk over and open up the blinds in the fron window and walk outside. The overdraft covering the front porch was short so when I walk out, I am almost imediatly drenched.
Resting my elbows on the metal railing, I watch the people walk along the sidewalks and run across the streets. Not before long, the rail give way. Gasping, I fall forward with the rail but grab onto the concrete before I can fall to the ground. Quickly kicking my way up and back onto the porch, I let my shoulders slump when I look over the edge and see the railling in the bushes below. Frowning, I walk back inside and walk over to the phone on the coffee table in the living room. I punch in the phone number for the landlord and hear it ringing on the other end.

"Hello" Mr. Maloy, the landlord, answers.
"Your shitty railing broke." I said in an I-Told-Ya-So voice. I hear him sigh on the other end of the phone and he tells me he'll have it fixed. I thank him and hang up.
Glancing over to the clock on the side table next to the couch, I decided to head off to bed. I do not change out of my clothes and I glance at Shannon's (roommate, remember?) bedroom door. I walk across my room to the bed and lay down on it carefully after turning off the light leaving nothing but the moonlight to rid the room of total darkness. I fall asleep almost instantly like I usually do but an burdened by these haunting memories...

A little girl of 6 years with long crimson hair (you younger) walks into the family room and turns on the light just in time to see a person jump out of the window. She looks around the room and screams when her eyes fall upon her parent's corspes (need I go on?)...the picture fades to a teenager fighting against this guys. When he trys to kick her to the floor she grabs his leg and pushes him back and he falls onto the table behind him in the stone-built room. The table breaks and he collapses on the room and the teenager points a sword she grabbed at his chin.
"Well done, Shannon. You pasted the test." he tells her. She backs up and pulls the sword up with her suffciently, tosses the sword to her side, and puts her hands on her hips while watching him get up and untangleing himself from the broken peices of the table.
"Yalkin, what was the purpose of this? You know that I have passed the other tests with flying colors? Why this one? But most of all, why now?" She asked as she pulled her long crimson hair out of her high ponytail and let it fall freely around her shoulders.
To make sure that you are prepared for the worst." Is his reply. "Just because you had a preminition of your death? How can you know for sure that you cannot work around it? It is like you are giving in." She said for the, so it seemed, millionth time.
"Shannon, we have been through this already. I took you in when you were a baby when your parents were murdered by the vampires. And now things are-" She cuts him off.
"Different?" She scoffs,"Hardly. I will avenge my family but you seem to underestimate me."
He does not say anything in return but she knows what he wants to say. She knows that he raised her well and gave her the strength and knowledge to get revenge. And for that she's thankful, but her questions go under answered.
"Greatness does not come with the will go seek vengence. It does not give you power to win." That was the last of the argument. That night, she cried for the first time in years, but it will be the last for years to come. The next morning he flew back to England for what seemed to him as his final days alive. He was like her father. She grew up with him and he raised and cared for her like a daughter and even though her heart seemed like it was stone, he was all that was left of her. Days later she got a sharp pain in her gut that told her that something was wrong then she recieved a phone call from England saying that Yalkin had supposedly gone missing but he lost too much blood that was left around the house for him to still be living. Her heart closed that day and she rarely felt anything but painful saddness, anger, and rage. And here she (you) was today, at age 25, it took forever to let her few friends in but it happened after a tragic accident when she had to protect Shannon, Teri, Jennifer, and Etain. Ever since, they bonded. Though she unreadable, she cared for them, and they cared for her. They helped her when it came to hunting and her job, though they never had to, they just did. And she hopes and tries to keep them away from that same pain and anguish that led her to the person she was today (It might not make sense, but it will later on in the story).

-2-------My eyes jolt open when sense someone other than myself in my room and I wake to see a pale guy with medium-length black hair standing over my subconsious body with a stake on my chest, ready to plunge it inside of my heart. I gasp and he leans forward and changes into a woman with long dark brown hair.
"Wake up, Slayer. Enjoy life while you can." she hisses in my eye and then before I reconize anything, even my own scream, I'm sitting up in my bed drenched in cold sweat.

I look around ready to kill whoever it was who I saw and I saw nothing. The next thing I know if the light on and Shannon rushing into my room and sits next to me, with worry written all over her face. She knew that if I screamed, or if I cried, it was something seriously dangerous or something needed to be delt with as soon as possible.

"What is it, Shan?" she asks breathlessly. She watches me intently as I stand up and look around the room. Sensing something wrong and awkward near, I stare at the open doorway.
"Pack up some of your belongings. We must leave immediatly." I say barely audible. I hear the soft creak of the bed as she stands up. She walks past me, casting me a worried glance before exiting the doorway. All I do is cast her a smile, faint smile or contentness, though my thoughts are racing. I rush to the closet between the bed and the connecting bathroom door that connects to Shannon's and my room. I throw open the door and grab the emergency bag, packed full of everything possibly needed. Including nessessary weapons. Not hesitating, I throw the bag over my shoulder as I throw open the bathroom door, shutting it behind me, and then bolting into Shannon's room. It was empty. Feeling a lump starting to form in my throat, I call for her. She comes walking out of her walk-in closet with her bag packed and full.
"Perfect. Let's go." I nod for the doorway and we walk out of the house quickly and luckily unharmed.

As I pull the black corvette I have, with the top up, out of the garage and drive off, Shannon hits me with the questions.
"Mind to explain to me what's going on?" she asks, with a hint of annoya in her voice. I tell her of the dream, thinking intensely as I do. She stays quiet for the rest of the way to my destination: The Maxima Hotel (I do not know if it's a real hotel, I just thought of it) and for that, I am thankful. As I knew she was deep in thought, I was too. I pulled quickly into the parking lot of the hotel as far back as can be to be unseen. We grabbed out bags and rushed to the glass hotel doors. It looked grand in the main lobby with the floor as shiny as the walls glittered. I got us a quick hotel room with two king sized beds and a private bathroom connecting to the room. The room was as gorgeous as the main lobby and looked flawless. The first thing Shannon did is changed back into her nightclothes and headed back to bed and I wished her good night, though my night is just beginning all over again. I walk into the bathroom and crack open the door. I jump up onto the porciline bathroom counter and pull my cell phone out of my pocket. I dial Teri's number and she answers groggily. I quickly apologize for waking her at this time of night.
"It's okay?" I hear the shuffling her her bed covers as she sits up. "What's up?" she asks.
"I do not want to talk too long. I need to get back to watch Shannon. I'll cut to the chase" I say before she can say anything and dely me, I tell her my dream.
"Woah. So...what you want me to do?" she asks a bit uncomfortably.
"Just please be on the look out for anything odd. I feel that that dream was not fake...It felt to real."
"That dream was too awkward to be real, though Shannon."
I knew she was right in a way. I tell her to be on look out anyways and that I'll check up on her.
"Okay, I will" She promises me.
"Thank-you. G'Night and sorry for waking you." I apologize again.

I do the same for the next hour, calling Etain and Jennifer, doing the same with apologizing and telling everyone to watch their backs. I walk back into the bedroom and hear Shannon's soft breathing as she sleeps the night away. I do not want you to be put in any danger...I think. I sit in the velvet black chair in the darkest corner of the room and watch as Shannon sleeps away. I watch the night disappear and the darkness disappearing as the light invades what was once pure darkness, but yet, the corner I am in, stays shadowed. The next night goes on like this too. We stayed inside the hotel room except to order room service every few minutes. Thoughts fade away a few times so I could laugh with Shannon as we watched MTV2's halarious tv shows. I survived and stayed awake barely for that night on coffee, refusing to go to sleep for Shannon's sake, and for the sake of the others. I called Etain, Jennifer, and Teri, checking up on them and they had no news for me, but I refused to yet go to sleep. But as the night grows longer, I feel myself give way quickly. My head slumps onto my shoulders....

I was sitting in the black velvet chair and in the same corner I supposedly fell asleep in. I stand up and as soon as I did, I gasp as I tripped over something and hit the ground hard. I lay in a puddle of a dark liquid. I put my hand to my head and rub the spot where I fell on and got up with the other hand. I pull my hand back down and stare at it. I shudder as I look down into the puddle...and I wake up screaming again....

-3------Blood.
Everywhere in that one space. Dark thick blood. A note layed onto of the puddle, barely readable. I pick it up and read it, even though I had woken Shannon and she bolted upright in her bed and stared at me in shock and confusion. It reads

We rush out of the hotel after quickly checking out, leaving many people confused at our rushing out. Shannon drives since I am in state of unrest as it is. When I think she is not looking at me, I glance at her. We meet eyes after the played eye-catch for twenty minutes or so and she sighs, pulls over to the side of the road, and looks at me as she kills the engine and lights.
"How much danger are we in?" she asks finally.
A hell of alot, I want to respond. But I don't. I do not want to worry her more. "You are in none yet and I'm going to keep it that way." I tell her.
She nods and I suggest switching seats so i can drive. She switches seats with me, without getting out of the car, just barely. I turn back on the car and the headlights and set out on the dark road surrounded by the forest.P>We are on the outskirts of the little town of Virginia Beach where we left the Maxima Hotel completely. If it was not for the fact Shannon and I were worried and scared, we'd be enjoying the moist pine tree smell, the smell we -mostly me- adore. I drive all night and all day the next day and stop for only gas and takeout. At about noon, I traded spots with Shannon so I can take a short nap and we switched back when I woke back up at sunset.

I turn into the parking lot for a Real Estate agency when we reach Trenton, New Jersey. I file and fill out a few documents and rent a house under a fake ID in Belleville, northern Jersey. I meet Shannon back in the car. When I sit back in the driver's seat with Shannon next to me, I turn towards the smell of pizza.
"Got pizza?! Thank-you!" I cheer softly and I grab a piece and eat it quickly before getting back on the road and drive again. Shannon finishes the rest of the pizza and throws the box away at the next gas station we come across for me to fill up. I rush into the station real quick and grab two Mountain Dews. I pay for it quickly and rush back out to the car, not wanting to leave her alone long, though I'm starting to lighten up, silently praying that whoever is after me will find me in the right time and place so I can deal with them then...and so Shannon, Teri, Etain, or Jennifer are not around to see what happens. Back on the road again, Shannon falls asleep and soon, finally the long roadtrip is over after four days of constant driving.

As Shannon stirrs awake, I glance at her and grin.
"We've reached our destination. Here's the end of this long, joyful carride", I say in part sarcasm, part joy. I turn back to the road and look at the sign we are driving past.

It read: Welcome To Belleville, New Jersey.

-4-----If it was meant to be a joyride for the rest of our lives, we would have known since the very beginning. This will all begin now. I drive down the quiet streets streaked with redish purple line from the sun appearing over the horizon. The house is small purpleish-white with only three rooms and two bathrooms and it is fully furnished with two beds in each room. Not bad for a house in the area though. I pull up into the small driveway and before the car is even entirely turned off, Shannon and I jump out of the car. She gets the keys to the house from me and I turn off the headlights, lock the car quickly, and bolt in after her. Locking the door behind me, Shannon jumps onto the coach with a large grin on her face. She turns towards me.
"Finally we can sleep normally now. That car was starting to give me back problems." she grins.
"Glad you're happy. I just hope Jennifer, Teri, and Etain get her soon." I say smiling. I walk over to the tv and grab the remote off the top of it and turn it on.
"Wait! Jenn, Teri, and Etain are coming? Since when? How?" She hits me with the questions.
"Since last night. i called them when you were asleep in the car and they should be here from their plane ride already. It lands in Trenton with a 2 hour wait so...they should be here soon." I look at my watch as I explain to her.

