*~ Don't Know, Don't Own, and Please don't sue!!*~

Chapter 1- I'm Not Okay

As I stand in the middle of my room getting dressed I am staring at the pictures on the wall, most especially the one that is autographed with Gerard's actual name on it, I look at my wrist and realize I am obsessed but I don't give a damn. The Tattoo of "My Chemical Romance" says it all.

I put on my "shh you are beautiful just the way you are" mcr shirt and look at myself approvingly in the mirror.

As I walk out of the room, I hear the phone ring and I can't find the damn thing, as soon as I do I pick it up and hear " hey, can I talk to Nomes"

"This is her, What's up?" it's my friend Krystal.

"Not a lot here just wondering if you were going to go down to the corner tonight and if so can I get a ride?"

"sure, but I have a feeling nothing is going to go on tonight, there is supposed to be a football game tonight against Steamboat, and you know they are our rivals, every one is going to be there"

"yeah but we might as well" she says, " my little sister is driving me insane as usual"

"Yeah I will see you in 30 -k?" I say

"Yup" is what I hear on the other end, and I hang up the phone.

As I grab my hoodie and head out the door my folks stop me and ask me where i'm going and what i'm going to do, and I tell them i'm going out with Krystal and I will be back and midnight.

I slam the door and get into my truck, I turn on the cd player and turn it all the way up, it's screaming "I'm not okay" and I'm screaming right along with it, getting funny ass looks going down the road.

I pick up Krystal, and she gets in, and changes the song to "Give em Hell Kid" which happens to be her favorite.

She and I went to our first show together, and it was so Awesome, taste of chaos '05, we earned our strips that show, considering I was like ten feet away from my hero, wishing and hoping I could touch him but never did, The second show I went to was Warped in SLC 05 and it was so awesome, I screamed over 9,000 people " I Love you Gerard" and he got on the mic, and said "I Love you too Honey."

I won't ever forget that, and every night before I got to sleep I wish I could meet him, and someday I know I will.

*Gerards POV*

As I reach the bus I shutter to think at how disgusting it looks and smells inside, and I wish I was home, more than anything. It is so fucking hot in Utah, shit, I think though that the fans are hotter in the pit, at least we can move around on stage.

I go to my bunk, change, and lay down, thinking about the show I just did, I take a drag off of my smoke and exhale,

"Who was she?" I asked myself and I remember that I had talked to her, I just couldn't fucking believe that she was that loud, that I could hear her, that's what amazed me.

I shrug it off, and hear the other guys walk in. Bob walked past, then Frank, Then Ray, and at last Mikey.

" Mikey?" he asked

" Yeah Gerard"

" Did you get a good look at that girl that I said I love you to me, over the microphone?" he asked

"No, Why man?"

"Cause neither did me and I kind of wanted to." I replied

Mikey said," Don't worry about it man, If she's a true fan she'll be at another show and with you talking to her I wouldn't doubt it"

"Yeah" I say, and the bus started moving.

*Naomi's POV*

As I sit there and stare into oblivion Krystal slugs me on the arm. "ow, what the hell was that for" I ask rubbing my arm.

" Stop it" She says,

"Stop what?" I ask all innocent knowing she knows what I am thinking about

"You'll never meet him and neither will I so just stop fucking day-dreaming Ok? It's not fucking good for that little blonde brain of yours."

I slug her back and say "Yeah well at least I think with it" and blow raspberries at her.

I get out of the truck, and start looking around I hear another semi pulling into the "S" turn by where we are sitting, and hope to god that just once their tour bus would roll right on by. But it never does.

Not much else happens that night, everyone got out of the game and of course we lost. So everyone is bummed out but there is not a lot I can do but say "Hey, we will win it next year guys. Cheer the hell up, it is just a game" but I am bummed out too cause that gives them bragging rights for a year. Which they will use to their full advantage.

The next day I get up around one, because I didn't go to bed until 2, and I like my sleep, especially during the day, I just can't sleep at night, I know I will miss something, and it is the same damn way every night, if I go to sleep I miss MCR on TV. And I hate doing that shit because usually it takes forever for Fuse to show it again. I hate MTV and never watch the shit there is not a point to that channel, and if I had my fucking way I would take it off of the air in one swift move. I'd Make my own show called, totally Emo all the time. "Yes" I decide, that would do nicely.

