Disclaimer: This is based on a true story. Every thing in this story actually did happen just not to MCR! All names dates and other incriminating information has been removed or changed. I do not own MCR! In fact I do not own any characters in this story. Except one.

Chapter 1 The morning of Gerard's 20th birthday wasn't at all what he expected. He woke to the sound of the radio on full blast. "Damnit Mikey! Shut it off!" he shouted at his younger brother, throwing a pillow in the direction of the sound.

"Wake up Gerard." Not fully comprehending that it was not Mikey's voice that returned to his ears, Gerard reluctantly got up and got dressed. He walked into the kitchen only to be met by his mother and father sitting at the table.

"We've come to a decision." Gerard's father said.

"Ummmm...Should I just pretend to know what the hell your talking about." Gerard said as he took a coffee cup from the shelf.

"We want you to move out" Gerard's green eyes filled with confusion as he listened to his mother speak. "We want you to start living on your own. Your 20 now and its time you moved out and started taking responsibility for your own life."

"Woah, slow down mom. Can't you at least let me try to find some where to stay before you kick your eldest son to the curb." Gerard pleaded with his parents. His father stood and walked to the coffeepot poured himself some coffee and walked passed Gerard saying "You have 3 days to be packed up and moved out." His mother followed close behind "Its for you own good you know."

Gerard got some coffee and went back into his room still puzzled as to why they want him out so fast. He decided after many hours of thinking to simply sell everything he didn't need and find a cheap apartment.

Two Weeks Later Gerard sold everything he owned, except some clothes and a few original art pieces. He was now living with his best friend Frank. Frank made an agreement with Gerard, he could stay with him if he paid half the rent. Gerard quickly agreed knowing he had no where else to go.

Frank had been living on his own since his parents died and he was great at it. Gerard had always admired Frank for being so strong about the death of his parents. He never saw Frankie upset about it, in fact he seemed quite happier since the accident.

Chapter 2 Gerard's parents told him they would still pay for his art school. That made Gerard slightly happier. It was the one thing he had left. Art.

Mikey thought it would be good for Gerard to try to find some friends and to get back on the dating scene. Gerard hadn't had many friends in his life, just Frank. Dating wasn't Gerard's forte either. He had a few girlfriends in high school but they never lasted more than a week or so and still hadn't gotten Gerard his first kiss. He had always been sort of the outcast. Black clothing, long black hair, not the type of person who was very social. Lunch, in high school, had always been the worst part of the day. The preps would almost always throw something at him or tease him about his art. He didn't mid so much when the go at his art, every little bit they hated it made Gerard love it even more.

One day when Frank and Gerard were sitting at home watching a movie Frank turned to Gerard and said "My parents used to beat me" Gerard, shocked, turned to face Frankie. "I know its hard to believe but they used to think it would set me straight."

"Set you straight?" Gerard sounded a bit puzzled. "You were the best kid anyone could ask for, you got straight A's in school, never got in any trouble...ever"

"Gerard" Frank looked at him as if he was nuts "Set me STRAIGHT!...I'm gay!" Frankie stated a bit hesitantly.

"GAY!!!" Gerard shouted slightly louder than expected "Frankie why didn't you tell me, you know I could have helped you...or something"

"I thought you were...a bit...wrapped up in your own problems to care" Frank was now staring at his shoes.

"I'll always have time, and always care for you Frankie! I just wish you would have told me...that's all"

"Well..." Frank searched for the words to tell Gerard his deepest darkest secret "I'm in love with your brother" Frank blurted out not really meaning to sound so blunt.

"Woah" Gerard pinched himself to make sure he wasn't dreaming. "You love Mikey...that's a shocker...I didn't think anyone would EVER love him" Frank looked at Gerard a little upset about what he'd said.

"Okay, I'm sorry Frankie... This is all just hitting me a little fast!"

"I guess I can understand" Frankie looked at Gerard and began to explain his situation "I need a little of your help Gee.

"Anything for you Frank, what's up?"

"I need you to talk to Mikey for me and find out if he feels any thing for me, without being to obvious that I like him of course."

"It'll be a bit awkward" Gerard explained reluctantly "But I'll do it"

"REALLY!?! Thank you so much Gerard!" Frankie stood up and gave Gerard a kiss on the cheek. "You're the best!" Gerard blushed slightly

"I know." He said to himself.