The phone rings causing Shannon and I to jump and my neck automatically snaps to that direction and I exchange a glance with Shannon. I walk towards the phone in the kitchen on the counter and pick it.
"Hello" I answer calmly. I turn to look at Shannon with the phone still to my ear and she mouths 'Who is it?'.
"Haven. Finally you are answering a phone!" comes a familiar voice. I let out a sigh of relief and I turn back to Shannon.
"It's Mitchel." I tell her and then turn back to the phone. Mitchel is my boss and has been ever since my first "assignment". "What is it Mitch?"
"No hello? What's this world coming to?" without giving me time to say anything, he continues on,"Teri called me and told me what was going on. And you are in Jersey? What were you thinking? Drive -no. Fly down her to Miami. We can protect you here-"
"I do not need protection. I can deal myself. I might send Shannon and the others down there though." I say stubbornly.
He sighs on the other end. "If you must, send them down, but I know that you are perfectly capable of dealing with this. You've delt with worse."
"So is this why you called?" I ask, irritated. I pull out my phone and turn it on only to see three missed messages. All Mitch's calls.
"Partly. We've got a new assignment for you. There is a agent, who was in another part of this agency, like where you are now. But he betrayed us during an assasination of that chinese agent, the one in our rival's agency. His name is Brian McAdams and he is too big of a threat to us now and to civilians..."
The name was familiar to me. I thought I knew of the person somewhere. He goes on telling me that I'll find him in Newark. I am surprised by the place I should him. It is too near to where I am now. I tell him of this and tells me that it was good then that I drove up her, except the fact that Shannon is with me and I have this other burden on my shoulers. I reassures me that I will be able to deal with both of them, and I am barely able to ask him one more question before he hung up.
"How'd you get this number?" I ask curiousity kicking in.
"The guy at the agency told me. He's our contact in northern Jersey." He tells me. We say our good-byes then hang up and I turn and walk back into the living room.
"I am not going to Miami. And I bet Teri and the others would agree with me." she tells me.
"You don't have to," I sigh and take a deep breath,"as long as things do not include you. But if what has been happening lately imposes any sort of threat to you or Teri, or Jenn and Etain, you will have to leave. Maybe not by my command, but by the command of Mitch and his officers. Hopefully my new assignment-"
Shannon cuts me off. "A new assignment? What about you so-called "dreams"? Hello?! You've got too much to do! Protecting us, your dreams, and now-"
"I know. I know, Shannon. Please stop yelling." I ask her.
"Can't you call up Mitch and tell him you can't take it?" She says, refusing to let the argument go down without a fight. I shake my head and tell her to drop it. I can tell she wants to keep arguing with me, but thankfully, she lets it go. I sit down on the couch next to her as she goes back to watching tv and check my messages on the cell phone. The first two are Mitch yelling at me to pick up and the next one, he calms down and tells me to call him immediatly when I get this message and say that Teri, Jennifer, and Etain are being flown to Trenton the next early morning and are staying at a hotel tonight and that he booked Shannon and I a flight that takes off around midnight, a few hours until Teri and the others' flight. But he left out the hotel's name so I can swing by. Shutting back off my phone, I stand up and so does Shannon. She say that she heard the message through the phone because she was eavesdropping and understands. We walk back out the the car and I quickly lock up the house and toss the our unpacked bags and drive off quickly to the airport so we don't miss our flight. And within thirty minutes we are on the plane and we fall asleep quickly. We wake the next morning to a woman's voice over the intercome saying that we have reached out desination. Rubbing the sleep from her eyes, Shannon walks in front of me as we exit the plane and walk through the terminal.
"I'm going to go and get a few cokes, kay?" Shannon says before she walks off, leaving me sitting on one of the long row of chairs in the middle of the room. After I quickly call a cab and make reservations at a hotel downtown for three connecting rooms and two bathrooms that connect the rooms to eachother, I look around when I spot a familiar face. Three of them actually. Quickly brightening up, I see the first one I reconized looking around and then layed eyes upon me. I jump onto the chair I was sitting in and wave my hand in the air and the three known strangers do the same and start running over to me with their baggage. "Teri! Etain! Jennifer!" I call for them and they push themselves through the crowd. When everyone is within arm's reach, I hug them all greatly. "Thank God you made it safely!"
"Thank God you did too." Teri says as she pulls away and pushing her black hair behind her ears and her dark eyes shining with joy . Shannon comes walking out of the small airport diner puzzled and screams happily when she sees Teri, Jennifer, and Etain. She runs to them and before she can spill the drinks she got, I snatch them away just in time before Teri was soaked in Diet Coke. After the crazy rejoice and the weird looks we got from passers. "Common, you guys! We are going to miss our cab!" I remember, quickly handing everyone a drink and putting the extras in the little baggage Shannon and I have. We rush out of the airport just in time to see a cab withe driver honking madly on the horn. As we all get in, I apologize for keeping him waiting and he heads off after I give himt he directions to the hotel.

The chatting continued among all four of us until the driver told us we're here. I pay him and then he speeds off as soon as we get our things. I check into the hotel under my fake ID and gets the keys to the hotel and Shannon pops this totally random question while talking with Teri, Jennifer, and Etain.
"So, Shanni. Is there anyway that we can see a concert this weekend?" I open the door to the hotel room and all of them go in, and I shut it behind me and turn on the lights
"How do you thin we can't? Lets. Who's playing?" I say, so we can have a proper belated reunion.
Acting like children, the yell in delight and Teri turns to me and tells me the name of the band.

"My Chemical Romance?! No fucking way! We have to go! I need some fun in my life right now before my next assignment begins." I start jumping around acting like a child, while explaining quickly to Teri, Jenn, and Etain about my assignment and that no one can open their doors and that we can on use my bedroom door to leave for safety reasons.
"Then so need to go when they come in a few nights. But first things first. I have to take a shower!" Shannon says and then rushes off into the bathroom closest. Teri agrees soon after Shannon turns on the water and steps into the shower and bolts into the bathroom Shannon is using to run into the next room and use that shower. Etain and I hear a scream come from Shannon as Teri runs through. Casting eachother a glance, we fall onto the bed laughing.
I turn and put my elbow on the bed and my head in my hand and look at Etain while she looks at the ceiling. "So how have things been going?" i ask.
"Great. And I am so happy that we are finally off the damn planes. We've flown too much in the past two days." she says.
"Yeah, well, Shannon and I took a five day long roadtrip from Virginia Beach to Belleville and that's pretty far. So...that was boring except for some talking here and there."
"Do you know that Shannon called me, Teri, and Jennifer to tell them about your recent dream and that when you woke up everything was really there?" she asks.
I let my jaw drop and then quickly pull it back up before Etain could notice. "No, I didn't. She shouldn't have told you that."
"What does it mean? That your dreams are real? What of, anyways?" she asks.
" I honestly don't know. I wish I did. I think it is of a vampire."
She turns to look at me. "Why think that?"
I shrug and continue on. "Because all of my dreams so far have had something vampire-related to them. The first one, the pale girl who spoke to me ready to stake me, and the recent one, with all the blood." She opens her mouth to speak to me again but I shake my head to silence her. "Let's drop it please. I cannot answer questions that even I do not have the answers to." I get an evil sneaky glare in my eye and whisper to her that Shannon is dead-meat. Etain grins widely knowing what I am going to do. I get up from off the bed and run though the bathroom and scream.

"Shannon!" And I hear Etain laugh back in the bedroom when Shannon screams again, knowing that she's going to get her ass screamed at. The rest of the night after that Shannon-bathroom scare, Shannon got her revenge with practical jokes all night on eachother.
"Three cheers for sweet revenge, bitchy friends! Revenge is sweet... So long!" She shouts in the middle room for all of us to hear before we go to bed.
We reply back to her trying not to laugh more. "So long and GOODNIGHT!"

-5------"So the concert is at 7:00 tonight?" I ask Teri again. I now find myself at a small coffee shop on the top floor of a nearby mall with Teri at day later. Etain had dragged Jennifer and Shannon off to shop for tonight and Teri and I were finishing up our coffee.
"How many times are you going to ask me that, Shan? You know the answer. Chill."
Or course I know the answer, I was just nervous as hell. I do not know why, there are just little things that make me nervous and worried, other than the big things that come along with my job and duty. I finish my coffee quickly with Teri and we toss away the cups while walking out of the shop and down the mall to Hot Topic. Teri splits from me when we get in the store and goes off picking things out for tonight. I look along the band shirts and I look for an MCR t-shirt. I deside to get the black one with the newest album's cover on it and I wonder over to the other side of the store to find some pants. Before finding a pair Teri came running at me carrying dozens of shirts, corsets, and pants.
"What the hell, Teri? You wanna buy out the entire store or something?" I joke with her as I help her carry some of the stuff.
"Can you come help me pick out an outfit? I can't make up my mind...I'm confused." she asks. We laugh lightly at that and we later walk out of the store with the MCR t-shirt and black pants with chains connected to eachside with a red stripe down one side and an MCR logo drawn on it by a guy there and a black leather jacket with an MCR armband for me and Teri got a maroon corset top and black cargo pants with a few chains too and we both got black leather boots that have a very slim heel but high and the laces and zipper go up to the knee. As we are walking down the mall lanes, we run into Etain, Shannon, and Jennifer with at least six bags each. Teri and I stare at them like they are crazy and they laugh at our expressions.
"You buy out a shop? Wow, teri was beaten at that. She almost bought out hot Topic." I say sarcastically. They do nothing but grin and for a second I thought they really did.
"Did you?" I ask.
"Yeah, right! Like we have the money. Maybe you do, but surely not us." Etain says as we all start walking out to the car I rented the day before. It was a red explorer and was really roomie and had lots of trunk space and leg room. Etain, Shannon, and Teri grabbed the back seats and Jennifer got the passenger seat since I was driving. I pulled out the parking lot and drove off down the street to the hotel. Shannon leaned on the seat in front of her and looked past me and at the road, seemingly in deep thought.
"Penny for your thoughts?" I look at her though the mirror.
"I'm just thinking about tonight. If we'll meet the band or not." she says.
"I wonder that too." Teri agrees.
"Why doesn't Shannon just threaten to get the bouncer's asses kicked if they don't let us though to see the band or somethin?" Jennifer says. She turns to me and I glance at her then back at the road.
"Is that sarcasm or what?" I ask her.
"Just joking...but kinda serious."
"It'd be nice to meet them..."
"Let's pray we do. Let's pray for everything." Is all I can say...then I go deep into thought too but still consentrate on the road.

I just never knew of what would happen in the next three hours.

We are all walking up to the arena as I hand everyone their tickets for safe keeping just in case. We all get in the arena after being search for cameras, video cams, anything like that or anything illegal. Everyone bolts to different mercendise stands and start wasting money like hell. By the time it was an hour 'til the start of the performance, we all ran back into eachother with at least twenty things per person and we all put it into MCR messenger bags we all got. The opening bands came up on stage so we ran to the front of the stage or at least as close as we could. The opening bands we okay, but started to bore me after a while and then the cheers started once more but louder and I look at the stage as the band shuffled onto stage quickly. Teri screamed loudly for Frank, Etain screamed for Mikey, and Shannon and I were left screaming for the rest of the band. I called out Gerard Way's name and he shot a quick glance at me and grinned before they opened with Helena. The concert went on for about an hour and a half with Gerard, being the amazing and crazy frontman he is, introduced practially every song with some remark or quoting lyrics from some other band. The close with playing I'm not Okay (I Promise) and they all walk off the stage after screaming out their fans before leaving. Instead of watching them walk off the stage like everyone wanted to do, I pulled Shannon and Teri, who were holding onto Etain and Jennifer, out of the wild crowd and rushed past the stands to around the side of the arena.
"Why did you pull us out of the crowd?" Shannon complained.
"Because if you wanna meet the band, this is your chance. Let's find them before anyone else knows!" I tell them and we all walk off and around the back of the arena. Walking around a wall to the backstage exit door, we all caught sight of the bassist, Mikey Way, Gerard's younger brother, finishing off a ciggarette. He might have heard the clicking of our boots because he turned this way and gestured over, moving a peice of his light brown hair out of his face. Everyone excitedly walked quickly over but I followed slowly behind. He was signing autographs for Teri, Shannon, Etain, and Jennifer when the rest of the band filed out of the door next to him. The first one out was Gerard and smiled at me and I I did is stare in disbelief and awe.
"You the one who called me on stage?" He asks me. I nod still staring and once I realize I was I shook myself from it and chuckled slightly from embarassment and I turn away as I blush and nod.
"Ha, don't worry. I get that alot. I'm perfect." he jokes.
"He's too full of himself." Mikey jokes, looking over his shoulder to look at his brother and laughs at his expression. Then he looks at me.
"Wanna autograph?" he asks and I say sure and hand him a notebook for him to sign and a their recent CD. When he hands it back to me, I look at the others shyfully and ask them if they'd sign my notebook and CD. Gerard takes them from me and signs them and passes them onto the guys. He moves his newly cut short black hair back behind his ear like Mikey did earlier and watches Teri, Shannon, and Jennifer excitedly get everyone's autograph after him. Then he turns back to me.
"What's your name?" he asks.
I choke up for a second and then find my voice. "Shannon Haven. Pleased to finally meet you."
He sticks out his hand and I shake it and we laugh at it afterwards. Teri, Shannon, and Jennifer join me a few minutes later and they all introduce themselves and the guys introduce themselves too just for humorous reasons.
"I think we know a little too much about you guys, let alone your names!" we all joke. Then all of the fans find out about this and rush and crowd around the band. Faintly, I hear Gerard call out.
"Hey guys! Stick around, okay?!" he shouts out.
"Okay!" is all I can yell back to him before the crazed female fans start pushing us away to get closer.
"Okay...let's...wait around the corner!" I shout above the fans to the others. They agree and rush around the arena, far enough to at least get away from the chaotic fans. We slouch against that wall and wait for about an hour and a half talking amongst ourselves before the fans start disappearing. Once everything quiets down, we take the chance to being knocked around again and walk back around to where the guys were before. We say Gerard and Ray leaning against the wall.
"Hiya guys. Crazy fans you got." Teri says to get their attention. They look at us and stand up all the way.
"I think the music does that to them." Ray replys and I chuckle.
"If music did that to me, I'd be in a mental institution right now, honestly...That'd suck." I say walking with the group inside the backstage exit door.
"Yeah," Teri says nudging me in the side,"she's come close to going to one soooo many times before I actually lost track." After that reply I elbow her in the stomach, not too hard, but not too lightly, and she stops and joins Etain, Jennifer, Shannon, Ray, Frank, and Bob on the couches.
"Have you really come close to going to one before?" Gerard asks me walking up to me from behind.
"Yes, quite a few, truthfully."
"I know how it feels."
"I know you do. I know maybe too much about you. You can seriously label me MCR-obsessed."
He nods and takes a seat next to Frank on a couch and pats the seat next to him.