As I walk from the refrigarator, I hold an ice cold Mountain Dew in my hand and open it gently, sip it, then chug it, and set it down no the computer desk. I click on to the net, and decide it is about time to update my Xanga, and check all 5 of them, and then all 4 of my emails, and then MCR's site, to see what is up in their world lately.

I get done updating my site, adding a new picture of MCR and then I check my mail. To see if anything important is in, and nothing is, of course.

So I go to www.mychemicalromance.com and look at the new news. I see a post on there that says: ATTENTION SLC WARPED TOUR '05 ATTENDERS!

I read on and it says,

" Hey guys, this is Gerard, figured I would drop a line to ask all ya'll that attended this show for a favor, When we were playing I heard a girl scream out over like 9,000 kids, "I Love you Gerard" and all of you heard me respond to her. So I am here to ask for a response from her and her alone, if no one responds I will go on unknowing of this truly grateful fan, and I really need to know, so this is the mission.

FIND THIS GIRL. BRING HER TO ME.

Thanks.

Gerard Way."

As I finished reading I was stricken with this sense of freaked out ness. If that is even a word at all, and I decided that by god this was my destiny, being such the fan I am I responded, and got a response 2 days later, I didn't sleep at all in those two days and no one in my family got on the computer for longer than 5 minutes at a time. And after I got a response, I slept for 2 days straight so I would look nice.

*~Stay out of the light*~

*~Gerards POV*~

"I love my fans" Gerard stated as he sifted through about 700 some odd letters that had come in just for him. Some of them had, " I love you Gerard" all over them, some of them were 3 inches thick, and some of them were credit cards, and some still had rings and notes in them that asked " Will you marry me?"

But, he was still wondering who this chick was that screamed at him.

Mikey had told him he had a surprise for him later on today or was it tomorrow, but he had no idea what is was, and he was anxious as hell, so to help himself out he started reading fan mail.

It was time consuming, and he got a kick out of most of it, made him feel like the band was doing some good around the world. Hopefully.

*Naomi's POV*

As I stared at the plane that was leaving shortly from Hayden, I decided that I am so scared to fly, but I need to do this, I printed the letter I got back from Gerard. Well Mikey actually. Anyways, I took it out of my back pocket, and unfolded it.

" Dear Naomi, This is Mikey, and I did this for Gerard because ever since the show you were at he can't think straight and is wondering who the hell you are, so I need your address, cause I am sending you a plane ticket and 500$ to come meet him so he can get on with his life, he likes to obsess over things, and he is definitely obsessed over you. So be on the plan girly girl, because you are flying to Jersey, staying at our house, and you are going to meet your biggest fan

Sincerely Yours,

Mikey Way"

As I move up in line I close the note and put it safely back in my pocket I start daydreaming what this will be like.

The lady checks my bags, and I am taking my MCR bag on board with me... As I move through the plane I start regretting this, and wonder if there is some other way, As I stand there some guy goes "Hey bitch, get out of the fucking way" and so I sit down. Doomed (or so I thought) to fall out of the sky in a plane.

With an asshole.

It's All I can do but not sit in the ladies lap next to me as we take off, and I wish I could scream, I hate flying, I hate it more than.. Well anything, it scares the hell out of me, but I know that if I just sit there and relax, I will be in Newark in no time. As I'm sitting there, bored out of my mind, writing a novel I swear trying to think of all the things I will ask Gerard, I turn around and look at who all is behind me. As I turn I see this dirty blonde lump of hair, glued to the holders head and shiny as hell, and then I see the glasses, and I know for sure, that this guy, 2 seats back is Mikey, and he knows I am here, He didn't think I would find out? What the hell, as I ask the lady to move so I can get out, I stand up, and he sees me. I walk over to him and he is in an isle seat. I look down at him and he goes "can I help you?"

"Sure, but the question is can you help me."

I stick out my hand, and say,

"Naomi Hardin. You are the one that got me on this plane, So why are you doing this for Gerard? Has he been really unpredictable or what lately, and why should me screaming that to him make any difference?"

Mikey says, "Well Naomi, he's been really detached lately, really worried about something, and I think that this might help, you know after that show he asked if I had seen you and I lied and said no, but he just won't give up, so I posted that on our site knowing that if I did, you would respond, and here we are." Mikey turned to the guy sitting next to him and asked him if he could move up to my seat, and the guy with out any arguments moved up to my seat. Which left his seat wide open, so I sat down. I was genuinely happy talking with him the entire way to New Jersey, and he told me all sorts of stuff about Gerard, how to say his name, and not to draw out the "r's" in it, and all sorts of stuff.

