Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, don't sue! Also, Gerard and Mikey ARE NOT brothers in this story!!!

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UGGHH!!!!!!!! I think to myself as I hit my alarm clock at 7 in the morning. Another stupid ass day at school. I don't think I'll survive this day. If only I didn't. I stumbled out of bed running into my door. Then I walked to the bathroom like a zombie, and get in and take a shower. I looked much better when I got out. I look alive. I got dressed in my black and red bondage pants and my the Used shirt. I wear my low top converse all star (I hate how everyone calls them chucks). I go and straighten my long black hair and then put on my eyeliner with red right around the edge. I already have my nails black so that was done. Then I put on my 50 black jelly bracelets, grab my Misfits messenger bag, and head out my bedroom. The worst part is that I didn't want anyone asking how I was this morning but I knew that my friend Michael, who gives me a ride to school because my car isn't working, would of course ask me. He pulls into my driveway and honks the horn like 20 times. When I get out the front door I slide into the passenger seat.

"You think you could have made it more known that you were here?" I asked sarcastically.

"Yea I could have." he said.

"Just drive you asshole."

"Why thank you. I needed self-esteem today."

The ride to school was about 30 minutes. Today was not a day to mess with me since it was Monday. But everyday feels like Monday.

I ran into the school as soon as Michael's car was parked. I didn't want to talk to anyone except Anna and Sara. They were the only ones who I could tell my REAL problems about. Everyone else just made me laugh and cheered me up which also helped.

I ran up to the second floor and went down to the end of the hall where my locker was. I opened it and got my books for Calculus and Economics. I hated the beginning of the school day. I hade a feeling it was going to get worse. Just then, I slammed my locker shut and to my surprise found Jake standing right behind it.

"Whoa!!!!! Why the hell did you have to scare me like that you fucker???!!!!"

"Ok for one, I'm not a fucker, and two, I just felt like doing that to you." He laughed and I punched him hard in the arm. "Ouch, that really hurt! You hit too hard."

"Well don't be girl about it then."

Right when I said that, he got an evil grin on his face. He jumped for me and I dodged him and started running down the hall. I was fast but he was faster. He caught me at the end of the hall and tackled me and I fell onto the floor on my stomach. He then sat on top of me. He was heavy and I couldn't breathe so I started screaming. He just sat there smiling. Then the rest of our friends showed up in one big group. They saw the scene of us and just started laughing hysterically. I still couldn't breathe but managed to say something.

"Get....Fuck.... Off...... Heavy....... Asshole!"

Jake looked at me and said, "Oh sorry, am I heavy?" He got off me and helped me to my feet.

"Yea you are, you almost crushed me."

He didn't say anything but just smiled a bit. Everyone was there early this morning. It was just me and Jake but then Anna, Sara, Michael(Mikey for short, and he is younger than everyone else) Tiffany, Jennifer, Frank, Ray, and Bob all showed up. We all were pretty much the group of outcasts in the school. We didn't care because we loved doing what outcasts do. We stood around talking and just having a good time when the bell rang for 1st period. I waved bye to Sara, Tiffany, Jennifer, Mikey, and Bob. I had first period with Anna, Jake, Frank, and Ray. We all had Calculus together. Then I headed off to class.

First was boring as usual. Jake and Frank started a paper ball war and we all got yelled at. I didn't care I was acing this class anyway. Then, off to second period. I darted out as soon as the bell rang. I only have Economics with Frank and Ray. They are amazingly smart. I told them that I would meet them in class because I left my homework in my locker. I ran around the corner into the hall where my locker was. I looked up at the clock to see if I would be late.

'Only three minutes" I thought to myself. I wasn't looking where I was running and I ran right into someone.

"Stupid ass mother fucker!!!!" I screamed.

"I'm so sorry" I heard the voice say.

I looked at the person who I ran into. They were quite attractive, only if you like that dark moody type. He had pitch black hair that came above his shoulders a bit. It was off at the side. He had red all around his eyes and his skin was as pale as a ghost. He smiled and I noticed that he was so much hotter when he smiled.

I snapped back to reality and said, " No it's my fault. I gotta stop running and looking up at the clock at the same time.

"Hi, I'm Gerard." He extended his hand out to me. A little old fashioned but sincere I thought.

"I'm Rachel, hey." I said shaking his hand. "So, I haven't seen you around here before. Are you new?"

"Yea, I just came today and I can't seem to find anything in this damn school."

"Can I see your schedule?" I asked him.

"Yea" he said handing it to me. I looked at it and smiled.

"Whoa, you managed to be stuck with me for four classes for the rest of the year."

"Dammit" he said.

I smiled and told him "Ok, well, we managed to be 15 minutes late to Economics."

I took his hand and pulled him down the hall, around the corner and down the hall to 2nd period. We ran into the door, and stopped really quick inside.

The teacher looked at us and asked, "Well, Miss Henderson (your last name), you managed to be 18 minutes late today."

You looked at him and said "I went to my locker to get my homework and then I ran into Gerard. Literally, but not purposely. He is new here and I helped him get here."

"Ok fine, just take a seat and pay attention."

I took Gerard to the back where I sat with Frank and Ray. We talked and I introduced Gerard to them. They seemed to be good with each other. Throughout the whole lesson I managed to stare at Gerard next to me. Luckily he didn't notice me. I just couldn't get over how sweet and hot he was. When the bell rang I snapped back into it. I told Ray to show Gerard to Literature because I next had Science.

I waved bye to Gerard and he said "I'll miss you sexy" I looked at him and smiled like I know I am. We walked our separate directions and I went to boring Science with Tiffany, Mikey, and Anna.

The rest of the day and night all I could think of was him. He was so perfect to me. He was one of the greatest guys ever and I only knew him for one day. I didn't hear anything except the sound of the rain on my window. I was finally in a peaceful state. Then, I slowly drifted off to sleep.

