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(Lilly's POV)

"Lilly! Come on!" My new best friend Mikey says as he pulls me into his house for the first time.

"Mikey?" A guy voice calls.

"Yea Gerard?" Mikey yells back. A tall teenage boy steps out of the living room.

"Hey Mikey. Who is your...Friend?" The boy asks as he studies me. I look at Mikey and smile.

"Her name is Lilly. She is the new neighbor you refused to meet yesterday, her and her family."

"Oh!" he says. "Hello!" He smiles and extends his arm. "I'm Gerard!"

"Hi..." I say shaking his hand while studying his features, short black hair, pale complexion, smooth skin, captivating smokey hazel/green eyes, and full pink lips. I look at Mikey, who is smiling widely, and I feel Gerard kiss my hand. I blush and Mikey pulls me up to his room.

"So...Sorry about that." Mikey says

"He's cute!" I giggle.

"Really...Wow!" He giggles. I blush and sit on the floor. "Want to play DDR?" He asks. I jump up in excitement.

"Hell yea! Your going down!" I say as he sets up the mat and turns on the TV and game system.

"You wish! I could beat you in a heart beat!"

"Want to bet?"

"$10!"

"Your on!"

We play for a long time, until Mikey's mom, Donna, calls us down for dinner.

"Your going down after dinner!" I warn. He smiles and sits on the end, leaving me a spot next to Gerard.

"I figured I'd let you sit next to Gerard!" He says. Gerard looks at me, smiles, and pats the seat. I take a deep breath and sit down.

"So. Lilly...where did you move to New Jersey from?" Gerard asks.

"California, Los Angeles."

"LA? Wow did you meet anyone famous?" Donna asks.

"Actually...I have met a couple. Tom Hanks, Jim Carey, and Julia Roberts."

"Really? Wow...so how old are you?" Gerard asks.

"18."

"Me too! Birthday?" He asks

"Valentines Day! Yours?" I ask.

"April 9th. Valentines Day huh? Day of romance, love, and passion."

"Yea...Next month actually."

"Are you doing anything special? Throwing a party?" Donna asks. I shake my head no. "Why not?"

"Personal reasons." Donna sets a plate in front of me. "Thank you!"

"Any time!" She says. "So any siblings?"

"Yea...an older brother...named Ville"

"Cool."

"Yea...he is pretty cool. You guys should meet him." I say. The Gerard and Mikey nod.

"What's your last name?" Gerard asks

"Valo."

We eat a silent dinner and Gerard cleans up my plate for me. I smile and thank him as Mikey pulls me back to his room. I pull off my hoodie and fan myself, looking down at my blue tank top.

"What's that from?" Mikey asks, pointing to my neck. I cover a scar and turn away from him quickly.

"I-I fell when I was little...and cut open my neck on a sharp edged table. Its nothing really."

"Oh!" He says. I sigh and turn back around.

"Look...I can't lie to you! My mother and I fight a lot...and my mom pushed me and I fell into the kitchen counter, knocking knives...and one fell and sliced my neck."

"Is that why you're not throwing a party? You mother?"

"Yea."

"I'm sorry...I shouldn't be asking you about your personal life." "Its okay. I need someone to trust...and you're my only friend."

"If you ever need me...I'll always be here to talk to you...about anything!" He says. I nod and hug him. There is a knock on the door.

"Lilly...your parents want you home." Donna says. I get up; hug Mikey once more, then Donna leads me downstairs. "I've asked Gerard to walk you home. Okay?"

"Yes. Thank you for letting me stay for dinner!"

"It was a pleasure having you. Come back over everyday if you'd like!" I smile and hug her. Gerard walks into the hall with a smile on his face. He opens the door and we step onto the porch. "You be safe now!" Donna says as Gerard and I leave.

"Beautiful night isn't it?" I ask as I look up at the sky.