As we got off the plane there was a limo waiting for us, and I was so excited, I had my luggage, and the guy put it in the trunk for me, Mikey handed me Dew, and we headed to his house. The entire way there I was shaking like a fucking leaf, Mikey explained to me that I shouldn't be nervous, that "it's just Gerard"

But there was no way in hell he could understand, I had waited for a long time to meet him, and I didn't even have to spend any money to do this. I was going to meet my hero, the one guy in this world I absolutely adored.

*Gerards POV*

"MOM!"

"What Gerard, what do you want?"

"Where the hell is Mikey, he's been gone for a whole day, and he didn't even tell me where he was going I'm kind of worried about him." She looked at him with a grin on her face and said " don't be he'll be back in about 10 or 20 minutes" Gerard shook his head and what like "okay, whatever" and went back to drawing his cartoons. This one was about a girl who loved a dude, but the dude never knew it until it was too late, that's about how far he had gotten and he heard the door open and shut. As he walked up stairs, he heard a new voice, so he went a little faster, as he reached the top step he fell dead in his tracks. She turned her head and looked to see him and he knew that this was the one he was looking for, blue eyes, long blonde hair, heavy set, beautiful teeth, and the bag she was carrying, he ran down stairs and came back up with a patch in his hand.

He looked at her and said "you dropped this, at the show; I thought you might want it back" As she took it from her hand he noticed she was shaking, bad like she was cold. Like it was -30 degrees outside and it was a pleasant 70 every where, and her hands were cold to the touch. He looked at her face which was as white as a ghost, and she had incredibly large blue and purple bags under her eyes, but god, she was beautiful. The most beautiful girl he had ever seen in his life." thank you so much, I never thought I would get it back." she had a pretty voice too, she was so ... perfect. He was so surprised that Mikey did this for him. He would owe him forever.

*Naomi's POV*

As I got out of the limo, I looked at his house; this was the place where he had grown up, where the magic had happened. As I walked up to the door step, I touched the door knob, ever so slightly, and thought to myself 'he's touched this door, his very hand has touched this door' Mikey came up and kind of moved me out of the way and opened the door, he told me to follow him in. Well really he gave me that look that said, "move your ass now" but he was excited and you could tell.

I walked in and looked around, baby pictures, a hallway, and a room with the door open, the TV was on, and you could hear someone barreling upstairs. I looked at his Mom for a split second, and looked over at him. Even more beautiful in person, black hair, normal clothes, beautiful brown green eyes, and that little cut on his lip that made I want to just kiss it. then he ran downstairs, and ran back up, the whole time, my eyes didn't move from the spot he was standing, and he came back up and handed me a patch that had MCR on it, I just looked at him, took the patch, and told him thanks, I was really grateful for this, and as I took the patch I touched his hand. he took my hand, smiled at me and took one of my bags and we headed downstairs, toward his room, as I walked in, my jaw dropped, I just stood there, unable to move, and I looked around, a normal bed, with a brown bookshelf headboard with countless books in it, action figures, pictures on the walls, the bed was messy, and Gerard stood there staring at me, as I looked throughout the room my eyes rested on him, and he looked at me, and said " have a seat, I want to ask you so many questions, I want to talk to you so much, I think you might get sick of me when we are done"

I looked at him, and asked him" where do you want me to sit?" he pointed towards the bed, and kind of giggled at me, as if to say DUH! so I sat, and asked him if I should take my shoes off and he said " sure go for it, as long as your feet don't stink" As I sat there, I looked at him, he had hardwood floors in his room, so at his desk he had one of those rolling chairs. Suddenly, He rolled my way and just stared at me. Then this sound came blurting out of his mouth, something to the effect of 'how' but I couldn't quite make it out, he cleared his throat and I said " try again, you act like your more nervous to meet me then I am to meet you which shouldn't be, because you are famous and I am a fan you have done this tons of times. So, try again" I smiled at him, and he said "what's your name?"

"Huh. Naomi " surprised that he had forgotten to ask me my name, and wondering why I hadn't told him yet.

"Oh, that is a really pretty name, and you hardly ever hear it, I like it. Naomi. It just rolls off of the tongue"

" Yeah, kind of like Gerard Way, I can't believe that I am sitting in your room on your bed, in your house, in your hometown, with my shoes off, carrying on a conversation with you."

