Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, don't steal and don't sue. Just Read. Thank you.

***

Julia's POV

I woke to the annoying sound of my alarm. I rolled over and hit the 'snooze' button, then collapsed back on my bed. 'Waking up is not a good thing' I thought. Then I realised I was not alone.

"Oh my god!" I groaned, sitting up, then realising I had nothing under my singlet top, so pulling my doona up to my chin.

"Hey", said my mum, kissing me on my head. "Happy Birthday"

"Oh, yeah, right, thanks, but can you not do that again?" I asked, pulling my messy hair into a ponytail, groaning at the fact it was 7 am.

"Get up quickly and get ready. Wear something nice. Your father and I have something very Important to tell you...I just know you're going to love It, after getting over the big picture" she said with a smile, patting me on the head and walking out of my room. I got up, and then thanked myself for having a shower last night and straightening my hair. I pulled it out of the pony tail and ran a brush through it, and stood at my open wardrobe. 'Wear something nice'. What did that mean? What did she have to tell me? I picked out my black pinstripe pants, and my black 'The Used' top. I turned, and looked at my phone. 3 messages already. I opened them while applying some make-up. One was from Ava, my best friend, it read: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Sweet 22! See you this arvo, luv me. I smiled. Apparently she had some big surprise for me this afternoon. This morning was dedicated to family. The second was from Robbie. I had known Robbie forever; we met at the age of 2 months. That read: Hey 22 year old. Have fun, can't wait to see you again. Luv me. He was flying down here next month; I got to see him again. I couldn't wait. The last one was from an unknown number, It read Hey Julia, Happy 22nd Birthday, luv ya bro's. I stood there, I couldn't think of anyone who would call themselves my brothers, I had none. 1 sister, that's it. I finished doing my make up and walked out and up the hallway, to sit at the kitchen Island bench. There I found my sister, Lily, who was 24, and Alex, her boyfriend of 9 years. I grabbed one of her pieces of toast and sat up on the bench.

"Happy Birthday Julia!" Alex said, patting my knee

"Thanks Alex" I said, biting my toast.

"Yeah, Happy Birthday!" said Lily.

"So what is this that Mum wanted to tell me" I asked with my mouth full of toast. Lily gave me an evil look. She was like my second mother. I hated it sometimes.

"Oh, you're going to be so excited, I'll go get her" said Lily half sarcastically, and she walked up the hallway towards our parents' room.

"Do you know what It Is?" I asked Alex.

"Yeah" he said, then motioned that he wasn't telling. The suspense was killing me. Finally Mum, Dad and Lily came back down the hallway, and we all sat together. They told me, and I stared at them in disbelief. I started to cry. I was adopted. I was fucking adopted! I couldn't stop crying, I didn't want to be adopted! Mum came over and hugged me.

"As much as it doesn't seem like it, there are a couple of good things coming out of this" said, rubbing my back

"What" I said, sniffling.

"Well first, we want you to always know that we are your family, and you are our daughter, and this is your home. I don't want this to change that" said my dad

"Thank you, second?" I asked

"You have two older brothers, Mikey and Gerard" my mum said. Suddenly my eyes were as wide as they could go. Did she just say Mikey and Gerard?

"Hang on, I'm a WAY?" I almost screamed

"Yes, why, do you know them?" my mum asked

"Yes, mum, they are part of MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!" She looked at me blankly, so I gave up.

"Mum, Dad, Lily, I love you guys so much and I want you to know you guys are my family. And you Alex. I am an Anderson. But, when do I get to meet my brothers?" I asked.

"Oh. They are coming over in about 10 minutes" she said, and got up for another cup of coffee. I have to go get ready! I thought, and rushed into my room. I quickly stuck my head out the door.

"Mum, Dad, I love you, and I'm sorry for freaking out, but you can understand that!" I said, before slamming the door again. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was surprised that I liked what I saw. I never do. I still had to fix up make up though. I grabbed my bracelets and slid them on my wrist, then my black earrings. I wanted to look good for my new BROTHERS! It was kind of a shock; that I am not related to Lily, or Mum and Dad, but they still were my family. I made my bed, fed my fish, and put on 'The Used'. I needed energetic music. About 20 minutes later there was a knock at my door. I froze. They are here. All these questions started running through my mind, 'Is Frank going to be there?' and 'What If they don't like me'. I shock them off, and opened my door. There stood Gerard, Mikey and Frank.

"Hey" I finally stuttered. Gerard stood in disbelief, looking me up and down.

"Man, you could have told me we had a hot sister, and then I would have dressed nice" said Gerard, and they all walked past me, Gerard sitting on my bed. I relaxed, and sat next to him, with Frank swinging around on my desk chair and Mikey on my drum kit stool.

"Wow. You play?" he asked.

"Yeah, for like, 9 years now. I love it. So.....was this a shook to you guys?" I asked

"Nah, not really, I have always wanted a younger sister" said Gerard. Mikey came and sat down next to us.

"Yeah, me too. Someone I can torment" he said, jumping on me and messing up my hair.

"Yeah, thanks Mikey" I said, giggling and pushing him off me and grabbing my hair brush.

