Disclaimer: I do not own any of the members of My Chemical Romance (BUT THEY SURE AS HELL OWN MEE!), Nor am I 'affiliated' with them in any way..(wish I was though). None of these events are true, (or are they?) Hope you like the story. Don't sue me.

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(Gerards POV.)

I'm staring at him again...I've gotta stop before things get out of hand, I thought staring up at Frankie watching him play his guitar, totally lost in his concentration and perfect chord shapes.

"And thats where you come in Gee.." he paused, "Gee what is with you today?" said Frankie in a concerned voice. He set down his guitar and stared at me with the most gentle eyes...fuck...they make me shiver. It's like he can see right through me, like he knows all of my secrets. "Is it 'cause of your Grandma?" Frankie was like family to me and he knew my grandma very well and Frankie felt sadness towards her death as well as the rest of the band did.

"No..." I smiled at the thought of my grandma and I could feel tears forming in my eyes, but I held them back. My grandma passed away only a week ago, and I was still a bit shaken up about it. "I'm upset of course that she passed away. I've just been thinking about other things lately..." Frankie smiled and got up and sat down beside me, "Do you want to talk about it?"

"I don't know"

Frankie smiled followed by a stifled yawn. Frankie hasn't been getting much sleep lately, well...none of us have been sleeping very well. Frankie doesn't know I've been...watching him. He's been awake in his room at the latest hours of the night. Sometimes I'll hear him talk to himself or cry occasionally. I wish I could help him heal whatever pain is in his heart. Frankie laid his head down on my lap and tried to make himself comfortable. I smiled uncomfortably, Whats he playing at? He keeps teasing me. Giving me hope...I wish he would stop before he breaks my heart.

As if I'd said it out loud Frankie opened his eyes and gazed directly into mine. We sat there for a bit until Frankie asked if I felt like talking now. I shook my head, "Sorry." Frankie sighed and curled up in a little ball, his drowziness growing heavier as his eyes closed his mind into a deep sleep.

(Frankies POV)

When I woke up Gerard was no longer there and the house was quiet. I sat up too quickly and I felt dizzy. I sat there for a minute trying to get everything into focus. I walked downstairs to hear the Misfits blaring from our stereo and Gerard smoking and sketching. He looked up at me with a half burned cigarette in his mouth and he smiled. "I took one of yours," he said referring to the cigarette, "hope you dont mind, I was all out." I shrugged and said it was okay. Gerard tossed me the almost empty box of cigarettes along with the lighter. "Thanks," I said sitting down across from him. I lit up and sucked on the cigarette letting it's sweet cancer fill my mind. I stole a look at Gerard and saw him looking at me through the smoke that filled the whole room. Although he saw me staring back at him he didnt look away, there was this predators determination in his stare, so intense. Why is he looking at me like that...no. Gerard doesnt like you! But he could like me just a little...couldn't he?

Gerard crushed what was left of the cigarette in the ash tray, abandoned his drawings and got up. He was walking toward me...towards the stereo. I sighed as he turned off the music then he sat down next to me. I hadn't realize that the guys were gone. "Where'd they go?" I asked cluelessly. Gerard giggled. He's so damn adorable!

"They went out to get some food." He stretched out on remaining space on the couch and turned on the TV. He flipped through the channels settling on some HBO channel that was playing 'Phantom of the Paradise' and sat there watching with his eyes wide as if in a trance. Gerard has seen this movie too many times, and he knows everything thats gonna happen and he knows every line. I smiled as he mimicked the lines. I kept watching him until he turned around to face me. "Why are you staring at me?"

"I'm not staring...just watching."

"Watching me?"

"Yeah."

"Why? You should be watching the movie."

I laughed, and he didnt seem to understand why I was laughing.

"You're cute...the way you repeat the lines...I cant help but to watch you."

Gerard blushed and tried to hold a smile back and turned his attention back to the movie. I sighed and watched the rest of the movie with him, getting closer to Gerard everytime a scary part was about to happen, even though I wasnt scared, I was just using it as an excuse. I didnt know if Gerard noticed until he looked up when the guys came home. He looked at me with a smile and looked up the stairs to see Ray, Mikey and Bob holding chinese take out and a bunch horror and comedy movies from Blockbuster. There voices filled the room as they passed around the food.

We watched the first Hellraiser movie and the Devils Rejects while chowing down on some chinese food before Mikey and Ray went to go see Morissey play at a small club. Bob was tired and not feeling well and went to bed. Gerard and I were the only ones up, still watching some movies. When we finished watching Anchorman we just sat in the dark staring at eachother, with the only light coming from the blue TV screen.