"why's that?" he asked

"I have dreamt of this moment since I first found out about My Chemical Romance. I have dreamt, wished, and prayed that I would get to meet you someday, and here I am, and i'm not going to be like all of those other 13 year old girls and ask you to marry me, but I am so glad I am here, and I am doing this."

"Why wouldn't you be?"

" I don't like to fly, at all, not in the least, I hate it more than the Backstreet Boys"

He laughed and I did too, he has a nice laugh, I thought to myself.

He was still sitting in front of me when he asked, "would you be offended if I touched you?"

" No, not at all"

and within 1.5 seconds of me saying that, he was looking into my eyes, touching my face so softly, and moving up my chin bone, towards my hair, he ran his fingers through it, he suddenly licked his lips and closed his eyes and whispered, " you hair is so soft"

I leaned into his touch, and whispered back " uh huh"

He removed his hand from my hair and sat there and stared at me, as if to say, I don't want to do anything but take you in, scope you out, and look deep into your soul through your eyes. I want to hold you. I want you to hold me, I want you to be so close to me you'll never let me go, and so in one swift move I did, I held him, I held him like a lost friend that I had reunited with.

I was so happy, in that one instant; I could have cried I was so happy. I was hugging the most gentle, talented and gorgeous man in America today. And I was so happy.

We got done with our embrace, and he looked at me, moved the chair from in front of me, and sat next to me, then he laid down, and I laid next to him after I removed my jacket, and he just held me, he held me until I fell asleep. I had the absolute biggest fucking grin on my face. All night long.

*Gerards POV*

I got out of bed and looked at her one last time before I left the room. God she was beautiful. She knew just what to do too when I was looking at her, I wanted to hold her and couldn't get the balls out of my throat enough to even move my damn arms. I couldn't even talk to her.

As I move to the fridge, I looked around, and I noticed that the TV was still on in mikes room, I walked in there, to see my little brother, asleep, in his underwear, freezing because he had kicked the covers off. I covered him back up, and walked over to the TV and turned it off, I heard a whisper that said " I love you Gee"

I turned to look, and he had one eye opened, and I said, " I love you too Mikey, more than you'll ever know buddy" and closed the door on the way out of his room, got a smile on my face at the thought of Naomi, and walked back to my room. There she was, So beautiful so serene, and she had the most pretty smile on her face, and I could tell that nothing in her life had ever made her this happy before, and the funny thing was, I was standing in the same damn boat as she was, I loved her and I didn't even know her.

Shit, She knew more about me than I did of her, and she had never met me before, I went to the kitchen grabbed a glass of water, drank it down, and went back to bed; I shook her and woke her up. I didn't do it on purpose. She opened one eye and asked me to sing her a song, So I did, I held her ice cold hand in my own, and looked down on her and sang her to sleep. With a smile on my face. We woke up the next day, Around noon, my usual time, and she just laid there, stretched out, and asked what we were doing today.

"Well, I couldn't be happier than to lie here next to you all day, but I have a show to go to tonight, so I have to go get ready for that, you want to come with me?" I asked "God Yes," her eyes got wide as she said it, and we were both up. She asked me where the bathroom was and I pointed her towards mine. " Can I take a shower?" she asked And I said "only if I can watch" and she laughed at me, I followed her into the bathroom, handed her a towel, told her where everything was, and I turned to leave. She grabbed my shoulder, and pulled me back, she looked at me and asked if I was needing a shower too, and I looked at her with a really big grin on my face " yeah" I said kind of dumbfounded, and she was like " well then you could stay if you really wanted to."

I smiled as she took off her shirt, and bra, and within 5 seconds I was totally undressed, and I wasn't subconscious, I knew she would love me no matter what I looked like, although I was trying to hide a hard on the entire time, I stepped into the shower, and she was already in, she was wetting her hair, and I looked at her, I grabbed her, and pressed her warm body against me, She touched my face, and kissed me. I had never felt anything like her kiss before, ever, I had kissed other girls sure, but there was something different about her, it was like a party and everyone but I was gone. She kissed me again, and turned around, so I could get into the water. I got my hair wet, and she just stood there and watched me. But I didn't care was the thing, "Naomi."