It was dark and very cloudy outside. I was walking for no reason at all. Then I turned and walked by a cemetery. I saw a person in there, putting flowers on a grave. Then, they quickly turned around and I saw these bright red eyes. I turned away quickly and kept walking. While I was walking, I heard footsteps behind me. I looked and saw the person from the cemetery with the red eyes. They were following me. I started to walk faster and then they got faster. Then I started jogging and then they did the same. Suddenly I ran for it. They were right on my heels screaming my name. Then I ran right into something and saw the figure standing above me.

I screamed and then woke up. I was sitting upright in bed screaming and sweating. 'What was happening? Who was that'

So many questions were racing through my mind. The last time I had dreams like this was five years ago. They hadn't been back until now. I looked over at my Jack from the Nightmare Before Christmas clock and saw that it was 3:30 a.m. I knew I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep after that dream. I never could after a nightmare or else it would get worse.

I walked quietly past my mom and step dad's room and went downstairs. I hated my step dad. He was such an asshole. My mom thought he loved me and I loved him but we hated each other. I couldn't stand to be around him. I liked my step mom because she was nice and let me do what I wanted. He wouldn't even let me breathe without him knowing. Then, I got downstairs and sat down on the couch. I turned on the t.v. and started watching jackass. I loved that show so much. Then my black cat, Curse, came and sat on my lap. I called her that because everyone thinks black cats can curse you but I don't think so. I like all those kinds of supernatural and curses things. I would take the risk of being cursed. I sat down there all night watching jackass and viva la bam.

When it was 6:30, I went back upstairs because I would get yelled at for being up all night. I took Curse with me and laid her at the end of the bed. Then I crawled into the sheets as soon and my mom opened the door and kissed me goodbye. She really thought I was asleep. When I heard the front door close, I got out of bed and decided to get ready early.

Well, the next two weeks went by smoothly. Gerard and I grew much closer. I started to think that he really liked me. I knew that I liked him but I didn't want to tell him. He would always hug me and give kisses on my head. I knew he was a really good singer too because I went to Ray's house to hear them and he sounded awesome. Just like a pro. Everyday was great because he was always around. He would always find some way to make me smile or laugh. He was like the perfect guy. All the guys saw a change in me and so did Anna and Sara. I told them everything I thought and that went on in my head about him. They told me that I should tell him but I was afraid to.

One day, in Literature class, Ray pulled me off to the side and said "Can I talk to you privately?"

"Sure" I told him.

He pulled me to the side of the class where no one was and asked "Do you like Gerard?"

My ears perked at the question. I sat in complete silence and didn't say anything.

"Well, do you or do you not?"he asked again.

"Well, what do you think?"

"I think you do, but I want an answer from you."

I sat there and thought for a moment. Then I said "Ok, I do, but you can't tell him. Promise me you won't."

"I promise" he said.

"Ok, I am trusting you and if you tell him, I will get you for it."

"Ooo I'm shaking with fear" he said.

"Ok, you wanna play rough? Let's go" I said putting my hands into fists acting like we were gonna fight. He just laughed and we walked back to our group of friends. I was hoping to my life that he wouldn't tell him.

Two weeks went by and Gerard seemed a little different. He still hugged and kissed me on the forehead everyday but he seemed a little different. It was good but I couldn't think of what it was. Then it was finally one week till my birthday. School went by so fast in this time. Gerard, Frank, Mikey, and Ray decided for a name for their band about a month ago. Gerard came up with the name. It's My Chemical Romance. I like it and I think it sounds good. This week was going to be so good. I knew my friends would have something planned for me. I knew they would have some big surprise. I just didn't know what because I wanted to find out and I have been snooping around to find out some stuff but they seem to have it hidden really well. I couldn't wait till the 16th. I was so impatient to wait for this day because it was my 18th birthday. I would finally be an adult. But being an adult would show that I need a lot of responsibility.

Then it was finally my birthday. I was so excited. When I got to school I went straight to my locker thinking that a big group was standing at it. There was no one there except that my locker was covered in wrapping paper saying Happy Birthday. It was hilarious. Then when I opened my locker, streamers and paper flew out onto my clothes and head. I laughed and the everyone appeared from inside the classes around my locker from where they were hiding. They all came out and helped me get the streamers off and the silly string. They all were laughing at how I looked. I was looking around for Gerard but didn't see him. I was walking around the hallways looking for him when I bumped into someone.

"Oh fucking god! Dammit!! I gotta stop looking around when I walk." I was rubbing my face and I looked up to see who I ran into. It was Jake. He had a strange smile on his face. I looked at him a little suspicious.

I came back to reality and asked him, "Hey, have you seen Gerard around yet?"

"No, sorry, I haven't." I looked at him and he was smiling the same again. What is his fucking problem? I thought.

"Well, I gotta head off to class now. Thanks anyways. Bye."

He smiled at me and replied back,"Bye, see ya later."

I turned to walk away and saw an evil and even weirder grin on his face. I shrugged it off and headed towards class. I figured he was late and I would see him in first. Then the bell rang and we had to go to first. He wasn't there.

I turned to Ray and asked "Do you know where Gerard is?"

"No, I didn't see him on the bus. I don't know where he is."

I was getting concerned. Maybe he got up late and was gonna get a ride here and be in 2nd. Well, he wasn't and then I was really concerned. I had to wait all of third to see if he was there and when the bell rang for fourth I rushed to find him. He wasn't around the art room or in it. I couldn't help it. I wanted him to be here on my birthday. I wanted to see him. I sat down and sulked into my chair and didn't speak the rest of the class.

"What's wrong?" Tiffany asked.

"Nothing, just a headache." I lied.