"So.........you have a boyfriend?" asked Gerard.

"Sorry, not Into Incest" I said jokingly.

"Oh bummer!" he said, and I laughed.

"Man, that's just wrong!" said Frank. Mikey got up and started walking around my room, looking at the photos of my friends and posters of my favourite bands.

"Is this you?" He asked, pointing to the photo of my year 12 social.

"Yeah, that was a fantastic night, I loved that night" I said

"You look beautiful" he said. I blushed.

"Who's this?" he asked, pointing at a picture of myself and Ava.

"My Best Friend, Ava. I am seeing her arvo, you can come If you want, I'm sure she won't mind" I said, almost laughing. Ava was a massive fan of My Chemical Romance, especially Mikey. It used to be Gerard, but I guess time has changed her. I love MCR for the music, not for their looks. I didn't have a favourite.

"She can come with us then" said Mikey.

"Where are we going?" I asked, confused.

"America. You're coming on holidays with us Idiot. Didn't your rents tell you?" said Frank

"Noooooo" I said

"Better get packing then! I'm going to go talk to your rents about it all" said Gerard, and he and Mikey left the room. I stood there, trying to figure out what was happening.

"C'mon, it's not going to pack itself" said Frank, still on my desk chair.

"Oh yeah, right" I said, and I opened my wardrobe again, pulling out a suitcase. "Come help me decide, I don't know what to take" I said to him. He came and stood next to me.

"um........It's summer over there so this, this, Oooo I like that top, ummm, this, those pants, they're cool, and that belt..." he said, randomly pulling out clothes and chucking them in my suitcase. After we finished packing my stuff I thanked him for the fashion advice.

"That's ok" he said, and we walked out of the room. There, I found the funniest sight. Alex and Gerard were talking geek talk, all about sound and shit, and Lily and Mikey were having a massive fight over the remote to the TV. Arms and Legs everywhere. I snatched the remote out of Mikey's hand and walked up the hallway with it. They protested but eventually followed and sat in the lounge. I sat my bags at the door and came back.

"Your rents are all cool about It. 3 weeks with us! And your friend, Ava. She's coming." Said Gerard, "Now let's get GOING!"

"Ok, see you Lily, Miss you!" I said, hugging her.

"See ya Alex!" I said, and I hugged him as well.

"See ya Juicy" they both said. Frank picked up my bags and we walked out side. Inside, I was screaming. This had to be the best birthday ever. Once we were in the street, Gerard opened the door to this black SVU thing, and hopped in the front seat, followed by Mikey In the drivers, then me and Frank in the back, who had put my bags in the boot.

"How the hell did you get the nickname Juicy?" asked Mikey, starting up the car. I laughed.

"Because all my friends at school called me Ju, then another Julia came, so It became Ju C, C for Ciana, my middle name, and then put together, making It Juicy!" I said. They all laughed. I cringed.

"From now on, I'll call you Juicy" said Mikey.

"Please no" I said, putting my head in my hands. He laughed.

"So was It you who text me this morning?" I asked

"Yeah, like It?" said Gerard.

"Yeah, It was weird though, cuz I didn't know who It was from" I said.

"Yeah, It was, you really shouldn't have" said Mikey

"Boo. You're such a party pooper!" said Gerard, throwing a sock at him. I didn't want to know where that sock came from.

"So where are we going?" asked Mikey.

"Ummm.......she'll be at her house, so I'll lead the way" I said, giving him directions to her house. I was surprised at how little Frankie was talking. Once we got there we parked outside, and I hopped out to go get her. Mikey hopped out as well, Frank and Gerard stayed in the car.

"So her name is Ava?" he asked, knocking on her door.

"Actually, it's Roseanna, Ava is her middle name, but call her that. And yep, she's single" I said. He smiled, and the door opened.

"Hey Julia, you're early and OH MY GOD!" squealed Ava.

"Hey" said Mikey, blushing

"YO! MIKEY! COME BACK HERE FOR A SECOND!" screamed Gerard from the car.

"See ya" he said, before turning around back to the car.

"Mind explaining why MIKEY WAY just turned up on my doorstep with you?" she asked, pulling me inside. After I filled her in, she screamed, and we ran to her room to pack. We took all of 5 minutes to jam her whole wardrobe in one very small suitcase and we were off back to the car. After introducing every one to every one we were off the airport. I was now squished against Frank, and Ava. I was voted in the middle. I looked at Frank, and smiled. I was so happy. Once at the airport, we checked in, and got told that our flight was leaving In 15 minutes. So there we were, running through the airport, and we just got the gate in time. I looked at my ticket as I walked down the Isle, It said B4.

"Business class huh?" I said to Gerard, who was behind me.

"Nothing but the best for you my dear" he said, pushing me forward and getting into his row. He ended up sitting next to some random girl, Ava was next to Mikey and I was behind them next to Frank. About 10 minutes into the flight and Mikey and Ava started kissing. Gerard was asleep already and Frankie and I were just talking about every thing. Our lives, their band, life, love, Where we were going, what we were doing, that kind of thing. I think he was finally feeling like talking. The flight was like, 23 hours (I think?), but It only felt like 2. As we walked out of New Jersey's Airport, we were greeted by Ray and Bob.