She walked up to me, and hugged me, held me close to her, I could feel her soft skin against me, I felt her shaking, I don't know whether she was nervous or cold, and I slipped my hard on between her legs. And if it was possible she moved a little closer. She kissed me again, and when we were done, I washed my hair, and my body, I got out and wrapped a towel around me,

After she was done she did the same, and she walked into my room, dry, with a towel around her. She sat down on my bed and turned to look at me. I took her towel off, and threw it on the floor, I did the same. And we covered back up. I got on top of her and just laid there, she looked up at me so longingly I entered her and an explosion of sensation, she let out a little scream, and within seconds, she came, and so did I, not worried if I were to get her pregnant. I will be with her until the day I die.

I got up and kissed her, she did the same, and she left me to go to the bathroom, about 30 minutes later, she came out looking incredibly beautiful, her hair was down around her face, curled under, she had on Brown eye shadow, and beautifully long eyelashes.

My hard on came back.

I was already dressed and she followed me out into the living room, then to the kitchen.

"Are you hungry?" I asked "Yeah, wouldn't you expect me to be? I haven't eaten since 9 yesterday morning"

I hand her a box of Lucky Charms, and milk, 'my favorite bowl' and a spoon, and I sat down with her and we ate a bowl of lucky charms.

~*Their never going to get me*~

*~ Naomi's POV*~

I couldn't believe what had just happened, none of it. I was literally almost scared, and I think Gerard knew that, but I wasn't worried, I just never dreamt that I would be this close to him so fast. But I loved every minute of it, after we got done eating, Gerard handed me a little envelope, and he said don't open it until we get to the studio. We hopped into his personal car, which happened to be a ford gt. beautiful black and red, with white outlined hood scoops. We got on the road, and we were listening to music, and it sounded like MCR but I wasn't even listening. I was staring at Gerard. He had his thinking face on, suddenly he started screaming with the music, and I felt so special, like I was getting a personal concert, just for me and no one else. I thought it was best to be up front at a show, but try doing it less than a foot away. He stopped singing after he realized that I was watching him. And I just smiled at him, and grabbed his hand, I kissed it, and said "whatever it was, it sounded so freaking awesome. I was amazed." he smiled at me, and shifted into 5th, within 30 minutes we were at the studio, and he got out of the car, as I undid my seatbelt he opened the door for me, I smiled at him, and kissed him lightly on the cheek, and said " thank you"

He said "you have to be a little careful when we are in public, there are reporters everywhere, and its not that I don't love you but if anyone was to find out it would make our relationship so fucking hard, and I don't want that for you, or us. Okay?" I just looked at him, and said " yeah" he kind of frowned, and I just turned away from him, he took my hand and led me inside, as soon as we got in the door he kissed me, hard, pressed against my body, and held my wrist to the wall, and said " I love you dammit, please just chill out, and listen to me when I tell you things like that, please," he kissed me again, and a grin crawled across my face, " So, what am I to you then" he grinned and said " In public, you are my. Cousin" I laughed at him.

" What is the media going to say if they DO see us kissing, and you tell them i'm your cousin" He smiled and started walking away and said " we're kissing cousins" I laughed and followed him. We walked side by side down a long hall, and we went to the very end room, I mean, the VERY end room, and he opened the door.

There was a guy sitting there, and in a room right beside it, Ray, Frank, Mikey, And Bob were sitting there, with all their instruments. There was a glass pane between all of us and they all waved at Gerard, Ray asked him over the microphone who I was, and he pushed a button on the board and told him my name, and Ray just nodded his head, and went back to strumming his guitar lightly.

Gerard turned and looked at me, he said "we are going to be making new songs, and I want you to sit here, and listen, and tell me what you think okay?"

I looked at him and nodded my head.

As soon as Gerard entered the room, the guys all patted him on his back, and Frankie kissed him on the cheek. and Bob started with the drums, and the guitars came in, and with the most passion I have ever seen any one person have, Gerard started singing, his eyes, were closed, but every so often he looked up at me, and smiled, and acted like he was singing this song to me, which made me so happy. They did a couple more, and Gerard lit a cig. I looked at that damn thing like it was my long lost friend, I hadn't had one since I got here, I looked at him and the dude pushed the button, " Gerard, I am going outside for some fresh air okay?"

"Sure Hun, just be careful for reporters okay?"