The talking goes on practically all night and it mostly is Mikey, Shannon, Teri, Gerard and I quizzing eachother on how eachother knows eachother the most. And since Gerard and Mikey met us just a few hours ago, they barely knew a thing to keep their scores up. We realized how late it was when Teri looked past Bob who was joking with Jennifer at the clock and to me how late it was. So I whispered back to her to give us a few more minutes. And few minutes later, Mikey was looking for his cellphone on the table between the two couches when he saw "My Lyrics, Poems, and Stories, etc." on my notebook that I asked them all to autograph hours earlier. He looks at me and when Gerard, Frank, and I stop joking with eachother, he asked me if this was mine.
"Who's else would it be? Yes, it is mine." I say and look over at the little black notebook with the white letters standing out on the cover and then catch him looking at it too. "You want to see it?" I ask.
"You mind? I love reading poetry and lyrics sometimes, escpecially by friends." he says.
"You consider us friends?" I ask shocked. Mikey looks around at the rest of the guys and they kinda nod and replys yes.
"Thank-you. You can go ahead."
He picks it up and leans into the couch reading it quickly. He reads almost half-way through until handing it back to me. "It's good. Really good. Dark, mysterious, just the way I like it."
I blush slightly. "Thank-you. I am not a big fan of my poetry though. Just my lyrics."
"What are your inspriations?" Bob asks me, saying the first thing to me tonight except 'thank-you'.
"Well, you guys are my favorite besides the band Garbage. So, inspirations are basically you guys and Garbage." I reply.
"I've heard of them," Frank says, "They have some interesting music."
"And plus I like music you guys like. I probably have too much in common with you. I love Iron Maiden, but their older music, Misfits, The Cure, some of Black Sabbeth's music...Slipknot, Lacuna Coil, Nightwish, Garbage, Within Temptation, I think you get the picture."
Teri looks at the clock again and yawns. "Shannon, we need to get going. It's very late. Kinda sad though. I'm having fun here." she yawns.
"You guys should get going. It is late. Hey, were are you guys staying tonight?" Gerard asks. I tell him were the hotel is.
"I know where that is." Ray says after laughing at something he said to Jennifer."I'll come by to pick you up...sometime tomorrow afternoon, since we have a week off and all and in two days we're going back to Belleville."
"Okay," I say getting up as everyone else does. I write down my number and hand it to Ray and a copy to Gerard."Call me if you want okay. thanks for inviting us back." Everyone says good-night and we walk out to the car. I wave back at the guys as we walk away and get in the car. Teri, Jennifer, and Etain this time get the back seats and I drive again, and Shannon sits in the middle row in front of the back one. Almost everyone is asleep as we walk into the hotel and up the stairs. Wearily everyone gets into their night clothes but I end up collasping on my bed in the first room and the bed farthest from the door. Not bothering to change, I sleep waiting for the next day. The day I begin the searching for McAdams...

-6------My vision fogs and then clears and I am sitting up in my bed and Teri, who's in the second be, is snoring away. I look in front of me to see that same girl from the first dream and she looked pissed.
"What the hell?" I say looking around. "I better be dreaming."
She scowls and screams at me in rage. "This is not a fucking dream! It's your nightmare! You might have just met him, but you will not have him, nor keep him. He's mine! Always will be, bitch!"
"Who the fuck are you talking about? I do not know what the fuck you are talking about!" I yell at her, screaming now.
You know who! Stop playing innocent! You not blind, Haven. You might think you'll see Gerard, but you won't..." she grins evilly,"trust me! You won't!" And then before I blink she jumps across the bed and her fingers go around my neck and start choking me. I let out a choked cough as she sqeezes tighter and then when i feel light-headed, I feel her grip loosen then leave completely. Worried voices are in the background as my vision fades to black and I do not know what happened...but my dreams...I know now completely...my dreams are true....

I shudder visable as I wake to a blinding white light and I let out a cough. Feeling unable to breathe, I sit up abruptly and cough until I can't no more. I open my eyes and look around. I gasp loudly and feel the IV in my hand and the surroundings of the hospital room. I cry out as I pull out the IV and jump off the bed and fall on the floor, legs feeling like jello. Collasping on the floor, I barely stop myself from having my head hit the floor and I stand up groggily as Jennifer and Teri walk in.
"What are you doing out of bed, Shannon? Get back in." she commands me worriedly. I nod and lay down on the bed as Jennifer and Teri sit down on the end of the bed.
"Do you know what happened?" I ask them hoarsely, straining what's left of my voice.
"We know," Teri says,"Shannon say it and watched like she was paralized when she walked into the room and when she finally made a noise and made that chick aware of another person in the room, she stopped strangling you and disappeared. Shannon saved you basically." Just then Shannon walked in and joined the girls on the edge of the bed and using my remaining strength, I sit up and fling my arms around her hugging her tightly.
"Thank-you." I say and I do not think she knew what I was thanking her for but let it go and returned the hug. I lay back down in the pillows and just as the nurse walked in, I fell back asleep.

Later that night, I was released. Shannon drove us back to the hotel in silence and we all went back up into the room. Around midnight that night, everyone but me went to bed and I was left standing in the bathroom staring at myself in the mirror. I pulled the hospital bandage slowly from my neck and look at the almost-faded bruise. Staring at myself again in the mirror, an image of the girl the night before flickered behind me with the same angry expression pasted upon her pale face. I gasp and look behind me and it disappeared. When I turn back to the mirror, my cell phone rings. I jump slightly and dish is out of the bag on the bathroom counter. I answer it and wait for the reply.
"Out of the hospital already?" comes an all-too familiar voice from two nights ago. It was Mikey.
"Hi. Yes, surprisingly. thank God! I hate being in the hospital.."
"I'm use to it." I laugh at this knowing it's somewhat true. Sorry we never came by today. I know that we should not have gone anyways because of what happened to you, but still we should have called. Sorry." he says.
"It's okay."
"What happened anyways?" he asks. I knew the question would've come. Though I had no way to answer it correctly.
"I do not know honestly. So, you guys going back home tomorrow?"
"Yup. Sorry we couldn't have seen you."
I sigh and tell him that I am renting a house in Belleville.
"Sweet! Whenever you come back, look for us, okay?"
"Okay." I say smiling.
"Well, I've gotta go. G'Night."
"Goodnight." I say before we hang up. I look at myself one last time before going back into the bedroom and falling asleep but I am awake most of the night worring about my true, deadly true dreams...so if I did happen to die in my dream, I'd be dead in real life too....This is all too eerie...

-7--------I wake early the next morning to take a shower and change into my clothes to be prepared for my assignment. McAdams should be at a warehouse today, easy to be caught at. I shower, then dress in a tight black long sleeved shirt and tight black leather pants with black combat boots. I tie my hair up in a tight pony high tail and a bit of make-up. I get into the bag I had packed before Shannon and I left the house in Virginia Beach and pull out two revolvers and stuck them in a pocket wrapped around my legs underneath the parts where they are not visable and a knife in my left shoe. I put together a sniper rifle, lock it, and stick it up underneath my pants too. All ready to go, I grab my keys and head off...

I drive to a place where it's deserted except for a few houses. The warehouse is big and looks expensive, which is awkward for it. I jump out of my car, lock it and stick my keys in my tight pocket. Looking around I climb up the surrounding brick wall when no one's near and jump over it. I am on some type of overpass now and it'll be perfect to give me a perfect shot for McAdams. I reconize him as I crawl down the overpass to be unseen by Mitch's description of him. About 5'9, good build and short brown hair. I set up the rifle and look through the scopes and as I look through, I see the guy- no group- McAdams is talking to...My Chemical Romance. I look above the scopes and stare in disbelief.
"Oh, my fucking God." I repeat a bunch of times quietly cursing myself. How could Brian McAdams be MCR's manager? how? Shit...
Before I got another thought in a guy spotted me and shouted "Asassain!". I curse myself a bit louder and ditch the rifle, running across the overpass visablly missing the row of bullets being shot at me. There comes to a gap in the overpass and I flip over it sufficently. I duck below a medium high wall and hide there for a second to catch me breath. Then I hear a quick array of little beeps coming towards me. A gernade.
"Shit!" I yell as I jump up and jump off of the overpass as the gernade blows up barely missing me. I roll across the floor and flip up. And come face-to-face with a shocked Gerard.
"Shannon?!" he shouts. Not giving him a chance to look again, I bolt towards an open gate quickly and as soon as the guards knew of where I was running to to escape, they started closing the gate quickly. Since there was no possible way for me to get through, I jump onto a bar above me and swing from that and let go. Kicking up in the air I swiftly jump over the gate and land on the other side. Looking up quickly to see guards scrambling torwards me, I take off again, unlock my explorer quickly and jet off, just barely missing the bullets again. I sigh as I drive away and curse myself more for the next thirty minutes of the drive back to the hotel.

I slam the door behind me as I walk back into the hotel room, making Shannon and Teri, who were watching tv and talking, jump and stare at me. I bolt into the bathroom and lock the door behind me. When I get in there, I scream. "Fuck! I am so fucking stupid! Shit!" I lose my temper in the bathroom and punch the mirror. Not long after blood starts pouring from the cuts in my hands and I sit quickly on the toilet, lid down, and clutch onto a stream of toilet paper and start crying. Not from the pain, but the fact the MCR knew of who I was now. Teri somehow unlocks the door and walks in with Shannon following closely. They look at me as I cry and when I calm down, I bandage up my hand, still not talking to anyone who came into the bathroom and tried to talk to me and get me to reply. I walk out of the bathroom an hour later and lay down on my bed and silently let the remaining tears pour out. I think I fell asleep then but I just knew for sure that I was crying silently to myself and that the event replayed in my head.

I wake to the angry voice of Gerard Way as he entered the room. I do not move and start crying harder.
"Cut the act! What the fuck were you doing today?! Answer me damnit please!" he yells at me, freaking out. I ignore him purposely. He repeats was he says a few times before I sit up abruptly, making him silent and waiting for my reply. I stand up quietly and turn around to look at him expressionless except signs of sadness.
"How can I explain something that I do not know of?!" I ask calmly but then raising my voice in tight anger, shocking him and making up jump slightly. My features twisted in pure fury and sadness.
"You should know." he says in a normal tone.
"No. I shouldn't. I don't want to!" I shriek at him and rush past him and into the bathroom. I shut the doorway, keeping Gerard in the bedroom alone and I see Teri, Jennifer, Etain, and Shannon and the rest of the band in the room puzzled, angry, and confused. How they all got in there? I do not know. And nor do I care momentarily. I slam the door shut quickly after looking at all of them and lock it. I press my back against it and start crying as I slide down the door and onto the marble cold floor. I hug my knees and cry into them and stay that way for a while. I quiet down when I hear soft, quiet talking among everyone who was in the second bedroom. All of them now were in there. Getting up quietly, I go to the middle drawer and look around it. Realizing what I already had, I slid the knife out of my combat boot and gripped it tightly. Not thinking straight, I slide it across my wrist multiple times before dropping it. I think it made noise because all went silent in the room nextdoor. I think i hear footsteps toward the bathroom door and then people pressing against the door listeing intently. When i think they have gone, I look at my bleeding wrist.
"At least now no more assignments. No more pain...no more life." I push away weakly from the counter and sit on the floor pressed up against a side of the counter near the door and fade away...the stray blood starts to run to the door of the second bedroom and leak underneath the door like a warning sign. Someone must have screamed because not before long, someone picked the lock and everyone rushed into the medium sized bathroom. Everyone stared down at my unconsious form and I looked as pale as a corspe. My eyes lifelessly open and seemed to be looking into a vast unknown world. Gerard goes to pick me up but I swat his hand away.
"Leave me alone. I am not going to a hospital. I'll kill myself before that." I say lifelessly barely moving my mouth.
"But if we don't get you to one, you'll die." he argues stubbornly.
I shrug carelessly as much as I can. "I do not care..."
I hear him sigh as my vision fogs once more and then I feel him pick me up anyways. He does not take me to the hospital but he bandages and cleans my cuts like docters would have done anyways. The day fades away and everyone seemed lifeless too, mostly staring at me sleeping and dead-looking, still unconsious or at my wrists with the blood bleeding through slightly. Everyone ended up leaning on eachother sitting on either the floor against the bed and sleeping on eachother's shoulders or everyone is laying ontop of eachother on the bed, too tired to get up and move off. But Gerard sits on the other side of me as I sleep facing the wall and I feel him, even in death, running his hands through my hair gently and then he rests his head on my shoulders and dozes off...I just wish that in my dreams I did not wake up to the screaming...

