Disclaimer: This story is pure fiction. I have no connections with My Chemical Romance or their members whatsoever. No parts of this story may be reproduced or used without permission. It's solely from my head and you'll find out just what a weird place that is soon enough.

Email: crazyluv4mcr@yahoo.com

Author's Note: I wrote this story from a dream I had. It was very intense and I was crying when I awoke from it. I dreamed this back when I still thought I was really in love with a band member. Its funny the things we use to escape reality. But this dream was so vivid in my mind that I just had to get it out somehow. The middle came from my imagination but the beginning and the end were what I dreamed. I made up the rest. In my dream there was sex, but it was implied, not actually played out. There were girls killed but again that was implied, like things you just know in the dream but wasn't actually played out. My friends tho talked me into adding the sex scenes for them mostly. So I did. They begged me. And I know the fans, they love the sex scenes. That's also why I added the Frerard scene, because I was asked to put at least one in. It took me a little while to figure out why my story would have Frerard, but I figured it out and added the scene. I couldn't do as many as I'm sure the readers wanted but this story really isn't about sex. It was about loss. And not getting what you want. It was about disappointment and how things change in a moment without any warning. That's what this story was really about. It's always been a dream of mine to be on the bus of the guys. I think I'm not alone in that tho. We all just want to be a part of their lives in some way. And really, we are, just not in the way we want to be. But we are in their lives.


"Live And Die Alone"

CHAPTER 1

Taking a deep breath she concentrated on the road ahead. She began to sing to the song drifting from the CD player. Turned up as loud as it will go, enveloping her senses, the music ripped through her and made her relax. It soothed her. It was the only thing that would. She ran her fingers through her black hair that was threatening to take the road from in front of her and she shifted in her seat.

Her hand on the wheel with a half cigarette clutched between the two fingers of the other.

"Remember back there when we met you told me this gets harder."

She sang into the empty car.

"Well it did!" she smiled,

"Oh yes it did."

She said and a tear slid down her cheek. She brushed it furiously away and let herself get lost in the song. Dancing in the seat. She had done it. She was free!

~EARLIER THAT MORNING~

"What is wrong with you?! Are you dumb or just stupid? You're nothing but trash! You're nothing! This place is nothing but filth and you're a lazy bitch!"

Jimmy's voice rose as the insults spewed from his lips.

" .a lazy bitch!"

Was all Angel heard and she groaned. Wrapped in the blanket and still hugging the pillow she shut her eyes tightly.

"Please no." she whispered under her breath.

"Do you hear me?" His voice was shrill and threatened to cut into her brain.

"What? What's wrong?" she finally opened her eyes to see Jimmy glaring at her from the foot of the bed.

"This!"

He motioned wildly toward the chair that sat on the other side of the room. She looked at the chair that sat there innocently and saw that the arm was covered with cigarette ash. She rolled her eyes.

"Don't roll your eyes at me you stupid bitch!"

A tiny bit of saliva came from his lips with the last word. She almost smiled but stopped herself. It would have caused an explosion at that moment and she knew it. It was just that his rage had become hilarious to her in the past few months and she couldn't explain it.

"What happened?" She asked with a serious look on her face and a forced frown. What he said to her no longer hurt her. She used to cringe when his voice was raised and when he called her names she would cry. A helpless feeling would envelope her at those times and threaten to take her breath. It felt like he hated her and her love for him would beg for him to just hold her and not be angered with her. But now all of that was different. Something had clicked inside of her one day and it wasn't the same. She no longer cared if he meant what he said or was just spewing shit from his mouth. She had lost any feeling for this man that she had loved with everything she had in the beginning.

"You're so fucking stupid! You left the ashtray on the arm of the chair again and now it's in the floor!"

He gestured towards the mess again as if she hadn't seen it and would never see it if he didn't point it out to her. A yawn escaped her mouth as she said,

" You knocked it off the chair?" She regretted it as soon as she uttered it but it was too late.

"You fucking left it on the chair! How the hell was I supposed to know that it was there?"

As he glared at her she slowly forced herself to climb out of the bed. Still groggy and half asleep she glanced at the clock on the side of the bed. It proudly displayed 5:30 a.m. With a sigh she cleaned all the butts from the chair and the floor and grabbed the vacuum out of the closet and vacuumed all the ashes inside and below the chair. She set the ashtray on the dresser and grabbed some cloths from the drawer and went into the bathroom so he couldn't find anything else to scream about. She climbed into the shower and the hot water pounding on her skin soothed her. She brushed her teeth deliberately taking her time. She was finally dressed and awake and walked into the living room.

"Hey babe." Jimmy said with a smile as if nothing had happened. Sitting on the couch his legs propped up flipping through the channels. 30 min. before he had to leave. She found herself dreading the time he was there. She couldn't wait for him to leave and dreaded his return. That was the moment she decided to just do it. It had crossed her mind a few times but she had never done anything. This time she would do it. She waited an hour after he left. Sometimes he would forget things and come back for something but as soon as she was sure he was at work she began to pack. The closer she got to finishing the better she felt. Everything was packed that was hers into her blue Sundance and she took a deep breath as what she was planning sank in.

"Yep, that's that."

She said out loud and got behind the wheel and just began to drive no destination, no idea of what to do. She had no friends that she could go to he had made sure of that. She had no family to go to. It was just her and the road. She had a little money saved up and she hoped it would be enough to start over somewhere. Click the CD on and drive that was the plan so far.

"FUCK FUCK FUCK!"

The car coasted to the side of the road as she turned the wheel to the right. Hitting the steering wheel several times, she stomped the floor.

"NO! Damnit!"

She turned the key and nothing. She tried it over and over and got the same results. The car was just dead. For a split second she thought of looking under the hood but then, What good would that do? She could no more figure out what was wrong with it then figure out what was wrong with her husbands brain. She had left him hundreds of miles away. She looked into the clear nights sky. The stars shined down on her. The moon and a lone street light was the only illumination to comfort her. She knew she wasn't out of gas, but that was all she knew for sure. She instinctively reached for the CD player that had abruptly stopped. Just then she remembered the car was dead. No lights no sounds. Nothing.

"Shit, I need my MCR now." She said and laughed at the absurdity. She had been a devoted fan for two years and was completely obsessed. They hadn't saved her life because her life had never been in danger, at least not from herself. But they made her life bearable. They helped her not fall apart and she loved them for that. She climbed out of the car and snatched the keys as she went. She opened the trunk and dug in the black bag that housed her

"MCR" stuff that she had collected. She found what she was looking for in the little inside pocket.

"Yes." She smiled.

"As long as I have you, I will be fine."

She put the headphones on her ears and clicked the MP3 player on and flipped through the menu till she came to the play list labeled MCRCDS and clicked play. Inside the car she let the seat back as far as it would go and grabbed the blanket from the backseat. She felt at that moment that all was ok and nothing could touch her as long as He sang in her ear and the music could take her away. She drifted off to sleep with it set to loop over and over in her ears.

A loud motor rumbling close to the car intruded upon her sleep. A soft tap on the window snapped her fully awake as she realized where she was. In her car on the side of the road. She rubbed her eyes sleepily.

"Need some help?" A kind voice said from the other side of the glass. He was a slender man with kind blue eyes peering in at her. The first thing she noticed was the MCR t-shirt that he was wearing with jeans. She smiled. His blond hair hung past his shoulders. The music was still playing in her ears and even tho it was still dark it was beginning to tease with a little light over the horizon. She took one headphone from one ear as she rolled down the window.

"Yea, I guess I do. My car just died last night and I'm stuck."

At that moment she noticed the large shiny black bus idling in front of her car.

"Wow, is that yours?" she said.

"Yea well, I drive it." He said.

"Oh, that's a huge bus. You like MCR too?"

She said looking down at his shirt.

"Yes ma'am I sure do. Going to a concert, that's the destination." He smiled.

"Want me to take a look? At the car?"

"Yes please, would you? Thank you so much." She said and popped the hood.

She had the strangest overwhelming idea that she just wanted to go with him. She

hoped he wouldn't figure out the problem and was baffled at these thoughts.

"Well, I don't know what's wrong with it." He said and scratched his head.

"I'm not a mechanic." He laughed at himself.

"I'm Stephen." He said as he held out his hand. She took it and said,

"I'm Angel." And smiled at him.

"Well miss Angel, you're welcome to tag along with us if you aren't afraid to be in a big bus with a bunch of guys, that is."

This seemed perfectly normal to her. It never crossed her mind to wonder why he didn't ask her if she could call someone. There wasn't anyone to call but how would he know that. Still she never even thought about what she was saying. She wanted nothing more than to go and she never questioned it. She shrugged and said,

" Well if you're sure you guys don't mind id love to. You're going to an MCR concert?"

"Yea we sure are." He said,

"Come on, meet the guys." And he walked towards the bus.

"Hey guys this is Angel, she is gonna be joining us, I hope that's okay?" he said as they climbed the steps into the bus.

"Great, the more the merrier." Came a voice from inside the bus. Then Angel entered the bus and her eyes grew large at the site of the guys sitting casually in various seats in front of her.

"Holy Fucking Shit! No Fucking Way!! Oh My GOD!" It came from her lips before she could think of anything else to say. There was a giggle from the guy to her right.

"Yes way." He said and grinned at her. And all of them began to laugh.

"You must know who we are?" Mikey said to her.

"Are you kidding? Yes I know who the fuck you are! You are My Chemical Romance! OH my fucking God!! And I'm on your bus! No I'm gonna ride in your bus with you!"

Her hands went to her mouth and she screamed into them. Then she tried to pull herself together. Cause they were all openly laughing at her now. She knew she looked like a total fool freaking out but she just couldn't control it at first. But she did calm herself down and laughed an embarrassed laugh. She cleared her throat and began again.

"Hi, I'm Angel." She reached out her hand to Gerard who was closer than the others and he took it and shook her hand.

"Hi, I'm Gerard." He said and smiled looking into her eyes.

"Ha, yea I know." She said without thinking.

"Do you have the keys to the hotel? Cause I'm gonna strike that mother fucker on fire!"

Her MP3 player was still playing, completely forgotten by her till this moment. One headphone dangling down in front of her and she reached to take the other off.

"That's cool dude, you're listening to us." Mikey said as he smiled at her. She blushed. It shouldn't be embarrassing to listen to them in front of them, but it was.

"So you gonna join us on the tour?" Stephen said.

"Hell yea, if you're sure none of you mind."

"We don't mind at all. Any fan is a friend we say, it'll be fun." Frankie said in a reassuring tone.

"Is there room for some of my stuff?" She looked hopeful at the boys she so admired.

"Yea there's plenty of room under the bus, a whole side is empty, and it will be perfect." Bob said

"Oh that's just great, thanks. You guys really don't know how grateful I am. Thank you so much." She said.

"Hey Stephen, why don't you help her get her stuff?" When Stephen and Angel stepped out of the bus, Ray said,

"God, man, she's hot. This is gonna be fun."

"Yea, yes it is. But I can tell, she's mine." Gerard said. And he shrugged. Ray nodded.

Angel put everything she could under the bus and kept a few clothes and her black bag to go on the bus with her. Her laptop was in the black bag along with her MCR stuff. She was about to carry it onto the bus when she remembered the little notebook she had made was in the bag. She blushed and hoped Stephen hadn't noticed. She shouldn't take that with her, she thought and, what if one of them read it? That would be really embarrassing. So she walked back to the car and placed it on the seat. It contained a story. A story that she had printed from her computer. From a fansite to be exact. It was a Frerard Fanfiction that another fan had written, but she had loved. So she had printed it out so that she could read it whenever she wanted. What would they think if they read that? What would they say to her? NO she couldn't risk it. She locked the door and headed back toward the bus. Her heart was still racing at the thought of what was happening. She tried to calm it by taking a deep breath. But she was to excited. This was going to be the greatest experience of her life.

Stephen did notice her putting the notebook into her car and walking away. She was blushing madly.

"What was in that notebook?" he thought. She had entered the bus and he realized that he still had her keys from when she had asked him to open the trunk while she worried with the stuff from her back seat. So he casually walked back to the car and unlocked the door. He took the notebook and stuck it under his shirt. He locked the car again and headed for the bus. A smile played on his lips. He couldn't wait to see what had turned her so red. He climbed into the bus and settled behind the wheel preparing for the long drive ahead. Confident no one could see he took the notebook from beneath his shirt and before he slipped it beside his seat out of site, he glanced at the first page that appeared to be a title page.

"Blush" It said. With a disclaimer that the author didn't know the band, My Chemical Romance and that it's a work of fiction. It also said that it contained boy on boy, (Frank and Gerard) Wow, he thought as he smiled to himself. No wonder she left it. He couldn't wait to show the guys his find, he was sure they'd get a kick out of that.

As he put the bus in gear and began the long ride that was beginning to look like a really fun ride after all.

"So we're going to a concert?"