"Yea! Look! The first star! Make a wish!" He says and closes his eyes. I close my eyes and wish hard. I wish that Gerard would know how I really feel about him. I open my eyes and shiver. I feel his eyes on me so I look at him. "Cold?" He giggles. I nod and he stops, pulling me closer to his body. I feel relaxed/safe in his arms and I loosen up a little bit. His hands move to my shoulders, then to my arms where he rubs gently. I look into his eyes and smile.

"Thanks!" I whisper. He keeps a hold of me and we start walking again.

"No problem...so. How do you like Dirty Jersey so far?"

"Its cool...I've made my room to my liking."

"Really? How is that?"

"My walls are crimson with black trim. My ceiling is black and since it's a drop ceiling, the track is crimson. Oh! And Iron Maiden posters on my walls."

"Black and red? You do know what those colors actually mean...right?"

"No. What?"

"Their sex colors."

"Wow! Well...red is my favorite color. You should see my car!"

"You got a car?"

"Yea! A red corvette...it's my baby!"

"Sweet! I want one. With a license plate that reads 'KNIVES' I think it will look so cool!"

"Can you drive?"

"Nah! I got my permit! I'm going to the DMV tomorrow to get my license...Do you have yours?"

"Yep! My dad works at the DMV...so he tests me at home."

"Lucky!"

"Well he started working at the DMV around here...so if you're going to that one maybe you'll get him."

"Maybe! So is that your house? The one with the red car in the driveway?"

"Yea..." We walk up to the front door of my house. I look at his face and smile. "Y-You want to come in" I ask. He smiles and nods. I open my door and walk inside, holding his hand for him to follow. "I'm home!" I yell and pull Gerard upstairs to my room. I turn on my light and sit on my bed, the crimson satin sheets sending chills up my spine causing me to shiver.

"Nice room!" Gerard says and sits down next to me. He smiles and lies down, pulling me down with him. "Your eyes are beautiful!" He says.

"So are yours!" I say and look around my room. I feel his lips touch my arm and move up to my neck. I inhale sharply as he runs his fingers down my arm, and across my thighs. My bedroom door is flung open and my mom comes in yelling.

"Who is this?" She yells. "One of your sex buddies? You slut!"

"Mom!" I yell. She walks over to the bed and grabs my hair, pulling me out of the room, slamming the door shut. "Mom let me go!" I demand.

"No! Slut!" she says and stops at the top of the staircase.

"Mom! No! Not the stairs!" I plead. "He's a friend! A neighbor! Please mom not the stairs!" I cry. She pushes me into the wall and pushes me down the stairs. I tumble down the stairs and hit the landing, hard. She runs down after me and grabs my wrist, pulling me into the kitchen. "Mom! Stop! Please!" I beg.

"Shut the fuck up you whore!" She yells and punches me in the stomach. "I'm sick and tired of you bringing home your sex buddies. Each week...no Day is someone new!"

"Mom! They were all just friends! I'm not a slut!" I yell back and punch her in her mouth. She grabs a knife and throws it at me. I duck and the knife hits the wall. I look at her and she punches me in my left eye. I hear the front door open, as she grabs another knife, and my dad starts yelling at her. She drags me to the stairs and pushes me onto them, whacking my head on them.

"Go to your room! And never come out!" She yells. I wipe my eyes, pain searing through my left eye, and start walking up the staircase. I get to the top, look up, and I see Gerard in tears.

"Are you okay?" He asks. I shake my head and feel my legs give out. He grabs my arm and picks me up, carrying me to my room. "Your coming to my house for the night!" I shake my head no.

"I'll be fine! I'm used to it!" I whisper. He lays me on my bed and goes into my dresser, getting out all sorts of clothing; socks, bra and matching thong, a red and black plaid skirt, and a black Iron Maiden Tee-shirt. He gets my book bag and shoves them in, zippering it, then putting it on his back.

"Come on! Your coming to my house!" I lay still and he picks me up bridal style, carrying me down the steps, and out the door, my mom watching from the kitchen the whole time.