-8-------I sat up quickly startled and everyone woke up quickly.
"Oh, my God guys. Teri, I just had the worst-" I start and then look over to Teri's bed where all of the guys now layed or sat on the floor with Teri, Shannon, Etain, and Jennifer. I think my heart stopped then, just knowing that all of it was not a dream like I thought I was waking from finally. "No." I say desperatly. Gerard, who was laying next to me and fell off of the side of the bed when I sat up, got up slowly rubbing his head.
"Shit that hurt!" he says. I lift up y wrist and look at the dry blood around the bandage and stare, feeling all of the shit I was feeling before come back. I stand up and walk around Frank and ray who were sitting with Etain and Jennifer on the floor near the bed and staring at me and walk out of the hotelroom door. I hear the door start to open behind me so I take off running down the hotel hallway and I hear everyone calling after me. I hear someone gaining on me since I am still feeling drowsy from the blood loss and then i feel a hand on my shoulder. Without thinking I grab the hand and flip him over my shoulder and onto the ground. I do not bother to find out who it is, though i think it was Gerard, I run up the stairs that i find at the end of the hallway and crash through the door at the very top after turning a few corners the stairs took me. I collaspe on the floor of the roof of the hotel. Standing up quickly, I walk to the other end of the roof and look over the edge to the cars passing by without a care in the world. I start to envy those with worry-free lives, and everyone with a life like me. I thought my job was perfect for me to do before this assignment made things all too complicated for me. Staring into the black sky I hear a few footsteps behind me and people gasping for breath. I turn my head to look behind me quickly and stare a Shannon, Teri, Jennifer, Mikey, and Frank who must have still been running after me.
"Don't you guys ever give up?!" I call to them over the roar of the cars and the noisy cold breeze. They cautiously walk forward to me as I watch their every move. When Mikey gets about a few meters within my range and step back, causing them all to stop.
"Shannon, common! It's okay. Everything's alright!" Teri yells to me over the noise too.
I shake my head quickly, "No it won't. Everything is too messed up. My relationships, my job, my head, my life."
"Please Shannon," Mikey starts, "everything will be okay. We just have to figure out what is going on. You need to talk to us." I just stare at him and then Gerard appears from behind him and starts walking carelessly over to me as I start walking backwards and stop when the back of my legs hit the edge of the wall that keeps me from falling over edge. He stops within about a foot from me and stares me down.
"I have tried to be strong all my life and now things fall apart and I have found my weakness. Let me go and leave me alone, Gerard. You barely even know me."
He sighs and continues to look at me. "I know enough about you to know that you have gone through alot of crap like I have. Mikey told me of your lyrics and poems and how they were. I have been through the same." I look past him to my friends and his bandmates as they start walking up to us and then I look away but Gerard continues. "When I my granmother died, I thought that the world might as well end and that it would not get better, but it has. Believe me. Things get better. Just, come with me." He stretchs out his hand waiting for my to grab it but I look back at him and stare him down.
"That has nothing to do with me." I say.
"Come on." he walks up to me and puts his arm around my shoulders. I do not feel able to push his hand away so i don't bother to try. I do not think I have the strength. My saddness and problems have found my weakness and are taking me over. Gerard walks me around the group and back into the building and down the stairs. He walks me back into the hotel room and we walk through the bathroom to the third bedroom where it is quiet and sits me down on the bed. He pulls a chair up the the bed in front of me and sits down and tries to grab my attention as I look to the ground and away from his gaze.
"Why is it that you are trying to..help me?" I ask him. He looks at me as I look at him and sighs again. "Because you remind me of myself." he says softly. He gentally grabs my wrist that I cut and looks at it.
"We need to clean that." he whispers and helps me up. We walk into the second bedroom and glance through the doorway to the second bedroom and see Ray, Jennifer, Etain, Shannon, and bob in the first room and the rest in the room next to us and staring. Gerard helps me sit up on the counter and goes to shut the door. I start to remove the bandages covering the wound as he starts walking back to me. I push off from the counter and kneel down to get a few new bandages and cotton balls from underneath the sink and stand back up placing it, and some peroxide I found on the counter.
"Looks like you are functioning again." Gerard jokes as I start to unravel the bandage and take the cap off the peroxide bottle. I pour a bit onto the cotton ball and then dab it onto the cut, only to scream out in pain.
"Shit!" I yell out and rush to a sink and put the cut under soft running water, "that stuff is not supposed to hurt!"
"Maybe the cut is too deep. That is maybe why. Let me see." he says and walks to me and looks down at my wrist. I take it out and thrust it at him and turn away as he looks at it. "You may need stitches." he murmers and then I look at it as he looks at me.
"I do not need it. It'll heal. Don't ask me how I know that, but all you need to know is that I am a fast healer." I pull my wrist away from his grasp and walk around him back to the bandage and wrap it tightly around my wrist. I know he's staring at me questionly but I avoid his stare and make it seem like I never saw it, but I saw it through the mirror.
"Hey?" I say turning around and back to him. Gerard looks at me. "Thanks for...everything. Now, you come. I'll tell you everything...well. Almost everything." I say to him and open up the door to the second bedroom and walk through it gesturing for everyone to come into the first one. When we are all in there, I shut the bathroom door and turn to everyone, resting my back against the door.
"I take it everyone needs to know what is going on. And that Teri, Shannon, Etain, and Jenn already openned their mouths and told you guys?" I say questionly and Teri and the group nods. "I'll begin then..." I take the next two hours telling the band and filling my friends in on everything they need to know. About my dreams, apprently who the person I was ordered to assassinate was, and everything else, and how i was exposed. But after the guys left and getting their numbers, I pulled my friends aside and told them that i still need to watch the guys around Brian McAdams, just to see what he's up to and who he really is. They nodded, now understanding everything but with a few questions remaining, and we are soon on all a plane back to Belleville.

-9---------
"Woah, you're serious? She's an hired assasin? Wow. Who knew a hot chick is literally a killer" The Used frontman Bert McCraken says laughing at his own joke while Mikey walks away rolling his eyes.
"Gee, I need to talk to you." he qestures of at Gerard and walks out of the room with his brother following.
"What the hell do you think you're doing? Shannon clearly told you this had to be a secret damnit!" Mikey blows up.
"I know, but I can trust him." Gerard replys shutting the door to the other room.
"Trust him? Yea fucking right! I mean, he's Bert and when he gets drunk he's a total snitch and shit! He'll expose her and she'll get in trouble!"
Gerard raises an eyebrow and looks back at his brother,"why do you suddenly worry about what happens? You were quiet about it before." Mikey rolls his eyes and walks out of the room.

I lay on my bed as Jennifer walks in the room.
"Hey," she says sitting next to me. I turn my head towards her and smile.
"Penny for your thoughts?" she says back to me, using my saying from the car.
"Just thinking." I say back and start staring again at the ceiling.
"About?" she urges.
I turn back to her and sit up."Let's go find the guys."

Everyone got dressed and met me me and Teri out in the car and we drove off quickly. Since I did not know where they were actually staying, I got my cell phone from my pocket and dialed Mikey's number that he gave to me if I needed to contact them and he picked up after three rings.
"Hi stranger." I greet him.
"Shannon? Oh, hi. what's up?" he asks.
"Nothing much. Hey, you playing a show tonight? I heard about it over the radio."
"Yes."
"Okay, great. I want to meet you guys there to talk about somethings I never told you guys back at the hotel. And you guys may freak." I warn him.
He is quiet on the other line for a while and then agrees and says he'll tell the guard near the backstage door to let us in. I thank him and we hang up. I turn off the phone and set it in the dashboard in front of the empty passenger seat since everyone else desided to sit in the back and talk.
As we get out of the car, Teri locks arms with me and we walk behind Shannon, Etain, and Jennifer who are talking ahead of us and not realizing it.
"Hey I just wanna talk to you about a few thing, Shan." Teri says. I nod and look at her as she starts. "I know it is probably quite out of everything going on right now," she does a movement with her hands as if to swat all of the other burdens out of the way,"but, is there anyway i can probably..." she trails off and I lok at her questionly.
"Is this going to be bad?" I ask her and she shakes her head with a no-way expression all over her face. I nod and we continue walking.
"Is there anyway I can probably hook up with Frank sometime? Cause, you know, I've always liked him even before meeting him. I do not know wether to tell him or not because we just met and all."
"Why not? Want me to see if he likes you back or something like that to help you out with asking him out?" I ask her.
"Yea. Please?"
I laugh unhooking my arm from hers and put it around her shoulders giving her a tight hug and she hugs me back and we arrive at the door and Teri starts laughing uncontrolablly as the Shannon, Etain, and Jennifer are so busy talking that they passed by the backstage door.
"Hey guys!" I call for them cupping my hands and putting them around my mouth like a voice enhancer. They turn towards me and stop talking for a sec.
"Uh, hiya. I don't know if you noticed but, ya passed the door!" I say between giggles. The blush embarassed and we tell the guard our names and he lets us pass. We come to a hallway and I just walk down one way as everyone else goes down another. I walk down a few corners and then bump into someone and I fall to the ground. As I look up I see Ray standing there shocked to see me.
"Hi." I say standing up. He says hi too and asks me what I'm doing there.
"Well to see you guys play and to talk. I called Mikey." I tell him and he takes me to their room. I say hi to everyone as I walk in and they seems to say hi back, but it is kind of unclear.
"Uh-oh." I frown and turn and bolt out the door and back down the hallway and everyone runs after me. I stop a few feet from the room door and turn back to them.
"How big is this place?" I ask turning back around.
"Pretty big." Gerard says.
I frown again. "Well Shannon, Teri, and the rest of them went the other way and are probably lost."
"Well," Gerard says walking past me and the looks over his shoulder,"let's go find them." I nod and run after him with everyone else following.

"But first," Gerard turns back and grins at me,"let's alert The Used and have them meet you and they can join the search."
I stop in my tracks and stare at him. "What do you have up your sleeve, Gee?" I ask him staring into his hazel eyes.
"Nothing, i just want them to meet you."
I stare back at him for a few seconds. "You told them about me, didn't you? You told them all." I accuse him. I am quite good at reading expressions even when people try to hide them from me, which gives them away more. Gerard tries to come up with something to say and I stare in disbelief.
"How could you? I told you to keep it a secret and I trusted you, unlike I do with anybody else. Why, Gerard?" I ask him, panicing and feeling my eyes swell.
"I'm sorry, Shannon." Mikey says putting a comforting arm around my shoulder, "I told him to shut up."
I shake my head and thank him and follow Gerard back to the Used's room.

When we get there, everyone is screaming at someone and laughing. I walk around the corner with the guys and look around the room to find Shannon, Teri, Jennifer, and Etain all cheering Bert on as he chugs beer and cokes. I roll my eyes irritated and glare at them all. "At least we found them" I say grumpily and put my fingers between my lips and whistle barely loud enough to shut everyone up and they stare at me and the guys. The Used greets MCR and then asks who I am.
Before Gerard can say anything and uncover another one of my secrets i stupidly told him, I point at all of my friends. "Shut up Gerard and let's go you four." I say sternly and not bothering to cover up the fact that i was pissed at Gerard. I walk out of the room and obediantly Shannon and the rest follow, and surprisingly, even the Used did. I walk back into MCR's band room and I wait for everyone to get here.
When they did, I stared at Bert and his band. "You guys cannot be here." I tell them.
Bert gets huffy and stubborn. "Why do we have to?" he whines slightly.
I glare at him and shake my head and thankfully Frank jumps to my rescue.
"Because it is about something that does not consern you. It's familial." he lies.
Bert pouts, showing the fact that he's drunk. "But I'm a friend aren't I?"
"Maybe of us," Frank said, but I cut him off to finish the rest.
"But not to me. I love your guys music, but I am in no mood or the state to get to know eachother now" I say coldly and ask them to leave again. They leave and Frank shuts the door behind them.
"Thank-you, Frank." I thank him and then walk further into the room and see the Shannon, Teri, Etain, Jennifer, and Ray have already sat down and waited.