"Yea, we only have two booked for the next two weeks so we'll have a lot of free time." Ray said.

"You want to be back stage or in the crowd?" Everyone seemed interested in her answer they all looked at her awaiting for her to speak.

"Definitely in the crowd. I think it would be better that way."

"Cool I think so too, we'll get you passes so you can get backstage and back to the bus." Mikey said.

"Great, I can't wait. I've only been to one so far and it was my favorite day ever!" she said. Frankie laughed out loud at that and almost spit out the coke he was sipping on. Angel blushed.

"What? It was." She said. She laughed at herself for being so defensive.

"You have really pretty eyes, Angel." Gerard said out of the blue. She was caught completely off guard. She looked over at him and he was staring intently into her eyes. His long black hair hanging slightly into his eyes but she could still see the intense hazel eyes peering into hers and her breath caught in her throat.

"Thank you so much, so do you." She smiled.

"Aw thanks, but yours are really pretty." He said. Her heart began to race as she felt he was flirting with her.

"Don't you have a girlfriend?" She said. She regretted prying the moment she said it but at that moment she really wanted to know. She felt uncomfortable hoping she hadn't upset him. But he smiled warmly and said,

"No I don't. We broke up a little while back. Actually none of us have girlfriends at the moment. Being on the road so much takes a toll on people and relationships and we've all lost things and people lately." Her heart was fluttering wildly in her chest and she tried to think of something to say but all that she finally said was,

"Oh, I'm sorry." Gerard shot a sly grin at mikey when Angel looked down at her hands in her lap for just a moment. Mikey returned that grin.

Her wet hair hung over her shoulders and dripped water onto her pink tank top as Angel lazily patted it with the towel walking from the truck stop to the bus. Barefooted and in her blue jean short shorts she climbed the stairs to the bus. She was the last to get in the shower, but it was worth the wait.

"She's a kinky one isn't she?" Frankie said not knowing that Angel was climbing into the bus.

"Oh hi." Gerard said as Frankie quickly placed the black notebook under the table. They all smiled as she joined them.

"Um hi." She said glancing at Gerard. Unsure of what she had heard Frankie say, she was preoccupied with the giggling figure sitting in Mikey's lap. The girl looked all of 21 and her brown flowing hair encircled her face. Deep brown eyes peered at Angel. She was dressed in a black skirt and black T. Black lipstick was dabbed on her lips.

"This is Kim. She's a huge fan of ours. She has a thing for Mikey." Ray said. Angel was in shock. They don't have groupies right? She thought. The girl placed her hands on either side of Mikey's cheeks and began to hungrily kiss him. Angel noticed that Mikey's hand was resting on the small of the girls back and her hand was shoved down between them. It was obvious what she was doing. She was in complete shock. But it wasn't her place to say anything. They were helping her. She even managed to hold her tongue when they got up and headed to the back of the bus still locked in frantic kisses.

"So, ya wanna play a video game? There's really nothing else to do." Frankie looked at Angel.

"Sure, that'd be cool." They sat down in front of the little TV and the game was on. Both were entranced.

"NO NO! The ring! The ring to the right!" Angel said. Frankie sat with his shoulder to hers oblivious of anything else around them.

Kim couldn't believe what was happening. She had spotted the group from her car. They were just casually hanging around the truck stop. She walked towards them hoping that they would let her say Hi Praying for just a moment to say how much she loves the band and maybe just maybe she could get a hug from Mikey. He was the most hansom, smart and talented person on earth in her mind and she would have killed for just a hug.

"Hi, I'm Kim." She said and held out her hand to her idol. The one person in the world that she felt she loved only she had never met.

"Well, hello Kim." He said and firmly took her hand.

"I love you guys and you're my fav Mikey."

"Really? I am?" He said as if that was the strangest thing anyone had ever said to him.

"Yes you are. Would you mind so much if I asked you for a hug?" she said looking at him not sure what he'd say. He immediately stepped towards her and embraced her in a hug. His hands slid into her hair as if they were old lovers. She returned the hug all to eager to feel him close to her.

"I am so in love with you, Mikey." She whispered into his ear. She buried her face into his neck not wanting to have to let go. He released her and said,

"Want a tour of the bus?"

"Sure, that would be awesome." A smile erupted on her face as she followed him into the bus. The guys were scattered around the table.

"This is Kim, she's a big fan. And she loves me." He grinned. He sat next to Ray. Everyone laughed as he patted his lap and said,

"Wanna sit?" Cocking his eyebrow up as if curious if she might say no. Kim didn't waist a second to think about it. She sat down on his lap. His warm body firmly under her. Everything happened so fast. Her body was raging now. She wanted so badly to kiss his soft pink lips.

"Look what Stephen found. Angel had a story about Frank and Gerard as lovers." Bob said holding a black notebook out to him.

"I'll read it later dude, my hands are full right now." And he placed his hand on the small of Kim's back.

"Sure ok, but Gerard and Frankie?"

"Hey some people like that, it's cool." Frankie said and took the notebook back. He began to skim the pages again.

"What do you say Gerard?" Frankie said looking at Gerard over the notebook.

"I say why not?" and he giggled.

"She's a kinky one isn't she?" Frankie said, just then Angel appeared.

Should I kiss him? Would he let me? Kim wondered. Just then she felt his hand on the small of her back slide to her hip. He squeezed her hip gently. So she decided to chance it and find out. She placed both hands on either side of his face and found his lips with hers. To her blissful surprise he was kissing her back.

Yes! She screamed inside her head. She slipped her hand in between them and found it easy to slide her hand into his pants without having to undo them. His member was throbbing hard and she enclosed her hand around it and began to stroke. Not caring if anyone noticed or not. Fantasies had been all she had until this moment, and it was about to happen. Mikey was going to be hers. He lifted her hand out and lifted her up off his lap. She almost felt disappointment wash threw her but he was standing too and he never parted from her lips. His arm encircled her waist and pulled her toward the back of the bus. She let him guide her to the little bunk and they climbed in. She felt his hand slide into her panties under her clothes as he was kissing her neck. His hair lightly brushed her cheek sending a chill down her spine.

She let her fingers find the hard burning mass of flesh again as he caressed her awaiting breasts. A soft moan escaped her lips. She could feel his body trembling as sweat dripped from his forehead. That's when the gentleness stopped. She felt her body being roughly turned over. She felt him pull the remaining clothes from her burning body exposing her naked ass in front of him. His member hard and throbbing he pushed her down with his hand on her neck and hooked his fingers around it. He entered her and thrust deep still holding the back of her neck. She pushed into him and that was when a searing pain erupted in her neck and traveled down the length of her body. She tried to scream but no sound would come from her throat. He was still thrusting inside her when he realized what he had done.

"FUCK! Mother Fucker!"

He pulled out and released her onto the bed. Blood was gushing from the side of her neck, where he had applied too much pressure and ripped a whole the size of a child's hand into the tender flesh. It had torn as if it were nothing but old fragile cloth that could be easily penetrated. He had forgotten to be careful. That his strength is far too great for a fragile creature such as this.

"Frankie!" He screamed and a moment later Frankie stuck his head into the bunk,

"What happened? Do you.." His voice trailed off as he took in the sight in front of Mikey.

"Get Gerard to take Angel out of here and then come help me would you?" Mikey said. Frankie nodded and disappeared. He called Gerard to the end of the hall.

"You have to get Angel out of here for a while, we have a problem." Frank whispered and motioned with his head to the bunks.

"Just a min." He said and went to see for himself.

"Mikey, Mikey, Mikey." He said and shook his head with a sigh. The girl was obviously dead. Her eyes locked in a shocked stare.

"I didn't mean it, I swear." Mikey said looking away from Gerard's intense stare.

"I know, but you must remember, they feel like us but they aren't like us. You are much stronger and must be careful. If you cant then you shouldn't indulge like that. Do you want us to be found out?"

"No" Mikey said,

"So you understand? If you cant do that then you cant touch them?"

"I understand."

"Good."

"Come on Angel." Gerard hooked his arm lightly around Angel's neck and lead her out the door.

"There's a little ice cream parlor around the corner, we're gonna get everyone ice creams." He smiled as he looked into her eyes.

"What's wrong in there?" she said,

"Nothing all's cool." He said and winked at her. She didn't worry she was enjoying his arm wrapped around her. It felt right, it felt good and without thinking she pushed herself closer to him as she walked.

Mikey and Frank began wrapping Kim in a plastic fitted sheet found in a drawer. They wrapped that with a blanket and paced her inside a large trash bag that they had bought at the truck stop. They cleaned the blood the best they could with cold water and shampoo. They were parked just in front of the dumpsters so they just carried her to it and dumped her in. Being careful that no one was watching. Then they went back to the bus.

"I really didn't mean it." Mikey said as he held his head in his hands.

"I know man. It will be okay. Just be more careful next time." Frankie looked at him trying to comfort him.

Angel had expected to get ice creams for everyone and head back but they only got two for them and sat in the booth. They were facing each other across the table. The little ice cream shop had the feel of an old fashioned dinner. It was beautiful. Gerard said,

"So you need to call someone and let them know where you are?" He paused a moment as if he wanted to say something else. She waited to see if he would. He said in a soft whisper as if he dreaded the answer he expected,

"Or maybe you have somewhere you need to be?"

"Oh god no, I don't have anyone that I care to call, and I am exactly where I want to be." She smiled at him, as he openly seemed relieved.

"The first concert in a long time is tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to it."

"Me too." She said. I love you guys on stage. It's breathtaking.

"Thanks." He said.

"Umm, what happened back there, at the bus? Mikey sounded upset." She frowned.

"Oh it was nothing. The bunks are to small that was all and he had cussed out loud. It was fine." Gerard said in a casual tone.

"So where were you headed when we found you?" He said gracefully changing the subject.

"Nowhere, anywhere, well I really didn't know. I hadn't made a plan. I just left." When he asked what she had left, the whole story tumbled out. Her husband, and the way he treated her. In one long breath she just let it go and tears started to stream down her face. Gerard got up from his side of the table and sat down next to her. His arm encircled her neck and he pulled her to him.

" No one should be treated like that. Most of all you. There's no way I'll let anyone say things like that to you again. I promise." He whispered it into her ear. His breath against her neck as he said the words started a fire inside of her. She wanted to touch him at that moment but was afraid of his reaction so she forced herself to be still.

CHAPTER 2

Gerard and Angel walked toward the bus holding hands. She figured he was still comforting her from the news about how she had been treated. She didn't mind at all. His hand was warm in hers and she loved the feel of it. He would look into her eyes every few moments and she was surprised every time he did it.

"Just walk closer to him,"

A voice in her head kept saying but she kept telling herself that she was being silly. He's not interested in her. He is just really nice and he cares a lot about people. That's all it is. Even so when they got to the bus and he let go of her had she felt disappointment creep into her chest? She shrugged it off and climbed on after him. Mikey was by the window casually looking out into the highway. Frankie was eating a sandwich of some sort and Ray was watching TV by the satellite on the roof of the bus. She guessed Bob was lying in the bunk but wasn't sure. She felt the bus jerk as it headed out onto the highway. The concert was tomorrow and she couldn't wait.

She decided just to go to bed. It wasn't really late but it was close so why not? She was tired after all. She yawned and said I think I'm gonna go to sleep guys. Night. They all said,

"Night." And she climbed into the big bed in the back of the bus. She had a fleeting thought before she drifted of,

Wasn't there an interview where they had said they took this out and made a recording studio in the back? She shrugged that off deciding either she was wrong or they simply had put it back. She was fast asleep in a matter of minutes.

"Frankie?" Gerard whispered into his ear, as he lay sprawled out in his bunk. One leg hanging off of the side.

"Umph?" Came his reply.

"Wake up, come on." He nudged him in the side lightly. It was after midnight and they were still on the road. The concert they were headed for had been canceled a day ago but they had called and had it rescheduled. It worked with out any problems. The venue hadn't even officially announced it so it was on again.

"You remember what we talked about yesterday?" Gerard looked at Frankie.

"What?" He said.

"The story, Angel's story." He said in an annoyed tone.

"Oh, yeah. Now, you wanna do it now?" He yawned.

"When else would we do it?" Gerard was amused. He smiled at Frank.

"Yeah, don't know what I was thinking?" He grinned back.

"The little love seat beside the bed will be perfect." Gerard said.

"Yea I'm kindof wondering if I'll like it. You think you will?" Gerard shrugged.

"Never done it before."

"Should we wake her up?" Frank said.

"No she'll wake up I just know it."