"Hey, so are you Julia?" said Ray, pointing at Ava.

"No, I'm her beastie, Ava. That Is Julia" she said, laughing.

"Oh, Sorry. Hi Julia, I'm Ray and this Is Bob" he said, and we shook hands.

"Man, you could have told me you had a hot sister, and then I would have dressed nice" said Bob, looking me up and down. I laughed, remembering earlier today.

"Thanks Bob" I said, blushing, and they grabbed Ava and my bags, and we went out to the bus. We got inside and discovered the 5 bunk beds.

"I vote we go Mad House style and you guys pick which girl sleeps with them." I said

"Ok. Ava can sleep with me, and you can sleep with...........Well, I don't trust Gerard with you, Ray's hair takes up his whole bed and Bob has a girlfriend. So, you can sleep with Frank." Said Mikey, pulling Ava and smiling at her.

"Yo! Mikey, I said the guys pick, not YOU! Whatever" I said, as Mikey pulled Ava into what I am guessing the practise room, and the giggling started.

"Man, I am going to puke. Another cute frigin' couple fucking every night on the bus for the whole of our holidays" said Frank, slamming his fist on the table jokingly.

"Don't worry, we are not staying on the bus, we have this really cool massive house for the holidays" said Ray

"BAGS THE MASTER BEDROOM!" Frank screamed.

"NO! I AM THE LEAD SINGER! I GET THE MASTER BEDROOM!" screamed Gerard.

"ARM WRESTLE YOU FOR IT!" Frank replied, and the grabbed each other and started fighting.

"Duh guys! I get the master bedroom!" I said. Bob smiled at me, and I smiled back.

"Man, that's so not fair" said Frank, straightening his clothes.

"Yeah It Is. Cuz I am the only girl here. Apart from Ava, but from those sounds, she'll be sharing a room with Mikey" I said, and we all went quiet and heard giggling and moaning from the next room. We laughed.

"Ok Deal." Said Gerard. We kept chatting for about another half an hour, until the bus halted at these massive Iron gates. We all rushed to the front of the bus, to see a MASSIVE big, grey house In front of us.

"OH MY GOD!" I screamed, and ran back down the hallway to grab my bags. We all jumped off the bus (apart from Mikey and Ava) and ran up to the house. I opened the door and stood in awe. It was the coolest house ever. I ran up the stairs and to the front of the house. After opening a couple of doors I found the biggest bedroom and started to unpack. In the bedroom was a massive king bed, desk thing WITH STEREO! Chest of drawers and heaps of other stuff. Plus it had a balcony over the front garden and a walk in robe and ensuite. After unpacking my suitcase, which was full of everything I owned practically, I got changed into my pyjama pants and black t-shirt, looked at the cloak to see it was 7:30 pm, and went back downstairs. On the way down I looked through all the doors, and found Gerard In his room, Ray In the bedroom next to his, and Bob next to him. Then there were a couple more rooms then Franks'. At the other end of the house was the 5th bedroom, and there I found Mikey and Ava unpacking. I closed their door and went downstairs. In the lounge I found a mad stereo system so I ran back upstairs, grabbed my CD's, and ran back to down. In the end I decided to but 'The Used' in, and I didn't put it to loud. I turned and walked into the kitchen. I was so excited.

That night we decided to go get take-away, and we all wrote down what we wanted, and Ray went and got it all for us. When he came back he was ambushed, especially by Mikey. For a skinny arse dude, he sure does eat a lot. We all piled into the movie room (I KNOW!) and Gerard decided he would choose. As the DVD rolled, it came up on the screen. The HOUSE Of WAX'. I screamed. This had to be my favourite movie of all time.

One week later

I woke and rolled over to look at my cloak. 9:00. Meh, Time to get up. Before I did, I made sure Ava wasn't in here. As much as I loved her, her waking me up to tell me that Mikey had asked her out Is NOT COOL. I got up, and pulled my messy hair into a pony tail and got dressed. I went down stairs and found Frank In the kitchen. I was surprised; he is normally last up out of all of us.

"Where is every one else?" I asked

"They have gone to the beach.....I didn't want to go, or wake you" he said, taking another puff of his cigarette. I pulled it out of his mouth and stood on it.

"You're not smoking around me sorry" I said, smiling. He looked at me in shook. I laughed.

"Thank you, I need someone to make me stop" he said

"That's ok!" I said, and I got out some cereal for breakfast.

"So what do you want to do today?" he asked

"Dunno whatever! Just as long as we are not around Ava and Mikey, I hate cutie couples" I said, groaning

"Yeah. Remember when they fell asleep kissing? Ugh" he said, pretending to be sick. I laughed again.

"Yeah, so, do you wanna go Ice skating, or go do skirmish or something?" I asked

"Ice skating sounds fun, let me go get my shoes and we'll go" he said, putting his empty bowl in the dishwasher and running up the stairs. I smiled. I loved Ice-skating. To day should be so much fun! Especially with Frankie....... I liked him the most out of every one else (apart from Ava, Mikey and Gerard lolz). He was so nice, and kind....... I dunno. Just something about him, just made me smile.

