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I slid down further on the couch, watching him out of the corner of my eye.

He was curled up on the other end, and we were watching some cheesy old romance film.

"God, are you actually into this?" He asked, laughing as I shook my head, watching some chick on the screen slap the man she had previously been kissing.

I shrugged.

"But It's not that bad..."

"It's crap." He laughed again.

I turned and glared at him gently.

"Well Gerard, if you don't like it, you don't have to watch it." I said before turning back to the screen.

He shook his head and stood up, walking towards his kitchen.

I sighed and listened to the rain hitting the roof as I watched the credits begin to roll.

I closed my eyes, imagining that I could be one of the leading ladies in one of those films.

Just...so I could have someone who loved me.

The phone rang, and I heard Gee pick it up, and after the first hello, his voice took on the sickeningly syrupy tone it only took with one person.

Diane.

I shook my head, standing up and stretching slightly.

'Thought he fucking told her we were hanging out tonight...Bitch.'

I...couldn't help but hate her.

She was all wrong for him.

She was a bitch, she was going out with him so she could get some 'rebel status'.

Of course Gee didn't believe a word of what he heard from people.

Just thought they were trying to break them up.

...Which is why I never said a word.

Didn't want him thinking I was jealous.

'Cuz there's no way that's possible...'

...Shut up, brain.

I sighed after a few minutes of sitting there and listening to his voice.

I hated it.

I hated her.

I hated him around her.

I hated them together.

I stood up quickly and made my way through the small kitchen to the front door.

"Di, I uh, oh, wait." - He looked up at me. - "Where ya goin Drea?" He asked, smiling.

I grunted and shrugged, pulling on my shoes before walking out the door.

I knew full well where I was heading.

He... Should.

But, he's to wrapped up in his precious Diane to notice or know shit right now.

I ignored the first few cold, wet droplets to hit my face, but pretty soon, my arms had broken out in Goosebumps.

I rubbed my arms as I made my way over to the small park that lay at the end of Gee and I's street.

I was probably already soaked to the skin by the time I fell down onto one of the four empty swings, but I was to cold to notice anymore.

'She looks a lot like me...He's always going on about how pretty she is...Why can't he see that in me? Especially if we look alike-'

"Drea?"

...Fucker.

Interrupt my thoughts.

He was smiling at me softly as he made his way over to the swings, holding a hoodie with him.

I smirked at how wet he was, knowing I must have been worse off.

"What...was that about?" He asked, standing in front of me and trying to get me to get off the swing.

"Surprised you noticed." I grumbled, looking down.

Hey, I'm allowed to be a bitter sonofabitch.

I've known this kid forever...and he goes for a chick that looks exactly like me, but meaner?

Say what the fuck! Y'know?

He cocked an eyebrow and crossed his arms over his chest, holding back shivers.

"What the hell does that mean?"

"Oh, with precious Di around, I'm surprised you know anyone else exists."

Ooooh, I didn't want to sound that bitter.

"Fuck, Drea, c'mon-"

"No, Gee. No." I said, shaking my head slowly.

"All I wanted to do was spend some time with my best friend without the bitch being around, and she fucking phones!" I said, using my hands to emphasize how frustrated I was.

"Drea..." He started quietly, shaking his head.

"NO! I mean, fuck, you're one of the few people I have who I know actually gives a shit about me. And I'm losing you to her?!" I said, standing up off the swing and glaring at him as a bolt of lightning cut through the sky.

"You're not losin-"

"Yes, I am!" I yelled, holding back tears now.

"You can't see it, but I can! She's slowly pulling you away. Soon she'll start mentioning that she's not comfortable with you and I being so close, and of course, for Di you'll slit your own fucking throat! So, what's dropping a friend you've known for years, right?!" I yelled, ignoring the lump in my throat and the incessant burning in my eyes.

"I'm fucking sick of all this! I mean, fuck, I know I'm going to fucking end up alone...but I don't wanna lose you as a fucking friend! I mean, I couldn't fucking deal with that." I said, slowly starting to pace back and forth.

I probably shouldn't be spilling so much on him at one time, like I said, I hadn't told him shit about how I felt about Diane at all.

But, it seems that everything was pouring out of me faster then the rain was falling now...

"I mean, god fucking damn it Gerard! Why can't it be me?" I said, sounding completely defeated.

"W-what?" He asked, His eye wide and his arms dropping to the his sides slowly.

"I said, why. Can't. She. Be. Me?! I mean, we look so much alike...but...we're so different. I love you Gerard...she's using you to cover ground!"

"D-Drea...I-"

"Oh, go fuck yourself! Go back to your precious fucking-"

"I love you."

"-Di, and I hope you have a wonderful-"

"Drea, I love you."

"-Fucking life and...Wait, what?"

"I. Love. You."

I stood there, staring at him as he shivered, his breath escaping in small clouds, his hair plastered to his face as he smiled softly.

"You...l-love?" I asked stupidly, tilting my head to the side, trying to take in what he said.

I saw him smirk a bit and nod, and the next thing I knew, as another bolt of lightning ran across the sky, I was in his arms, kissing him.

Or well, he was kissing me, considering I was still almost completely in shock.

He pulled away and pushed my damp hair away from my face, smiling.

"Did you ever stop to think about why most of my girlfriends looked like you?" He asked, shaking his head, smiling, but I could see the tears in his eyes.

I shook my head and he only laughed softly, kissing me lightly, sending shivers down my spine.

I knew these shivers weren't from the rain and the cold though...

"Cuz I couldn't have you..." He whispered, pulling me to him, holding me tightly.

"You...you could have..." I said, still in disbelief that any of this was actually happening.

He laughed softly and looked down.

"How was I to know? You're quite good when it comes to secrets! You know that..."

We both smiled, and I mumbled,

"Mhmm, I'm so like, the national bank of secrets..."

"Exactly..."

He kissed me again, this time longer, more passionately.

"I say we go back to your place, dry off, and you call Di and dump her sorry tailcoat popularity riding ass!" I said with a smirk.

He smiled and nodded.

"Sounds good to me, love..."

He wrapped his arm around me and we turned around, headed back towards his place.

"...Sounds good to me."