I wanted to leave and go find out where he was at. Then the bell rang for lunch and I trudged into the cafeteria. Then I went and sat down at my usual table. Then everyone came and told me happy birthday. I smiled and said thanks. Then I heard a hush over the whole cafeteria. I heard small whispers as someone walked in. Then the steps got closer until they stopped right next to me.

Then I felt a light hand on my shoulder and then someone whispered slightly into my ear saying ............. "Hey Sexy. Happy Birthday."

I knew that voice. It was relieving to hear it finally. I stood up facing Gerard looking quite handsome today.

He was wearing a suit. It was a black jacket and pants with a black/dark grey shirt and a bright red tie. His hair was off to the side and not in his face. He looked very good compared to the old leather jacket and torn up pants he usually wears. He had roses in his hands. He handed them to me as I smiled. There were six red ones and six black ones.

"How did you get these black?" I asked out of curiosity.

"That's for me to know and for you to never find out" he said to me.

I gave him a big hug and just stood there while everyone watched me hug him. Then I pulled away with my face bright red.

I smiled and said "This is the best birthday present ever."

"Wait, this isn't all. There is more. Come with me."

He took my hand in his and pulled me out of the cafeteria to a deserted hallway. He stopped and then faced me. We just stood in silence for the longest time.

"Why are we down here and what do you want to talk to me about?" I finally asked.

"I have another present for you." Out of his inner jacket pocket, he pulled out a black velvet box. My breathing stopped short. He opened it. My eyes widened as I saw what was inside.

It was a silver necklace with a locket pendant. The locket had a black rose on it. I took it out and opened it. It had a picture of Gerard and I standing together in the courtyard a few weeks ago. Then, on the other side it said 'If you marry me, will you bury me? Will you carry me to the end?' I looked at him and just threw my arms around him almost knocking him down.

"Oh my god!!! Gerard, I love it so much. This is the best birthday ever. I wish I could thank you somehow."

"Well, you see the picture of us together? Can it be that way? Forever?"

I looked at him in shock and awe. Was he asking me out? He was and in the sweetest way ever.

"I want it that way and no different" I said to him. He picked me up and swung me around. Then he set me down and leaned in towards me.

My lips caressed his ever so lightly and then harder but passionately.

We stood there kissing for what seemed like forever until I heard a familiar voice saying,"I knew it! They are finally a couple!!!" It was Frank along with everyone else just staring at us with their mouths wide open.

Everyone hugged and congratulated us.

Frank then said "Well, Jake, me, Ray, Bob, and Mikey all knew because he told us he was gonna do it on your birthday. He told us not to tell you too." I looked at him and then hit Frank.

"That's not fair" I said.

"Well, I couldn't betray Gerard because we need his voice. And besides it was time you two got together."

I turned to Gerard and kissed him again. It was so sweet to be able to do that with him. It felt like I was floating on a cloud with him right next to me. Everything was perfect.

"Well, now with this done, I have something else I want to ask you."

"I don't think I can handle anymore surprises today" I said.

"Oh, well, you will have to deal with it. Prom is coming up and I want to know if you will go with me?"

"Of course I will. Besides, I like seeing you get all dressed up. You look really hot." He smiled and turned bright red at that.

"Ok, well we need to get back to class. The teachers will kill us" said Bob. Gerard and I walked hand in hand together back to art class. The rest of the day was perfect. Nothing could go wrong. At least I thought nothing could.

After school, Gerard came up to me and hugged me from behind while I was talking to Anna and Sara. He rested his head on my shoulder with his arms around my waist. Then Anna looked at him weird and he started to growl at her.

"I think you need to tame him Rachel. He just growled at me"

"I thought you might try and take her away"

"No worries, she's all yours" Anna told him.

Then he said, "Came I walk you home today?"

"Sure, then you can come and meet my mom. She will like you. Believe me" He looked scared but agreed anyways.

The walk home was great, until my feet hurt so bad I couldn't walk. Then Gerard picked me up like a bride and carried me the rest of the way to the house. It was nice and sweet that he did that. I told him

"Ok, put me down when we get to the door. I don't want my mom to get any ideas." He laughed and set me down at the door.

I opened the door and walked in to find my mom on the couch. She got up as soon as I walked in.

"Hey Rachel honey. How did everyone treat you today? Did anyone hurt you?"

"No mom, it was great. Actually, it was wonderful."

"Oooo, so who is this striking young man?" she asked.

"Mom, this is Gerard, my boyfriend."

"Oooo, when did this happen?"

"Today at school."

"Sweetie, I am so happy for you. This is great. Well, Gerard, do you plan on staying and celebrating her birthday with us?"

"If I am wanted, then ok."

"Ok, well, do you like to cook?"

"MOM!!!!!!! why did you have to ask?!!!" I screamed at her.

"I don't mind. I actually like cooking" Gerard said.

"Good, then you can help me with Rachel's cake." The cake making went fast and it tasted delicious. Gerard loved it too and really complemented my mom's cooking.

After dinner we went upstairs to my room to just be together. After just laying on my bed, listening to music, I asked Gerard "Do you want something to drink?"

"Sure, whatever you got is fine."

"Ok, I'll be back in a minute honey." I ran out before he could say anything.

When I got downstairs I heard my mom and step dad, John, arguing. The I heard her scream. I ran into the kitchen to find that John slapped Amy, my mom. She was on the ground crying. I ran to her and comforted her. Gerard must have heard it too because he was down the stairs in an instant.

"What's going on?" he asked. He saw the scene and said to John "I don't think you should be doing that."

"Oh yea what are you gonna do?" Gerard's hand went flying across John's face and he hit the floor.

"If you ever hit Rachel or her mom again, you will have to answer to me" John grabbed his coat and left slamming the door behind him. I ran to Gerard and hugged him tightly.

"Thanks for that"

"I would do anything for you and your mom. I love you."