That Night

"Oh my god that was so much fun! And thanks so much for dinner" I said, unlocking the front double doors and pushing them open.

"That's ok, and HA! I only fell over once, you fell over twice!" he said, sticking his tongue out at me. I poked It back In.

"Both times I fell over were BECAUSE OF YOU! Idiot" I said, and we walked Inside, and upstairs. I looked at the grandfather clock; it was 9:00 pm.

"Here, no one is home, just come into my room, I have a balcony!" I said, using a little kid's voice and poking my tongue out.

"Be careful, I might bite it off" he said, as he followed me into my room. I laughed, and opened the huge doors out onto the balcony. We stood, leaning on the railing, looking out onto the lake and surrounding grounds.

"Julia, can I tell you something?" he asked, looking up at me.

"Yeah, of course" I said

"Promise not to laugh?" he said

"Of course! I would never laugh at you, I love you too much!" I said, and I could almost see him go wide eyed. I wondered if I shouldn't have said that.

"I really like you" he said

"I really like you too! I said that like 2 minutes ago!" I said, and I gave him a hug

"No, I mean I really like you. Like, more then a friend" he said, looking back down at the ground and brushing some hair out of his face

"Oh. Right. Um........ Okay. Really? For how long?" I asked

"Since I first saw you" he said, looking really embarrassed. I didn't know what to say. Luckily Gerard came storming through my door at that exact moment, looking upset.

"Oh, I'll leave you with Julia" Frank said and left my room, shutting the door.

"Gee, what's wrong?" I asked, giving him a hug. He hugged me back, tighter then he ever has. He looked up at me, tears in his eyes.

"Please don't cry..........." I said, my eyes filling with tears as well.

"It's just so hard at the moment! I used to always talk to Mikey, but his so consumed with Ava, so Is It ok If I talk to you?" he said

"Of course! I have wanted to talk to someone as well for a while..........but doesn't tell anyone what I say, okay?" I said, sitting on my bed.

"Okay and same" he said, and lay down next to me. For the next 3 hours we just lay on my bed, talking about every thing.....mostly depression and love. It really got my mind of Frankie, and Gerard hadn't had a girlfriend for a while, and I have always been depressed in some way or another. I felt it really helped both me and him. At 12 o'clock, he got up and gave me a hug.

"Thank you so much Julia" he said

"My pleasure, we have to do it again" I said, and he walked out of my room, and into his. I got off my bed, shutting the doors onto the balcony before walking into my walk-In-robe to get changed and grab some tissues. After getting into my pyjamas, I went back out onto the balcony. I couldn't believe I didn't see it before. Frank liked me. Oh My God, It was obvious, the constant sticking up for me, opening my car door..........every thing. I stood there, the fresh breeze blowing in my face, when I heard my door open, then shut. I turned around and saw Frankie walking towards me.

"Couldn't sleep?" I asked

"Nup. You?" he asked, walking out onto the balcony to stand next to me.

"Yeah, it's nice outside though, and I'm not that tired" I said, smiling sleepily at him, and then yawning.

"Sure your not" he said laughing. I laughed as well.

"I'm sorry about before, I shouldn't have said anything" he said, looking out at the grounds

"No, you should have." I said, and I turned to face him.

"What do you mean?" he said, turning to face me as well. I leant forward and kissed him on the lips. Short, but meaningful.

"I mean I like you too" I said, and I walked back inside. He followed, a confused look on his face, and I shut the doors. It was getting cold outside.

"You like me too?" he asked, puzzled.

"Would I have kissed you if I didn't?" I said, as If it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Really?" he said

"Really" I said.

"So.......can I kiss you? I was kind of dazed before" he said

"You don't have to ask," I replied, and he walked towards me and gently kissed me on the lips. Inside, straight away, I knew this was right. He rapt his arm around my waist, and I put my arms around his neck. I felt his tongue against my mouth, so I opened it a little, and felt his tongue slid inside. I felt like I was about to die. Slowly he started pushing me towards my bed, I had no objection. As we got closer my hands moved from his neck to the bottom of his shirt, tugging at the hem. He lifted his arms up so I could pull it off, and I chucked it to the side. With one gentle push we both landed on my bed, and Frank moved down to kiss my neck. I groaned, and pulled him back up so I could kiss him again. He lifted my shirt, so I stuck my arms up, and he took it off, chucking it with his shirt. I moved my hand down to his belt, playing with it before taking it off as well. He rolled us over, so I was on top, and kissed me again. I played with his pants, until finally undoing the zipper, and I was about to pull them off when my door opened.

"Hey Julia are you awake......oh my god I am so sorry guys, I'll ummm.......go talk to Gerard, sorry" Ray said, blushing and shutting my door. I lay there in shock.

"Did he just.......walk in?" I asked, laughing

"Yeah" Frank said

"Okay" I said, and I kissed him again, this time taking off his pants without Interruption.

"Hey, not fair" he said, and I felt my bra tighten as he undid the back, before It falling off me.

"Oh Really?" I said, In between kisses.

"Really" he said, slipping his hand down my pants.