"I've got to tell my dad!"

"Fine! But be quick!" I nod and open the door. I close it behind me and my mom greets me by grabbing my hair and holding a knife up to my neck.

"And where do you think your going?" She asks. I pull away and the knife breaks the skin. She swings the knife and it gashes deeply across my stomach to my arm. I fall to the floor and lay there as she walks away, satisfied. I pull myself to the bottom of the stairs and Gerard comes in. He picks me up bridal style and carries me to his house.

"Mom!" He yells as he enters the house. He lays me on the couch and Donna comes into the room.

"Oh my! What happened?" She asks as she picks me up.

"S-she can't go home! She...will be abused!" Gerard exclaims. Donna carries me into the kitchen and sits me on the table. I hear Gerard's footsteps run up the stairs, and both his and Mikey's footsteps running down them.

"Lilly" Mikey says and hugs me by my waist. Donna covers my cuts and gets an icepack.

"Here. Keep this on your eye." She hands me the icepack wrapped in a washcloth. I place it on my eye and hug Mikey back. Gerard sits in a chair in front of me and watches Donna leave the room.

"Gerard! I'm so sorry for what you just saw!" I say. He sighs and looks at me.

"I'm sorry that your mom is like that." He says. I pull him into a hug and sit on his lap crying, painfully, on his shoulder.

"I should have told you before I asked you to come in...I told Mikey..." I cry. He rubs my back.

"Shh! Calm down...you're alright now!" He whispers. Donna walks back into the room.

"Lilly you can sleep on the couch." She says. "I've set it up for you. Gerard! Why don't you go downstairs and get her some clothes to sleep in?" Gerard nods and runs his fingers through the ends of my hair, kissing my forehead as he picks me up and sits me on the table again. He disappears down the steps to the basement and Donna leaves again.

"Mikey. I need to talk to you!" I say nervously.

"Well I'm glad you trust me." He says and hugs me. "Go ahead."

"Well...I don't know where to start." I sigh, tears building up.

(Mikey's POV)

"Start with what happened today." I say. She sighs.

"Well...I asked Gerard to come in...and I brought him up to my room." She says and runs her fingers over her bandaged arm. "We were laying on my bed, not doing anything, and she came in assuming we were having sex. She thinks I'm a slut who brings home guys to have sex with...a new one everyday." Tears trickle down her cheeks. "She thinks I'm not a virgin."

"You are...right?" I ask, seeing Gerard in the doorway, 20 feet behind her.

"Yes! There's only one guy that I would let take it...at this age."

"Who?" I ask smiling; already knowing the answer is Gerard.

"Mikey! Stop being an ass!" Gerard huffs. Lilly jumps and spins around, looking at him.

"Uhh...H-hi! U-umm" She giggles nervously and rubs the backs of her hands.

"Here is a tee-shirt...and a pair of my boxers. Hopefully they will keep you warm enough."

"Th-thank Y-you." She says. I leave the room, go to my room and get ready for bed.

(Gerard's POV)

"No problem! You can go change in my room." I say. She nods and hugs me. I hug her and breath in deeply, the scent of apples filling my body with warmth. I feel her kiss my cheek before we let go. She walks down to my room and I sit in the chair, putting my hands to my face and sighing deeply.

"You like her don't you Gerard?" My mom asks as she leans onto the doorframe. I look at her and smile.

"Yea...I do. But I'm not too sure she likes me...like that." I sigh. "Mom...what should I do?"

"Don't give up! You've only just met the girl. You cant tell if she likes you...but if you ask me I think she does."

"I think its Mikey she likes...plus...if they do like each other, since Mikey saw her before me, I want him to have the first chance."

"Well isn't that sweet?" Mikey exclaims as he walks into the room. I smile then sigh. "Gee...if you like her go for it! Before it's too late...and she meets somebody else! Cause that somebody else could be...Frankie, Ray, Matt, or even Bob."