The next day Gerard confronted Mikey about Frank liking him. "Hey mike, can I talk to you real quick." Gerard yelled as he waked into his old house. Mikey was upstairs and heard Gerard walk in.

"Yea, what's up?" he shouted from the top of the stairs.

"Well... I don't exactly know how to say this but..."

"Just say it" Mikey looked slightly confused and a little anxious.

"Are you gay?" Gerard winced.

"What!?! No way!"

"Okay good," Gerard sighed "Now I don't have to go through misery for Frank" Mikey looked at Gerard a bit puzzled. He walked down the stairs and looked Gerard straight in the eyes.

"Gerard do you like Frank and thought I might steal him from you?" He asked in a sympathetic, whiny voice.

"EWWW! NO!" Gerard gasped "He likes you!" Gerard didn't mean to blurt it out, "Shit I wasn't supposed to tell you." Mikey stared at Gerard for a moment trying to take in what he just said.

"He...He does?" Mikey said with a glint in his eye.

"Yea, sorry I wasn't supposed to tell you...don't tell him I told you okay... in fact, just forget it ever happened, okay?" he tried to clean up his mess.

"You want me to forget that the (incredibly hot) guitarist in our band likes me?"

"Well he said love but that's besides the point" Gerard said more to himself than to Mikey.

"LOVE?!?" Mikey shouted

"Yea look you cant ruin this for us, the band I mean."

"Gerard... you just don't get it"

"Don't get what?" Gerard asked "you said you don't like Frankie the way he likes you. Your kinda flipping out on me here"

"okay, sit down" Mikey gestured towards the couch." I told you I wasn't gay. I never said any thing about not liking Frankie"

"But...uhh...wh-...I...Ummmm" Gerard fumbled with his words as he sat down on the couch.

"I know Gerard but I'm almost 18 now I'm old enough to make my own decisions and still young enough to not know who I am yet. So I'm just...experimenting...a bit" Mikey with great confidence.

"uhh... you know what... that's great for you" Gerard said faking a smile. "Its good for you and I totally understand." With that Gerard got up and walked out the door not meaning to slam it but did. "Holy crap" Gerard thought as he walked down the driveway to his car. "What the fuck"

Gerard drove himself home and told Frank all the details. Frank gasped and almost hit Gerard when he said he told Mikey he likes him, but as Gerard finished, Frankie looked quite happy.

Chapter Three

Gerard fell into a fit of depression. His parents kicked him out, he was paying way too much for a crappy apartment that he now shared with Frank AND Mikey. Seeing as Mikey was at franks every chance he got. Gerard found that his art was getting darker and more depressing.

Band practice almost never happened because Frank and Mikey were always flirting during it. They weren't together but they both knew how the other felt about him. And definitely knew how to make everyone around them feel uncomfortable. Gerard and Ray were sitting on the couch bored as hell. Bob was sitting behind his drums slipping in and out of sleep. Frankie and Mikey were standing with their instruments strapped to there necks and talking.

"Frankie, your so funny." Mikey said as he playfully slapped franks arm.

"Oh for fucks sake!" Gerard had enough and started towards the door. "Get a fucking room already!" He leaned over and opened the door but decided, last minute, before leaving to turn and add to his statement. "You like him" Gerard yelled. "And he likes you, get over the facts and do something about it so when we play next week we won't suck ass sickles!" With that he turned around and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.

"What the fuck was that about?" Ray said to Bob. They both turned to ask Mikey and Frank but decided they better leave them alone. As they now had their faces pressed together in a kiss. No one saw it coming, not even Frank and Mikey.

Bob and Ray got up and followed Gerard out the door. Frankie pulled away from Mikey breathless. "Wow." He gasped and looked Mikey straight in the eyes. "What does this mean?"

"I don't know," Mikey Shrugged and sat down on the couch behind him. Frank walked up to him and kneeled on the floor in front of the couch.

"Well lets find out" Frank grabbed Mikey's face and pulled him into a passionate kiss. As their tongues tangled in their mouths Gerard looked into the window.

"I wish that that were me" he said to himself.

A few weeks passed by and most things seemed to go back to normal. Until Gerard got a letter in the mail, stating that he would be kicked out of school if he failed to pay his own outstanding balance. Gerard was pissed. He pulled up his parents driveway and walked up to the house. He opened the door and quickly shut it again. He wasn't expecting to see his best friend and his little brother on the floor half naked and kissing!