"I love you too" I whispered in his ear still clutching him and not letting go. I wanted him to be right there forever.

I never forgot what Gerard did that night for my mom and I. It was so brave of him to stand up to John. Someone had to and he seemed to be the right one. After my birthday, every day seemed perfect. I didn't care if I got in trouble or yelled at. All I thought of was Gerard. He was so perfect. He would always hug me ever so sweetly and kiss me so passionately. It didn't matter who was around. If he wanted to kiss me then, then he would. That's one of the things that I loved about him. He would do anything and everything for me. He was independent, sweet, loving, caring, and so handsome.

A week after my birthday was one month away from prom. I was rushing around trying to find the perfect dress that would take away Gerard's breath. I finally found it. It was the most beautiful dress I ever saw. It fit my style and personality so well. All I had to do was make sure Gerard had a tuxedo.

The week following my birthday on Thursday, I went up to him and said "Hey sexy." He turned around and saw it was me. A smile came on his face that said 'She's finally here.' I loved to see that look on his face.

"Well, we all know I am" he said sarcastically. I laughed as he pulled me in for a kiss. It was as best as the first and the kisses seemed to be getting better.

Then, Ray and Frank, who Gerard were talking to said "Oh, come on. Give us a break. We don't want to see you two making out!!!" Gerard pulled away from me and looked at him.

"I could make it worse if you wanted me to." He started to make out with me right there while they were staring at us.

"Ok, ok that's enough. We have seen enough to scar us for life" said Ray.

We just laughed and pulled away. He took my hand and put it in his. It seemed to fit together so good. They both walked off and started to walk home. I turned and looked for Gerard. He was still behind me.

"Do you want to come over tonight and hang out for a while? My mom said she would love to see you again."

"Ok, only if she insists."

"She does, believe me." We walked home hand in hand the whole way. Everything was wonderful. Nothing could separate us.

When I got home, my mom greeted BOTH of us with HUGS!!! It shocked Gerard a bit but he took it. His facial expression was priceless.

"Mom, we are going upstairs until dinner is ready."

"Ok, sweetie, I'll call you when it's done."

We went into my room and then I shut the door so we could be alone. Then I sat on the bed and picked out something to listen to. I picked The Used. I put it on my favorite song and turned it up some more. Then I sat on the floor and pulled Gerard next to me. I leaned my head on his shoulder and he started to sing some of the words

"So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, so deep that I didn't even scream fuck me. I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not, I'm far from lonely and It's all that I've got. I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not. I'm far from lonely and It's all that I've got."

His voice was so sweet and relaxing. I almost fell asleep as soon as I remembered something. I jumped up and ran to my desk taking out my sketchpad.

"What's that for?"

"Stand up, I want to draw you."

"Oh, no. You are not drawing me" Gerard said to me.

"Please, it won't take long." He stood and thought for a moment.

"Ok, but don't make me look any uglier."

"I'll try not to" I said laughing. He just shrugged it off. I told him to stand a certain way and then started to draw him. I could tell after a while that he was getting tired because he started to sway a bit.

"Don't move or I'll mess up."

"Well, it's kinda hard when I can't feel my legs or arms."

"I'm almost done ok, just wait a few more minutes." About five minutes later I was finished. I told him "Ok, come and see it."

Gerard sat next to me and looked at the drawing. It wasn't colored but I would do that after dinner.

"Wow, that is really good Rachel. It looks just like me. You are a wonderful artist." I blushed a bright pink and smiled.

Next thing I heard was my mom yelling for us to come downstairs for dinner. It was good. The conversation went well. It was mainly about school, work, boring teachers, and lastly prom. It wasn't that far away. Everything was planned out great. I had dinner reservations at a little Italian restaurant for before prom. Then I had a limousine for me and Gerard, Anna and Jake, Sara and Frank, Mikey and Jennifer, Bob and Tiffany, and Ray and some girl named Brittany. The night was planned out great. Then after dinner, Gerard and I went back to my room. I had some unfinished business to attend to.

I went upstairs and decided to color my picture of Gerard. He was wearing his worn-out old leather jacket with ripped at the knee jeans and a Social Distortion shirt. I got all the colors right but his eyes and makeup were the hardest. Then finally I got them. It looked just like him and it was very good. He loved it too. We just sat in my room the rest of the night watching Jackass and Viva La Bam. Then at 10:00, he had to leave. I walked him to the front door and out onto the porch. He picked me up and kissed me ever so gently on the lips.

"I fucking love you" he said silently.

"I fucking love you too" I said to him. Then I silently watched him drive off in his car, back to his house.

Prom was finally coming up. Everything was ready, or so I thought. One and a half weeks before prom, Anna came running up to me when you came into the cafeteria.

"Rachel, Rachel!!"

"What is it Anna?"

"I need to talk to you NOW." She dragged me to the side of the cafeteria.

"What is it? What's wrong?"

"Um... Rachel, I need your help. I.... don't......... have....... a..... dress...." My eyes opened very wide. I looked at her with my mouth open.

"Why don't you have one? Why?"

"The one I was gonna get was sold out and I couldn't find it anywhere else."

I thought for a moment and then said "Well, I guess we will go dress shopping this weekend."

"Oh thank you thank you Rachel. I love you so much. I wish I could repay you" She screamed in happiness as she hugged me.

"Don't worry. I will think of something you can do for me in the future."

The weekend came up and Anna and I went dress shopping. We spent most of the day there until we went into to Hot Topic, save the best for last, and saw it. It was the perfect dress for Anna. She looked beautiful in it and she was so happy. She loved it even more than the one she was originally going to get.

As we walked out of the store, she stopped me and asked "Has Gerard tried to do anything yet?" I looked at her shocked thinking why she was asking that.

"He is a gentleman, I don't think he will try anything for a long time."