"But..."

"No buts Gee! She is my best friend! I love her like that and nothing more." I think about loosing my chance with her, to my best friend Frankie and anger washes over me.

"No!" I say and stand up. I walk down to my room and see Lilly in her bra and underwear asleep on my bed. I cover her up, kiss her cheek, grab; a pillow, drawing book, pencils, colored pencils, and walk back upstairs. I see my mom sitting in the kitchen reading a book called 'Sweet Blood'. She looks at me questioningly.

"Are you okay?"

"Yea...she is asleep...so I figured I wouldn't wake her, and I'd sleep on the couch."

"That's nice of you!" She says. I smirk

"Hey...its not every day you get a beautiful/nice/half-naked girl to sleep in your bed!" I exclaim. She chuckles

"Half naked?!"

"Well...yea...kind of...she had on her bra and underwear."

"And you're not going to stay down there and sleep next to her?"

"No! I don't want to violate her! I want her to like me, not hate me!"

"Well at least I know I taught you that women aren't put on this world for men to take advantage of."

"But I learned to respect women...from watching those gooey love movies and shows." I reply.

"You! Watch mushy love stuff? What about all that blood and gore?"

"Well mom...if you must know...I have a sensitive, caring, gooey love show watching side as well as a hardcore demon side."

"Well there's something new I learned today!"

"Yea...well I'm going to bed! Night mom!" I say and walk slowly to the living room.

"Night Gerard!" She calls after me. I stop and turn back around. I hug her and kiss her cheek.

"I love you!" I say." Thank you for the advice."

"I love you too! Your welcome." She says and kisses my cheek.

I turn around and walk to the living room. I flick the switch for the light, strip to my boxers, lay on the couch, and open the drawing book. I pick up a pencil and draw her asleep, exactly how she was moments ago. I finish coloring it in and stare at it tiredly. She is so beautiful. I want nothing more than to hold her in my arms and kiss away her pain. I think about the walk to her house and think of my wish.I wish that Lilly would like me as much as I like her. I whisper the wish again and again until I feel my eyes close, and the drawing book fall to the floor. I fall asleep thinking about her kissing me passionately in front on a bright, full, blue moon, and the stars being as visible as possible.

7:00 am

I open my eyes and Lilly is sitting in front of me staring at me, passion burning in her eyes. I sit up and see the drawing book in her hands. I smile.

"Morning! Did you sleep well?" I ask. She stays silent and stands up.

"Yea, you're a really good drawer." She says and sits next to me. I look at her and smile.

"Thanks." Her face inches closer to mine until I feel her lips brush mine gently.

"Gerard...I really like you!" She says.

"Lilly...I really like you too!" I say and grab a hold of her hand. "Will you go out with me?"

"Yes Gerard!" She says and kisses my cheek. "Do you remember last night...when I was talking to Mikey about one guy I wanted to 'take my virginity? Do you know who I was talking about?"

"Me?" I ask, shocked. She nods and licks her lips. I pull her to lay down with me, and I look into her eyes resting my hands on her hips. She moves closer and moves my hands to her back. We cuddle and fall asleep almost instantly.

9:00 am (Lilly's POV)

"Lilly! Come on babe wake up." Gerard whispers. I open my eyes and yawn.

"What time is it?" I ask mid-yawn.

"About 9:00 am." Mikey says and sits on the arm of the couch. "Look who's finally awake!"

"Mikey...can I talk to you?" I ask as I stand up.

"Yea...come on." He says as he grabs my arm and pulls me up to his room. "So did you 2...?"

"No...but we go out."

"Yay! So...what did you want to talk about?"

"Well...I'm being honest when I say this...Gerard is my first ever boyfriend! What should I do? How slow should we take it?"

"Wow...your first?" He asks. I nod. "Well you should take it pretty slow! And your next move is an actual date." I sigh and flop onto his bed. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing!" I reply with a smile. "I finally get the guy I want!"