"Okay. I'll begin. You know...you're single Vampires Will Never Hurt You?"
"Yea..." they urge on and my friend just listen on, already knowing clearly and all they do is nod with me.
"Well, it is no all lies. Vampires...are real. And I fight them. I'm a Slayer, one of the chosen few in this world. Not in a while though, but actually, I have had a close call. For instance, the time I was strangles not to long ago...it was a vampire in my dream- at least i thought it was a dream until the wounds and things in my dream appeared to be true...." I go on and tell them completely of my dreams and everything, now literally everything. Ray and gerard interrupt a few times but i ignore them and go on and then lower my voice to show them that when I stopped this time I was done.
"Wow." say all that was said. The next thing I knew, my sharp hearing was alert and I was looking around the room. When Teri's voice barged into my thoughts.
"Shanni, are you okay?" she asks concerned and turns everyone's attention to me. I shake myself out of my paranoia and nod.
"I'll leave you guys to talk amongst yourselves now. Gerard, may I use the bathroom?" I ask quickly and he nods not knowing what to really think. I bolt out of the room and into the bathroom and shut the door and stand in front of the mirror, letting out my senses. Maybe it wasn't paranoia and someone-something made that noise. I see the door open and Gerard lean to the side of the wall next to me.
"You want something?" I ask him not turning away from the mirror.
"Everything you told us was true, wasn't it?"
"I did not just say it for crude humor, Gee." I glance at him,"I know. It's alot to take in." I take a deep breath. "Well, as you know. I slay, not only because it is my duty, but for vengance."
"I know...I'm sorry about your parents." he says in a low voice. I let my shoulders slump and I turn to him and walk in front of him and stare into his eyes and all I see it sadness and...love?
The next thing I knew, I was kissing him hungrily, like it I let go I would lose him and myself. And for once my emotions were clear. I only acted angry to keep my true emotions supressed and to show weakness....Well, my weakness is now completely shown.
I press up angainst him and slide my arm around his neck and open my mouth a bit to let his tounge in and explore my mouth. The sensation was over whelming because next have I kissed someone like this. Too bad the power was cut and the place went black before we knew it and we over heard voices replaced by screams in the next room. Gerard and I pull apart quickly and I grab his and and pull him out of the bathroom with me. Since I was the Slayer, I have sharp vision as in the light, as well as the dark and every acute hearing, great reflexes, great speed, not too supernatural though, but, stronger than any human known to man. Pretty double to vampires, and sometimes even demons, depending on the situation.
I dig out a lighter from my pocket and lfick it on, followed my Mikey, Bert, who him and his band arrived soon after I talked to everyone, and Gerard flicking on their lighters too and looking around the room in the little light they had.
I walk near the wall on the other side of the room and near the door and look around at everyone.
"Everyone okay?" I ask breathlessly.

A second later and explosion was heard behind me and I turned around sharply to see the wall and the door explode and push me backwards with such force that sent me flying across the wide room. I landed on the wooden table pressed up against the wall with cokes on it and fell on it, shattering it. As I landed on the floor, I gasp as I felt a jolt of pain across my back from the land and I jump up, causing the pain to cease and I walk forward past two shocked and frightened bands and four close friends as the smoke and dust decreases. As I am staring into the mess, I see a girl walking forward with dark brown hair and shocking, unnatural green eyes and she seems to growl when she lays eyes upon me.

She's the girl from my dreams.

-10--------Out of the corner of my eye I see Gerard stare in pure shock at the woman as if he knew her from before. This confused me so it caught me by surprise when the girl suddenly was at my side, grabbed the shoulder of my shirt and the top of my pants and lifed me into the air and threw me outside. I landed on the debri of the destoryed wall and door and rolled down it before pushing my self up suffiently. She comes bolting at me again but this time I tist around and send a blow to her stomach, causing her to cry out and land on the ground. Standing up with my fists clenched and ready to fight, she crys out and jumps back up coughing out blood. She turns towards me and her eyes have changed to a pure yellow. She hisses and then lashes forward and I lean back and barely miss her punch to my jaw but she predicted this and sent a blow to the side of my stomach, sending my flying and twisting sideways and into the wall. It is shocking that no one is around to see this, but I do not take the time nor the second to figure it out. I feel familiar fingers enravel around my throat and pick me up gagging. I bring up my arms and push down on her arms and her hands fall off of my throat and I lift up my elbow and hit her jaw, sending her flying backwards. She lands on a shattered peice of the metal door and I run forward and jump on her before she reconizes. She coughs out more blood and hits me in the temple, knocking out my sight for a moment, but just enough time for her to switchh positions where she is now on me. I bring up my knee and kick her in the ass and she her over the top of me where I can jump up. When i turn around, she's on her feet to and I barely catch her foot as it is sent towards me and I twist throwing her into the ground. Now I change her attacks on me and grab her throat and lift her up and ram her into the wall a few times. She keeps trying to kick out of my grib but I slam her head against the wall one more time before she stops stuggling slightly.
"Who are you?!" I scream at her, feeling a trickle of my fresh blood from a headgash at my temple trickle down past my eyes and now falling towards my ear. She coughs out blood again and her broken nose from one of my punchs sends her blood down and over my hand.
"Who are you? Answer me damnit!" I shriek.
"Darla (not from the tv series "Angel", this girl is different entirely). But you won't live long enough to figure out whom." she says between choked coughs.
She confused me and kicked my in the gut, sending me flying backwards. She runs past my body frail on the ground and out of sight. I just realized as it ended that Teri and Jennifer were screaming as Etain and Mikey fainted and Shannon stared in pure horror and shock, I do not think she was even breathing like the rest of the guys. I turn my head barely towards Gerard that i see faintly since my vision is being blurred by my blood.
"Help." I mouth at him and he comes running towards me as he snaps out of his shocked stare and started breathing again. He kneels down at me and helps me up, even though I start getting my blood all over him accidently. I hear the sirens of the police and ambulences closing in as Gerard brings me into the stuffy room. I stop him from setting me down.
"No, we have to leave here now. Let's go the the Used's room please." He's smart not argue since he just saw alot of my own strength. He lets me lean on him while everyone avoids security and goes to the Used's room. Gerard puts and arm around my waist to support my balence. As Gerard leads me into the room he shuts and locks the door behind us. He leads me to the couch and sets me on it gentally. I sit on the edge of the couch to keep from getting any blood on it. mine, or the girl's.
"We need to get you cleaned up if we are to get out of here without being questioned by the cops." Shannon says sitting next to you. But seeing the look on your face, she thought otherwise,"or...are you going to speed your healing first?"
After seeing the guys' confused expressions, I explain. "Also a part of the Slayer powers, i heal fast. That's why I told you that i'd heal soon enough, Gerard." I say looking at him when I say his name. I think it all fitted in well with them because they did not ask questions, though I felt that they wanted to, and let me shut my eyes and concentrate. And before I knew it, all of the guys gasped when my head gashes, wounds on my arms, stomach and legs healed before their very eyes. I opened my eyes and saw everyone looking at me amazed and still kind of shocked, knowing that they still have to get use to the idea or what I am and what i deal with.
I look over at Bert, Quinn, and Jepha who were all together near Mikey and Frank. "Can I use the bathroom please and take a shower before I leave?" I ask.
"Go ahead. You want me to throw your clothes in the washer?" Quinn asks. I nod and say thank-you and walk into the bathroom.
"One second. I'll bring them out after I get the shower running." I say to Quinn and thank him again. I get the shower running and change out of my clothes that are basically drenched in blood and sweat. I wrap a towel, thankfully it was black, around me and it barely covered me. I walk out of the bathroom to find Quinn near the door waiting. I hand him the clothes and apologize for the blood and mess.
"Don't worry about it, babe." he says before he walks to the other side of the room and into the small laundry room. I hear a wolf whistle come from the other side of the room and I turn to see Gerard grinning. I smiles back and turn back and start walking back into the bathroom. before I get into the shower, I stick my head out of the bathroom door towelless.
"And, you know, Gerard, I am not that hot. At least not to myself. but thanks anyways." And to tease him, I do the same whistle back and wink at him before leaving and shutting the door behind me and locking it after hearing the room erupt in a bunch of "oohs" and "Gerard's a loverboy". I laugh at the last one as the blood is washed off of me and in fifteen minutes, I am out of the shower and dried off. Quinn knocks at the door and I answer it and he hands me back my clean clothes. I thank him again and he says back 'no problem'. I shut the door and quickly get dressed again in my black tank top, black leather jacket, and black tight leather pants. As I walk out, I am running my fingers through my towel dry hair as a set of arms go around my waist and lift me into the air as I shriek. Gerard starts laughing at me once everyone else starts to and I turn around and playfully slap him on the arm grinning and laughing too. When i turn back around, I see that Shannon and Mikey have disappeared doing God knows what and so has Jennifer and Ray. I feel Gerard's arms wrap back around my waist and he rests his head on my shoulder looking at everyone laugh and joke around. I lean my head over a bit and rest it on Gerard's and whisper to him,"You okay with everything I told you?" And he nods slightly.
"What about everyone else?" I ask. And he shrugs and lifts up his head. I turn around in his arms and stare up at his entrancing hazel eyes and sigh smiling. I slide my arms around his neck and pull him down to me.
"Let's make everyone jealous."
He grins and I crush his lips with mine and I press him up against the wall to get everyone's attention. They start cheering Gerard on and either they are cheering, or acting like children and say 'ew' to make fun, or they are starting make-out scenes themselves. I lower down my arms and lay them on his back and hold onto him as if, again, that the world would end and I'd without having him in my arms. And when we pull away, we stare in eachother's eyes in what seems forever. I turn back to the group who stopped making out and went back to jokes and conversation.
"Hey guys. I think it is probably calmer for us to leave now. Let's go." I say slipping my arm around Gerard's wasist and walking to the door.
"But what about the show?" Bert asks when he arrives back from getting a coke.
"Chances are pretty good that it was canceled don't you think?" Seeing Bert's thoughtful expression I laugh and nod on. We all walk pass all of the comotion barely and back to the buses. But I stop in front of MCR's.
"Wait. I have my Explorer in the lot." I tell Gerard and start walking around the back to the arena and into the parking lot and then later realize that Gerard has followed me. I stop and turn to look at him.BR>"You coming?" I ask curiously.
"Yup and I told Mikey when he showed up with Shannon that we were going back to your place, whereever that may be."
"But how do you know where my rental house is?" I ask him. And he shrugs.
"I don't. Shannon knew and is going to have the Used follow our bus to her-your- place." he explains as we finish walking to the car. I nod and as soon as we get in, i take off and soon arrive at the house.

-11--------We were the first ones there and then the buses arrive shortly after and I greeted them at the door as Gerard flipped through the tv channels while sitting on the couch. Everyone crammed into the small living room and watched what was put on tv...

Everything heated up between everyone that night and for the ast few months. Gerard was now my boyfriend, Quinn was Etain's, as Bert was Amber's, Frank was Teri's, Mikey was Shannon's, and Ray was Jennifer's.

Now I am sitting in a chair in front of the table in the house I now owned with Gerard in Belleville. I was staring in shock at my cellphone that was now on the table in front of me. I push away from the table slightly and stare down at my stomach and rub it lightly and sigh, tucking a stray piece of my black hair behind my ears. I bite my lower lip and decide to keep it a secret and walk back into the living room. Gerard and the rest of the band, along with Bert and his gang were on their way over to the house now, home from doing a small tour over Europe. I sit anxiously on the couch feeling ready to explode if Gerard does not come through the door in about five minutes. Jennifer, Shannon, Etain and Jennifer tagged along with their boyfriends during the tour, but I stayed behind making up the excuse that I need to wait for a few phone calls and stuff but I was really waiting for the test results.
And they came out today finally.
::sigh::...Blue

I'm pregnant.
And I am clueless with how to break it to him...
I hear a key being inserted to the door and I jump up in joy and rush over to it and throw it open. I smile and hug gerard before he says a word and kiss him on the cheek. Then I move past to let them through. I shut the door and frown slightly when I see that Teri and Frank along with Jennifer, Etain, Shannon, and Ray are missing.
"What happened to the others?" I ask them. Gerard shrugs, "when off on their own. They said they would get here soon."
I nod lightly and sit on Gerard's lap as he sits down on the couch watching a movie. I lay my head on his shoulder and end up dozing off.