"Zipper is on the front Idiot" I said, rubbing my hand across his chest, moving my pelvis up and down with his, our hip bones grinding. I could feel him getting hard.

"I knew that" he said, and he pulled his hand out and undid my zipper before taking my pants off. He looked down at my panties.

"Damn Panties" he said, breathing heavily.

"Damn boxers" I said back, before reaching down to take them off.

"Oh no. You see, these boxers don't come off unless you use your teeth" he said

"Oh Really? Better bend over then Frankie boy cuz I'm not going down there" I said, laughing. He laughed as well, and I slowly kissed him on his lips, then the neck, his chest, hip bones, before taking off his boxers. I looked up at him, and raised an eyebrow. I knew he was going to like this, and I knew I was as well. Everything from then on was a blur.

I woke up in the morning In Frank's arms. It felt really good; I was half asleep, half awake, and then I heard voices.

"Huh... I can't tell. Can you?" "Nah man. They could have. But It looks like they still have their clothes on... or Not, I dunno, you could have stopped them from doing any thing"

"I have an Idea- let's look for the camera!"

"Dude! Shhhh!"

"Sorry..."

The voices sounded really familiar. But beings I was still half sleeping, my brain didn't process who they were. I couldn't bring up any names. So, I opened my eyes, and lifted my head, only a little, to see who it was. I looked from underneath the covers; I had somehow buried myself and Frank Into during the night, and saw Gerard, Mikey and Ray walking around my room. Oh My God... What are they doing here? I closed my eyes again, hoping they would just leave. Then it hit me. Ray must have told them. Crap.

"Dude! She's awake!" I heard Mikey say, then I felt them all staring at me. I rolled over and gave them the finger, groaning.

"Well, aren't we a sneaky girl!" Gerard said, sitting on my bed.

"Shut up, just let us sleep" I said, whining

"Nah, you're already awake, and Frankie is soon to be" said Ray, and he, Gerard and Mikey all started jumping on my bed. I groaned again, and whacked their legs. I felt Frankie stir, then wake up.

"What the fuck?" he said, yawning. He rolled over to face me.

"Do they know?" he whispered.

"Ray told them" I whispered back. He groaned, looking up at the ceiling.

"C'mon sleeping beauty.......UP!" Gerard screamed into our ears.

"Fuck off Gerard, we'll get up in a sec" Frank said, rolling back over to face me.

"No, up now!" he said. I looked up and saw that Mikey and Ray had left the room.

"Gee, I don't need another Dad to tell me what to do. Fuck off" I said.

"Well FINE! You go do Frank again and I'll just wait outside" he said, before walking out of my room, and slamming the door.

"What was HIS problem" Frank said, kissing me on the nose.

"Morning sunshine" I said, kissing him on the lips and letting his tongue slid into my mouth again. I put my leg up on his hip, and he grabbed my bum, pushing me closer to him. I moaned into his mouth, feeling him against me.

"Am I allowed? Or are we scared of Big Bad Gerard coming in and catching us?" he said, giving me an evil grin between kisses

"I'm not scared at all" I said, and I felt Frankie push inside me. We were still naked from last night. I pushed my pelvis towards him as he thrust into me more and more. I groaned again, and dug my finger nails into his back. He seemed to like this, as he pushed faster and harder every time I did. I reached climax as he did, and slowly he pulled out of me and lay next to me, putting his arm around my neck, pulling me close.

"What would you call this?" he asked, kissing me on the head.

"What, us?" I asked

"Yeah"

"Ummm.......I doesn't know what you mean.....Like, are we dating? I really hope you didn't say all that before to get me into bed" I said, giving him the I'm-warning-you look.

"Of course not! And yeah, like, would you go out with me? I've never felt this way before, you're really an amazing person" he asked

"Of course I'll go out with you" I said, blushing, and I kissed him again.

"Frank! You finished getting laid? We need to talk," said Gerard from the other side of the door.

"So he wasn't lying when he said he'd wait outside" I said, getting up, then realising I was naked and grabbing his shirt before putting It on. He laughed.

"Looks good on you" he said, getting up as well and putting on his boxers and pants. I pulled on my panties and pants, before giving him back his shirt and putting on my bra and mine. He walked over to me and kissed me.

"You're beautiful" he whispered, then disappeared out the door. I smiled. I walked into the bathroom, and ran a bath. I splashed some bubble bath Into It, before sinking Into Its warmth. I fell asleep before long, dreaming about Frankie and me. I couldn't believe it. I was dating Frankie Iero, I was sister to Gerard and Mikey Way, and my best friend was dating Mikey Way. I woke to find Gerard sitting next to me. Luckily the bubbles stopped him seeing any thing.

"Can I talk to you again Jules?" he asked

"Yeah, for sure" I said "just let me dry off and I'll come out". With that Gerard left the room and I got out of the bath and dried myself off. I walked into my walk-In-robe (has door from bathroom as well) and grabbed my 'Used' t-shirt and my black pants and converse. I then walked into my bedroom, to find Gerard pacing.

"Gee, what's wrong?" I asked.

"I don't think you should get Involved with Frank, Julia" he said, looking me in the eye. I could tell he was deadly serious.