Gerard said looking at frank. This time Frankie shrugged. Gerard stepped closer to Frankie. He could feel Frankie's breath on his cheek as he leaned even closer. He caught his lips with his. The warmth of the kiss shot into Gerard's groin immediately. He was surprised but he let his had trail down Frankie's side feeling the soft skin under his fingers. Both were shirtless. Frankie pressed his lips harder into Gerard. It sent a shiver down his spine. He could feel Gerard starting to tremble, as the kiss grew stronger. No having to be careful, they were the same. That just fueled the flame they had ignited between them. Gerard moaned when he felt Frank's tongue touch his neck and then he softly bit down

Angel's eyes flew open. Someone was in here with her. It took her a moment to register that she was on the bus and not in her room. The light from passing street lamps was cutting into the little room through the windows and she could see two figures by the tiny love seat. They were standing in an embrace. They were kissing. She looked closer and as they passed a light she saw them. It was Frank and Gerard! They're hands were exploring each other. She could hear the moans escaping Gerard's lips as they kissed. Her eyes adjusted and she realized they were illuminated by a small lamp in the roof of the bus just above them. It was dim but enough to see everything. She sucked in a sharp breath before thinking and then held it hoping they hadn't heard.

They are lovers. She thought.

A pang of jealousy swept through her at that moment. She wanted so much to be touched by Gerard how he was touching Frankie at this moment. But then she was entranced by there frantic caresses. Its one thing to read it in a fic. Quite another to actually see it. She felt her body responding to the sight she was witnessing. Her whole body tingled as the two lovers continued as if they were the only ones in the universe.

Frankie felt his warm breath on his ear as Gerard's hand slid effortlessly down his chest. It brushed lightly across his flesh down his stomach following the trail of hair below his abdomen. He felt his fingers encircle his already hot and throbbing member and begin to stroke slowly. A sighful moan escaped his lips. He just stood there a moment his head back enjoying the movement and he couldn't help but to stroke with his hand. The sensation was taking his sense of reality away. Gerard's other hand slid down his hip. It caressed his left cheek. He began to speed up and he reached further as Frank thrust. He grazed the soft sack with his fingertips with each thrust. Just then Frankie's hands gripped his hips and he raised his head up and found his lips. The heat in the kiss was overpowering. He let both hands slip down Gerard's cheeks then he trailed his hands up his back and down again. He slid one around and griped his member and felt the heat of it. He kissed Gerard's neck and then his chest letting his teeth graze the skin. He kissed further down and heard a moan no almost growl escape Gerard's lips.

Angel was entranced. Frankie was heading down his chest kissing and licking and she could see both of their bodies glistening in the dim light. She could see all of them and wanted so much to walk over to them and touch them. At that moment she wanted to feel both of them. But she was glued to the bed. Afraid to make a move or even breathe, in fear they would stop.

Frankie licked the tip and then took the whole thing into his mouth. He let it slide in and out and then he let his tongue trace it with it still in his mouth. Just then Gerard pulled himself out of his mouth and turned Frankie over pushing him down on the loveseat. Frankie gripped the back of the couch and felt him enter. He began to pump himself into him. Frankie moaned loudly. Gerard gripped Frankie's hard mass as he continued to fuck him. In and out. They both moaned as they reached orgasm at the same time and collapsed in a spent heap on the loveseat.

"Did she see us?" Frankie whispered into Gerard's ear.

"Yes, she did." Gerard said and a smile crept onto his face.

"Come on, let's go." Gerard said as he pulled Frankie up and they went into the hallway to climb into the bunks. Gerard threw a towel he had gotten from his bunk from his earlier shower at Frankie after he had cleaned himself.

"Thanks man" Frankie said before climbing into his bunk and going to sleep.

Angel was breathing heavily. She was completely aroused by the site. She thought of touching herself but still afraid they'd leave she stayed still. When it was over they collapsed and she could have swore she heard them whispering but she couldn't make out the words. Her head was reeling and then they just got up and went to bed. She was left alone. Longing to be touched. In her disappointed confusion she managed to drift off into sleep.

"A young woman was found today. She had been discarded along with the trash in a dumpster behind the flaming heart truck stop yesterday. The police haven't disclosed the identity of the woman, and no suspects have be named as of yet. We will report new information as soon as it is released." The anchorwoman of the news station told the camera. Ray clicked the TV off when it went to another story. They were still going down some highway on the way to the concert. Everyone was still asleep. He just shook his head, sighed and went back to his own bunk.

CHAPTER 3

It was 6: 30 in the morning when they got to the venue. People were everywhere trying to get a glimpse of the band. Security was already hard at work keeping the screaming fans back. The concert wouldn't start till 6 pm.

Angel decided to walk around and meet people. What else was there to do? Making sure the passes she needed were securely attached to the ribbon and draped around her neck, she tucked them under her shirt and left the bus. The guys had left some time ago. She walked around looking at all of the anxious faces hoping to meet the band. She smiled. It was an awesome feeling to know she knew the band that had so many that loved them.

Ray went to the bus to get his mp3 player. He stepped into the bus and saw a young girl standing in the middle of the room. She had a notebook in her hands and was reading.

"Ray!!!" She screamed as she noticed him there.

"What the fuck are you doing?" he asked her.

"I'm sorry but I noticed the door was unlocked so I came in." she said as if that was the most normal thing in the world.

"I love you and I had to be on the bus." She shrugged.

"This is our private space, you can't just walk on someone's bus." He said

"Would you, do you wanna fuck me?" she said.

"He was shocked." But more shocking was what he did. Not shocking to him. They all were having problems controlling how there bodies worked. But it would be shocking to a stranger or fan that happened by. He walked closer to her and sat down in the chair that she was standing next to. He reached out and pulled her onto his lap with him. He gripped her hips as he kissed her firmly on the mouth. She was surprised but kissed him back. He let his hand explore under the back of her shirt as they continued to kiss. He was just about to trail around to the front when Bob walked it.

The sight Bob beheld shocked him. Ray was sitting in the chair under a girl that was patiently kissing him. The shocking part is that she couldn't have been more than 14.

"Ray! What the fuck are you doing!?" Ray froze and slowly turned to look at him. Then he looked at the girl he was touching.

"She's way to young! Ray don't you remember that when they are a certain age you just don't touch them?" He shifted and put his hands on her hips again but this time he pushed her up off of his lap.

"Oh my God. What was I about to do?" he breathed. She looked disappointed.

"What? I am 15 going on 16 soon. I am old enough to be with you." She said with a pout.

"No you aren't. I'm sorry I did that. Forgive me, but I couldn't control it a moment ago." Ray said and with that he left the bus.

"No you can't just stop and leave me! I love you!" she called after him.

"Come on. Off the bus now. I'm sorry I don't mean to be rude but you must leave now." Bob said, He could already feel himself getting out of control. It was something about being near them that triggered it. Sensations of lust would wash through every inch of the body at the mere mention of sex. It really was almost impossible to control. In a huff she stormed off of the bus muttering something about guys being stupid and cruel and she was gone. He sighed and sat heavily in the chair. Wiping the sweat from his brow. Thank god it didn't happen when Angel was around or the poor girl would have been in real trouble. The stage lit up and the crowd screamed. Gerard stepped out onto the stage. The music started and the place went wild recognizing the song.

"Do you wanna fuck me? In my room? In my bed?" He shouted to the crowd. His eyes locked with Angel's and she knew he was directing it to her. Her heart began to race. He smiled at her and then turned away.

"This song is called," he paused

"Give 'EM Hell Kid!" the crowd erupted again.

The concert over they exited the stage. He went back stage to little dressing rooms that were set up for them so they could clean up before and after the show. He took a shower and toweled of and then put on a clean t-shirt and jeans.

Gerard grabbed the handle to the door and flung it open. He stepped out into the hall and there stood a girl. Her hair was dark brown, her deep green eyes looked up into his. Her beauty struck him as he closed the door slowly behind him. She just stood there in a daze.

"Hello." He said. She blinked but didn't utter a word. He walked over to her.

"Hello there." He said trying again,

"I'm Gerard, and you?" She blinked again and managed a small sound,

"Kristie." She said. It was barely audible but he heard it.

"Hi, Kristie. How did you get back here?" He smiled warmly at her and looked straight into her eyes. She swallowed hard and tried to speak but all that came out was

"Uhh." He looked at her expectantly. So she tried again.

"I got lost."

"Oh." He gave a small giggle.

"I love your band and you are my hero. I love everything about you and your message and I am so honored to meet you." It all rushed out in one breath and she just stood there waiting to see what he'd say.

"Awe thanks Kristie. That's sweet of you." He said. They talked a long time. About fans and her friends and his life on the road. He found himself wanting to kiss her. She was so shy and when she looked at him her eyes lit up. When he talked she listened intently as if there wasn't a sound on earth more important then what he was saying to her. In mid sentence he had taken her hand without even thinking. She had seemed surprised but she didn't protest in the slightest.

"Yea fans can be," He reached out and took her hand. She felt a rush from it travel up her spine. She hadn't expected it but she welcomed him holding her hand. They had been sitting in the little room on the couch talking for over 2 hours. Still she never expected him to take her hand and began to caress the skin between her index finger and thumb.

"A little demanding." He continued.

"Yea I can see that. People think they know you " What tumbled from his mouth shocked her back into silence for just a moment. Had Gerard really said that to her? Was she dreaming? Had she heard him right? Her mind reeled with the revelation that yes, he had said that to her. Out of the blue the words tumbled into her mind as he repeated it and said,

"Its ok if you tell me no, I would understand." He smiled at her with his intoxicating smile. She melted then. And said

"Yes, id love that very much." In a breath less voice as if just the thought had taken all of the wind from her.

Her hand felt soft and warm between his fingers and he couldn't stop noticing just how beautiful she was. He couldn't control it any longer. He almost just leaned in and kissed her red lips. He stopped himself, reminding himself that she doesn't know him and he doesn't know her and that you don't just kiss someone like that. She was talking to him. None of her words registered. All he could think of is that he wanted her.

"Kristie, would it be ok if I kissed you?" he said. He hadn't even made a conscious decision to ask her it just came out as if beyond his control. She seemed shocked and he feared he had made a mistake. That she was going to be angry with him. So he repeated it and told her she could say no. The moment she said yes he reached up and placed his hand on the nape of her neck and pulled her towards him. Her kiss was soft but when he hungrily pressed hard into her lips she greeted him with the same enthusiasm. He found himself very aroused and began to caress her back. He let his hand slide down to her butt. He felt her warmth beneath her cloths. She moaned softly into his mouth. He slid down her neck kissing all the way. V

"Gerard." She moaned.

Her body had been tense at first but she had relaxed against him. He could smell her longing getting stronger. He felt her hands go to the buttons on his pants. She fumbled trying to unbutton them. She couldn't get them undone. She was getting frustrated. He reached down and unbuttoned them for her in one swift motion. Her hand immediately slid into the front of his pants and she lightly touched his throbbing member and he moaned. The sound of him moaning in her ear sent her body into an inferno. She lightly touched it again as if she were afraid he would say no but he answered her by sliding his hands under her shirt. He lifted it up exposing her bra. He kissed the crevice of her breasts and bit down lightly as she arched her chest into him. She gripped him with a little more confidence and began to stroke him harder. He moaned again. Still kissing just above the bra he unclasped it in the back and pulled it and her shirt off at once. She sat beside him bare from the waist up. His hands were caressing one of her breasts than the other. He unbuttoned her pants and pushed his hand in them and into her he slid two fingers. He pulled them out and caressed her teasing her with his fingertips. He placed his lips over her nipple and teased it very lightly with his tongue and teeth.

Kristie couldn't believe this was happening. Gerard was kissing her again. His smell engulfed her. She opened her eyes so she could see his. They were beautiful and they were open too. She was looking directly into them as they kissed. She felt him tug her pants the rest of the way off and she pushed his off and looked down. His member was still in her hand and now she could see it. She felt the heat intensify as she longed to feel him inside her. She climbed on top of him and he positioned herself so that he could enter. She felt him enter her and began to move with her. His hands went into her hair. He kissed her as she moved up and down. She could feel him deep inside the heat of the friction against her was making her tingle all over. He kissed her breasts again and thrust with her movements.

"Oh God." She moaned.

"Mmmmm Gerard!" she sighed into his neck.

He lifted her up and she was still strattled around his waist. He was still inside her when he stood up and leaned her against the wall. He was thrusting and so was she. She had the wall for better leverage and he was even deeper inside her. Sweat dripped from her brow as she encircled his neck with her arms. A loud moan escaped her and he could feel her orgasm from deep inside her. He thrust harder. He was close. He was thrusting trying to be gentle but it felt so good. He was still thrusting when he pulled her from the wall and when he gave the last thrust he exploded into her and they slammed into the wall. There was a startled expression on her face for a second and then her eyes went blank but they remained open. That's when he noticed the blood on the wall. There was a little bit trickling from her ear. But a massive amount from where her head had slammed into the wall. Her vacant eyes stared at him accusingly.

"Oh my fuck NO!" Gerard exclaimed.

"No no no no." he said again. He pulled out of her and carried her to the couch.