"You're his first as well." He says and sits on the bed next to me. I sit up.

"No way! Are you serious?" He nods. "Wow! So...have you had a girlfriend?"

"Well no! But I have friends that are girls!" He giggles.

"Ohhh! Well do you want a girlfriend?"

"Well...not right now."

"Okay." All of a sudden a younger boy runs into the room and jumps on top of me, as I lay on the bed. Gerard comes running in shortly afterwards yelling:

"Frankie!" I look at Frankie and I'm met by his face close to mine. I study his features; black hair, pink lips with a lip piercing placed on the right side, a nose piercing on the left side, and big hazel/green eyes that makes me catch my breath. He licks his lips and smiles. My heart feels like it skips a beat, and I feel like I'm floating in mid-air.

"Hi...I'm Frankie!" The boy says. I smile.

"I'm Lilly." I say and look at Mikey, who is looking at Gerard. I feel Frankie take my hand and kiss it. I blush and hear Gerard clear his throat.

"Okay...Frankie...can you come here? I need to talk to you." Mikey says and pulls Frankie out of the room. Gerard lies next to me.

"He seems nice." I say nervously, as I cuddle closer to his body.

"He is! He is my best friend!"

"Aww! 2 cuties are best friends." I slip.

"Whoa!" He sits up and looks at me. "You mean...you like Frankie too?"

"Well...yea...your not mad are you?"

"Well...not really." He says and pulls me into his lap and hugs me.

"Lilly!" Mikey calls. I get off of Gerard's lap and walk down stairs.

"What?" I ask as I walk into the living room.

"Guess what!" He asks and hides behind me. Frankie stops in front of me.

"Don't!" Frankie whines as he runs behind me to get to Mikey. I reach my arm out and grab Frankie, pulling him closer to me, farther from Mikey.

"What?" I ask as I hold Frankie closer, feeling his body on mine.

"Frankie likes you!" Mikey sings. I look at Frankie's face and he pulls away from me.

"Mikey! You said you wouldn't tell!" He says and tackles Mikey onto the floor. I smile and feel hands wrap around my stomach. I smell Gerard's scent and fall back into his arms. He kisses my neck, making me giggle. He moves the kisses to my cheek, where he stops before getting to my mouth. I crash my lips to his, and then pull away hearing gasps.

"Oh yea Frankie...I forgot to tell you...they go out. Sorry." Mikey says.

"I-its okay." Frankie says and gets off of Mikey's chest.

"Mikey... can I talk to you again?" I ask. He nods and I kiss Gerard once more on the lips, feeling him return the kiss, and then I run up to Mikey's room.

We get into the room and he shuts the door before sitting on his bed.

"I really like him!" I blurt.

"Gerard?" He asks. I sigh.

"Frankie!" I say and bury my face into my hands.

"Oh! Umm...well..."

"I don't know what to do! I feel like..."

"A slut?" Frankie asks from the door, which he opened slightly. I feel blush creep to my face.

"Well...yea! A whore!" I say.

"How? We didn't do anything" He pauses and smirks. "Yet!" I look down and tears flow into my eyes. Mikey leaves and Gerard comes in.

"Maybe my mom is right...maybe I am a slut!" I say while avoiding their faces.

"Don't say that! Your not a slut!" Gerard says and lifts my chin to look at him. Mikey walks back into the room.

"Maybe everything that happened here was a mistake." I say and stand up.

"What?" They all ask.

"Gerard...I'm sorry...I have to...We have to. Oh god I'm sorry!" I say and run out of the room. I run home in the pouring rain, and sit in my room crying.

(Gerard's POV)

I look at Mikey, my heart shattering into little pieces.

"Did she just break up with you?" Frankie asks.