"Why? And what was that talk this morning for?" I asked.

"The talk was about you. Julia, he has a girlfriend back in New Jersey. Well, actually, a fiancee back in New Jersey. I, I just don't want you to get hurt, I love you too much. As a brother, that is" he said. I was almost crying. I really liked Frankie; I didn't think he was that kind of person, because Gerard wasn't lying. I could tell.

"Oh Jules, please don't cry, I'm sorry" he said, bringing me close for a hug. I hugged him back, in tears. "Shhhh...don't cry Princess" he whispered, rubbing my back. I pulled away, and ran out of my room. I stood in the hallway. I needed to get out now. I ran down the hallway and ran Into Ava.

"Babe, what's wrong? Julia?" she asked as I ran past her. Frankie was standing at the top of the stairs, and he grabbed my arm as I tried to rush past him as well.

"Julia, what's wrong?" he asked, out of shear concern.

"Is it true Frankie? IS IT FUCKING TRUE?" I screamed. He just looked at me, then let go of my arm and looked at the ground.

"So you slept with me, you said you LIKED ME, that I was some AMAZING PERSON you had never met before........when you had a fiancee?" I whispered the last part, so Ava didn't hear. He still didn't reply, so I shook my head, and ran down the stairs, past the lounge and out the door, continuing my way down the driveway and through the gates. I couldn't do this, not now, not ever. I was going back into my depression, and I could feel it. I didn't want them to see me like this. I reached into my pocket and luckily found my phone and wallet. I looked back up at the house through a gap in the fence, and I could see people leaving, but I couldn't see who. So I continued to run, until I found a main road. There, I called the cab, and half hid myself in a house fence. I saw Gerard and Ray drive past, obviously searching for me. Then the cab pulled up, and I hoped in.

"The Airport please" I asked. Once there, I paid the driver and ran Inside. I knew they would come and search here soon as well. I ran to the line, and got to a free desk quickly.

"One ticket to Melbourne, Australia please. A soon as possible If possible" I said, grabbing my Id and money.

"We have a flight leaving in half an hour to Melbourne, but you will have to hurry" the lady said and she processed my papers and I ran. I really didn't want to be found. I just wanted to get home. I got through customs easily because I didn't have bags, and boarded the plane with time to spare. As we moved away from the terminal, I started to cry. Every thing was going from right to wrong in point five of a second.

We landed In Melbourne after what seemed a century, and I hoped off the plane, my face still tear drenched. I stepped out into the beautifully warm air, thankful to be home. I hailed a taxi and went straight home. I just wanted to see my family, my real family. I was really confused. I hoped out of the cab, looking up at home. I handed him the correct cash, and walked up to the front door. I sighed. Home sweet home. I got my key out and shoved It into the lock. I turned the key and opened the door, the scent of my family streaming over me. I shut the door behind me and turned to see Lily rushing towards me. I collapsed into her arms, crying again. She held me, and soon we were joined by my parents and Alex. They sat me down in the lounge and I explained every thing that had happened through the whole week and a bit.

"What about all your clothes Jules, they are still there!" said Mum, in tears. Mum had always been very emotional.

"I know, but I can't go back mum, and I don't know why, It Is just so......." I said, running my hand through my hair.

"Here, Lily and I will go get everything for you Jules, but only if you ring them and tell them that you are safe and at home, okay?" said Alex.

"Deal" I said, and hugging him. They left straight away, with money from mum and dad, and I grabbed the phone, and walked into my room. Before dialling, I heard a knock on the door, and dad walked in

. "I'm very proud of you Jules, for coming back home. Although it doesn't seem like It, It really shows true strength" he said, before kissing my head and heading to my door.

"Thanks dad, and you will always be my dad, okay?" I said, and he smiled

"Always" he said, and shut my door. I looked down at the phone, dreading having to call Gerard, but I knew I had too. I dialled the houses' number, and it rang for about 3 rings before being picked up.

"Hello? Julia?" It was Ray.

"Hey Ray" I said

"Oh my god Julia, where are you? Jules?" he said, he sounded really worried

"Can you put Gerard on please?" I asked, starting to cry

"Anything for you babe" he said, and I heard him scream "GEE! IT'S JULIA! QUICK!" Then he handed over the phone.

"Julia? Where are you, we'll come get you! Please, are you okay?" he asked, more worried then Ray sounded.

"Gee, I'm at home, with my family" I said, crying

"Why babe? Please come back, who cares about Frank, we all love you too much, please, I loved having you with us, please Julia, come back" he said, I could hear him choking back tears. I felt really bad, this was my entire fault. I heard every one else in the back ground now, shouting to me, telling me to come home.

"Gee, Alex and Lily are coming up very soon to collect all my stuff, I can't come back. I'm in love with Frankie. I can't do this Gee" I said

"Okay" he said, in tears, and he hung up. I cried so hard. I had made the biggest mistake of my life, but I knew it was right. I knew I had to have left that house, or I would have gotten depressed. It was an amazing week, but it had to stop. I fell asleep before long, and woke the next day at about 4 in the afternoon. I heard my door open.

"You're awake. Lily and Alex have just arrived; they should be back by the day after next. Don't worry Jules". I could smell my mum, and it comforted me.