"Kristie, please no. Don't be dead. I'm so sorry." That's when he realized that it wasn't Mikey's fault that it had happened to him. It was almost impossible to be careful. A tear slid down his cheek. He replaced her cloths so at least she'd have them. He looked into her vacant eyes again. He whispered,

"I really am so sorry Kristie." And he kissed her forehead. He left her lying on the sofa and exited the building tears still coming from his eyes.

The guys were on the bus when he got there.

"We need to go now." He told them.

"Angel's not back." Frankie looked at Gerard.

"What the hell happened to you?"

"Never mind just get her on the bus, we have to go now." He was obviously shaken from something so without a word he left the bus. Luckily she wasn't far from the bus and it only took a minute to locate her.

"Come on, we have to go now." he told her.

"Okay." She said with a shrug and they climbed onto the bus. As they started onto the bus he said,

"Lets go." To the driver and he started it up and headed out onto the highway. Fans watched the bus leave upset that they couldn't talk to them. Some were even angry but they had to go. Gerard watched as the venue became smaller and smaller.

"I'm so sorry." He whispered under his breath. Kristie's face wouldn't leave his mind.

Gerard was obviously upset. She could see it in his face. Angel looked at him as he just stared out the window. She decided to try to help and moved over to the seat next to him. He jumped as she sat down not expecting her to be there.

"Are you ok?" She asked.

"Yea, I'm fine. There was just a problem at the show. But there isn't anything anyone can do about it."

"Oh well you just look so lost. Do you need a hug?" She said. She could still see that something was truly bothering him even tho he smiled at her. He let her place her arms around his chest under his arms and she felt his arms slide around her. She loved the way it felt to be surrounded by him. He clung to her and she burrowed deeper into his chest. He kissed her forehead and she just closed her eyes. It seemed she needed the hug much more than he did. He sighed and buried his face in the crevice of her neck. She adjusted her position because she was beside him, twisted to reach him. She pulled her leg onto the seat folding it so that she could face him. And tightened the embrace. He never acted like he was going to pull away so she just continued to hold on hoping that he wouldn't end it. She was really not ready to let go.

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.There was a startled expression on her face for a second and then her eyes went blank but they remained open. That's when he noticed the blood on the wall. There was a little bit trickling from her ear. But a massive amount from where her head had slammed into the wall. Her vacant eyes stared at him accusingly ..

Gerard woke up in a cold sweat. He could feel the warm body of his girlfriend lying next to him. His heart was racing and the dream had felt so real. A sense of helplessness still lingered with him from when he realized the girl was dead. It made him feel guilty that he was enjoying the dream, up until it all went wrong. It felt so real to him and he could still remember those deep green eyes staring back at him.

"What's wrong babe?" a sleep filled voice next to him asked.

"Nothing I'm fine, it was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep."

"A nightmare, you poor thing." She wrapped herself around him and fell back to sleep immediately. He shook the dream off and lay back down. Sleep finally took him.

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"Hello? Can I help you?" The officer behind the desk said.

"Yes, I need to file a complaint." The girl looked at the officer expectantly.

"What is it concerning?"

"I was at a concert last night. One of the band members tried to rape me." The policewoman looked up from her paperwork.

"Tried to?" she said.

"So he didn't actually rape you?"

"No, he tried but I got away." She picked up the phone. Hello yea, this is Greta, I have a possible attempted rape here, would you come take a statement? Yes sure. Good, she's right here." She replaced the phone on its cradle and looked at the girl.

"Can I take your name miss?" the officer said.

"Sure it's Annie Dandridge."

"Age?"

"15, but ill be 16 soon."

"Alright, just wait in that chair, Officer Stevens will be here to take your statement in a few moments."

"Hello, I'm Officer Stevens and you are Annie?" she said as she looked at the paper she held.

"Yes."

"So you say it was a member of the band that played here last night?"

"Yes"

"Do you know his name?"

"Yea, its Ray Toro."

Officer Stephens continued taking information from the girl. She knew all about this band now. She had seen the case about the girl found in their dressing room. Someone had just left her there. She had died from a massive brain hemorrhage caused from being slammed forcefully into the wall. It would have taken a lot of strength to cause the damage the girl had, and now an attempted rape by a band member? It looked like this band did more than just play on stage at their concerts. They were just wanted for questioning at the moment. They were already trying to get a hold of the manager of the band. It was just taking some time.

"We're getting a hotel in New Mexico, right?" Ray looked at the two entangled together.

"Yea we are." Gerard said as he released his arms from around Angel. Angel blushed.

"No sense in staying on the bus. We don't have a gig for a week or so." He said to Ray. Mikey looked up from the video game he was playing

"Yea it'd be nice to have a bed instead of that bunk for a few days."

"And a shower in your room too, instead of the Truck Stop showers." Bob said

"Well for some reason we have only 5 rooms, so who shares?" Frankie said as he winked at Gerard. No one else noticed the wink.

"Well Stephen can room with me." Bob said.

"Well that just leaves you." Frankie said looking at Angel.

"Who do you wanna share a room with?" Angel blushed again,

"Can I room with you?" she said and looked at Gerard.

"Yea, sure." He smiled at her.

CHAPTER 4

"Hello this is Brian Schecter."

"Finally, you are a hard man to get in contact with. I'm Officer Stephens, from Dallas Texas. I understand that a Rock group you manage did a concert here a few nights ago. We need all of them to come back for questioning. There have been some real problems."

"Questioning? In Dallas, Texas? Did I hear that right?"

"Yes sir. There has been a report about a member of the band. A young girl claims that she was almost raped by," the sound of shuffling paper traveled through the receiver,

"A Ray Toro. And there was the body of a young woman found in their dressing room."

"A body? In their dressing room?"

"Yes that's what I said, so you can see why we must ."

"The band have been no where near Texas, in the past few days or even the past few months." Brian said interrupting the Officer in mid sentence.

CHAPTER 5

"I love this." Gerard said looking up at the stars that watched them. His arms folded behind his head using them as a pillow.

"Yea its beautiful here." Angel said watching the stars as he was. It felt nice not to worry if she was going to say something wrong. Or do something that was going to get her yelled at. She could breath for once in a long time and she decided to enjoy it. They were lying on a blanket, behind the hotel. He had said he needed air and she had asked if she could come. He had grabbed the blanket on the way out the door.

" I can't believe I'm here." She said and looked over at him by turning her head slightly.

"Yea me either." He said. He smiled.

"So what do you think of life on the road?" He said still smiling.

"Its much better than I thought it would be. Just before I fell asleep in the car I was wondering where you guys were. I even thought how awesome it would be to meet you on the road." She laughed at herself.

"It was as if you guys heard my wishes." Gerard let a giggle slip from his lips.

"Yea, you could say we did." Gerard turned onto his side looking into her eyes.

"Do you miss him? Your husband?" She let out a laugh then said,

"God no. I didn't really love him anyway."

"Well I'm glad that you aren't upset about that then." His hand reached out and brushed the hair that had fallen across her face as she had turned to face him. They talked about life and family, Fears and Friends. They were still lying there talking 4 hours later when it started to drizzle. They began to laugh.

"Well I guess it's time to go in." Angel said standing up.

"Yea we should" Gerard grabbed the blanket and followed her into the room.

Mikey decided to just walk awhile. He started to go around the back of the building but noticed that Angel and Gerard were lying on a blanket staring at the stars, he smiled. It just struck him as a sweet thing to do for her. So instead he went the other way. He rounded the corner and a sound that someone was crying filled his ears. He looked around and didn't see anyone. He frowned. It sounded like a girl was crying her heart out and he could hear her plainly. But couldn't see her anywhere. Then she caught her breath. Trying to stifle her sobs and he realized she was above him. He looked up and there was a banister with stairs leading up to the other floors of the hotel and she was sitting on the top. She had noticed him and tried to be quiet, failing miserably.

"Hello," he said. Looking up at her with what he hoped was a warm smile.

"Hi," She said. She seemed unsure if it was ok to talk to him.

"I'm Mikey, and you?" He said as he climbed the stairs and sat next to her.

"Audra," she said still sniffling. She was a small girl. Her limp dark brown almost black hair hung down past her shoulders. It was wet as if she had just had a shower. She looked at mikey as he sat down next to her.

"You look familiar, do I know you?" She said.

"I don't know," He shrugged.

"So what's wrong? Can I help?" He said.

"No I don't think you can." She said and a tear slipped down her right cheek.

"Well maybe if you talk about it, it will help?" he said furrowing his brow, he hated that she was so upset. Just then an image of Kim flashed through his mind. He felt tears welling up behind his own eyes. He had cried himself to sleep many nights after that had happened. He wanted so badly just to go back and change what had happened. He tried to push the thoughts away and just concentrate on Audra. It was hard to think straight around people.

They were so irresistible to him. It was like a chemical reaction to be near them. Inside he could feel himself getting aroused just sitting next to her. But this was obviously a child and not someone to indulge with and he had decided that he didn't want to feel the misery of what he had done again so he would fight the feelings when they came with all his strength. The pleasure of the moment was not worth making the mistake again. None of them understood why sex was something that they couldn't get enough of but they all knew they must be careful. That's why Bob, Ray and Frank hadn't done it although Ray had almost lost fighting the temptation. It didn't matter if the person was male or female. The feeling of just being next to someone was neurotic.

"It's my mom and dad." She frowned.

"They just found out that I'm pregnant and my dad wants me to get rid of it. He says I'm too young to be a mom and they don't want to raise it. They are worried more about what their friends will say if they find out that there little angelic Audra is pregnant." The tears burst from her eyes again. She looked so lost so broken. He instinctively wrapped his arms around her and let his hand stroke her hair.

"You poor thing I'm so sorry." For a second she was shocked by the sudden hug from a complete stranger. But she really needed to be held. She couldn't see her boyfriend, they had shut him out the moment they knew she was pregnant. They wouldn't even let her tell him. So she just let him hug her and hugged him back, wrapping her arms tightly around his waist she just let the tears flow. It felt good to hold onto him.

"How old are you, if you don't mind me asking?" They were still hugging and she had showed no signs of letting go.

"14," she said, and let out a long sigh.

He realized that he could get his body under control at that moment. The Passionate feeling was subsiding. It was the first time he had been close to someone and was able to stop the rush that would grip him and make him crazy. He let out a relieved sigh, and said,

"You are to young to have to feel so confused, I really am sorry you have to go through this."

"Thanks but you being so nice is helping a lot." She said.

"I'm so glad I could help, even if it is only a little." He smiled down at her.

"Wait! I know who you are! You're part of a rock group! My best friend has posters all over her walls. I recognized you from them. She would be so jealous that I met you. And angry that I didn't even know who you are." She began to laugh. He laughed with her.

"Yea we've been touring a little but we are between gigs and decided to rest awhile."

"That's cool, I've heard a couple of your songs and you guys are good." She smiled. They were still hugging, she hadn't been hugged in a while and she missed it her parents were just so angry that they hadn't thought of hugging her. Even her mom was just mad and she hadn't said anything to her that wasn't asking her how she could be so stupid. And how that boy was just using her. Tears started to trickle down her cheeks again. Mikey stroked her hair. He felt so bad for her.

"They are taking me to a doctor a long way away so that no one will know us. They don't want anyone to find out. I just don't want to do this but I don't have a choice."

"It will be ok, I promise." He said. She nodded into his chest.

There's only one bed," Gerard said,

" Want me to take the floor?" He said and raised one eyebrow at her. He knew that when Frankie got the rooms he put them in a room with one bed on purpose.

"No," she laughed,

"We are adults, we can share the bed." She shrugged.

Angel lay in the dark listening to Gerard's even breaths knowing he was asleep. She wanted so much to just wrap her arms around him. She knew he'd let her but she still held back. She was beginning to feel so close to him. But that scared her too. He was well known by so many people. So loved by so many. Could she handle that if he did feel the same for her? Does he feel the same for her? The question rushed through her mind. She looked over at him and he stirred in his sleep. Before she could roll over facing away from him, which is what she started to do, his arm snaked around her waist and she felt him pull himself against her. Her mind raced. Should she wake him? No she decided and just turned over towards him and placed her arms around him too. Gerard smiled when she did that. It was dark and she didn't notice. She did feel his hug tighten but she still thought he was asleep.

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Hey, What's wrong?" Mikey said looking at Gerard as he sat on the steps out side of the house. He sighed,

"I'm having really weird dreams lately." Mikey was shocked.

"By weird what do you mean?" Gerard looked around to make sure his girlfriend wouldn't over hear him. It's about other women. I would never cheat on her man. But in my dream I really care for them. There's just one now but there was one that, umm, that I umm." He paused, Mikey sucked in his breath wondering if his dreams were similar.