I wake up to Mikey and frank wrestling over who cheated on a video game that was showing the credits. Mikey jumped at Frank and before I blinked had him in a headlock and I laughed at Frank's shocked expression.
"Okay okay!" Frank screams while trying to pry apart Mikey's hands,"I cheated. Let go Michael!"
Mikey lets go.
"Don't call me that!"
I end up bending over laughing so hard at the way Mikey and Frank are behaving. They start attacking eachother playfully again and I get up and pull Frank off of Mikey.
"Come on! You to are so immature!" I laugh and Mikey gives me an innocent expression.
"i know I am, ain't I? But you love me." And it makes me laugh harder.
"But I can kick Mikey's ass anyday!" Frank exclaims making a gun out of his hands and pointing it at Mikey as he acts like he's being shot.

Then before I knew it bullets were flying all around up, shattering the window.
"Gunfire!" I scream at all of the gasps and screams of everyone in the room, suddenly stopping all of the laughter.
Frank looks around panicing slightly and looks at me running through the bullets barely missing him and around the corner of the hallway where almost everyone is,"But I was just kidding!" He screams refering to his handmade gun. I look around as I claim a small corner next to the window but out of the bullets' reach and look around at the trashed room. Arrays of bullets tearing apart the couched and making the tv explode, making Jennifer and Teri yelp out. It caught my attention. I look at Teri and Jennifer who are hiding barely around the corner of the couch and looking over at me. A book shelf near me starts to rattle as I back up slightly against it. I grab it and throw it quickly in place of the window, stopping most of the on-coming bullets.
"Get out of here now!" I yell at Teri and Jennifer motioning for the hallway with everyone else. Bullets start making their way through the side windows of the room, causing me to let go of the shelf, letting more bullets through. I start running towards the hallway and see Jennifer on the floor, her dark blonde hair making a halo around her head.
"Jenn!" I yell for her and run to her side and pick her up and bolt for the kitchen, which was closer than the hallway. I hide us around the island between the windows and the counters, and it makes for a perfect blockade. I lay Jennifer gentally on the ground and then a red spot catches my attention on her chest and stomach.
"No." I breathe and grab her wrist to check for a pulse and look into her lifeless eyes. I feel tears starting to fall down my cheeks when I feel nothing and I start breaking down and lay my head on her chest.
"I can heal myself. But why not her?" I ask myself quietly. I hear a door creak open as the gunfire dies down and heavy boots onto the tile floor on the other side of the island. I look up feeling anger and rage filling up every aspect of me and I see a woman with a machine gun come around the corner of the island a about two feet in front of me. When she sees me she lifts up her gun but I kick it out of her hands in a heartbeat. She does not seem surprised, she seems like she has been known of my abilities. I sense humanity strongly in her, so she is not a vampire. I kick her in the gut, still laying on the floor and send her flying backwards. As she hits the counter behind her she pulls the trigger sending stray bullets everywhere. I see a bullet shot towards me and I stared at it as it disppeared and hit into my shoulder. I clutch it in pain and cry out as the woman collapses with her head at my feet and gun by hers as she is knocked unconsious by the blow. I gather up my strength to check her pulse. I let in a choked breath as I feel nothing on her two.
Two people dead in less than three minutes.
I turn away only to lay eyes upon Jennifer's body and I start crying again and lift her up into my arms, not worrying about myself being covered in her blood and my own, I just hold her and cry rocking back and forth gentally...

-12---------The next week was painful trying to resist the urge to just scream and probably die with my beloved Jennifer. She was like the sister I never had. I knew her for years, now she's gone. I kept denying it for the first few days, but then Gerard drilled it into my mind that she was gone. I cried myself to sleep, and during the day, either I was crying in my room alone, or trying, and failing miserably, to have fun with the guys out in clubs. Not all of them drank, since Gerard and Mikey are sober, but it still did not chane anything. Even when I got drunk, I was depressed.

Now a week later, I ordered a coffin with beautiful red oak on the outside and white satin on the inside. Jennifer always loved satin, so I think I chose correctly.

It was a closed-coffin ceremony. We all said our good-byes, and I slightly hesitated to speak in front of everyone, but I knew that I had to. Jenn would never forgive me if I didn't.
It ended in what seemed like seconds. It went by so fast.

Now I am thanking people, near the coffin with Teri, Shannon, and Etain, MCR, and the Used. I felt Teri pat me on the shoulder and lightly say to me that she was going to go thank a few people gathering on the other side of the room. I nodded and turned back to Jennifer's Mum and Dad.
"I know." I say answering Mrs. Scarra when she told me that Jennifer loved Teri, Shannon, Etain, and I very much. It nearly brought me to tears hearing her mother speak of her deceased daughter, and my best friend. All of our friend. I give her mum and dad one more hug and leave them to talk amongst themselves. I turn around and look at the coffin in front of the long walkway between the church's benches (Sorry but I forgot when they are formally called...) on the stairs. I smooth out my long black dress and fix the loose grey netting that swoops down across my lap and hangs by my side. I look to look at Teri and see a familiar person with long black hair in a dark grey dress and a face-net flipped over onto the top of her head. Teri hugs her, smiling sadly and glances at me and motions for me over, along with Shannon.
"Hey, who's this?" I ask her softly. I study the girl closely and narrow my eyes thinking strongly and she gives a weak laugh.
"You don't remember me, Shannon? I thought you would of all people." she says.
"Amber?" Shannon asks, reconizing her a she looks her over. The girl now identified as Amber grinned slightly and hugged Shannon, letting Teri and I in on their embrace.
"I cannot believe I forgot you. You never called after graduation." I remark unbelievably.
"Yea, what kept you, stranger?" Shannon asks playfully, perking up a bit from all of our sullen feelings.
"Sorry. I should have stayed in touch.." she says, refering to Jennifer, smiling sadly and then turning but to a sad expression. I turn back expressionless and Teri and Shannon start to catch up with Amber, talking about mostly Jennifer. I turn around, feeling my unwanted emotions coming back and I walk up quietly to the coffin and stare at it, imagining Jennifer just sitting up and saying that I dreamt it all. I lean down and kiss it softly, feeling the cold wood against my lips and I turn and walk back down the steps. Taking on last glance halfway down the asile before she is buried, and I blink as a quick image appears.

Jennifer sits up in her coffin and gets out and stares down the asile and throws aside her flowers she held gentally, with a strong sense of longing in her icy eyes and starts to break into a ballerina routine and dances through me.

I turn around to look at Jennifer and as soon as she appeared, she was gone. I feel tears swelling up in my eyes and I run out of the church. I run around the church and flee into the graveyard behind it. After running a while, I find myself soon at a freshly dug hole, where Jenn's coffin is supposed to be placed in. I sit on the fairly large rock a few feet in front of it and stare at the hole. Soon I start hearing footsteps coming up from behind me and I turn around to see Gerard, Mikey, Etain, and the rest of the gang and I turn back around quickly.
"She's really gone." I say more to myself than them, trying to be convinced of this. I hear a few people walking to me and I feel two sets of arms wrap around me backwards into a hug and I see Teri and Amber out of the corner of my eye.
"It'll be okay. We all miss her." Teri says soothingly and Amber quietly agrees and starts to cry slightly into my shoulder and I run my hand gently over her smooth black hair and continue to stare at the grave.
"Thank-you."

-13--------Everyone decided to hit the clubs afterwards. So we headed back to the house and change. Shannon changed into a purely hot outfit, short black leather skirt and a flimsy dark purple t-shirt with a v-neck that totally showed off her cleavage. Teri wore something identical except chose to go with a red halter top. Etain went crazy with chains as bracelets, necklaces, and mostly just chains to hook on her black hiphuggers and dim grey tight t-shirt. I wasn't paying much attention to what I was wearing and put on just a black skirt with a purple lining underneath and a fishnet over the top of the skirt and a black corset with purple laces and fishnet stockings and some high-heeled boots like the rest of the girls.
I walked out of the bathroom and saw Shannon, Teri, and Etain on the couch watching tv and reading a magazine.
"Whatcha reading?" I say plopping down on the floor in front of them and putting my feet underneath the coffee table and ran my fingers against the cool carpet that someone came in to clean up...after the mess.
"Just Spin." Teri says flipping though a few pages. The phone starts to ring in the kitchen and Shannon jumps up nearly falling forward, "I'm going to get it. Sit!" She says to Teri and I who were in the stance to get up and run for it. We lean back down and wait patiently for Shannon. She walks back in the room and lets her arms fall to the side.
"Well, the boys decided to be boys and go off to a strip club," Shannon starts to explain and we burst out laughing, "and there's something about Frank supposedly telling the rest of the guys that we were going to meet them there?"
I look up at Teri and we exchange looks.
"That weasel," Teri says with fake anger," I'm gunna kill her. I ain't going into a strip club!"
"So there own version of a early pre-bachalor party?" I ask sarcastically. "Okay, so the boys are out of the picture. Where do we go?"
"I look around at the three and shriek "mall"!
As we are standing near the door about ready to go out, I ask them "So, play around at the mall and get kicked out of every story in which we can or just shop?" I see Teri staring at Shannon as if mentally asking her and then they shake their heads.
"The first one." the both nod and we walk out the door and to the explorer.
"Pick up Amber first! She'll probably like to come!" Shannon yells to the front of the car.
I get out my cellphone and get ready to toss it back to her, ready or not. "Incoming Shan!" I call back as I toss it gentally, but hard enough so it'll fly back. We hear her shriek as it falls down and I look back, biting my lip trying to keep from laughing.
"You okay there or did you get attacked by a phone?" I say joking.
"Killer throw, but surprised the hell outta me." Shannon exclaims picking up the phone and dialing. A few mintues later I pull into a parking spot at the mall and sit there looking back at Shannon, who then gets off the phone.
"Amber's coming. Let's hold up and wait for her at Suncoast." Shannon announces, getting out of the car before everyone else hauls out lazily.
"I hate it when my legs fall asleep." Teri says as we walk inside. We all walk towards Suncoast and go inside and look around trying not to cause any havoc yet with Amber. I walk up to the cashier and get a Nightwish live DVD rang up as Teri and Shannon file outside, waiting. I walk outside quietly and walk up to Shannon quietly and pluck a little black plastic side out of the bag that I got at the last minute from the store and slowly place it on Shannon's shoulder.Her hand goes to brush it off. "What the hell did you put on me-" she stops talking and screams when she sees the spider and it makes Teri jump nearly out of her skin.
"Spider, where?" Teri asks looking around and jumping near me cautiously.
"Shannon's spider." I point out and Teri gives me a confused look and then look to the ground where Shannon is staring, breathing heavily. She looks at Teri and I and then back down at the spider. Teri starts laughing.
"Holy shit it looks so damn real!" Shannon screams, avoiding the looks we are getting. Trying to be brave, she picks up the fake spider by a leg and flings it across the mall...or at least as far as she can and it landed next to a woman sitting on a bench. She screamed and we all burst out laughing.
"What's so funny? Spider gotch ya tounge?" comes an all-too familiar voice from behind me.
"Amber!" we all sqeal happily, still avoiding the weird looks we are getting and attack Amber with hugs.
"Okay, okay," she says when we all pull away," now who gave all you guys pixie sticks so I can go kill em?"
"Blame Frankie on that one." Teri mumbles.
"What's up with the boys?" Amber asks.
"Uh...the guys were lied to, by our own Mr. Iero, that we were going to meet then at a strip club. So we are going to be fashionably..." I look at Shannon and Teri over my shoulder,"Late." Amber starts laughing and pulls us all together and we start walking down the isles of the mall.
"Are we going to catch up with them later?" Amber asks.
"Maybe we should, and surprise them. You guys up for it?" I ask them.
"Yeah!" Shannon yells, "Let's dress up like real sluts or something and go in and surprise them. If we are going to be late and straighten those badboys out, we gotta have a sex scene." I look at Shannon like she's crazy and she starts laughing like she actually is.
"I wanna try that! I want to see the look on all of their face's!" Teri exclaims with the rest up us.
We are far along walking when I stop and gasp and look around. "Where's Etain? Damn! Lost her again." We run back retracing our steps back to Suncoast and see Etain flirting with a guy there. I walk up behind her and grab her arm.
"Comeon, flirtatous chick! We nearly left without ya!" I tell her laughing slightly. We pull her out of the store an fill her in with everything we are going to do for the guys.
"I so am in on that. That's be fun. Sex appeal with never be more exciting!" she exclaims.