"Seriously, why do you keep staring at me?" asked Gerard.

"I could ask you the same."

"I've got a big gay crush on you."

"What?" I exclaimed, trying to sound moritfied.

"I'm just kidding!" He said, "I'm tired, and I wanna go to bed," Gerard leaned over and he kissed me! "Get some fucking sleep tonight kay?" I nodded my head without even thinking and he walked upstairs. What the hell is wrong with me? It's not like we havent kissed before, but when we kiss it's nothing serious at all we just joke around, friend stuff. God I wish it was more then that. I sat there for a while thinking more about Gerard until I decided to go up to my room, and try to do what he told me to do. Sleep.

(Gerards POV)

Dammit...I hope he doesnt think anything too serious of that kiss I gave him...I mean we kiss eachother all the time right? As a joke...I dont think he'll think anything different tonight. I've been lying in this damn bed for fucking hours...I can't get any sleep and I can't stop thinking of him...fuck! Now I have to use the bathroom. Getting up in the middle of the night is a total pain in the ass because when I get up and walk around im no longer tired and more awake and it takes me even longer to fall asleep. After I did my business I decided to check up on Frankie, see if he was sleeping. Thankfully he was. I stood in the doorway for a little bit just watching the rise and fall of his chest with every precious breath he took. Now that I was fully awake I decided to watch some TV and wait for Mikey and Ray to come home to ask them about the concert. But they never came home. Where the fuck are they? It was 3:00 in the fucking morning! I called Ray's cell but no one picked up, same with Mikeys. Bet they hooked up with some chicks after the concert. Two hours later after 'Revenge of the Syth' Ray and Mikey stumbled like dumb asses into the house.

"Where the fuck were you?"

"At the concert obviously" replied Mikey.

"No shit you were at the concert, not trying to sound like a bitch but what was so important that after the concert you couldn't pick up your phones?"

They both looked at eachother and they both said, "did you bring your phone home?" They laughed and Ray said they must've left them at the bar. I groaned and layed back down on the couch, sleep coming over me. "Sorry Gee..." Mikey leaned over the couch and kissed me on the cheek. "Sweet dreams."

"Night."

Over the back of the couch I could see Mikey wrap his arms around Ray and they went off to Mikeys room.We're all fucking queers in this house, but they did seem drunk. Whatever. I pulled a blanket over me and shut off the TV and fell asleep almost instantly. But morning came too soon and I regretted staying up so late. Frankie ran to the couch and jumped on me.

"Get your ass up! It's 11:30!"

"Getthefuckoffamee" I mumbled and kicked Frankie off the couch. Frankie laughed and got back up. "C'mon, Bob's being an ass and won't take the movies back to the store. He's making me or you do it, so you're coming with me."

"Whyyyy!!" I whined. Frankie got really close to me and gave me the puppy dog face and said,

"I dont wanna go alone." I smiled into my pillow and pushed him playfully. "Fine...let me get dressed."

"Yay!"

I shook my head pitifully as I walked to my room. I'm such a pushover when it comes to Frankie.

Driving up to the movie store with Frankie was interesting. I didn't know he was such a morning person. He screamed along with 'American Psycho' on repeat drumming his hands on the steering wheel. After he ran through a red light, I insisted on driving the rest of the way.

(Frankies POV)

"Aww c'mon! I wanna drive."

Gerard rolled his eyes at me with a smile. "Dude sorry...I'm not gonna die in a car crash. I wanna look pretty for my funeral allright?"

"Yeah...I want you too look pretty too," I stared at him trying to be serious but Gee had bed head so badly, I couldn't help but laugh. I leaned over and smoothed his hair down. "Sorry for waking you up so early." I slowly moved my hand down and caressed his cheek gently. Gerard smiled, I could feel him leaning into the palm of my hand. Several cars behind us honked their horns. Damn you people!. Gerard quickly went to the drivers side of the car and flipped the people off behind us. I smirked, I love Gee's attitude. He's so great.

"Hey how about I buy you coffee?"

"For....?" Gerard questioned, pressing the gas.

"As an apology, for waking you up early, I know you need caffeine to kickstart your day anyways. Soy latte, on me?"

"Yeah, allright. I guess you do owe me. Thanks man," Gerard smiled and winked at me; and not with just any smile. I've seen every breathtaking grin he's given every fan girl, and camera but this was just beautiful. I wished I could've frozen time to stare at it...but alas the day went on and it was boring. So...boring.