"There's one what?" he said to encourage him to finish. Gerard sighed and said in a rush,

"That I killed. We were having sex and I killed her. She was a fan in my dream and I wanted her. I could feel her body I could feel everything. So much so that when I woke up I had to clean the sheets, I'm so glad a certain someone had already left that morning. But it was also so real when I killed her. I was devastated. I've never seen the girl in my dream in my life but," He paused, and shook his head,

"It was just so real." Mikey looked at Gerard, he sat beside him.

"Yea, I had a dream like that too. A fan that I had sex with and I killed her. It was real too, like you said."

"Maybe we're just both tired from all of the work we've been doing lately."

"Yea, maybe you are right." Gerard said.

"Oh Brian is coming here later today, said there was something we needed to talk about." Mikey said.

"Like what?"

"Don't know he wouldn't say on the phone."

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Audra looked up at Mikey.

"You really are a sweet guy." She smiled.

"AUDRA! What the fuck are you doing?" She immediately pulled herself away from Mikey.

"Nothing mom, I swear. We were just talking!"

"Talking? You call that talking? No wonder you got yourself in trouble."

"I'm so sorry." Mikey whispered hoping her mom didn't hear him.

"Its ok." She whispered back.

"Just knowing that someone cares makes it easier." She said and managed a small smile before she got up and headed toward the doorway where her mom glared at her.

"Are you a whore now? What were you doing out there letting that man put his hands all over you, I should call the police!"

"No mom, it wasn't like that, I swear." The door slammed behind them and the sound of the woman's shill voice could still be heard but Mikey couldn't make out the words. He felt so bad for her, so young to have to deal with so much. He slowly walked back toward his room. He had begun to think about Kim again. It seamed that that was all he thought about lately.

CHAPTER 6

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"OH MY FUCKIN GOD! Are you serious? What the fuck?" Gerard ran his hand through his hair. He glared at Brian.

"Yea there are pictures, you were there, but I know you weren't there." Brian shook his head.

"How could we be in Texas on stage when we were in London on stage? There are pictures of that too." Frankie said his brow furrowed as he let the thought of it creep through his mind.

"This is crazy." Ray said.

"Maybe someone made robots of us?" Mikey said and let out a giggle.

"Yea or there's some horny demon angels impersonating us!" Bob said with a smirk.

"Horny demon angels? Bob? What have you been smoking?" ray began to laugh.

"That's really not funny." Gerard said, the image of the dreams he had been having rushed at him from where he had hid them. The tension for the past few hours had pushed them to a limit. The police were saying that all of them could be in serious trouble. Gerard just glared at them. Fighting a smile that now threatened to erupt at any moment. After all it was a little funny.

"Guys, this is serious. We know we weren't there. We know that this is a mix-up or some kind of joke. But we have to find out what the hell is happening here."

"Sorry." Bob said,

"Yea, sorry." Mikey said still grinning. A shrill sound filled the room. Mikey walked over to the desk by the bed and picked up the phone.

"Hello?" He said.

"Hello, sorry to disturb you but, this is the front desk. There's a gentleman that says he needs to speak with you. He says it's important. I tried to tell him no one was here by those names but he insisted he knew you are. Should I tell him your room, or will you meet him here?"

"Ask him what its about, please." Mikey looked at Gerard with a puzzled look. There were muffled words from the other end, first her and then a mans voice, she said,

"He says he's FBI and it's about Texas? Did I get that right?" She was obviously asking the man standing beside her.

"Yes." Mikey heard the man say. Mikey put his hand over the receiver.

"Its an FBI man he said he's here to talk about Texas. What do I say?"

"Just tell him to come to this room." Gerard said and sighed. He sat down hard in the chair by the window. Taking a cigarette from his pocket he lit it and enhailed. He slowly let the smoke drift from his mouth and nose and felt a little better, but not much.

There was a knock at the door. Gerard stamped out the butt in the ashtray, he sighed again and opened the door.

"Hello, I'm Ian." The man said and stretched out his hand to Gerard. Gerard took it and shook his hand.

"You must be Gerard."

"Yes I am." He introduced the rest of the band.

"Yes I recognize you all from the pictures. Except, Your hair is quite different." He said and smiled at Gerard. Gerard ran his hand through his hair, the little there still was.

"Yea, I cut and dyed it for the CD we are about to release."

"You guys can stop worrying, I know you weren't in Texas. I know what's going on and ill tell you. He reached down beside him and wrapped his fingers around the briefcase handle that he had just placed beside the chair. He pulled it onto his lap and clicked the clasps to open it.

"Come look guys. Here you are in Texas." He smiled. They all walked closer to get a look at the pictures he had taken out of the briefcase before closing it and setting it back on the floor. He passed the live pictures out to each one of them.

"Oh." Frank was studying the picture in his hand.

"Its us." Gerard said,

"Except, we look like we did before." He frowned.

"Are you sure these aren't just old pictures of us live somewhere?" He looked up from the picture and studied the man's face.

"I'm sure. These were taken a little over a week ago." He smiled trying to put them at ease.

"But they look exactly like us." Frank said.

"Yea, I was expecting them to be dressed the same and be very similar, but I was sure that it would be obviously not us." Mikey said.

"But there are no differences, just that they look like we used to, that's the only difference." Ray said. Still staring at the picture he had. Unable to look away.

"In a since, they are you." All five of them looked at the man sitting in the chair. His blue eyes looking back at them, one after the other. His Deep brown hair neatly combed like he were a ken doll and his hair would never be out of place. He wore a Grey suit that outlined his body and looked like it was made for him. It more than likely was.

"Have any of you had dreams lately. About stuff that you didn't understand? People you've never met? Things that you were told happened?" He said. Gerard's eyes became saucers when the words registered in his head. Mikey looked at Gerard then. Ray looked down at his feet.

"Yea I have." They all looked at Ray.

"You have?" Gerard said.

"Yea I've been having really weird ones about people I have never seen before." So have I, and Mikey told me he has to. Haven't you Mikey?"

"Yea, I have. Awful dreams." He said. Then he looked down at the floor.

"Anyone else?" Ian asked

"Yea I have to." Frank said.

"But you can forget about me telling what I dreamed, cause I'm not going to.

"So what the fuck is going on?" Bob said.

"I'll tell you. But you wont believe me at first, I'm sure." Ian said The hotel phone started its shrill ring again. Ray was closest so he snatched it up.

"Hello." He said.

"A Mr. Watkins?"

"Yea that's me Ian said with a sigh." Your name is Ian Watkins?" Gerard said as he laughed.

"Yes it is, and I know who he is now thanks to trying to find you. I hadn't heard of him but it seems these days everyone thinks my name is very funny. Yes?" He turned and talked into the phone. Wishing he hadn't left his Cell in the car.

"Oh my God! Ian Watkins is an FBI man!!" Frank burst out laughing. The guys were all laughing and Ian looked at them showing them the receiver. They all quieted their laughter but didn't stifle it.

"Dude, sing us a song. Come on." Mikey whispered. And Ian's boss on the other end could hear their giggles.

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Angel stretched. She felt something and remembered Gerard was in the bed with her. His hands were wrapped around her waist. Only her back was to him. It felt good anyway so she just settled back against him. He shifted a little but never removed his hands from her. The clock said it was 8:30 am. She didn't care. They had nothing to do. He yawned.

"Oh good morning." he said.

"I'm sorry, did I make you feel uncomfortable? I didn't mean to do that." He said as he started to pull his arms from her.

"No it felt good really." She said and placed her hand on his to let him know she didn't want him to let go. To her surprise, he put them back. She smiled when he did. She was surprised at her boldness but she really did like him. Before it was just as a fan. It was different now somehow. Now that they talked and they spent time together she felt like she needed to be near him. She felt safe. He kissed the back of her neck and it sent shivers all through her body. She rolled over and his lips met hers. She kissed him back. Her body began to tremble from just the idea of what this could mean. He left her lips and began to kiss down her neck.

"Mikey!" Mikey was surprised anyone was around. He looked up and saw Audra running over to him.

"Hey, I thought you'd be gone by now." He said smiling at her.

"I'm glad you're not." He said

" What are you doing?" She said

"I was getting cloths from the bus. How are you today?"

"I'm awful. Its two days we are gonna be here because the car broke down but when its fixed we'll be on our way there. And they will take it. I want to keep it, they just don't understand." Tears began to stream down her face.

"You poor thing, I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something."

"She stood there a minute quietly dragging her foot through some rocks on the ground.

"Umm, Mikey?"

"Yea," He said.

"Do you really mean it when you say that you wish you could help?"

"Of course I do." He said giving her a puzzled look.

"But how could I help?" She looked at him and looked around to make sure no one was watching or close enough to hear.

"You could take me with you." She said searching his face for a sign that he might help her.

"How could I do that? Your mom would kill me, not to mention that that's kidnapping!" He was shocked by her idea.

"Please, just until I'm too far along for them to make me kill it. Please. It's my baby, and I should have the right to keep it, its not that long that Id have to stay with you. Id be good, and I wont bother anyone, I promise. I even have a little money that my grandma gave me before we left. Please." She looked into his eyes. He knew he should say no, but he knew it was a matter of time before they were in trouble anyway. It was a little life after all. He felt so bad for her. He began to think about it and he just stood there in silence. After a few minutes he finally said,

"I'll tell you what. If I can get the rest of the guys to agree, then you can go. But I can't promise the rest of the guys will agree. But if we do this no one can see you go with us because that big bus will be to easy to find if they know. So you have to be careful or it wont help anyone ok?" She sniffled, she hadn't expected it to work, and she didn't think he would say yes, but she had felt like she needed to at least try.

"You're for real? You'll let me go?" If they agree, yes you can go. But we'll have to leave soon. We will have to pull out today I guess. You will have to stay till tomorrow. And well pick you up. That way no one will suspect that you left with us. You understand?'

"Are you sure you'll be back?"

"Yes, if we leave I promise you we will be back and we'll get you." She smiled at him. Then she grabbed him hugging him tight.

"Thank you so much, even if they say no, thank you for trying."

"You're welcome." He said.

"If we don't leave today then I'm afraid that means no."

"Ok. I understand."

"Listen, if they say yes we will pull out, did you see the gas station that is about a block from here?"

"Yes I did," She said.

"Then tomorrow morning at 3 am I want you to sneak there. We will be there to get you, can you remember that?"

"Yes." When?" he said to make sure she got it.

"Tomorrow morning at 3." She said.

"Good," he said,

" If we leave today, we will be there then, I promise."

"Thank you, thank you." She said and started back towards her room. He shook his head. He sighed.

Yea, it would be worth it, we will be in so much trouble anyway so why not help someone if we can, I hope they agree. He thought He headed back to Gerard's room first if he could get him to agree then the rest would be easy.

CHAPTER 7

Gerard's lips found Angel's again and she sighed. Tasting his kiss she smiled as the kiss became deeper. Her mouth was tingling from his touch. Sliding her hand along his soft skin she felt his kisses become more frantic. His black hair draped around her face she could feel it brush her cheeks. She let her hand catch a small bit of his hair in her hand and pulled gently, he moaned. She looked up at him their lips entwined. She pushed her hips into his, wanting to feel him against her.

A loud knock caused them to both look in the direction of the door.

"Gerard? You up??" Came Mikey's voice from the other side. Gerard sighed,

"Sorry." He said to Angel. She rose up onto her elbow when he got up. Then she collapsed back on the bed in a cloud of disappointment. Gerard flashed her a look of 'I'm sorry" and opened the door.

"Yea I'm up. What's wrong?" He said. Mikey looked as if something were bothering him. He was fidgeting where he stood.

"Am I bothering you?" he gave Gerard a worried look.

"No man, its ok, come in." He stepped back and sat on the bed beside Angel with her still lying on her back.

"I have to ask a favor. It's a huge favor but I really want to do this." Mikey said as he sat in the chair by the bed. He looked down at his hands as he spoke. Afraid to look into Gerard's face as he spoke he forced himself to concentrate on his fingernails as he told him about Audra. He explained what her parents were going to do and what she had told him. He told him what his plan was, never taking his eyes from his hands. He looked up to see Gerard looking at him intently. He couldn't tell whet he was thinking. His face was unreadable at that moment.

"Look I know this is really a big thing and I know she is so young but she doesn't want to do what they want her to do. I don't think she should have to. You know we cant " He paused for a moment trying to find the right words.

"Continue as we are forever, and I just want to help her while I can. I have to do something for her I just have to." He said looking into Gerard's eyes.

Gerard's mind was racing with this idea. Yea they couldn't go on forever he knew that. But this would definitely draw attention to them. If the girl could get out unseen and go with them but what if she is seen? He shook his head. The look of disappointment swept across Mikey's features just as a summer storm would sweep the sky. Gerard pressed his lips into a tight line as he finally gave in.

"Ok, we'll do this, but I hope it doesn't blow up in our faces." He said as he looked over at Angel who sat silently behind Gerard now.

"Are you sure this is a good idea?" She said.

"You said she's 14?"

"Yea." Mikey said softly as if he had just done something awful and gotten caught by his mother.