"Thank you mum, I don't know what I would do with out you" I said, and I hugged her. She left my room, and I rolled over to look at my drum kit. I wanted to play. I got up and sat on the stool. I picked up the sticks and smashed the hell out of it. It made me feel better. I looked around, seeing Ava's electric guitar and Kaity's bass. We were in a band called 'Grand Total', and we always practised at my house, so they just left their Instruments here. Then I remembered Kaity. She was away at the moment with her boyfriend, so I shook off the Idea of calling her. I looked at my clock; it was 5:30 pm. I really didn't feel like eating, so I went back to bed. I heard the phone ring, and mum picked it up. I could hear her muffled voice.

"Hello?"

"She's asleep sorry"

"It was her decision"

"Okay, I'll go see"

I knew it was one of the guys, or Ava. I sat up as I heard mum's footsteps getting closer. I'll talk, I thought. She opened my door, and saw me awake.

"Yes, she's awake, I'll put her on" she said, and handed me the phone.

"Hello?" I croaked into the phone.

"Hey babe, Gee told me you were in Melbourne, and why" It was Ava, and I was glad.

"I'm in love with him, Ava? And he used me............he fucking used me" I said

"Baby, please come back, Frankie won't stop smoking, Gee won't talk, Mikey just paces and Ray is trying to put all the pieces back together! We can't go on with out you" she said.

"Don't make me feel worse then I do. I can't. Tell them to get over it!" I screamed into the phone and I hung up on her. I burst into tears again. I couldn't stop the tears just falling down my face. The phone rang again, so I picked it up before any one else in the house could.

"What" I whispered.

"I'm sorry" Frankie whispered back

"Sure you are. You fucking used me" I said

"Julia please. I've just called her, it's over. Julia, I love you, please come home" he sounded really hurt

"Frankie, I love you too, more then I could love any one"

"So you'll come home?" he asked. I went quiet and hung up. I wanted to die. I couldn't live any more. I had to die. I ran into the bathroom and locked the door. I opened the medicine cupboard, and saw a packet of Panadol. I emptied the almost full back, then ran a bath, and grabbed out my razor, picking out one of the blades. I cut both wrists, feeling the blood rush down my arm, and it felt good. I hopped into the bath, and looked up at the ceiling, before blacking out.

15 minutes later I was found, barely alive.

Ava's POV

I got off the phone to Bob; he was in England with his girlfriend. I couldn't believe Julia was in Melbourne. I was really worried about her. She sounded really confused when I talked to her, and she screamed at me. She has never, in the whole 10 years I have known her, screamed at me. Never even raised her voice. She is not that kind of person. I walked into my bedroom, where Mikey was sleeping. I snuggled under the covers, up beside him. He rolled over; I could see he hadn't slept at all.

"What did she say?" he asked

"She's not coming back, at least for a while" I said. His face fell; I hated seeing him like this. I hated seeing all the guys like this.

"It'll be okay baby" I said, and I hugged him, him hugging me back. We fell asleep that night in each others arms. I woke to screaming. Ray ran in, panicking.

"What's wrong?" I asked

"It's Julia, She tried to kill herself. She's in hospital. C'mon, we're flying over!" he shouted. Mikey and I both sprang out of bed, and quickly got dressed, before grabbing wallets, phones and some clothes and shoving them into a bag. We ran downstairs as Frankie was locking up and Gerard and Ray were starting up the car. We all jumped in and sped off to the airport in silence. When we got there I guess we were all in shock, no one was showing any emotion. Luckily we got a flight that was leaving in half an hour, so we ran through the airport and hoped in the plane in no time. As soon as my arse hit the aeroplane chair I burst into tears. Julia couldn't die. Not now, not ever.

"She just can't die!" I whispered to Mikey.

"Shhhh...everything will be okay" he said, resting my head on his shoulder. Straight away I fell asleep. I woke to Gee pushing me.

"We're here! C'mon!" he said, and we ran off the plane and through Melbourne airport. We stepped out into the warm Melbourne air, and hailed a taxi. I directed the driver to Julia's house, where we were going to dump our stuff then head into the hospital. Everything was a blur. The next thing I knew I was running through the hospital with the guys, searching for room 875. As we approached it, Alex and Lily exited the room. They turned and saw us.

"Is she okay?" I asked, and I could feel all the guys edging towards her door.

"No. The doctors aren't sure is she is going to live. THIS IS YOUR ENTIRE FUCKING FAULT!" Lily lunged herself at Frankie, and Ray and Alex tried to hold her back. She kept screaming, and finally she gave up and fell into Alex's arms, crying.

"If she dies, I hope you never sleep again" she whispered, and Alex led her out of the hospital. We looked through the window, and saw Julia lying in the bed, looking fragile and so small with all the machines around her. Her mum and dad were beside her bed. Her mum saw us and walked out.

"She is not allowed any stress. Ava, and you three, you can come in. Frank, I don't think it is wise for you to be here, and I don't know why you have bothered" she said, looking at him with disgust. I couldn't blame her, she needed some one to blame, and he was it. She led us into Julia's room, and I felt sick.