"yep" I said,

" One more thing" he almost screamed,

And I was like "what"

" If you need any help just push the red button outside by the door"

" okay Gee"

and I walked out

As soon as I hit the outside doors, I pulled the smokes out of my pocket, pulled out a light, and lit me up a smoke, and took the most satisfying drag, I have ever had in my life, suddenly I saw a flash, and I shook my head I saw another, and a dude walked up to me and asked me who I was, I ignored him, and I dropped the smoke as I saw more people walk towards me, I hit the red button like 10 times, and Gerard showed up at the door, and they saw him and started screaming his name, he pulled the back of my shirt, and asked " what happened"

I told him breathless what had just gone down, and he kissed me for not saying anything. I was extremely proud of myself. He brought me back in and asked " why didn't you just smoke in the studio, you can you know" and I said "I didn't want you to know, cause I thought maybe you would like me less."

He looked at me like I was insane, and said," why on this green earth would I say that, I love... "And he stopped himself, and said "I care about you way too much for me to care about you smoking, hell I do it". He looked at me and I looked him in the eye, He lit me another smoke, and we walked down the long hall, just holding hands and laughing. We got to the room, and he said "I have to tell the guys that ill see them later, I want to go hang out with you for a while" he kissed me on the cheek and walked back out.

*Gerards POV*

I decided to cut my time short with the guys, its not like I don't see them almost all year.

I took Naomi to the mall. We were just looking around, but every so often she would notice the girls stare at her, and each time she did she held her head a little bit higher because she knew she had something that everyone else wanted: Me...

As we walked around she spotted the hot topic, and ran, I followed her in casually, and she was looking at the tees on the wall. She looked at one of the bands longingly, and shelved out her money into her hand out of her pocket. I just looked at her and shook my head.

She walked over to the counter money in hand, excited as hell, and Bill stopped her as she handed him the money. He looked at me smiled and winked, and told her "you are with our most frequent shopper, anything you want including this shirt, is free, and in the future, don't even bother trying to give us money."

She stood there with her jaw on the counter; she couldn't believe that anyone would say anything like that to her ever. She looked at him and said "Thank you" and she smiled and walked away hugging the tee shirt she had just had given to her for free. Like that had never happened to her in her life.

She walked out of the store as I was talking to Bill who had been a buddy since high school, and liked doing me favors, He asked me about her and I explained. Leaving Bill with a grin on his face.

Naomi ran back into the store out of breath, and she looked scared, her shirt had been ripped, and her hair was a mess. I said " what the hell happened?! What's wrong? Who did this??"

And all I saw was a giant mob of 13 and 14 year old girls heading for us. I looked at Bill and he nodded his head, I took Naomi's hand and we ran out the back.

We got to my car which was safe. No one could see us, and Naomi was just breathing hard looking like shit, what got me though was that she was STILL holding onto that shirt. I asked her if she was okay, and she nodded. Then I decided to ask her what she had gotten in Hot topic, and she looked at me with a tear in her eye, and held out one of our band shirts.

She looked at me and said "I didn't have this one yet, and that guy gave it to me, and I didn't want to let it go, but, two of those girls ripped it, and I think I punched one of their teeth out."

I looked at her and kissed her, " it'll be okay, we'll go home, and I will GIVE you another one, and I'll draw you a hot bath, and"

She stopped me in mid sentence and asked me to light her smoke, so I did, and I grabbed her hand, and we went home.

As soon as we hit the door Mikey and Mom looked at her, and then me, and she ran downstairs.

Both at the same time they asked about her and I told them what had happened, Mom put on some soup, and Mikey went downstairs.

I followed behind, but not too close, I stood at the top of the stairs until Mikey went in the room and shut the door a little bit, then I walked down and stood at the doorway,

Mikey was talking to her in a loving way, I heard him ask

"Are you okay?"

" I think so, but one of those dumb bitches sliced my arm open with her nail, and I lost a chunk of hair" Naomi replied

"Is there anything I can get you?" He asked

" Just...." and she stopped,

" Mikey?" she asked

"Do you get mauled like that, I mean, to that extent, you and the rest of the guys?"

"Yep, almost every show" He replied, which was true.

"How do you do it?" She asked

"I come out kicking, biting, scratching, and screaming, plus, Gerard is usually there for me, which helps a lot."

" I love Gerard" Naomi said

"I love 'em too girly," Mikey said with a smile, and he leaned over her on the bed, and kissed her forehead, and came for the door.