"Yes!" I snap and walk out of the room, walking down to my bedroom. I lock the door, and I flop onto my bed. I listen to the sound of the pouring rain beat against the window above my bed. I stand up onto my bed and open it up all the way. I climb out and scrape my leg on the concrete. I have to get out. Run away as far as possible...no...I can't. But what about my family, Frankie, Lilly. God help me! What should I do? I fall back onto the grassy area and look up at the sky, my frustration building deep inside me.

(Mikey's POV)

"Wow." I sigh. "Come on Frankie!" I say as I grab Lilly's hoodie and put it on.

"Where are we going?" He asks.

"Lilly's! We need to get her back!"

We walk downstairs and knock on Gerard's bedroom door.

"Gee?" I open the door and see the window open. I sigh and walk back upstairs.

"Ready?" Frankie asks.

"Yea...Gerard isn't in his room."

"Where is he?" He asks frantically, his eyes wide.

"I don't know! Get a grip!" I say and look at him. "Why are you so...panicky anyway?"

"Because...I...I'm in love with Gerard...and I don't want anything to happen to him." He says as we walk out the door.

"Your gay?" I ask. "No...bisexual...because you also like Lilly."

"Yea...I'm bisexual. Please don't tell Gerard that I like him."

"I wont...I promise!" I say as we walk towards Lilly's house. I look at the side of my house and see Gerard lying on the ground looking up at the dark gray sky, rain pouring down onto him.

"Gerard!" Frankie says as he runs up to Gerard. Gerard sits up and smiles a sad smile at us. Lightning strikes, making a big blue-ish, white-ish streak in the sky behind Gerard, causing me to jump.

"Frankie and I are going to get Lilly back."

"Good luck...she hates me." Gerard says and falls back onto the grassy area.

"Well...you can think that Gee...but I know the truth. She is crazy about you." I say and start walking back towards Lilly's house.

Frankie catches up to me and sighs.

"You do know the reason why she left right?" I ask him.

"Yea...Me!" he says. "I didn't mean to! I mean...I'm not trying to steal her from Gerard...I was joking about the stuff I said to her."

"She likes you! You don't get it! She left him because she doesn't want to get 'close' to you."

The rest of the walk is silent until we get to her front door. I knock and a tall teenage boy answers the door looking upset.

"Hello." He says with a thick foreign accent." I'm Ville!"

"Hi...I'm Mikey, and this is Frankie, we're friends of Lilly's. Can we see her?"

"I don't know if she is willing to come out of her room. She is pretty upset..." He says looking at the stairs sympathetically. " I can try to get her down...come in please." He says stepping out of the way, letting us in. He closes the door behind us and walks to the stairs. "Lalyndia!" Frankie and I look at each other, confused.

"What?" She yells down calmly.

"Come down here Love!" He says as he walks up the stairs.

"No! I'm not ever coming out!" She says.

(Lilly's POV)

"Johtua model after Armas! I'm sorry...but te can't harus kotona paikalla ainiaaksi!" (Come on Sweetheart! I'm sorry...but you can't stay in there forever!) Ville says from the outside of my bedroom door. I open my door.

"Ja han can't I-kirjain?"(And why can't I?) I ask.

"Koska you're minun vahainen maara sisar lempia te ja I-KIRJAIN tapa antaa te Lempia"(Because you're my little sister...I love you and I wont let you Love!) I smile through tears and he pulls me downstairs, hugging me the whole time and kissing my head. I stop short as I see Mikey and Frankie.

"What are you doing here?" I snap.

"Now Love. Be nice!" Ville says. I sigh.

"We're here to get you back for Gerard!" Frankie says. Ville goes outside for a cigarette.

"No! I'm never coming out! Ever! Until the day I die!" I say harshly. "Hopefully its soon!"

"You made a mistake!" Mikey says.

"Just leave me alone! You, Gerard, and you too Frankie!" I say and turn back to my room.

"Fine. Your loss!" I hear Mikey say, hurt.

I run to my room and bury my face into my pillow, crying hard.

(Frankie's POV)

We turn around and I open the door. Ville walks in and give me an upset look.