"Ok, I was just wondering." We walked out of the mall, skipping and so happy. Anna had THE dress and I had Gerard and THE dress for me.

I took Anna to her house to pick up her dress and her stuff. Then we went back to my house because my mom was going to do our hair. She is a professional hairdresser. She does hair very beautifully. We got home and took showers and got our hair dry. Then we went downstairs so my mom could do our hair. It took a while but it was worth it. My hair was parted off to the side and part was pulled back into a half ponytail. The rest was down and sort of wavy at the ends. It looked great. I thanked my mom a million times.

Anna's hair was put all the way up and some it fell in strands to her shoulders. There were small diamonds in it and it sparkled so brightly. Then we put on our dresses. Mine was a strapless black dress with a red sash around the middle and red layers underneath it. It was flowing at the bottom and laced at the top(Rachel looks just like in the girl in the coffin in the Helena video). Also, I had ballet shoes to wear with it that lace up to my mid-calf. Anna's dress was white and black. The top was white and right under her breast it stopped and slanted down and the rest of the bottom was black. It had a small trail in the back and it had diamonds here and there on it making it not too flashy.

I looked in the mirror and thought 'Wow, I feel wonderful.'

Anna came over to me and said "Wow, Rachel. You look wonderful."

"I feel it too. You look so beautiful. I love your dress. It looks great."

"Thanks" she said. We got our shoes on and got our purses and went outside to where the limo was waiting with three of the couples in it already. There was Jake, Gerard, Ray, and his date left to pick up. All the girls looked beautiful. Their dresses were amazing. I didn't get to see Gerard very well, but he looked quite good from what I saw. He didn't see my dress very well in the limo either so we didn't get to see each other properly until we got out.

When I stepped out and Gerard got out after me he looked at me and his jaw just dropped. He was staring and it started to scare me a bit.

"Why are you staring?"

"I can't help it. You just look so damn beautiful."

"Thanks. Well, you look very handsome too." He was wearing black pants, jacket, dark grey/black shirt, and a bright red tie. He looked great with the red still around his eyes. We walked into the place together hand in hand. Nothing could go wrong tonight. Nothing.

Gerard and I walked into the gym of the school where prom was held. It wasn't our school because so many people were going and our gym wasn't that big. This gym was huge. There was a mat on the floor so we wouldn't slide on our shoes. There was a DJ and a band on a stage at the other end of the gym, playing random selected music. It looked very nice.

Gerard took my hand and lead me over to our group of friends. We talked for a while and laughed at little things. Then a slow song came on. Gerard looked at me and I smiled.

"Would you care to dance?" he said as he held out his hand.

"Why, yes I would" I said as I took his hand. He lead me to the middle of the floor. Then he put his arms around my waist and I put my arms around his neck. I laid my head down on his chest and just listened to him breathe. It was so calming and relaxing. It felt as though the song lasted forever. Then, the DJ switched the music to something a little more upbeat and it was actually hardcore. It was The Used's All That I've Got. Anna came over to me and we both started singing it together.

Soon we had a big group around us listening to us sing or actually joining in with us. It was so much fun. All the girls in our group took off their shoes at the next song and started to dance together. It was funny because Gerard and Ray wanted to dance to so they joined in but danced very strangely. It was funny because Ray fell on his face while he was spinning around. The night was perfect until the DJ told the girls to line up and one side of the gym, close their eyes, and hold out their hand. It was time for the guys to pick a girl they hadn't danced with all night. I was wondering who it was and then I felt a held take mine and lead me to the side to dance. I opened my eyes and saw it was Jake. He was smiling that smile and looking at me that way again. I hadn't told Gerard about that yet. I didn't think he needed to know anyways. Then the music came on real slow and nice.

Jake and I danced for a bit in silence until I broke the silence and said "What happened at school the other today? I mean, when you looked at me when I walked away from you." He just looked at the ground and then slowly brought his head back up.

"Rachel, the reason I did that is because.......... I think I am in love with you." At those words, my heart just melted.

He can't be in love with me because Gerard loves me and I love him. Why was he telling me this now, when Gerard was around? I looked around to see if Gerard was close by. He was in the middle of the floor dancing with Tiffany. It was kinda funny to watch them both together.

I looked back at Jake and said "Jake, I'm sorry but you know I love Gerard and he loves me. I don't want to ruin that between him and me. I'm sorry."

"I understand. I shouldn't have told you anyway. Can we forget it and still be friends?"

"Yea, I would like that a lot."

The song ended and I looked at Jake showing my face that could have said 'I need to go back to Gerard'. He nodded his head in agreement as if he was reading my mind. Then I smiled and ran to him. When I got to him, I jumped on his back and then got down.

"So, who did you dance with my darling?"

"I danced with Jake."

"Ok, good thing it wasn't some dorky loser. I was hoping you would get a good guy to dance with. Not a bad one." I laughed at what he said. He cared for me so much and at times it was funny. The last song of the night played at midnight. Gerard took me and led me to the dance floor. He and I danced together and just talked about simple things. When the song ended, he leaned in and kissed me. It was if as by magic that the kisses between us were getting better. Then, I got the rest of the group and left the prom and went bowling. The night was fun, especially when Gerard pulled him arm back to throw the ball and it fell out of his hand, plus when Ray and Frank slid down the lane into the pins and actually got a strike. Then, the saddest part about the night was going home. It wasn't that sad because Anna was spending the night so we could talk. We left the bowling alley laughing as we got into the limo for the ride home.

We dropped off everyone first until it was just me, Gerard, Anna, and Jake. My house was next and Anna and I got out. Gerard walked me to the door and Anna stayed at the limo to say goodbye to Jake.

"Tonight was one of the best night's of my life" I said to Gerard.

"I am glad you had fun at prom and bowling."