When we got home hours went by just playing video games, Bob joined us for a bit but Gee stayed in his room. I decided to check up on him, see what he was up too. As I approached the door I heard Iron Maiden's 'Two minutes to midnight,' getting louder and louder. I knocked hard on the door, hoping he would've heard me and I opened the door. The room was growing cloudy with cigarette smoke and a hardfaced Gerard staring at an easel un-blinkingly. I walked around, looking at the familiar surroundings around me smiling at every wasted, high, beautiful, and even sick picture of Gerard that was ever taken. I stared at Gerard for a moment and he finally looked up at me and set his paintbrush down.

"What masterpiece are you working on today?"

"You," he said with a smile. I raised my eyebrows somewhat shocked.

"Why me...?" I asked. "Let me see it." But Gerard only shook his head.

"I'm not finished with it, just give me another hour but right now" he got up, "I'm taking a break." He shut off his stereo, put out his cigarette and walked out of the room. I was so tempted to look at what he had painted, but he did ask me not too, He was painting me?! I could feel a smile creeping onto my face and when I walked out of the room, I tried to hide it but Gerard must've been able to tell in my eyes.

"Did you look at the painting?"

"No."

"You're lying..."

"Why would I lie to you? I didnt look at it."

"....Okay."

"I swear to you I didnt even touch it," I smiled at him with a wink and he smiled back. For the rest of the afternoon it started to storm, badly. Ray and I were playing our guitars, going over some riffs that Ray came up with for me and we were trying to make a second part for him. We got pretty far, until the power went out. I heard a loud noise of complaint coming from Gerard's room. I held my hands out in front of me and squinted, trying to see things clearer.

"What did you yell for?"

"I was painting this and the lights went out...and i thought I fucked up," he said with a grin, "but I didnt, and I'm done with it now." Gee held up the paiting and it was amazing. I feel kinda retarded saying that about a painting of myself but he did an awesome job. I took the painting from him and looked at it more closely, how can one person have so much talent in just one hand? I smiled at Gerard and gave him a long hug.

"I admire you Gee, you're so talented," then, feeling flirtatious I whispered closely in his ear, "I love the painting."

"Thanks...I don't think I did too bad this time huh?" he asked jokingly. I rolled my eyes and kissed his cheek, but only as a thanks for wasting your time painting me gesture. "You're amazing," I told him. We were so close, and I could feel myself leaning in to kiss him, No! I can't fuck this up...What would he say if I had kissed him? I walked out of his room quickly feeling embarassed.

(Gerard's POV)

I sighed as I watched Frankie leave my room and ran my fingers through my hair. Why cant I just fucking tell him how I feel? It seems like he likes me too...but then I could be totally wrong. I dont know anymore. I got up again and wandered around the dark house for a bit til i told someone to turn on the generator, I guess we kinda forgot we had one of those. Light was given back to us but the storm still kept on going. This afternoon is so fucking boring!...I worked out with Mikey for a bit, ate, worked out more and started sketching Frankie. He has been my object of creativity for a couple of days now. I went out and bought a couple of sketch books last week and one of them is almost filled with sketches of him. I still have seven or eight pages left. Fuck I'm hungry...I set my book down to go find something to eat. The Smiths was blaring from the DVD/Stereo in the living room and the guys were all in the kitchen cooking. I laughed at the picture I saw: three grown men in the kitchen together cooking, wait a minute only three? Mikey...Ray...Bob, where was Frankie? I turned down the music;

"Where's Frankie?" I demanded looking out the window. It wasn't lightning or thundering but it was fucking raining like volcano fire. "I think he's on the porch, Fuck! Ray you almost cut my fucking finger off!" replied Bob. I walked out of the house onto the porch and there he was, not on the porch but sitting in the driveway looking up at the dark sky. It was 9:00 but it looked like it was midnight. The only light that could be seen was from the streetlamps.

"Frankie!" I yelled for him, trying to get his attention over the loud noise of the rain. He looked around at me smiled and cocked his head in a come over here so i can hold you gesture, If only that we're the case...I put the hood up on my sweater and sat down next to him. "What the hell are you doing out here man?"

He smiled and said simply, "I like the rain."

"Really?" I said curiously, "I didn't know that."