"There could be a lot of trouble if we do get caught. But I understand that she needs help. Not sure if I agree with going against her parents wishes but who am I to tell you what to do?" She said and let a small-unamused laugh escape her lips.

"Yes you do have the right to say what you think. You are with me?" She nodded.

"Then yes you do." Gerard said. Mikey looked from Gerard to Angel. They were staring into each other's eyes.

"I was interrupting." He said and a smile spread across his face. I'm so sorry." He couldn't help the small giggle. He knew it wasn't the time but he just couldn't help it. Angel blushed as he looked from her to Gerard and that caused Mikey to laugh.

"Well if Gerard wants to agree then I guess I wouldn't disagree. I think we should help her if we can. We just have to be careful."

"Do you think the other guys will agree?" Mikey said looking hopefully at Gerard.

"What do you mean?? A fourteen year old girl??" Bob glared at Gerard

"Look I know it's strange but we should help her." He looked from Ray to Bob and then to Frankie.

"Well I like the idea, but where would she sleep? On the bus I mean?" Frankie asked

"That's not a problem, we just need to know if we are doing it. So yes or no?" Gerard said Mikey looked like he was holding his breath. But they all agreed in the end.

It was much easier than Angel had thought it would be. There wasn't a sign of any traffic on the road. It was as if everyone knew the importants of Audra getting on the bus unseen. She had climbed into the thick brush just inside the woods on the opposite side of the road to wait for them to show up. She thought they weren't coming but they had left early that morning and so she stayed there in the little bed she had made out of the grass. She had no idea what time it was. She left her watch on the table by the bed. She knew she had left at two so the hour seemed like 3 as it creped by. Taunting her with the idea that she would have to sneak back in and maybe get caught. Having to face the raving mad beast that would be her mother chilled her to the bone. She wrapped tighter into the long sweater she had grabbed as an afterthought when she slipped out of the door. That's when she saw it creeping into the little gas station like a snake sneaking up on its prey.

She breathed a sigh of relief as it stopped across the street from her hiding place. She waited for Mikey to open the bus door that faced her. He stood on the steps as he looked into the sky. She climbed from her little spot and looked into the road both ways. Not a soul. No cars anywhere so she ran for the door and climbed into the bus. Her entire decent to the bus was hidden from the clerk inside by the bus itself. So at last she could breath. She sat in the seat with a little giggle of glee. And hugged herself. The thought that she could keep her baby just made happiness spill from her like an overflowing water fountain and everyone that witnessed it couldn't help but laugh with her. The bus pulled away leaving the sleeping woman behind. Not a clue in her sleeping mind where her daughter was. Thinking she was still asleep in the bed next to her the woman's dreams were filled with the nightmare that she must murder her grandchild. She held a knife above the infant in her dream. Her husband stood laughing behind her.

"Kill it!" He said She cringed in her dream. She whimpered out loud and tossed back and forth but settled on her side as the dream continued. Not waking up till morning.

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"They aren't really human." Ian said.

"No shit." Gerard said as he looked at the man in front of him.

"Ok, you guessed that." He said matter of factly.

"We want to know what they are, and how to get rid of them." Ray said looking just as annoyed as Gerard had sounded.

"Well, there's a girl with them." Ian said.

"Yes, Angel?" Gerard said Mikey looked at Gerard.

"Yes Angel is her name." Ian said.

"How did you know that?" Mikey said looking at Gerard with wide eyes.

"I dream about her." Gerard said and shrugged. I thought I was loosing it but when he told us about Kristie and Kim, that's when I guessed Angel was real too. But I didn't dream about Kim, I dreamed about Kristie." He said and looked down at his shoes. The weight of the dream crashed into him again. He had been trying to avoid thinking about it but it would come to him like an unwanted disease that would eat at his stomach till it hurt.

They had all been on edge since they were told of the girls dieing. Sleep didn't come easy and there were moments that all of them felt the cruel reality of this backing them into the corner. They managed moments of silliness to numb the craziness but it never took it away. It was still there to run its nails into their dreams.

"Yes Angel." Ian said.

"She is why they are here. She disappeared from her car that she abandoned on the highway after she left her husband. It was just abandoned. There wasn't anything wrong with it. So we thought it was some sort of foul play but then she was described as with the band and the strangeness of the deaths, it all added up." Ian said. The guys were all looking at him, a look of confusion apparent on all of their faces.

"Obviously this girl is a fan of yours. But not just a fan. She loves the band. I don't mean just as a word I mean literally, she loves you."

"How could she love us? I mean she doesn't know us?" Mikey said frowning.

"I assure you she does. We wouldn't be talking if she didn't"

"The power it must have took," he said offhandedly as he shook his head,

"Not one but five." He shook his head still not completely believing it himself.

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Stephen shook his head. What were they thinking? A 14-year-old girl? Now we are babysitters? He still couldn't come to terms with what the band was doing. Thoughts of the day he had met them seemed odd know .

[He was coming home from seeing his dad. It was a good day. Today he remembered his son. He always looked forward to seeing his dad but he dreaded the days that he had no idea who he was. His dad was still heavy in his mind when he saw them.

"What the hell?" He said He had rounded the curve in the highway and there they were, in the middle of nowhere. Clad completely in black looking confused on the side of the road, all five of them. He pulled over and Gerard walked up to the driver's door. He had recognized them the moment he saw them.

"Fuck man, what are you doing out here? What happened?" Stephen said.

"Some motherfucker jacked our bus." Gerard said. His hand was lazily playing with his thick black hair.

"We have no way of calling anyone now, and you are the first person to stop." Gerard said.

"I have my cell." Stephen said as he fished it from his pocket and handed it to him. Gerard stood there a min looking at it like he was trying to remember what it was. He dialed a number as Stephen stepped out of the truck and started to walk toward the other guys standing around on the other side of the truck.

"Yea, I need to speak to " Gerard said when the number he dialed was answered.

"Wow someone jacked your bus?" He said as he approached them.

"Yea man, about 30 min. ago. Just drove away and left us here." Frankie said Knowing full well there was never a bus. He just hoped that Gerard could get in touch with someone that could get what they need and not ask any questions. Gerard walked over to them.

"Do you know this area?" He said looking at Stephen.

"I sure do." He said.

"Then would you mind so much telling them where we can meet, if you don't mind taking us there? He's bringing us a bus and money." Gerard said. Handing Stephen the phone. After he hung up the phone they climbed in the truck and he introduced himself. While they waited for the bus to arrive Gerard asked if he wanted to be their driver.

"It includes free concerts and pay too." Gerard said and smiled. He didn't think about it long before he said yes.]

And now here he was. Driving them and two females. One a young run away. He shook his head again. He didn't agree with it but decided that he'd let it be.

CHAPTER 8

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"Power? What do you mean, power?" Frankie said

"This happens more than you think, but I've never seen more than one. There has always been one. As far as I know none of them have ever killed anyone, but there were five this time, so that means that they are very strong. It took a tremendous power to create five, which made them so strong that they could accidentally kill someone without meaning to." Ian said.

"Okay dude, you are gonna have to explain better than that, but first I wanna know what is it with these dreams and how do we stop them? Mikey said.

"Ah, the dreams. I hate to tell you this, but there is no way to stop the dreams as long as they breathe. They are interlinked with you and they will remain that way. It isn't a one-way deal. You dream about them, but they don't need to dream about you, they know everything about you and what you are thinking because they are you. In a manner of speaking." He looked at each one slowly letting what he had said sink in. Gerard let out an exhausted sigh.

"How do we find them and stop them?" he said. Rubbing his eyes intently as a child that is in need of a nap. 'Finding them isn't the hard part. They are doing shows that you cancel. They simply call the venue and un-cancel the show. What will be hard is surprising them. They know what you are going to do, what you are thinking. So they aren't going to be in the same place as you easily. They know that if you touch them they will disintegrate. As if they were never there. One touch from the person they are linked to and they cannot exist."

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"Holy shit! You guys are good." Audra said.

"I really should have listened to all of it before." A grin was spread across her face as she held Angel's MP3 player in her hand. Bobbing her head to the music that was coming from the headphones. Gerard smiled as he looked up from the paper he was writing on. He had been intently drawing before she had interrupted him.

Angel watched him intently as he was lost in a world of imagination. He had been distant lately as if he were dreading something. When she asked him what was wrong he would only shrug and tell her that he must be just tired and that everything was fine and he'd kiss her knowing that she couldn't think when his lips were against hers. She found herself memorizing his face. She had a strong feeling that he wasn't hers, even tho he told her he loved her and she knew now that she loved him more than anything or anyone in the world. It ate into her flesh every time she let her hand caress his soft skin. She could feel that he wasn't hers and no matter how many times she told herself that she was being paranoid. The feeling would not leave her. It lingered and threatened to take her into a fit of tears. She would not be the same if she lost him. She was certain that she would stop breathing if he left her. A tear slid down her cheek. Sliding between her lips she tasted the salty fear that wouldn't release her.

3 weeks later

"This is going to be awesome!" Frankie said

"Yea, on the stage again. Finally! If only we could book gigs ourselves." Ray said as he lightly strummed the stings of his guitar. They were backstage getting ready to take the stage.

"You are gonna be so in love with them! There is nothing in the world like them live!!" Angel said raising her voice above the crowd that was emitting a dull roar of mingled voices.

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"I thought MCR changed there look?" a girl behind her in the crowd said to some unknown person. .

"I'm sure I will." Audra said to Angel

"But I must find a bathroom, I'll be back in a minute." She said,

"Do you want me to go with you?" Angel said looking back at her

"No I'll be ok." Audra said as she was inching through the crowd. The crowd erupted

" MCR MCR MCR". As they came onto the stage.

Audra found the bathroom and that moment her stomach turned. Her body felt weak and she felt everything she had eaten trying to come up into the back of her throat. She ran into the bathroom and slammed the stall door. The cold floor met her knees as she collapsed onto them. Finally her stomach settled and she could stand, she got up and went to the sink and began washing her face and rinsed her mouth out the best she could. She could hear the band playing

"Not OK" as she was walking out of the door.

"Hi" a man was standing just outside the door.

"Hi" she said offhandedly to him.

"I'm Mark, and you?"

"Audra." She began to go towards the crowd that wasn't paying them any attention.

"Wait, Audra, I need help and no one will help me. Please." He said as he looked at her hopefully. His grey hair fell into his face. His deep blue eyes peered at her from behind the gray locks. He wasn't an old man but you could see a few wrinkles forming around his mouth and eyes. Please, my mom wandered into the grass over there and she's very old and she fell and I need help to get her out from behind the building over there." He continued to look sad.

" Can you get a guard to help, there are lots of people around?"

"No they wouldn't help, please." She sighed, she had to help, and it was a poor old lady after all." They started toward the lone building that stood off in the distance. There was no one even close to it. Audra began to feel angry that no one would help this man and his mom. How could people be so cruel? She shook her head at the thought. They rounded the corner out of site from anyone in the crowd. The music drumming into there bodies. She could feel the beat in her feet and arms; it coursed through her whole body.

"Mom?" He said as they walked along the building. He stopped abruptly when they were in the middle of the building. He turned and Audra only had time to give him a questioning look when he grabbed her by the waist a pushed her back into the building. His hands were pulling her shirt up and she felt his fingers encircle her right breast. She let out a shocked cry that was not audible to anyone more than a foot from her.

" Pitchfork red. I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take "

Gerard stopped in mid sentence. He looked into the many faces watching him intently. He knew they would be very angry with them but they had no choice. He turned around.

"They are almost here!" he said to the guys behind him.

"We must go, now!" They all stopped that instant, and stood up. As an after thought Gerard raised the mic up to his lips.

"Angel, Audra, we must go. I'm sorry everyone, we love you all." With that they abandoned their instruments and walked of the stage into the back stage area. Almost running to the bus they made their way and climbed on. Stephen was already there. Angel stood by the door with a puzzled look on her face.

"Where's Audra?" Mikey said, "I thought she was here."

"She went to the bathroom earlier but I guessed she was just sick again and went to the bus like the other night when she disappeared and we found her on the bus asleep." Angel said. They all searched the faces in the crowd.

"We don't have any time! They are almost here! I waited to long already onstage." Gerard said.

"Oh my God." Ray said. He started to walk toward a building that sat off to the side.

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"What the fuck do we do?" Ray said as his stomach got more and more queasy the closer they came to the venue.

"We detain them." Ian said

"You said they are strong, so how do we detain them?" Ray said.

"Lets just hope they are still there at this point, ok?" Ian said Gerard ran his hand through his hair; he wasn't looking forward to being face to face with himself. He kept turning it in his mind and he still couldn't get a grasp on the reality of it.