"That's not the reason it was wonderful. It was because I got to spend it with you." He looked at me and smiled. We leaned in for a kiss and held it until we had to part for a breath. He hugged me bye and hugged Anna bye also. Then he got in the limo and he Jake left. Anna looked at me and smiled a sort of evil grin.

"I saw that."

"So, I am not ashamed" I said to her. I unlocked the front door and opened it laughing quietly with Anna. When I turned on the light, I saw someone I never expected to see ever again.

Sitting in the middle of the living room on the couch was John. He was smiling at Anna and I as we walked in. I told Anna to go upstairs and that I would be up in a minute. She glared at John as she headed for my room.

I waited until I heard my door close and turned back to him. I still hated him so much for what he did to my mom. I wanted to strangle him right then and there but I retained myself from it. I just stood there and stared at him while he kept smiling.

He broke the silence and said, "Well, you look great tonight. How was prom?"

"Not that it's any of your business, but it was a lot of fun. Now, can you tell me why the hell you are here?!!?" I screamed at him as I spoke. My anger was coming out and I knew there was more to come.

"Well, I couldn't leave you and Amy all alone with no one to watch over you" he said.

"Does Amy know you are here?" I asked him impatiently waiting for his reply.

"What she doesn't know won't hurt her. Besides, she would be glad to see me."

"How do you know that? From what I can see, she is happier now that you left. I am going to give you 10 minutes to get your stuff and leave. If in 10 minutes you are not gone, I am calling the cops."

"Fine, but just tell your mom I stopped by" he said smiling evilly. I ran upstairs to Anna and collapsed on the bed.

"So, what did you tell him?"

"I told him that he had 10 minutes to get out or I was going to call the cops on him. And I am going to do that if he isn't gone." Anna just laughed and said she could see that picture and it was kind of funny. I started laughing too. Then, 10 minutes later, I ran downstairs to see if he was still here.

He was gone but there was a note on the desk. It said 'Amy, if you don't call me or come meet me and we talk, I will make your life a living hell. If you don't meet me tomorrow at 1 on Park Avenue at the music store, then you will lose something very precious to you: Rachel. I will come kill her if you don't meet me. We better have a deal or she is gone. John.'

I just stared at the note and put it back. How could he be threatening my mother so much? Why did he have to do this to us? I went upstairs back to Anna and made sure I didn't look terrified.

"So, is he finally gone?"

"Yea, he left. Thank god." We both laughed. We stayed up basically all night and watched movies, listened to music, and just talked. My mom was on an overnight business trip and wouldn't be back till 10 in the morning. At 5 in the morning, our doorbell rang

I was scared because I thought it was John. I looked out the window at the car and it wasn't John's car but I still didn't recognize it. I opened the front door and low and behold it was Frank, Ray, Jake, and Gerard. They all greeted me with huge hugs and almost sucked the life out of me. Then Gerard hugged me lighter and gave me a sweet kiss.

"How have you and Anna been?"

"Well, we've been fine but we didn't expect the calvary to be coming at this time."

Jake and Frank ran upstairs, grabbed Anna, and carried her back down the stairs almost dropping her. Then, at the bottom of the stairs, they dropped her, but on accident.

"Stupid ass whore mother fucking bitches!!!!!!!!!!!! That hurt you assholes!!!!!!!" I don't think she could have used a more colorful vocabulary. Then, Gerard, Frank, Ray, and Jake all sat on the couch. It was funny because the couch seats two and there were four seniors cramped sitting on it. Anna sat on Jake and I sat on Gerard. He pulled me by my waist closer to him. Frank and Ray looked at him weird and he started to growl at them. They backed off when he did that.

We decided to watch a movie. One of the best movies ever, The Rocky Horror Picture Show! It is so funny and we laughed through the whole thing. All the guys were singing Time Warp with the actors and Anna and I almost fell off the couch laughing at them. Their voices were either too high or too low. It was hilarious. They left an hour before my mom was coming home.

Gerard asked me "Can we get together later, just you and I?"

"Yea, sure. When?"

"Umm.......... how about around two?"

"That's perfect. See you then Mr. Famous sexy lead singer."

"Oh, don't deny it, you know I am" he said like a girl. I laughed and then he hugged and kissed me goodbye.

I closed the door and turned back to Anna. Her face was red and she was crying.

I ran to her side and said "What's wrong? Are you okay?"

She looked up at me, her eyes red from crying, and said "No, I'm not okay."

I held her close saying "What's wrong? You can tell me. You know you can tell me anything." She looked up at me and managed to get a few words out.

"It's Jake."

"What about him? Did he hit you?!" I asked her.

"No, it's not that. But he did do something to me................. He raped me." I looked into Anna's eyes shocked and angry and sad all at the same time. I don't know how that happened but I did it.

"When did this happen?"

"About a month ago. I didn't want to tell anyone because he told me not to."

"You should have told me anyways Anna. This is serious. He could have gotten you pregnant."

She cried even more when I told her that. Why did Jake do this to her? She never did anything to him? Why?

I took her face away from my shoulder and asked her "Do you know why he did this?"

She nodded her head yes and said "He wanted to have sex with me but I didn't want to with him. He kept pestering me about it but I told him no. Then one night he came to my house when my parents were away, tied me to the bed post and raped me."

I was so shocked to hear this. Jake needed to learn a lesson from his mistake.

"Have you told anyone?"

"No, you are the first person." I was thinking about why this happened, why he did it to Anna, and how could I make him suffer.

"You can't tell him that I told you. Please don't Rachel."

"I have to talk to him. I never said I was going to talk about a certain subject ok." She started to smile and then she felt better. My mom was going to be home in a half an hour. we ran upstairs and got into bed. We talked for about 30 minutes and then when we heard my mom come in we went dead silent. She came up the stairs and opened my door. She came to my side of the bed and stared at me. I busted out laughing and so did Anna.