I ran upstairs, and sat on the bench really quick, and Mikey came up shortly after, He looked at me uncaring, and said " She's all yours dude" and sat down,

I walked casually downstairs, and opened the door. Naomi was face down on the bed, I turned her over, I looked at her swollen eye, and kissed in gently, and told her I would be right back,

I went to the bathroom, started some hot water, put some bubbles in it, and went back to the room where She had sat up, and was awaiting my return.

"Gerard?" She asked

" Yeah Hun"

"Can you forgive me?"

" Why would I have to sweetie" and I sat next to her on the bed,

She laid her head on my shoulder, and I moved her to stand up, we were swaying just a little, and she had her head buried in my chest.

"Because I ruin everything, and i'm sorry" was her muffled reply.

" You do not, and I still love you very much, don't worry about those girls, fuck them all, they are just jealous of what you have and they are going to have to get over it"

I looked at my watch and said "Shit" and she looked at me and asked me "What's wrong?"

I looked at her and said "Show, in 2 hours"

"Oh shit" she replied, and with that, I let her go, took her hand, and lead her to the bathroom, I had hung up a new pair of pants, boots that would fit her by the tub, and a top just like the one she got today.

she looked at me and smiled, grabbed my arm, pulled me into a kiss, and said " I Love you" and I smiled at her

" Get in the tub, take your time, brush your teeth, do your hair, things of that nature, there is a present for you in your pocket of your pants and I have a surprise for you during the show , a limo will pick you up in an hour and a half, with 2 body guards inside, and I will see you onstage" He kissed me, and ran upstairs, I heard him tell Mikey to get moving, and then I heard them slam the door and their Mom scream " I love you too," and they were gone.

*~ It sure as hell ain't just for the fame~*

*~Naomi's POV~*

I took my time, so as to look good for Gerard, and everyone else who would see me tonight. I had looked in the pocket of my jeans as soon as Gerard was gone and I pulled out a backstage pass tied to a string that had My Chemical Romance all the way around it. I hugged it, and smiled at myself in the mirror, and wondered what my surprise was.

I came out of the bathroom into Gerard's room, and sat down on the bed to put my boots on, I leaned over and looked at the desk to find a drawing of me, singing, at a concert, just like Gerard does. As soon as I saw the drawing, my heart started pounding, my hands got all sweaty, and I wondered how in the hell he knew that I could sing. " He can't" I said to myself, and I grabbed my bag, replaced my patch that he had given back to me , and moved upstairs to find his mom sitting on the couch, she looked at me, and I looked at her.

"Thanks for all of your hospitality and letting me stay and stuff like that, I really appreciate it," I said to her.

She looked at me appraisingly and told me " you are welcome, I told Gerard that I approve of you, out of all of the girls he has ever brought to this house, you are the only one that I have ever liked, and he has brought lots of girls, Olivia was the last and I liked her okay, I just didn't trust her, so just know that if you ever need anything, or ya need another girl to talk to I will be here"

I looked at his mom and smiled at her, as if to say thank you, and I heard a horn. I told his Mom "bye" and she gave me a hug on the way out the door and told me I looked good, and walked out of the house to see the most beautiful limousine I have ever seen in my life.

I hopped in and off we went, these two guys were in there and we stirred up a friendly conversation, the only reason we even talked at all was cause we had to I had to be able to trust the two guys that would be saving my life later.

When we got to the show I walked into the VIP entrance which was the way Gee always goes, and I saw girls grabbing for me, and I hid behind Mike and Jerry, they lead me through, and I stuck my tongue out at the girls that were 13 and 14, I saw Gerards and his band standing there, all in a circle, praying, and having sort of a moment of silence before the show, and I just stared at him, he felt my eyes on him and looked over ever so slightly, and saw me, they wrapped it up quit quickly then, and Gerard walked over to me, looking like a million bucks,

He looked at me and smiled and said "you look totally hot" I blushed a little at this remark, and told him "thanks, you do too" and he hugged me.

He said "come with me please" so I did. we walked to about as close to on the stage as we could get, and all I saw was a mass of people all screaming for Gerard, and I remember what it was like to be in that mass, I missed it, it was the best feeling in the world to be down there, with all of your peers waiting with great anticipation to see your hero come on stage, and when he finally did, the ENTIRE crowd would explode with excitement, and they would play their show. When an entire mass of people can sing your song in rhythm and rhyme and tune, almost better than you can, that is when you know you have fans, cause they have listened to the shit your playing so many times, that they know it just as well or maybe even better than you do, and that is what is so cool about it.