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"No!" Audra said as she felt him pushing her pants down, they fell to her ankles. She struggled to get control over his hands but it was no use. Her hands went where he put them above her head. He held them both with one of his with ease. She couldn't help but let her legs wrap around his waist as he lifted her with his other hand even tho she was struggling and kicking he easily placed her body however he pleased. Her panties were down around her ankles and then gone to the ground with her pants in the blink of her eye. She screamed at that moment as loud as she could. Despite the scream he shoved his way into her, she felt him as he entered, pain shot through her body and she screamed again. Hearing it echo through her head as tears fell from her eyes. He had one hand holding her hands above her head and the other on her butt as he thrust in and out of the struggling girl.

The instant Ray heard the scream he knew it was Audra.

"You guys stay here, get in the bus, I'm going to get Audra!" With that he began to run towards the building.

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"Fuck! That's me!" Ray said as he saw what looked like himself running in the other direction. He had no idea where he was going but he was running very fast across the lot. And then he spotted the bus. They weren't close enough to see everyone standing by the bus but it was obviously them. They were along way from that bus and there were a shit load of kids in between them. They began to make their way through the crowd accompanied by police officers and others made it easier but it was still like wading through mud. Kids were begging for autographs and snapping pictures and a few had noticed that they weren't the same as they had been and even fewer had noticed that there were two of them and the crowd began to freak out.

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"What the hell! Gerard is here and he's over there! OMG" came from the crowd. If it hadn't been important to get through them Gerard would have laughed at them but he was determined to stop these monsters.

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Ray rounded the corner and there she was pinned against the wall by some unknown guy and he was fucking her. What he noticed first was the bruise that was turning purple on Audra's upper arm and then he saw the tears that were streaming down her face. He was directly behind them before the man even noticed that anyone else was there. Ray reached out a gripped the man by the back of the neck and yanked him backwards. The mans face went from the lax look of pleasure to a full O his eyes wide as he was pulled back. He released his grip on the girl at that moment and she immediately started fixing her cloths.

"Who are you?" Was all that came from his lips. The second after he uttered the words he found he couldn't speak and he felt a sharp pain rip through him. Ray was looking at the piece of shit in his hand and at first was concentrating on not letting his fingers rip through the skin. It was very hard to keep from just squeezing. He knew if he had the skin would have ripped and he could have separated the man's head from his body with just a squeeze. That's when anger flooded through him and he instinctively, lightly, for him, twisted his hand to the right. The man's neck snapped at that moment and his eyes went blank. Ray wasn't proud that he had killed him but he felt he had deserved it. And he let go of the man's body and looked at Audra. She was still against the wall hugging herself with her eyes wide staring at the man lying on the ground.

"Audra, I'm so sorry." Tears were still streaming down her face.

"We have to go to the bus now." He reached out to her. She just blinked. So he wrapped his arms around her and picked her up then he started to run back toward the bus. That's when he noticed them in the crowd. Making their way towards the bus.

"FUCK! NO!" He tried to run faster. They were heading strait for him and the bus was so far away.

"Can you run now? Please run to the bus." A tear ran down his face.

"Yea I'm ok." She finally said. She hugged his neck, "Thank you" she said as he set her down. All she new is that he was scared and that someone was coming and he wanted her on the bus. She trusted him so when he set her down she began to run to the bus. Her body was hurting in places but she put it out of her mind and just ran.

Angel had seen Ray carrying the girl. She saw him set her down. Gerard was standing in the door of the bus just behind her. She looked back at him and he was staring into the crowd with a worried look on his face. She followed his gaze and her mind couldn't wrap around what she was seeing. Gerard saw her look and saw the look of shock spill into her eyes.

"I love you Angel, you know that but its up to you if you stay with us. We must tell you some things but." He paused. He couldn't believe the terror that was filling him. The thought that she was going to leave him slammed into his head. That she would run this moment towards them was eating him alive at that minute. He knew that second if she did he would just go to them and give up. A police officer was heading for the bus, and the rest were trying to reach Ray and Audra, they were both running towards the bus. Audra was only staring at the bus. He guessed she hadn't seen who she was running from.

"Please trust me, please don't leave me." It was all he could say. She saw the tears welling in his eyes and in her mind it clicked that somehow this is not the real Gerard, somehow he stands in front of her and is something else. But she loved him. She didn't fear him. She stepped up closer to him on the bottom step of the bus and kissed his cheek.

"I love you, too, I'm not going anywhere." A smile spread across his lips and he hugged her. Audra was almost to the door. The cop was closing in. But Ray had somehow fallen behind. And they were almost on top of him.

Stephen was in the drivers seat, he had been told to drive when given the word. He couldn't see what was going on, the bus was turned in a direction that cut his line of sight away from what was happening. So he just waited with the engine running and read a book that he had had with him. Audra reached the steps. She was out of breath and stopped and that's when she turned around just in time to see that it was the band that were chasing them and one cop was headed toward her. She saw them, all of them surround her

"Ray" and another Ray was walking up to him.

"Oh God!" Gerard said behind her.

"What are they going to do?" Audra said.

"They are going to oh God. No" Gerard said. Tears erupted from his eyes.

"Angel, go tell Stephen to GO, tell him to drive us out of here and to do it fast, tell him to just go." She looked at him wanting to ask what about ray but thought better of it. Mikey and Frank were sitting at the little tables. Bob was in his bunk, but he wasn't lying down. He was sitting there, staring at the wall opposite the bunk. He was holding a pillow and was in what seemed a daze. They were all scared. Very scared it seemed by the way they were so quiet and none of them moved. She ran into the front of the bus.

"We must go now." She said.

"Gerard said hurry, ok?"

"Ok." He said as he began to shift the bus. Gerard reached out and wrapped his arms around Audra who was standing just outside the bus door her eyes wide watching them close in on Ray. He looked frightened as they approached. And she noticed that a man that was identical to ray was almost standing next to him. The police officer that was coming to them was just outside the door.

"Audra," he said,

"Come with me your parents are so worried." She looked at him and she felt arms snaking around her and she was being pulled into the bus. She didn't mind. She couldn't have moved if she had begged her body to. She was glued to the ground. As she was being pulled backwards she felt the bus click into gear and it started to move while she was still in mid air with only the strong hands supporting her.

The ray from the crowd reached out and gripped her Ray's hand. Her Ray tried to turn and prevent him from touching him but it was to late. Gerard saw it to and he tried to turn Audra around so she wouldn't see it but he wasn't quick enough. She saw what happened when their hands touched and a scream erupted from her throat.

"Ray!!! NO NOT RAY! He just saved me." The other Ray looked at her as they were driving away. Gerard finally had her all the way in the bus. And was holding her sobbing body close to him.

"No why did they do that to him? He saved me from that crazy man. And now he's gone and it's not fair." She said in a muffled voice burying her head deeper into Gerard's chest.

"I know honey, I know." He said as he stroked her hair. The bus was moving now but he couldn't get the site of ray from his head. The rest of them had gotten away but for how long.

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Ray was running just behind Audra when they came through an opening in the crowd. They almost reached Audra so he slowed down and cut them off from her. So instead of going after her they encircled him.

"You aren't real." Ray from the crowd said. He reached out to grab his hand and Ray tried to turn the other way but Gerard was directly behind him and he knew he could have just shoved him but if he hurt this Gerard the other would feel it so he just sighed and reached out too.

"It would happen sooner or later anyway." He said as their hands gripped each other.

Ray didn't know what to expect when there hands touched. Ian had only said that he would no longer be if they touched. But what happened shocked him a little. He felt a burning in his hand. It felt like grabbing a hot furnace. And the man in front of him disintegrated before his eyes. It was a puff of something like ash that erupted from where he stood. A second later there was nothing there. Ray blinked. Then he looked toward the fleeing bus. They were to far from any vehicle to go after them. But at least they had gotten one. There were only 4 left and that was good. They headed back towards the parking lot.

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Angel knelt down and hugged Audra.

"What happened?" The girl was still clinging to Gerard. He looked up at Angel and said they got Ray.

"What, what happened to Ray?"

"He's gone." Gerard said as he continued to stroke Audra's hair. Mikey hadn't moved but he hung his head as he heard Gerard's words and tears streamed from his eyes. Frankie was still in his spot too. He just started shaking his head. Bob was still staring at the wall from the bunk.

CHAPTER 10

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"What do we say when this gets into the media?" Gerard said to Ian They were in the hotel room looking at each other in silence for what seemed forever until Gerard broke the silence.

"It will never be in any papers or magazines. We'll make sure of that. Who knows what would happen If people knew about this." Ian said shrugging as if there was nothing more to discuss.

"But there were people there, they saw it. How can you keep this quiet?" Ray said he was still trembling from the thought of what had happened. He had looked into 'his' eyes. Chills creped down his spine. Those had been his own eyes and they were filled with sorrow, he had looked into them and saw sadness. It was hard to keep thinking of them as monsters. He was relieved that he didn't have to be the one to get rid of any of the rest of them, he just wasn't sure he could do it. Not again.

"It's not a hard thing to do, don't worry about that, that's the least of out worries." Ian shrugged again. Mikey was looking at the man's grey hair. He was playing with a piece of paper that he had torn from a receipt from some forgotten thing.

"Are you ok?" Mikey asked Ray.

"Not really, its hard to explain." Ray said and then looked at Ian.

"If they are monsters, then why do I feel like shit for touching him?"

"It's because he was just like you. It's hard to say why, really, but almost everyone that has had this experience has said the same thing."

"Well what if the person is dead?" Bob said.

"Oh, well then the person doesn't die till he has a natural death." Ian said. Ray blinked with a confused look on his face

"Natural death, How could they have a natural death, they are monsters. Right?"

"Well technically they shouldn't be here, but most of them aren't bad at all. There's a case in Main that I cant go into to much detail but she was a young woman that lost her boyfriend of 5 years when he was in a car crash on the way to their wedding. Well it wasn't even a week later that he came home. They are still together and he will grow old with her. The only way he'll die is of old age. But he's not a threat."

"What are you saying? That this guy in main isn't a threat, why? And our doubles are?" Frank said looking at Ian intently.

"Guys look, these creatures are dangerous, they have killed people, they have kidnapped a child and are doing god knows what to her as we speak, and the people that see this will think its you. We can keep this from the masses, but the people that see what they do and are around them will think it was you guys that are doing all of this crazy shit."

"Well, then tell me what the girl meant when she said that he had saved her?" Gerard said.

"I really don't know what that was about. But we did find a man behind the building that had a broken neck. I think that we just missed another murder before you got rid of him, we were too late." Ian looked at the singer and quickly went into something else, anything but that. They had found out that the man was engaged in intercourse with the young girl. It was obvious that their doppelganger had saved the girl from what the man had been doing but he did not need them to think that they could let these creatures live. They aren't human and shouldn't be aloud to exist. It was just the way it should be. He would kill all of them that were in existence if he could.

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Audra was sound asleep on Mikey's bunk. Gerard had carried her and placed her into the bunk after she had finally cried herself to sleep. The bus had stopped and they were parked in the back of a truck stop, hidden behind other trucks and RVs, hopefully good enough that no one would notice. All of them were sitting around the little table. Angel was as close to Gerard as she could get. At that moment she just needed to feel him next to her. Her hand was resting in his and she couldn't make herself let him go even when he tried to release her to light a cigarette. She just took the lighter from the table and lit it for him never letting go of the comfort of his hand.

Stephen sat next to Mikey.

"Will someone please tell me what happened to Ray?" Stephen said. Gerard sighed and took a long drag from the cigarette clutched between his fingers.

"This is going to be hard to explain, Stephen. So please bare with me." He said Stephen nodded but didn't say a word.

"When we met you, we had just appeared there. We were not born to this world like you. I am Gerard, but I am not the one that was born and started the band. He is trying to find us with the rest of his band to get rid of us. We were created because Angel " He looked at angel and gave her a half smile as he squeezed her hand gently.

"Had so much loneliness and sadness deep inside of her. She was drowning in it. She loves the band. She doesn't just think of them as a band, they are more than that to her and her love coupled with her sadness and loneliness created us. Not everyone can do that, even with the same feelings as she had. I don't know everything to know about how we were created but I know that. It had to do with the way the earth was positioned and the exact place on it she was. Everything was in the right place and we were created for her. She had always felt a deep connection with me, well, Gerard. So I could feel when I met her that I was supposed to be with her. I knew that we would love each other. I just knew it. We aren't bad people. But we are not them. The real Ray touched Ray. We cannot exist if we are touched by the person who we were made from." He looked up to see Stephen looking at him with wide eyes.

"You have to be shittin me. This is just to out there! You are trying to freak me out so you can get a laugh. You guys are the craziest guys, I swear!" Stephen said and then he started to laugh.

"No, Stephen, its true. Audra saw it when the real Ray touched him. I'm telling you, this is real." He looked at angel.

"How can this be real? Oh my god. How do I process this? You're serious?" He said looking at Angel again. She slowly nodded.

"You have to let us know now, are you going to stay with us or are you leaving us?" Gerard said.