"I thought you two were supposed to be sleeping?"

"Well, we weren't tired and plus, we got back from the bowling alley around 3. It was a lot of fun."

"Well, I am glad you two had fun but you need to go to sleep if you plan on meeting Gerard this afternoon."

I sat up and said "How did you know I was going to meet him?"

"I just could. I'm good like that." She left my room and closed the door. When she was gone, I turned to Anna and she had a look on her face like 'How did she know?' We both laughed and I fell back into my spot. In the next few minutes I fell asleep but I wish I hadn't.

I couldn't breathe. I felt my lungs losing air by the second. I felt as I was about to die. A hand was tightly gripping my throat and holding me underwater. I kept struggling but when I did that, I was losing more air.

I heard a voice above the water and it said so softly "If you love him, you will die for him." Everything was going black and then I sat straight up in my bed. It was bright outside and Anna was in the bathroom. I was sweating and breathing very heavily. I tried to catch my breath so Anna wouldn't ask. Why were my dreams becoming so realistic? They almost scared me to death now. I was starting to be afraid to go to sleep. She came back in my room and I put a tired look on my face.

"What time is it?"

"Almost 1:30. We didn't sleep very long" Then I snapped back and realized that I was supposed to meet Gerard at two.

Anna looked at me and smiled and said "Do you want help getting ready?"

"Yes!!! Yes!!!! I love you so much. Thank you!!!"

After I took a shower she blow dried my hair while I did my makeup and put on my clothes. I was ready 10 minutes before two. I took her with me because I didn't have enough time to take her home. I rushed into the restaurant and saw Gerard and Frank sitting there, waiting on us. I guess he knew I was bringing Anna along. He hugged me and kissed me hard but Anna and Frank just hugged even though she always liked him.

"Sorry about that but we didn't get to sleep until after my mom came home and then I woke up at 1:30."

"You should have seen her trying to rush to get ready. It was funny" Anna said to Frank and Gerard.

They laughed and Frank said "I can imagine that picture." We all laughed. We ordered lunch and then just talked about random things. How much fun prom was, what we were doing in the summer, if we knew what college we were going to, and so on. We left the place around 3:30 and went to the music store for some more CDs. Then we left to go back to Gerard's house. Everyone was there. Gerard, me, Anna, Frank, Ray, and Mikey. Jake was at work and Gerard's parents were there too. They liked me so much. They said they would love for me to be their daughter-in-law. Gerard blushed at those words and I laughed at him.

About 9 that night I decided to go home because I hated leaving my mom home alone now. I left and raced as fast as I could to my house. I got out of the car and ran to the door. it was unlocked. I ran inside and slammed the door shut. I saw my mom sitting at the kitchen table with the piece of paper that John left for her. Her eyes didn't even leave it when I walked over to her and touched her.

"I met John. He wants to come back but I told him no. He said he was going to ask me again in two weeks and he said that if I said no again.......... He would kill you." I looked at my mom with tears in her eyes.

"I won't let him near this house. Over my dead body will he come near here."

"I don't want to lose you again" she sobbed. Again?

"What do you mean again?" I asked her. My mom looked up from the table and tears ran down her cheeks.

"When you were just a baby your real father and I were together but not for long. He would come home drunk a lot each night. One night he came home worse than ever. He was screaming at me and cussing. Then he kept hitting me repeatedly. He could hear you crying and took a knife from the kitchen counter and ran up the stairs. I tried to get up but he had hit me so hard the impact was still on me. He was standing next to your crib with the knife in his hands. I finally managed to get up and I ran up to your room. I saw him next to you with the knife in the air. As he lowered it I screamed and ran into him so the knife hit the floor. I took you and ran into my room and locked the door. I called the police and they took him away. I almost lost you that night and it still haunts me. Now John is threatening to kill you and I don't want to think about losing you." She was crying uncontrollably now. Why did she not tell me this before? Why did she wait until she had another death threat on me?

"Why did you not tell me this before?" I asked her.

"I didn't think anyone would try to kill you again so I believed it was best for you not to know." I sat down and held her in my arms.

"You won't lose me ever. I promise you that. I won't let anyone ever hurt you or me again." She looked up at me and smiled. I knew that she and I would be fine, for now.

My mom and I decided that it wasn't safe to be at our house for a while. I couldn't think of any place to stay and then Gerard's house came up.

Two days later after what she had told me that one night, I asked her "Have you found a place to stay yet?"

"No, all the hotels are booked. There is no place to stay."

"Well, I wouldn't say that just yet." She eyed me very suspiciously.

"I was thinking maybe we could stay at Gerard's house. I mean his family likes us and enjoys having us over. Plus, when I want to see him, I wouldn't have to waste my money on gas to drive."

She thought for a moment and said "Is it ok with his parents?"

"Oh yea, when I told them the part of the story they agreed they would house us as long as we needed. They have two spare bedrooms anyways."

She sat in silence for a moment and then said "Ok well get all your clothes and personal things and then we'll head over there." I jumped in joy and ran upstairs to get my stuff. I was so happy. I would be able to be with Gerard more and I loved his family to death. My mom and I got our things packed and headed off to his house. I know that a lot would happen because we would be around each other 24-7 but I knew it would be for the best.

When we got to his house the family gave us a warm welcome. They helped us carry in our few bags and showed us to our rooms. Mine was right next to Gerard's and there was a door joining the two. When all my stuff was in the room I felt at home more than ever. The walls were a red with a black ceiling and red and black satin sheets with blacks drapes around the bed. It was so beautiful. It was those colors because that used to be Gerard's room but he moved to the one next to it because it was bigger. I liked it just the way it was. It was great.