We all walk into Victoria's Secret, just halfly out of curiousity, and start putting on bras and everything over our clothes making fools out of ourselves. I start chasing Shannon as she makes an attemp the take off a bra over her shirt with some chocolate cream, laughing manically. Etain and Teri start screaming with eachother, doing something as I chase Shannon to the back of the store.
"Ah, don't hit me with that stuff!" Shannon exclaims as I back her into a corner. I throw the can aside and dive for her but she waits and makes me miss her, laughing. I chase her down a few more isles before she does a u-turn and flies right into me, and we both lies into a rack of underwear. It falls over with us onto of it shrieking playfully and Etain and Teri have to pull us out of the sea of undergraments. Shannon and I look back at the pile and start laughing again.
"I'm going to get my revenge someday, Haven, and it'll be sweet!" Shannon promises and I act scared.
The manager comes out and asks us to leave the store and we do quickly and then go chasing eachother out of the mall: Amber being chased by Teri, Etain chasing Teri, and Shannon chasing me. The sunlight, or what is left of it over the sunset, and we all stop and look at the horizen. We all choose to just sit on the edge of the road away from the parking lot and watch the sunset, leaning on eachother for support. When it is nearly dark, Amber announces that she has to leave.
"Aw, so soon?" Teri sighs, "You just came!"
"Want to come and round up the guys with us? Not to mention, your guy is going to be their too." I ask. Amber seems to think about is for a splitsecond and then agrees and we all drive back to the house. The chaos is just beginning...

-14-------We got back home and all went to our rooms and got out a few hot, yet kind of slutty and seductive outfits and sqeezed into them. No one does really anything else to themselves other than heavier makeup and the outfits. We pile all into the cars, Amber's car and my SUV. In fifteen minutes we are walking past the bouncer and into the strip club with loud music blaring all around. Shannon immediately starts searching around for the guys and then her shoulders slumps slightly.
"You don't think they got drunk and went in a back room do you?" she asks and all of us turn to stare at her (O.O).
"I swear if I find Frank in the same room with another girl I'll kill him." Teri mumbles looking around with the rest of us.
"Count me in on that." I nod and then think i saw a glimpse of a guy with a mohawk. I start walking over pushing through all of the people in the way and wave Shannon, Amber, and then rest of them over.
I tapped the guy on the shoulder and turned around and gasped in surprise.
"Hi liar" I say grinning slyly as Teri tries to act mad but ends up laughing.
"What's up with you saying that we were going to meet you here?" I ask Frank and he seems like he's searching for something to say.
"Well, it got you here right?" he says back.
"You so sure we aren't just here to kick your ass or embarass you?" I say as I look over my shoulder and Amber looks as if she just got an evil idea, showing from the smirk on her face.
He starts looking around as if someone's going to jump up and have him end up not saying a thing.
"Where's gerard and the others?" I ask and as if on cue, the guys showed up behind Frank.
"hey ya hot chicks." Gerard says as he walks up to me an plants a short kiss on my cheek, "You're late."
"We never agreed to come here" i replied. Seeing the confused look on everyone's face, Etain sighs irritated.
"He tricked us into coming here. We never planned it. Let's get going before I decide to fuck up a stripper."
I lift an eyebrow and stare at her but she just walks to the bar and gets a drink. At that point everyone except Gerard, Mikey, and I are at the bar getting wasted and we just sit on a stool talking. I turn to look at a drunk Frank and Amber who are talking loudly over eachother. I lay my head down on the bar counter and feel Gerard stroke my head softly.
I bolt up quickly once I hear glasses shattering and loud shouts flying all across the room. I look around in the time to see Frank standing, barely, in front of anyother guy who seems just as completely wasted as Frank. They guy goes to throw a punch but Frank dodges it. Afterwards everything seems to move in slow motion. Somehow Bert got entangled between the two and joined the fight. Amber, being the first of us to actually move, jumps forwards and pusheds Bert after from the fight and slams him against the wall so he stays there. She looks at Bert who slid to the ground dazed and then back to the fight. Frank throws back his arm and does to slug the guy he was fighting, but i literally kicked the guy out of the way, grabbed Frank's fist, twisted around and threw him against the wall like how Amber did with Bert. I look to the guy (who fought frank) and saw him unconsious on the floor. Everyone seemed to start breathing and then the bar empied quickly, just leaving us.
I turn to gerard and nod towards Bert. "Can't you deal with him? Or are you just stage and bar friends?" I ask him, half joking and he shrugs, saying that it depended on how wasted he was and I shake my head.Teri helps Frank up, who seems to be waking back up, and gets some help from Etain almost immediatly. I pick up Bert and am joined by Amber, who has his other arm, and we carry the two wasted men back out to the cars.

Somehow we all get back home and fall back onto the couches and the floor. The familiar sound of a Xbox started almost immediately when Ray challenged Bob to a race, then their bickering and insults were the only things heard as everyone else started dozing off on eachother. I leaned back against Gerard who rested his head on mine, Teri slumped towards Amber who was laying against a passed-out Mikey.

-15--------The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was a bathroom. I was in it. And then the door opened to the side and another me came running in in hysterics. I look around wondering where I am and then turn back to the other me who was now holding another kitchen knife. I watched as the knife went across my wrist and the blood starts dropping to the floor and then before I blinked I hit the mirror and shattered yet another one. I started screaming at the broken mirror and then before I knew it, the real me, not the dream me, was screaming too in the same lingering pain.
Then I woke up laying on top of Gerard in the living room with the Xbox game paused and everyone passed out either on the floor, or on the couches.

Breathing deeply, and quite loudly, I saw Gerard stir slightly so i jumped up and ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind me.
I stared at myself in the mirror and then to my wrist. Only a scar of the night at the hotel was left on my wrist, as a faint reminder of my all-too haunting past. I hear a knock on the door and Gerard asking to come in. I walk over to it, throw it open and hug him tightly. I could tell he was surprised by the way he slightly tensed up but soon I felt his arms go around me too and return the hug. As we pulled away I stared at him in the eyes and smiled.
"Gerard, I have got to tell you something." I say quietly, only enough for the two of us to hear. He nods and looks at me worriedly.
"I'm sorry for not telling you before." I say and he continues to urge me on.
"I'm pregnent." I come out and say it and I see his jaw drop.
After a few moments of silence, he breaks it. "How long have you known?"
"Only for a couple of weeks. I found out the day Jennifer died, before it happened." I say, recalling the painful memories. He hugs my tightly quickly, basically smothering me.
"Does anyone else know?" he asks.
"No." and I pull away and look at him again with a questioning look on my face, wondering if he is okay with the thought of having a child or not. And slowly, he grins and sweeps me up in his arms bridal style and twirls me around and out into the living room. Our laughing must have woken everyone since the woke muttering curses under their breath.
Gerard sets me down and puts and arm around my waist.
"Guys, I'm gunna be a father!" he bursts. And everyone just stares blinking.
"Yea right, lets go back to bed." a very sleepy Shannon says before hiding back under the only sheet she slept with on the couch last night. But Mikey sees the serious expression through Gerard and mine's gleaming eyes and point back and forth.
"You....and you...??" he asks, in other words, asking if it is I was pregnent, and I nod smiling.
"Holy shit!" Mikey screams, this time totally waking up everyone who was once dazed. He ran over and hugged Gerard and I all at once and I gasped.
"Damn....you are strong for a little guy!" I say barely breathing from his embrace.
"Hey, I'm not little!" he says and we laugh.
"Let's celebrate!" Shannon says jumping up from the floor, fully wake now.
"Yea, i agree." everyone else chims in.
"Also, i have a similar announcment to make..." Shannon continues and Mikey stares as she starts to get the same grin on her face as me.
"Yes, Mikey. I am too." she admits and everyone else's jaw drops and we all cheer just for the hell of it and Mikey sweeps Shannon up similar to the way Gerard did.
"Is it a common thing for the Way brothers to do that?" I say watching a laughing Mikey spin Shannon around and I feel a little nudge from Gerard's elbow on my side.
"Okay!" I scream, cupping my hands over my mouth to make a megaphone, "Would you stop before Shannon ends up throwing up?!" I look at Mikey and he stops quickly and puts her down, making her chuckle and I feel Gerard grab my hand.
"Common everyone, let's go"

-16--------The resturant was very classy, yet not over-done and slightly original. Once I saw it I just stood staring, I have never been in a resturant this good! I asked Gerard almost immediatly how he afforded it and he put a finger to his mouth.
"Don't worry about that, let's eat!"

Everyone engaged in conversation right when we set down. Everyone ordered something quite quickly and got down to joking, laughing, and....well, eating! Teri picked up a plastic fork (why it was there, I dont know!) and started to make attempts to shoot food into Frank's mouth who sat across from her.
When everyone finished Shannon and Amber just slid back in their chairs and talked while Teri, Etain and I watched the guys do some stupid, and halerious little dance.
Gerard tried to stand up on his toes and spin around but it only resolved in him slipping on a wet towel on the floor and falling flat on his ass. Shannon and Amber stopped talking and stared, then laughed and went back to talking as I helped him up and pretended to scold him but just ended up kneeling over laughing so hard at his expression.

Time passed- quickly. Before anyone knew it everyone ended up back home quickly and as I was just standing in the doorway of Gerard and mine house, I just stared at floor trying to recall the evening....
"Uh....Shan? You gunna go in sometime soon?" Gerard asks putting a hand on my hip and moving me inside and shutting the door, locking it.
I shake myself from my thoughts and apologize, a picture of the nightmare the night before replaying in my mind. Then a quick question popped up into my mind as a shiver ran up my back.
"Don't you think that it is odd that everything was starting to get hysterical, now it is all just.....just very calm? Almost normal?"
I turn to look at him and he seems to be lost in thought.
"Don't know....kind of. But isn't this a good thing?"
I think for a few seconds but then shake my head. "No, I want to say yes and that things won't come between us and destory our lives anymore, but, I just can't. I think something's coming Gerard, and I just can't figure out what it is.....and I am afraid." I feel my eyes fill up with tears and he came up to hug me and I just stood there and clutched his shoulder sleeve, holding myself up.
"How can we raise a child in an enviornment such as the one we live? In constant worry? I havn't seen a vampire, or that Darla chick from my so-called dreams, what can be going on?"

A dark hallway was faintly lit with a few candlebras along the wall with a few torches. Clankings of chains were heard as a vampiress with shoulder length goldenbrown hair and peircing green eyes walked softly down the hallway dressed in a vinal blood red corset with a flowing vinal black dress attached to it. She had two guards walking by her side as she entered the ballroom filled with creatures from all demensions. Demons, warlocks, you name it. She walked up the steps quickly to the podium in front of everyone and cleared her voice. Everyone's fiery eyes shot to her.
"Let's begin the discusion of our threat, the biggest ever, little Ms. Shannon Haven." she begins. And everyone's voice came at once.
"Quiet down!" a guard from her left stepped up and bellowed to all, silence immediatly falling.
"One at a time." she commanded and nodded to a warlock.
"You said so yourself, a month ago when returning from confronting Haven, she is the one the prohecy speaks of. She's a threat to us all!" And the voice began again.
"WELL", she said loud enough to quiet them down once more. "Yes, I did say that and I doubt it needs repeating. Everyone knows, even Good, not only Evil, but they are reluctant to do anything. I doubt they will. But the main reason why I called this meeting, was to discuss the awaiting child of Haven."
A fiery witch walked up to the podium, within a certain distance an spoke up. "The child needs to be taken care of before it is born, it'll be bigger than it's mother! We must kill them both so why are we waiting?"
"That again, I know all too well. We are waiting only because right now, Haven is recieving visions, and those visions can be triggered easily and warn her of the dangers coming towards her, her friends, lover, and unborn child. So if we did re-act to the fight of Haven and I, we would all have failed miserably since she was purely aware that time." She raised a hand to silence those about ready to speak. "Now that there has been no vampiric action in the past two months, giving her the time to think that it hs been dying down, she is most vulernable now more than ever, at least so I think. And I think right." And she stepped back a bit to let someone ask a question. Everyone looked around for someone worthy enough to speak up in a wise manner to futher ask questions.
Another warlock, probably around 2000 years of age, stood up. "So what are we supposed to do then? I doubt that it'll be standing around for the next movement to be made."
Darla tossed back her hair over her shoulders and stared them down.
"I think we should now prepare." And she looked around the room at all of the pairs of eyes looking up to her, children and adults alike. "Get ready, my people. I think the time to knock Shannon Haven off her reign is soon to come. Very soon."
She looked around one last time, then leaned forward.

"And the time to destory both her and her unborn daughter."