Frankie shot up, scared, and ran to the window to see Gerard, paceing back and forth by his car door. "We should go talk to Gerard" Frank was still staring out the window.

"We'll talk to him later" Mikey walked up and put his arms around Frank's waist, kissing his back gently.

"But he's taking this all a little hard Mike. I think I should go talk to him." he gave Mikey a kiss and picked his shirt up off of the floor.

"Aw.. but we were just getting started."

"I'll be right back." Frankie winked at Mikey and opened the door, pulling on his T-shirt.

"You're so sexy," Mikey called after Frank as he walked down the steps towards Gerard.

"Hey!" Frankie said as he reached the car.

"Oh, hi." Gerard forced a smile.

"What's wrong?" Gerard looked at Frankie like he was stupid and thought to himself.

"Gee I don't know. My parents hate me. I'm gonna get kicked out of school, our band is starting to suck and I just found my best friend and my brother on the floor half naked, making out." But decided to say "I just got this." He said and shoved the letter into Frank's face. He scanned it quickly.

"Oh.. So this isn't about ..." Gerard shrunk down the side of the car and started to cry. Frank kneeled down next to him and put his hand on Gerard's shoulder. "If you want to talk I'm here" Frank said to Gerard, sympathetically.

"You wouldn't understand" Gerard said between sobs.

"Well I could try," Frankie explained. "Even if I don't understand, wouldn't it be nice to get whatever is bothering you out and off of you're chest?" Frank wrapped his arms around Gerard and kissed his forehead.

Gerard looked up at Frankie, "It would actually... but i'm not ready to tell you."

"Okay. That's fine, but whatever it is you can tell me anytime; you know where to find me." With that Gerard helped Frankie up and gave him a quick hug, then ran back inside to Mikey.

Gerard felt so terrible. His life was falling apart at the seams. He got into his car and drove. He didn't know where he was going, he just wanted to get away from his life. He drove for what seemed like hours and finally pulled up to a small pub in the middle of nowhere. He got out of his car and walked inside. The light inside was dim and Geard was glad. He just wanted to get drunk and hide from his problems for a while.

He walked up to the bar and set a few $100s down. "Get me drunk and it's yours" Gerard said in a low voice.

Chapter Four

A few shots and a couple of beers later Gerard was sobbing silently in the corner of the bar. It felt good to cry. The bar tender walked up to him and said something Gerard couldn't make out. He looked up to the man with tears in his eyes. "You know bartenders are the best therapists." He handed Gerard another shot.

"Thanks" Gerard said quietly.

"Ok there is defiantly a problem here, and I'm guessing that it has to do with.." The man paused a moment and looked Gerard up and down "A guy!" the bar tender said happily, believing he had guessed right.

"I'm not gay!" Gerard snapped at him.

"I know," said the bartender, still smiling at Gerard in faith of his presumption. "Look kid, I've never seen you before, and I can tell you right now I'll probably never see you again, sooo... What's up you're ass, Kid?"

Gerard paused a moment and looked at the man. "My little brother is dating my best friend," Gerard stared at his shoes.

"So it's not a guy, Damn... I'm usually right about these things."

"I never said you were wrong."

"I KNEW IT!" The bartender lightly jumped and made a motion with his elbow saying "Yes!" Gerard just looked at him with a vacant expression on his face. "Sorry, ...you were saying?"

"My brother is in love with my best friend, and my best friend is in love with my brother."

"So why so upset?" The bartender asked Gerard.

Gerard thought this question over for a moment, and replied, "Yea, why am so I upset?" He picked up the shot and downed it. He stood up and almost fell over. "Shit I'm wasted"

The bartender glanced at the money placed on the table by Gerard earlier. "You can have it, just call me a cab"

A voice called from the darkness behind Gerard, "It's Ok Jim. I'll take him". Gerard turned around to see the most beautiful face he had ever seen. "Holy shit!" Gerard thought to himself. "Nah Jen, you don't have to, I'll call a cab."

"No it's fine. Besides, I need to do my good deed for the day." She said smiling at Gerard. He smiled back faintly.

"No.. I don't want to be too much trouble" Gerard looked Jen straight in the eyes. "Damn!" Gerard thought.

To be continued... Email me if you want to read more Miraclemilemind@gmail.com I promise it will get better! ; )