"We'll leave you alone with her" her Dad said, and both her parents left her room. I started to cry. Julia was my best friend, she couldn't die. I saw her eyes flutter. I hurried to her bedside and held her hand.

"Jules, it me, Ava. I'm really sorry, please, wake up Julia, please" I said, crying. She opened her eyes, and I could see tears building up in them.

"Why didn't they let me die?" she whispered, and I burst out crying, like a hungry infant. She was crying too. I couldn't imagine what she was thinking. We stayed with her for another 5 hours, just talking to her; she fell asleep after one hour. She woke at 11:00 pm.

"Are all the guys still here?" she asked

"Yeah, they are outside getting coffee at the moment though" I said, still clutching onto her hand.

"Can you tell them to come please?" she whispered.

"Of course" I said, and I left the room and tried to find the guys. After 5 minutes I located them and we walked back to Julia's room as a nurse walked out.

"She's awake and talking, but one person at a time, okay?" she said, so Mikey walked in. We all sat down, waiting for our turn. About 10 minutes later he came out in tears, and Ray went in. Mikey sat next to me, in silence, I hugged him, and every one was in a state of shock.

"Can I go in next?" Gee asked.

"Of course" I said, and when Ray came out Gerard went in. I felt so sick, like I was about to puke. As much as I tried to be optimistic, I knew things weren't going to go back the way they were.

Julia's POV

I felt Ray kiss my cheek, and then leave. I thought I was alone, so I opened my eyes. I saw Gerard's face.

"Babe..." he whispered, rushing to my bed and taking my hand. He kissed my forehead, and sat down next to me. We talked for a bit, and then lay there in silence. I rolled over; I couldn't stand to see his face. He left a little while after, and Frankie came in. I sat up, and he rushed over.

"I'm so sorry Jules" he whispered.

"It's not your fault" I whispered. I leaned over and kissed his lips. He kissed me back, with the love of one thousand people.

"I love you Julia" he said, and I lay back down. I was so weak, but I really wanted to talk to him. He asked a lot of questions, and I answered as well as I could. After about an hour I was getting extremely weak and tired, so I closed my eyes. We were in silence for about another 10 minutes.

"Marry Me" Frankie whispered. I opened my eyes as far as I could.

"Yes" I whispered, but I knew I wasn't going to be alive to walk down the isle. I started to cry. I regretted leaving the house. I regretted not being able to cope. I regretted taking the easy way out.

"Frankie, would you please send my family in?" I asked, referring to Lily, Alex, mum and dad. Before he left he kissed me, and I placed my cold hand on his cheek. He pulled off his iron ore ring and slid it on my finger. I smiled at him, and he smiled back.

"I love you too Frankie" I whispered. He left, and my family rushed in. We talked for a bit, but I still felt weak. Realising this, my family left, and Ava came in. I couldn't do this any more. As much as I wanted to live, it wouldn't be the same. I was so confused.

Ava's POV

I walked in again, and she looked smaller then ever. I couldn't believe what was happening. I rushed over to her bed, talking her cold hand and trying to warm it up. I felt something on her hand, and saw Frankie's ring on her ring finger. I looked at her questioningly and she smiled, and then looked me square in the eyes; I could tell she was having trouble breathing.

"Tell them I love them, especially Frankie. I wish I could walk down the isle with him" she whispered, then shut her eyes. I heard the soft beeping disappear into one single, long sound, taking her life away from ours. And she was dead. I burst out crying, and a nurse raced in. I ran out of the room, I couldn't stand to see what was happening. I didn't want to be here. She couldn't be dead. Every one stood up.

"She's......... she's dead" I whispered, before crying again, and hiding my face in my hands. I couldn't stop the tears; they just kept streaming down my face. Mikey ran to me, hugging me tight. Ever one was crying, and screaming, apart from Frankie. He just sat there, not even blinking. I cried harder, and ran over to him, hugging him. As soon as my body collided with his, he burst out crying like the rest of us.

Julia's funeral was beautiful, there were candles everywhere. Gerard, Frankie, Lily and I spoke, and the church was full. Full with people Julia had affected, she was such an amazing person.

Gerard, Mikey, Ray, Bob, Frankie and Alex all carried her coffin to the hearse, and we all took the same car to the graveyard. There, we released doves, and placed red and black roses on her coffin. I couldn't believe she was dead, so many people loved her. So many. Her tomb stone was beautiful, it said

Julia Ciana Anderson

1983 - 2005

'I love everyone, especially those who love me back'

We decided to put her last name as Anderson, because that is what she would have wanted. She was more an Anderson then a Way, or even an Iero. One year later, Lily and Alex are married and have just had a little girl, Julia. I still visit Julia's grave every week, and many times I run into Gerard or Frank. The band is still together, but the guys just aren't the same.

No-one is.

Mikey and I broke up after Julia's funeral, I just couldn't stand to be around Frank, and he was still part of the band. I still cry myself to sleep sometimes, and wonder what would have happened if Julia hadn't left us. I've come to terms with her never coming back, but I still can't understand why.

Why god would would let an angel die.

- Fin -

Feedback to morerainydays@hotmail.com Thanks guys