"I'm sorry about her. She is just really upset about the whole break up."

"She told you?" Mikey asks.

"Well yea...she and I talk about everything. We have been ever since we lived in Helsinki, Finland."

"Finland?" Mikey exclaims.

"Well yea. Where else did you think we were from?"

"California."

"Well we moved to California, from Helsinki. She didn't tell you?"

"No." Mikey says.

"Oh well...maybe she just needs some time to herself? Why don't you 2 go home and give her about a week to recollect herself."

We nod and leave the house, returning back to the 'Way' household.

"No luck huh?" Gerard asks as we walk through the door.

"Nope!" I say and plop onto the couch hugging Gerard, to comfort him.

(Ville's POV)

I walk up the staircase and hear sobbing from Lalyndia's room. I open her door quietly and sit on her bed.

"Minun epakelpo Lalyndia! Shh! It'll olla hyva"(My poor Lalyndia! Shh! It'll be okay) I say and rub her back gently. She looks up at me, her eyeliner running down her face. I stroke her cheek, wiping the eyeliner away, and she pulls me to lay down with her.

"Huvila can't alusta nyt kuluva tunto kuin hanelle joten hyvin but...I kin kuin Frankeerata ja tokko I-KIRJAIN kuin Frankeerata jotavastoin I'm astuva rikki avulla Kurjenpolvi, I-KIRJAIN mahti Ajaa something...that I-KIRJAIN jalkisaados haikailla ajava koska se jalkisaados olla jokin etta jalkisaados loukkaantunut Kurjenpolvi"(Ville...I can't stand this feeling...I like him so much but...I also like Frankie and if I like Frankie while I'm going out with Gerard, I might Do something...that I will regret doing because it will be something that will hurt Gerard)

"I-KIRJAIN osata! I-KIRJAIN osata Love...what te valmis aatelinen asia. Ainoastaan te kaivata ei panna joten tyontekija jalkeilla luona se. I-KIRJAIN osata se loukata ainoastaan te kaivata jotta esitella etta you're ankara kuin alkuperaiskappale Amerikkalainen apulainen."(I know! I know Love...what you did was a noble thing. But you need not get so worked up by it. I know it hurts but you need to show that you're stronger than original American girls.)

"Ainoastaan Huvila! Te don't kasittaa! I-KIRJAIN can't kohtuullinen hyokkays nyt kuluva tunto pois! Minun kuulla koetella kuin sen laiton , ja hajalla. I-KIRJAIN kohtuullinen koetella kaivata to...die."(But Ville! You don't understand! I can't just push this feeling away! My heart feels like its black, and broken. I just feel the need to...die.)

"Awww! Minun epakelpo lellitella sisar , I-KIRJAIN don't haluta jotta kuulla te juoruta suicidal...ever! Tokko I-KIRJAIN apaja te ajava jokin -lta etta holmo hasis kuin alentaen won't juoruta jotta te ajaksi aika!"(Awww! My poor baby sister, I don't want to hear you talk suicidal...ever! If I catch you doing any of that stupid shit like cutting...I won't talk to you for a day!)

"I-KIRJAIN tapa Huvila, te osata I'm ei itsemurha-. I'm depressed...but ei itsemurha-. Etta hasis on holmo."(I wont Ville; you know I'm not suicidal. I'm depressed...but not suicidal. That shit is stupid. ) She giggles. I smile and hug her tighter.

"Luona way...we alku koulia model after Maanantai. Me vedonlyoja panna rikki jotta mall ja panna itseamme jokin tarvikkeet."(By the way...we start school on Monday. We better get out to the mall and get ourselves some supplies.) I say and smile. "I-KIRJAIN hankkia tunto etta nyt kuluva koulia ika mahti olla aivan raskauttava!"(I have a feeling that this school year might be quite aggravating!)

"Oi erinomainen! Kohtuullinen mika I-KIRJAIN kaivata epakelpo koulia ika."(Oh great! Just what I need...a bad school year.)