Frankie nodded his head and tied the strings on his hoodie tighter covering all of his face but his eyes. I smiled and put my arm around his shoulder. I sat out there with him until I got cold and I hate the cold...it fucking scares me sometimes. We walked inside and the guys were eating in front of the TV. I lost my appetite, and I dont know why either I just wasnt hungry anymore. I changed my clothes, and went down into the basement and watched some cartoons. I keep making all these stupid small moves on Frankie...I really need to tell him how I'm feeling. And it's not like he keeps pushing me away from him when I hug him or kiss him...I want to kiss him and let him know that I fucking mean it. I smiled in irony, How ironic would it be if this whole time we both loved eachother but were afraid to say it and things never happened between us... I dont want that. I'm gonna tell him tonight. I'm not sure when but I will...whats the worst that could happen? A heart could be broken. I shook the thought away from my mind and tried to think positively.

(Frankies POV)

Gee, why do you do this to me? I can't stop thinking about you and ugh...this vacancy is driving me insane! I threw myself back onto my bed and layed there for a bit. The storm was still going on, stronger then ever and there were the occasional flashes of lightning and sounds of thunder. Secretly, lightning flashes and the deafening sound of thunder scared me, a lot. The rain, of course, I really don't mind at all. I've gotta talk to him about the things that are goin on inside of me...I mean I know he will understand me, but will he accept me? It doesn't matter...I'm gonna let him know tonight.12:30 was around the time I went downstairs and sat down next to Gee with some pizza for him. "Hungry?" I asked. He nodded and accepted the slice of pizza with a smile.Tell him! No, not now! Why not? I'm scared! Get a fucking hold of yourself! You already decided on this! I shook the voices out of my head and continued with the pizza. When Gerard finished he turned off the TV.

"Hey, Frankie..." he said softly, almost whispering, "I need t-to talk to you uh...shit, how can I say this. Umm.." He rubbed the back of his neck nervously and looked at the ground. "I need to talk to you too..." I said.

"Kay, you first."

"No...what I have to say can wait...what's up?" I asked, moving closer to him putting a comforting arm around his shoulder. He smiled and looked at me through teary eyes. I knew how to do this now...I'd tell him slowly, not directly. He put his head on my shoulder and I let him cry for a bit. "I'm so scared Frankie..." I looked at him curiously, "What are you scared of?" I hugged him closer to me when I couldn't get an answer out of him until he mumbled something into my shoulder.

"Ilovyoufrakie..."

"What...Gee?" I lifted his face up out of my shoulder so I could hear him better. But he didnt answer me he just shook his head and layed back down tears flowing from his eyes. I layed down beside him and held him as close to me as I could. I could feel my breath catch in my throat when shock and realization filled my head and I knew what he was trying to tell me.

"Do you love me?" I whispered in his ear. It seemed like an hour until he moaned something that sounded like 'yes.' I pushed Gerards long raven locks behind his ears and I kissed his neck a couple of times, and Gerard moaned. I whispered things into his ear that I never thought I would say to him. That seemed to make him happy.

"For how long have you felt like this?" I asked him. Gerard smiled and said softly, "Forever. I've always had feelings for you...if not loved you." I returned his smile and wiped some tears from his face, and I kissed him. Long and passionate was the kiss to-sum it up shortly-, but I could write over 100 pages on how amazing this kiss felt to me. I never thought I could have so many different feelings for one person. I gasped for air when we pulled away. Gerard had a slightly flushed look on his face, It was so cute.

"I love you Gerard...I always have and no one else but you."

"You're not lying to me...You wouldn't lie to me?"

I shook my head, "I would never lie to you...I would do anything to let you know just how much you mean to me." Gerard grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled me down on top of him and our lips collided into another perfect kiss. "Then show me," he said pulling me up the stairs into his room. I knew what was about to happen, I just never thought this day would come...oh God, I am more then ready for this. Gerard pushed me down on his bed and I watched him frantically remove his clothes, he was shaking like crazy. I rested my hands on his which were at his belt buckle and I helped him remove the rest of his clothes. And there he was, even more beautiful then with the clothes on, beautiful inside and out, and he was all mine.

(Gerards POV)

"Perfect," I said when I had the last article of Frankies clothing off. A solid body, not too buff, not too skinny. He's just...perfect. I held Frankie around the waist and kissed him violently until we were both on the bed. I was getting a major hard-on and I could feel Frankie stroking my thigh, and eying my erection and almost instantly he took me into his mouth.Oh god...oh God oh FUCK!!! I screamed inside my head trying to hold it all in, I didn't want the guys to hear what was going on. I tangled my fingers in his hair and thrust myself into him. He sucked faster and harder to slower and faster then softly. It was driving me insane, but I loved it.

"Frankie....uhh...OHH!! FRANKIE!"