That's what keeps it exciting. All those bands that do it for 20 or more years, they know how hard it is to keep this job, to keep fans happy, and they see it too.

Gerard turned and looked at me, He said " isn't that the most beautiful site you've ever seen in your life?" and I looked at him and shook my head no, he scrunched his face up as if to ask me what, and I told him " YOU Gerard Way, you are the most beautiful thing I have ever laid my eyes on" and he smiled, and laughed a little, and suddenly said "that's my cue, got to go Hun, have fun" he kissed me and walked up onto the stage, and the crowd went absolutely nuts.

As I stood there and watched him perform his magic on stage, I just rocked right along with him.

One of his body guards walked up to me and grabbed my arm and told me I had to come with him. He dragged me onto the stage by my arm and I told him to let me go. Quite loudly actually, he was being a jerk, and I was pist, I didn't want to come up here. This was Gerards spot. Not mine. And I knew that.

All of a sudden I heard Gerard scream my friend John's name, and they brought him up there with his guitar.

Right then I knew what was going to happen. I looked at John and he looked at me, he smiled hugged me and sat down on his stool that Gerard had so gently placed there. Gerard looked at me and handed me the microphone, he grabbed my shoulder, and had his lips against my ear, "I know you can do this honey, and I know that even if you think you suck, you will still rock in my eyes, and those fans out there will love you. You can do this." He kissed my cheek and I looked at John, he looked at me and started playing the chords I had known all too well, he and I had written a song for Krystal cause she was leaving for California not too far off now and we wanted to do this little thing for her, so I had written the lyrics, and John had written the music.

I heard my cue and started in.

" When your alone do you cry, stay up all night watch the sky, Let the rain hit your face don't know your place don't loose faith" I took a really deep breath and I was shaking really bad, but I kept on going. " All the rough roads we have traveled yours remains unclear, I can see it in your eyes how much you wanna cry, trying so hard to fit in never really making it trying so hard to be someone else not knowing how to find yourself, When your alone do you cry stay up all night watch the sky let the rain hit your face, don't know your place, don't loose faith, We know that you'll succeed , we know you'll make it through all the times god put in front of you, you've hardly stumbled but we'll hold you up when times get rough Looking forward to the future don't forget about the past and friends that forever last, when your alone do you cry, stay up all night watch the sky, let the rain hit your face, don't know your place, \ don't loose faith"

As John finished out the song on the guitar, I stood there with a really big grin on my face...

When he was done the crowd erupted into a frenzy as Gee walked back on stage, I handed him the microphone, and he looked at the crowd and said " now was that not the best FUCKING THING YOU'VE EVER HEARD?!?!?!?

The crowd went wild and Gerard looked at me and told me and John to take a bow. We did, and I walked off stage and as I walked off Frank and Mikey were walking back on and they patted my back as if to say good job, MCR finished off the concert and I stood there the whole time, still shaking from what I had just done. Gerard came off stage and hugged me,

"You did totally awesome" I said, and he looked at me and said "you did better" and I just smiled and kissed him. I couldn't believe he knew I sang, and John was standing on the other end of the stage he walked back across and looked at me and grinned. One of those big shit eating grins.

I smacked him on the back and said "You told him didn't you!" He looked at me and said "Krystal told me where you were and who you were with, so I sent him the tape, figured it was worth a shot, and here we are, wasn't that the best freaking thing you have ever done in your life, I think I would give anything to do that again." Just then Gerard walked back up and said "You can have that opportunity if you want it. The guys and I have discussed letting you tour with us the rest of this tour, maybe even the next tour we do up in Canada with Reggie and the Full Effect and Alkaline Trio, we would love you to go if you want, You might even make some cash"

John and I looked at each other and I looked at Gerard, I jumped up and down screaming for about 10 seconds then I turned and hugged Gerard " thank you so much, I have wanted this almost all of my life" I was almost crying because I was so damn excited, and I looked at him and he said, " everyone deserves a chance, and your really good I know you can be something. You are so very welcome." He pulled me back into a really soft hug and said "I would do anything for you Naomi." I looked at him with love in my eyes, and he smiled, looked at me the same way and we all started walking back to the bus to go onto the next show.

To be continued..............

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