"Johtua model after! Panna sinun joutilas aasi rikki -lta etta alusta! Fiksoida sinun haiven, ehtia jalkeilla ja kamppeet. We're astuva ostokset!"(Come on! Get your lazy ass out of that bed! Fix your hair, make up and clothes.... we're going shopping!) I say and smack her ass as I stand up.

"hienosti Ainoastaan I-KIRJAIN don't osata kuinka haltioitunut I'll olla jotta panna aine ajaksi koulia. I-KIRJAIN alhainen koulia on joten ikavystyttava , holmo , ja suurin kipeys kotona aasi aina!"(Fine! But I don't know how ecstatic I'll be to get stuff for school.... I mean school is so boring, stupid, and the biggest pain in the ass ever!)

"Ei mika I-KIRJAIN kuulla! I-KIRJAIN kuulla etta peraaukon- erotiikka loukata hyvin huonommin!"(Not what I heard! I heard that anal sex hurts much worse!) I giggle.

"Eww brutto-!"(Eww gross!) She giggles as she gets off of her bed.

(Lilly's POV)

Ville and I get into my car and I start the engine then pull out of the driveway. I put in the first ever CD of Ville's band; HIM in the CD player and turn it up loud. We sing to the lyrics at the top of our lungs and the 'Way' household catches my eye. I stop singing and I see Mikey, Frankie, and Gerard all outside, looking like they were about to walk to my house, because when they looked at my car they all turned around and went back inside the house. Tears fill my eyes and I feel Ville take my right hand into his and kiss it before letting it go back to the wheel.

We shop for hours, buying; new clothes, CDs, make up, school supplies, and some new movies.

We get home around midnight and go right to my room with a bottle of vodka and a pack of cigarettes. We drink and smoke until about 4:00 (am) giggling and being drunk, until we lie on my bed and pass out.

Monday comes and I meet a bunch of new people, including my newest best friend Pearl Glass. The week goes by painfully slow and seeing Gerard everyday all day doesn't make life any better. He glances at me and I ignore it.

~One Week Later~ (Mikey's POV)

Friday~ School let in from our winter vacation, and I see Lilly almost every day as she walks through the hallways with her 'posse' of rich snobs.

"Lilly!" I yell as I put my hand up to wave. She looks at me then keeps on walking. I sigh then go to my homeroom. I get in as soon as the bell rings and sit down with Bob Bryar, my friend.

(Gerard's POV)

Lilly walks into my homeroom class and the teacher, Mrs. Dumas, calls a name I've never heard before, Lalyndia, Lilly goes up to the teachers desk and they start talking in a foreign language. I look at my friend Ray Toro and he stares at her ass. I look back at the teacher's desk and I see Lilly coming over to my table. She sits down next to me.

"H-hi Gerard." She says. I smile at her softly and I hear a scoff from Pearl. She sits in Lilly's lap and whispers in her ear. Lilly picks up her book bag and her purse falls out, spilling its contents; pills, boxes of cigarettes, a small bottle of alcohol, and a bag filled with a little bit of white powder. My jaw drops. Homeroom ends and Pearl goes to her 'posse' leaving Lilly.

"Lilly what is all this for?" I ask as I help her pick up the stuff.

"My doctors prescribed the pills, that bag is chalk powder...I get bored and make powder, and the alcohol and cigarettes are to help me relax more. She snaps and grabs everything. I see cut marks on her wrists and her inner thigh (she is wearing a short black mini-skirt). I pull her towards me. "Gerard!" She says with a thick accent.

"Lilly why are you cutting?" I ask. Pearl grabs Lilly's arm and glares at me.

"Lilly doesn't have to tell You anything! Pearl says. "And for your information...if you must know, she isn't cutting. The cuts are from sex. Her and Josh Dove like it painful!" She smirks. My heart lunges to my throat and I push Lilly away from me. Tears build up as I walk out of the room to my art class.