I came and I screamed his name, now I didn't care if anyone heard. Tonight was for me and Frankie, who cares if anyone knew what was happening! I'm in fucking love with him! And if they had any common sense at all they wouldnt come in here for the rest of the night. Frankie swallowed all of it and his lips formed a smile and kissed my stomach, then my lips. I could taste myself, and it was good. "You enjoyed that...?"

I nodded, or tried too. "That..was amazing," my voice was trembling and a smile spread across my face. Frankie pushed my hair out of my face and planted hot kisses on my face, neck and everywhere else on my body. Until I thought I'd had enough I turned Frankie over and I layed on top of him and did exactly what he did to me. "When you come, I want you to scream my name." Frankie nodded, his eyes were rolling in their sockets and he gasped. He knew it was coming, and I did too. "GERARD! Oh...Fuck! Uhhh..." He always made my name sound more beautiful then it actually was...this made it even better. I smiled at the pleasurable affect I was having on him. After I licked up his cum I could feel his whole body shudder under me and I kissed him roughly.

"Lube..." he whispered in my ear. "Have you got any?" I nodded, and leaned over Frankie to get to my night stand drawer. When I pulled it out Frankie kissed me and asked if I thought I was ready for it. I want to be with you, I want to do this, I've always wanted this. "Of course..." I kissed him in return and squeezed the cold gel-like substance into Frankie's hand. When it was applied he first used his two fingers to...prepare me for something more painful. I squeezed my pillow and held my breath. It hurt, a lot.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah...it hurts a bit but I'm fine."

"Do you want me to stop?" I could feel him pulling his fingers out.

"No! I want this..trust me.."

Frankie nodded and once he thought I was ready he thrust himself into me slowly then faster, harder and soon I was lost in pure bliss. This felt so right...There was no more pain, it was just him inside of me. God that sounds strange, I always knew I would be inside someone but not someone inside me! But then if Frankie lets me I guess I'll be inside him. The thought made me smile despite the earlier tears of pain on my cheeks. I could feel him release inside of me and he collapsed on top of me, shaking. "I love you Gee...I love you so much."

"I love you too..." I laced our fingers together and curled up in his arms and I soon fell asleep.

(Frankie's POV)

It was now early morning, the storm subsided to a drizzle but it was dark out for 9:00. I yawned thinking of how late Gee and I were up. I smiled remembering the great event that happened last night. I kissed Gerards neck and shoulders softly and whispered, "Are you awake my love?" Gerard slowly turned around in my arms facing me and opened his eyes.

"Now I am."

He groaned and buried his head into my chest. I wrapped my arms around him tightly. "I love you," I said trying to sound sorry for waking him up. Gerard smiled and kissed me. "I love you too."

He slipped out of my arms and walked into the bathroom, pulling on his pants on the way out. I did the same, now realizing how badly I needed to use the bathroom. No one else was up in the house which meant all the bathrooms we're free. I ran to the closest one. When I opened the door Gerard was standing in front of it.

"God! You scared the shit out of me Gee..." He wrapped his arms around me and I kissed him.

"Last night was amazing Frankie. Thank you..."

"Why are you thanking me?"

Gerard rolled his eyes cutely. "I dont know...just for being amazing in bed I guess is all I'm trying to say thank you for."

"Well you're not too bad yourself babe."

Gerard smiled and blushed. "It was my first time with a guy...was I allright?"

"It was perfect...just as I had always imagined it to be."

"Imagined it?" He smirked. "So...You've thought about it before have you?"

"Yeah...a lot more then I think I should've too."

Gerard laughed and kissed me one last time before he went off to make something to eat. It was another hour until any of the other guys woke up and when they woke up Mikey had some questions about what was going on last night.

"Uhh...what was it that we were hearing last night coming from your room Gee?" Mikey asked. Gerard and I looked at eachother and smiled, I almost started to laugh. "Isn't it kinda obvious Mikey?" said Bob smirking.

"Are you guys together then?" asked Ray.

"Yup!" I said, kissing Gerards cheek.

"It's about fucking time too," said Bob.

"Huh?" questioned Mikey, Gerard and I.

"Me and Bob have been...discussing you two lately...we knew you each had a thing for eachother. And everyday we would watch you. You would get closer but nothing ever happened!" said Ray. Gerard and I both smiled guiltily. "Well we're so sorry for keeping you waiting," I said sarcastically. I'm kinda sorry too...would things be any different if we had done it sooner? The thought lingered in my mind for only a moment then flickered away at Gerard whispering into my ear.

"I love you Frankie. Don't ever leave me."

I shook my head and snuggled close to him, "I wont Gee. I wont..."

~THE END~