"Well you seem like ok guys, I mean Angel is staying right?" He looked at Gerard trying not to let anyone know that whatever she did is what he would do. He knew that she was in love with Gerard. It just didn't seem to make any difference what he knew. He couldn't stop how he loved her smile. She looked into his eyes at that moment and he felt himself blush.

"Of course I'm staying." She said as if it could be no other way.

"Well, then so am I." Stephen said as he tore his eyes from her lips. They involuntarily would rest on her lips at the most inappropriate times. He looked at Gerard instead and smiled.

"Good then. We all must get some sleep." Gerard said

"Are we safe? Will they come back?" Stephen said.

"Yea we are safe, we'll know if they are coming." Bob said as if Stephen should have known that bit of information.

"He's really gone." Angel said. Tears in her voice were threatening to erupt. Lying in the bed, running her fingers through his hair as she let it slide through them over and over.

"Yea, he's gone." Gerard said. He traced her lips with his finger and let it slide down her chin and to her neck. He could feel her heart begin to speed up through his fingertips. He leaned into her and pressed his lips firmly against hers. The kiss deepened and they let go of the sorrows that were encircling them. Entangled together they let pleasure replace the fear that had taken over both of their minds. Stephen had begun to dose when the moans flooded his ear. They were at it again. He rolled his eyes. He hated that He was touching her. He turned his little radio up so he didn't have to hear it. He closed his eyes and begged sleep to take him.

CHAPTER 11

3 weeks had passed and they had had no signs of anyone coming for them. Angel woke up with a scream hanging on the tip of her lips. The dream that had caused it was still playing in her mind. In the dream it had been Gerard that was touched instead of Ray. Tears were sliding down her cheeks so she wiped them away letting her eyes rest on the sleeping figure next to her. She took a deep breath and reached out to touch his face. Brushing a stray hair back on his forehead she let her fingertips caress the skin of his cheek. She wanted to wrap her arms around him and pull him to her and even tho she knew he wouldn't mind she also knew he needed more sleep than he had gotten so instead she groggily climbed from the bed and pulled herself to her feet. She stretched and let out a silent yawn and walked towards the front of the bus to get some coffee. They had decided it was best just to stick to campsites and truck stops since their money needed to be stretched. They no longer had a credit card that they could use. If they used Angel's or Stephens they may be found to easily. But they still had enough to survive for a while.

"Mornin." Stephen said

"Hi." Angel said and yawned again. He was usually up when she got up.

"Howed ya sleep?" He said.

"Ok I guess."

"Cream n sugar, right." He said and pushed the steaming cup to her.

"Yes." She said and smiled, it never failed, he always had a cup of coffee for her when she got up and it was always hot as if he had just gotten it.

"What exactly are we doing?" Stephen said suddenly looking at her.

"What do you mean?" She said

"I mean we haven't had a real destination in weeks, we are just you know, we aren't going anywhere."

"I know." She said and let a sigh escape her.

"There really isn't anywhere to go now, you know that. You can leave if you want, we'd miss you, but really it's ok if you just go home." She said.

"No, I don't wanna leave, I just was wondering, is there a plan or do we just wing it." He said and smiled, he shifted in his seat suddenly uncomfortable with the conversation that he had started.

"We're winging it." She said and laughed.

"Hey guys." Audra said as she came from her bunk and sat down.

"Hey sweetie." Angel said.

"Hey kid." Stephen said.

"Bagels, please tell me there are bagels?" Audra said and yawned walking to the small fridge in the middle of the small so called kitchen.

"Just for you, doll, bagels and cream cheese." Stephen smiled and pointed to the basket of bagels on the counter. As Audra sat down to enjoy her bagel that was lathered with cream cheese a girl appeared from the back. Her bright red hair was disheveled about her head. She seemed shocked that anyone else was in the bus.

"Oh, hello." She said and just stood by the opening looking at Angel and then Audra, and finally at Stephen. Audra and Angel looked at each other with the same questioning look. They hadn't had a clue that anyone else was in the bus or when she had gotten there.

"Hi, I'm Angel, come sit and have coffee and bagels umm and you are?"

"Crystal, and no thanks. I am really late. I have to go." She grabbed a jacket that was draped over a chair that had been unnoticed until that moment. She held one shoe in the other hand as she fought it onto her foot on the way to the door. Just then Audra laughed out loud. Angel gave her a sideways smile. Both of them knew what the other was thinking. 'Who had Crystal stayed with all night?' That question was answered just before the girl stepped out the door and disappeared to wherever she had to be.

"Tell Frank I had fun and to give me a call if he's ever around here again." She said with a grin and left the bus.

"Frankie!" Audra said and began to giggle.

"Shhhhhhhh." Angel said but she began to giggle to. Stephen just rolled his eyes. Audra quieted her giggle but let it continue.

"What?" Came a voice from the doorway. Audra looked up to see Frankie come in and her giggle turned into a full belly laugh. He just looked at her with a puzzled frown. A loud knock on the door made Angel jump in her seat.

"Maybe Crystal missed you." Audra said with a laugh as she went to open the door.

"Oh, Crystal, now I get it." Frank said with a little embarrassed laugh.

"Did you forget something?" Angel said as she opened the door fully expecting to see the bright red haired girl standing on the other side. Instead there was a man in a suit standing there looking up at her. He pushed his way past her without a sound or explanation.

"Angel, I presume?" He said once he was past her and standing just behind her inside the bus. He looked at the others standing around and nodded at Audra.

"You need to go home to your parents, they are very worried."

"Who are you?" Frankie said. Looking cautiously at the intruder.

"I know what you are." The man said looking at Frank with a clearly discussed expression splashed across his face.

"Again, just who the fuck are you?" Frankie said

"Someone who will stop you, that's who I am." Ian said. Knowing full well he wasn't going to be able to leave with anyone. He had wanted to know just what was happening and decided the only way to find out if the girls were still alive was to go see for himself.

"Get out of here, now." Frankie said and stepped closer to him.

"We will stop you. You must know that." He said and tried to hide the fear that had begun to course through him.

"Audra, you can come with me, I'll take you home. They can't make you stay here any longer." He locked eyes with the girl.

"You think they are forcing me to stay? Are you crazy? No, I'm not going anywhere, I am keeping my baby, and you tell my mom that. You tell her that she's not murdering it!" Audra had begun to cry. She was trembling at the thought that this man might take her back to them and she would have to let them do what they wanted. Her feet had been frozen in their place until that moment. She backed away from him and ran into the back of the bus.

The sounds from the front of the bus woke Gerard he got out of bed and went towards the front of the bus. Just then Audra ran into him. Tears streaming down her cheeks she reached out and embraced him in mid step. He took her into his arms and stroked her hair. That's when he saw the man standing by the door. Frank was inches from the man ordering him to leave. The man was obviously taken aback by what Audra had said.

"Get out now, or I'll throw you out." Frankie said. Stepping even closer to the man. Ian knew when he had pushed to far so he turned towards the door. HE turned the knob and started out the door.

"We'll figure out how to get to you, I promise you that, you shouldn't be here. You can't be aloud to live." Frank shoved him the rest of the way out the door and slammed it as Ian landed on the ground on his knees. He quickly stood up and sprinted to his car afraid that the door may open and the thing that slammed it would come out and rip him apart. Angel was still in her chair. A tear slid down her cheek and she looked at Frankie standing by the door and then at Gerard still in the hallway with his arms wrapped around Audra.

"He's wrong isn't he? Please tell me he's wrong." She couldn't control the flood of tears as they overtook her. The dream that had awakened her rushed into her head. Mikey and Bob were up standing behind Gerard.

"Who was that?" Mikey said.

"I'm not sure, but now we know for sure that they know where we are." Gerard said. Angel looked at the man she loved and saw fear behind his beautiful eyes.

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Gerard was outside the hotel when Ian got there. He listened as Ian told him about what had happened.

"You did what?" Gerard said.

"I was on their bus, I saw the girls that are with them, and there's a man too." Ian said.

"Oh wow. The girls, they are ok?" He said.

"Yes they seemed ok to me."

"Who's the man with them?" Gerard said

"We aren't sure but we'll know soon." Ian said.

"So, I was told you have a plan to get to them." Gerard said

"Yes, I do, and I think it will work." He said.

"Can you tell me what it is?" Gerard said

"No, I cant, I'm sorry but they know what you know, at least a lot of what you know so none of you can know or it wont work." Gerard didn't like not knowing what they were going to do but it made sense so he agreed to go along with what Ian told them.

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CHAPTER 12

"Can I talk to you a min?" Stephen said.

"Sure, I guess so." Angel said. She followed him into the front of the bus, which seemed to have become his sanctuary. He spent a lot of time there even when he wasn't driving. He would crank up the radio and read or surf the net on Angel's laptop. She always let him use it whenever he wanted.

"I've been thinking." He said

"uhhohh." She said and smiled.

"No really, we aren't going anywhere and the money we have cant last forever so I thought we could go to a place, my aunts house to be exact, it's a farm. Her and my uncle have had it sense way before I was born and I just thought it would be something to think about." He said and looked at Angel waiting for her to reply.

"Well, will they mind this many people intruding on them?" She said

"No they wouldn't mind at all, they love me." He said and smiled. The truth is that he missed them. "Well, it seems like a good idea, we could ask the guys what they think." She said and turned to go ask Gerard when a familiar notebook hidden between the seat and the wall of the bus caught her eye.

"What the fuck?" She said looking at Stephen suspiciously.

"What?" He said That's mine, how did you get it?" She said and snatched it from where it hid.

"Oh god, umm, I don't know?" He said but she could tell he knew full well. She remembered the night that Gerard and Frank had been in the room and what they had done.

"You showed them that story didn't you?" She said His eyes got big at that, how did she know that?

"Yea I guess I did, I'm sorry, really, I just thought it was funny." He said She continued to look at him, She was angry but then all the shit that had happened to them made this seem like nothing. So she decided to let it go.

"Its ok, I don't get why you took it but I guess its ok." She said after a few minutes in silence.

"Lets go see what they say about your idea." She said.

"Yea, sure, I really am sorry." He said and caught himself before he took her hand in his. Its funny, he knows they are friends and him taking her hand would have been nothing to her, but because it would have meant something to him he stopped himself.

"Its ok, really." She said. Then she took him by surprise and hugged him. He was visibly shaken by the hug but thankfully Angel didn't notice. She just turned and walked into the bus where the guys were as if it was no big deal.

"A farm?" Mikey said.

"Yea a farm." Angel said with a grin. Mikey's reaction was a mix between shock and awe.

"Like with cows and animals and such?" Frankie said.

"Yea, I believe that's what it means when you say farm." Stephen said with a giggle himself.

"I don't know, it could be nice on a farm." Bob said and they all looked at him with amused expressions.

"Yea its pretty and peaceful and the whole town is a farm town, mostly old fashioned back woods farmers." Stephen said and shrugged. In the end they all decided it was the best thing to do. They left for the farm early the next morning.

"They have horses!" Audra exclaimed.

A beautiful wooden fence that seemed to go on forever enclosed them. The house stood proudly at the end of the drive.

"Hello." Annabel said as they entered the door. They all instantly loved her as she showed them her home.

"There are so many rooms that you should all go and pic one out." She smiled at them loving the idea of the company. She had missed Stephen and it had been a long time sense there were lots of people that she could take care of.

A red van pulled into the little store and Frankie had only glanced at it for a split sec. not thinking anything of it after that. Bob and Mikey were already in the store. He liked this place it was peaceful and people were kind. He had thought there may be a kind of prejudice about his tats when they had first told him it was a farm town and that most of the people were 'old fashioned backwoods farmers' to quote Stephen, but they were nice people and everything was sweet smelling and beautiful, except maybe the stables. He smiled to himself at the thought. He decided that he wouldn't want to be anywhere else sense he couldn't play. Not being able to play was taking a tole on him but this place helped a little. Well he could play, but playing in a room with a few people or alone just isn't the same as playing for a crowd. Him and the guys had begun coming to this little rickety store every morning. They had fresh coffee and made the best omelets. There was even a waitress named Maybell. She always smelled like bacon and lilacs. She knew them all by name and offered a huge smile when the boys walked through the door every morning. It had been 4months sense they moved in with Wally and Annabel Cramer. Stephens Aunt and Uncle. They had walked to this store every morning after they found it. Well sense Stephen took them there, even tho it was two miles away from the farm, they enjoyed the simplicity of all of it.

The building itself looked like it would fall in on itself at any moment when you walked across the porch. The ground underneath was visible and it cause Frankie to take his steps carefully expecting the floor to give at any moment.

"Frankie, good morning." Maybell said as he walked up to the little bar that served as the only seating in the tiny store. Bob and Mikey were already seated. Maybell was pouring coffee for Frankie, she handed it to him with a warm smile. He gratefully took it.

Gerard opened his eyes to