-17----------8 Months later I wake up to my cellphone ringing on my nightstand. My stomach has grown large, heavy with child. I pick it up and answer it with a hello.
"You kill McAdam?" an all too familiar voice came through on the other end.
I sit up partly and rest my body on hand, my elbow on the bed, proping my head up. "Mitch?" I ask.
"Who do you think?" he jokes.
I laugh quietly, no wanting to wake my sleeping partner.
"So, did you yet? You've had nearly 10 months." he asks me.
I sigh loudly on the other end.
"No." I reply. Then there is silence on the other end.
"What do you mean "no"? You are our best damn agent on this damn job! We have just confirmed he IS an ex-agent. He can destroy us and kill others!" he yells at me making me pull the phone away.
"Stop yelling now. I know. But a guard came around and blew my cover. It all happened too fast! And you wouldn't believe what has happened to me now."
He asks after a few moments of silence, "What?"
"I'm pregnent. 8 1/2 months.
"Congradutlations!" Immedately came through the phone.
"Thanks."
"Well, hey, I'll let you go back to sleep since I purposely woke you up...."
"Oh thank you." I say sarcastically.
"I'll reassign the job to someone else. You take care. Bye."
"Bye" I say before hanging up and falling back asleep.

---------3 months later-----------

I watch Gerard play with my beautiful baby girl and he glances over at me. His smile just makes me melt. We recently got married, like a week ago but didn't bother going on a honeymoon. We felt no need, and plus we have our child, so it was nearly impossible. A mother with her first newborn baby being gone from eachother? Never! I watched as Gerard set our baby, Paige, down.
"She's too cute." he says turning back to the laughing baby.
I nod "You say that every time."
We heard a shatter coming from the front room and rush past Paige and into the room. I gasp at the shattered window and turn to Gerard and nod towards the room Paige is in.
"Go get her." I mouth and he runs off. I walk forward and cautiously step through the shattered floor window. I look around and past the oak trees in our front yard and hear an arrow wizzing behind me. I turn around on my heal just in time for the arrow to strike me on the left shoulder. I cry out and lean over, partly on the house for support. I take the arrow out quickly, ignoring the pain.
"Too easy." came a voice behind me.
Or somewhat behind.
Darla stood in front of me with armed men by her side and just stare at me, as if seeing past me and right into my soul. Almost like, literally, she can just reach in and tear my heart out.
She laughs. "Why did I bother with all these men?" she exclaims and walks forward. I lock eyes with her and she stops, barely out of my reach. I back away and back towards the window.
She grins. "Why run among friends? I am sure you'll change you're mind once your running causes your husband and daughter's life to be gone"
I gasp and run back into the house blindingly. I jump over the open broken window and though the door way and find Gerard panicing in the room tearing it apart.
"Where's Paige?" I ask breathlessly.
He looks at me in pure fright and looks around quickly. "I don't know! She disappeared. Literally! One second she was in my arms, then gone!"
I stare in disbelief and run through out the house, cautiously, screaming my daughter's name. I turn the corner sharply and almost collide with Gerard. I go around him quickly and rush down the hallway. Stopping in the doorway to Paige's room, I look around feeling as if i could have a heart attack in just a few seconds. I look in the corner and finally breathe. I rush to her and scoop her up in my arms and hug her tightly.
"Where'd you go?" I demanded to know and she just cooed in reply. I kiss her on the forehead and hold on to her tightly as I walk out of the room and back to Gerard, who smothers her with kisses.

"Pleasant reunion."
Gerard and I jump and back away looking at the person standing in the doorway.
"Darla, leave." I command her, even though i know it won't do any good.
She snickers and shakes off my glare. She blinks then appears behind me. I spin around and grab Gerard's wrist, pulling him with me. I jump back as I face her again. Darla grins, then blinks again. Looking around, I pass Paige to Gerard.
"Guard her with you life." I tell him.
"What about you?" he asks, worried if I, in pecticular, are going to get out alive.
I look at him. "I may not get out of here the way i intended to."
"Why do you think that? other than the obvious." He looks into my eyes for an explanation.
"You may not know it..." I turn away and look around. "They've got us boxed in."

Paige started wailing.

-18-------------We try to calm her down when we hear a few gunshots. I twist around and then stop back at Gerard.
"Run." I command him, and he looks at me like I'm crazy. He opens his mouth to protest once he sees that i am deadly serious.
"Don't argue. Go, get out of here. Far away, peferably away and out of Jersey. Just go!" I yell at him. He looks at me then at Paige and then says, "Okay.."
I kiss him shortly and then let him go. I watch him rush out of the house. I look out the door and see him disappearing around the corner of the street out of harms way.
"Thank God." I say breathlessly.
I start back into the family room when a sharp object hits me on the back of the head.

I feel body aching but unable to move.I blink awake and look around the room.
"Ah, finally awake." she says walking into the room.
"Bitch, where am I?" I ask her. Darla smirks and walks on. "In my chambers of course."
I just glare at her and she laughs. "You aren't putting up much of a fight anymore, Haven. You use to be...ah, what was the word? Tough? I'll go with that." She sits down and turns to me and goes on. "Now you are a disgrace. A child brought it down, not like I care. Thankful for that, you aren't anything compared to what you were anymore. It's saddening actually. So the mightly Slayer has fallen, dropped from duties." A few moments of silence then she makes an overdramatic sigh. "Damn, i just forgot what I was going to say. No matter."
She gets up and makes a slapping movement with her hands and then I feel two hands fly across my cheeks. Some pain starts flying in and soon the paralizing effect she had on me starts to wear off. But yet, i am bound by something invisable.
"And you know, when we find out where that husband of yours ran off too, he'll join your side once more. but as a corpse." she hisses. I make an attempt to leap at her but fail miserably and she laughs once more.
"Calm down, you'll join them both soon. Yes, i said both. Including your daughter. You see, I've been planning this for a while now. I doubt it is going to fail."
I close my eyes and focus on figuring out a way to get out of here. I get an overwhelming urge to break free and start putting my mind into breaking out. I feel the weight on my arms and legs lessen slowly, but quicker with every urge I put into it. I yelp out when I land on the ground from kicking off of the wall. Darla gasps unexpectedly and attacks me. I block her kick by knocking it away with one of my own.
I twist around as she runs towards me and I kick her in the gut- hard, sending her flying backwards into the wall behind her. I hear guards making their way down here so I kick the door open, thanks to the ancient hinges and bolt out. I see shadows of the guards coming towards me so I look out the nearest window, also glass-less, and climb out of it as quick as I could. Once I get out and stand on the edge of the place, i find out it's a large stone mansion. Thankfully, I was on the second, not the thrid or fourth floor, so I jumped. I landed perfectly on my feet and ran, almost like the wind.

I ran until I reached the most obvious spot to find Gerard -a My Chemical Romance concert. I run to the Amplitheatre and see people actually gathering around the gates. I look around for a clock to tell what time it is but, i guess since it is nearly sunset, it is around 6 pm. The gates start to open and people just rush in, nearly knocking me over. I push through, not caring about what is happening at the moment. I reach the gates quite quickly amazingly and start to walk past. But a bouncer pushed me back.
"Ticket." he says holding out his hand. I look at him in disbelief. I shrug and start to walk past.
"I don't need one." I say simply. I am pushed back again.
"Not getting in without one, missy." he tells me in his gruff voice.
"Look on the damned VIP list!" I command him, telling him my name, and he looks through his clipboard and shakes his head.
"Not on it. Sorry, miss."
I throw up my hands, angred. "Wait a fucking minute! I am his wife. The frontman, Gerard Way's wife! That makes me a VVIP!" I say poking him on the shoulder, pissed off.
"You aren't getting in." he repeats and goes on to checking other people in. I get fed up and just bolt past.

-19-----I hear many yells behind me but I run as fast as I could, which was pretty fast and through all of the crazy fans, I see the opening to the backstage area. I glance behind me and see two bouncers still chasing after me so i run behind the curtain and down the halls, with people right on my ass. I hear voices in one upcoming room. So I swing open the door and bolt in, guards behind me. I run right into the room and everyone hushes. I feel the bouncers grab my arms and pull them behind my back.
"Get off of me now! NOW!" I shriek.
"Let her go!" I hear Frank shout.
Thank you Frankie! I scream inside as the grip on my arms lessen and I shake free. I see the guys of My Chem., including my love, in the room and Gerard stands up and walks to me.
"She's mine." he says and the bouncers look from me to him.
"Told ya he is my husband" I taunt them and give him a passionate kiss on the lips. The bouncers walk out of the room, embarassed, and Frank shuts the door.
"Thank you Frankie" I say when i pull away from Gerard.
"No prob. Thank you for coming back, alive. We came back to the house and saw it deserted with some blood near the front window." he says claiming Gerard's spot on the couch.
"They knocked me out, took me to their place." I explain. I turn to Gerard, "We've got to talk." And then I hear the roar of the fans as the stagelights flick on.
"After your show." I kiss him again before letting him go do his thing.

Halfway through the show I hear crying. I realized that it was Paige. I run into the room again to see a baby cradle in the corner away from the window. I scoop her up into my arms again and rock her gentlely, talking to her softly.
"I don't want to do this, my dear Paige Nicole Way, but I fear it must be done." I speak softly to her as she stares up at me with her eyes such as mine, but with a inner ring of brown around her pupil, and her father's soft, silky dark brown hair. "You know I will always love you right?" The baby smiles and starts playing with my hair.
"Right my baby?" I coo, taking her little hand into mine.
I hear cheers rise and then the boys filing into the room one by one, then came out Gerard. I unraveled Paige's hand from my hair and set her back in the cradle.
"Now what do you want to talk to me about?"
I think for a moment then thought of what's best.
"Maybe you shoulder sit down."
He gives me a worried look along with the rest of the guys and they all get seated and wait.
"Darla reveiled to me alot of her plans and it got me thinking, which made her come on as sort of stupid... And please don't kill me for this decision because it is so painful right now for me to speak of it." I say nerviously and they all shake their heads in understanding, unsure.
"I think we have to give Paige up." I let it out.
Silence befalls in the room and then Gerard looks outraged.
"Why?! How?! How can you think of something like that? Give away our baby? I don't think so. i can't! i won't!" he screams startling Paige.
I glare at him. "Ssh, the baby"
"How can you think of something like that, Shannon?" he says pained. I look at the expression on his face. It's too much to bare.
I break down.
I fall to the ground and grab my knees and start bawling. "I know! I cannot bare it either Gerard! But don't you think it's the right thing? Of all the danger she is in right now? She's a baby, she's helpless! She shouldn't have to pay for my decisions. We must give her up if we love her. I love her more than my life. I love you and her and the guys more than anything in the world. I wouldn't trade anything. But it has to be done for her sake! She can be dead to the world before we even know it. It's no too late yet, and I don't want it to be to late. We must make a decision...For her safety."
I feel Gerard's arms go around my shoulders and he cries with me.
"You habe done nothing wrong. You never knew of this path. And once you told me, happiness comes hand-in-hand with pain...Dont think of yourself in such ways..." Gerard whispers
I rest my forehead on his chest and hears voices from the guys start up.
Soon once everything calmed down, Gerard and I still sitting with eachother on the ground, we talk quietly.
"I really think it is the right thing to do...." I say between sniffs. I see Gerard and the others nod lightly.
"We all are aware of the dangers that everyone is in," Mikey starts. And I think to myself, the damned truth.
Everything is just beginning, the pain and the heartbreak
"Where should we....you know....give her up for adoption at?"
I look at Gerard.
"I'm fine with anything you think is right. I am with you." he holds my hand and speaks bleakly.
"I think we should take her to Sister Estene, at that Christian church in San Fransico. She's a friend of mine, I use to go there as I child when my mum settled from New York to California. We should drop her off with her, give her Paige. I am absoulutely sure that Sister Estene will give her to a great family." I explain.
"Sounds....good." Frank says emotionless, awkwardly.
...................

That week on Saturday we flew to San Fransico. Early afternoon we arrived at the church, it was still as beautiful and astounding as it always were. I walked into the church, holding the little bundled up Paige in the blanket she was born in, one Gerard and I designed with little black and red roses and a My Chemical Romance symbol on it to symbolize where she has come from. Gerard and the guys trailed silently behind. A woman dress in a black nun robe stood at the podium reading through something and looked up at our approach. She reconized me immediately and as I became within arms reach, she gave me a hug as a greeting, then was introduced to everyone else. Hearing what we had to say, I gave Gerard baby Paige one last time. He started to cry again and kiss her again before passing her to Sister Estene.
"I promise she'll get a nice, caring, loving home." she said with a smile, and looking at the baby. We all thanked her and left unwillingly, with broken hearts, but happy minds that at least Paige will grow up in a perfect family.

Look for the sequal, "I Just Don't Care Anymore, Won't Cry These Tears Anymore".....