I sat on the bed and laid back. He came up beside me and laid down running his fingers through my long black hair. I looked at him and smile and planted a soft kiss on his lips. I jumped up and took my things out of my bags. I put my clothes in the closet and then went through the next bag with my night clothes and intimates. He looked through some of the things and picked up one of my thongs. It was black with a red skull on front and it had two gun charms hanging in the back. He looked at it and then looked at me raising one eyebrow.

"That is mine sir, not yours." I took it from him and threw it in the drawer.

"Darn, and I thought it was an early birthday present for me." I laughed at him and finished unpacking my stuff. Everything that I needed or really wanted was here. Basically all my stuff because I didn't have a lot in my room. I put up my posters on the walls. They were The Used, Under Oath, and Drowning Pool. It was starting to feel like a real home now.

When I was finished I turned to him and said "Tada!!!!!!!!!"

He smiled and said "Wow, that was quick."

"Well, I'm a fast girl." He stood up and came over to me. Then he picked me up by my waist and threw me on the bed. He kicked the door closed with his foot. He leaned down slowly into my face and gently kissed me. Then he kissed me harder and longer. I kissed him back and pretty soon we were making out all over my bed.

He heard footstep up the stairs and got off me looking through my CDS. I ran to the door and acted like I was putting up a poster of one of my fairies on the back. You could hear people outside talking. It was Frank and Ray.

"I bet that are having wild pig sex in there. Let's bust in on them."

"Ewwwwww, I don't want to see that! Gross!!!!!!!!!" I flung the door open and smiled as the two of them stood there with a priceless look on their faces.

"How is us having sex gross compared to you two making out on the couch?"

They looked at me and said "EWWWWWWWWWWWWW, NO WAY!!!!!!!!!" "

I could hear you outside the door. We weren't doing anything. I had the door closed so I could put of the picture of my fairy. If you don't believe me, see for yourself." I let them in and closed the door and then they saw the poster. They smile shamefully and said for us to be down in 3 minutes for dinner.

They left and I closed the door partially. I sat next to Gerard on the bed and gave him a big hug. I heard his mom calling us and we both got up.

"That was awkward on the bed wasn't it?" I asked.

"I didn't think so. It felt right to me." He smile a smile I only saw him show once. I think he was falling for me more than ever now. He still had no clue why my mom and I had really come here. I didn't intend to tell him the real reason anyways.

Gerard and I raced down the stairs and fell at the bottom laughing so much that we were crying. The meal was great. It was nice to have real home cooking for a change. My mom was always busy so she didn't have much time to cook and I tried once to cook but I never did again. Then around 11 we had to go to bed for school the next day.

At school, Gerard and I were the most known and best couple. It was nice to have the attention sometimes but more girls started to notice him and flirt with him and it made me mad but I acted ok about it. At least he would make it known that he was taken and happy.

Time at Gerard's house went by fast. We were practically living there because my mom was afraid to go back to our house. I don't blame her. Pretty soon it was graduation. I graduated with the third highest GPA, all A's, and I got to make a speech. I don't know why but they wanted me to. All the time up there I could see Gerard, Frank, Ray, and Mikey wave at me and yell for me. It made it a lot easier when they did that. They always made life fun.

Summer was a lot of fun. We went to Mexico City beach and stayed for a week. Gerard and I were having the time of our lives. We wouldn't have to separate to go to college because we got accepted to the same one. I was in the college for art, writing, and singing. Gerard was in for art, music, and some other major that I don't really remember. I knew we would be together for a longer time after this. It had been past six months that we were together. It was the best six months of my life.

One day, still in the summer, I came to Gerard's house after I was with Tiffany, Anna, and Sara. I walked in and heard nothing. I called out Gerard's name and heard a soft noise at the top of the stairs. I opened his bedroom door and found him sitting on the floor sobbing. He looked up at me with his red and black eyeliner down his cheeks.

I ran to his side and said "What's wrong? What happened?"

Between the sobs and cries I heard "Jake.....car.........crushed.........hospital..........dead...."

At these words my heart just sank. Jake was in car accident and he had died.

I held Gerard in my arms and said "I know it's hard to lose someone close to you. I know how it is."

"No, I was very upset about that but that wasn't why I was crying."

I looked at him and asked "Ok, then why were you crying?"

"Because I dreamed that.......... you died....."

"I am not going to die. I promise you." He looked up at me with fear in his eyes.

"I know why you and your mom came here in the first place. I knew it was John."

"He won't hurt me. I won't let him. You will not lose me ever."

"I am just afraid that one day

I might." I smile and said "Well, maybe when we are 100 years old but that is with age." He started to laugh and smile again. I was glad because when he is sad I become sad too.

A couple nights later was one of the worst nights ever. I was in a cemetery standing over Jake's grave with flowers. I put them down on top of it, got up and turned around to walk away but something stopped me. I felt like my lungs were being squeezed and that someone was strangling me. I heard the same voice from the last one.

"If you love him, you'll die for him." Then I woke up in a sweat and breathing heavily. I was so scared that my dreams might come true one day.

I was afraid to go back to sleep alone so I quietly knocked on the door between my room and Gerard's. I heard some rustling and then a sort of loud bang like someone hit the floor. Then I heard mumbling and cursing. He opened the door looking more tired than ever.

"Can I stay in your room tonight with you? I don't want to be alone now." he moved out of the doorway and let me in. I jumped in his bed and when he got in I turned and faced him. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close.

"Goodnight. I love you" I said to him.

"I love you too. Goodnight" he replied. Then his eyes closed quickly and he fell fast asleep. I was thinking that I could live my life right here, forever.

I woke up the next morning to find Gerard still asleep. He looked like a lost puppy when he was asleep. It was so cute. I slid out from under his arm and went to the bathroom. When I got back to his room, I saw him sitting up on his bed with the most tired look on his face ever. He smiled and motioned for me to come sit next to him. I sat next to him and he held me. I seemed to fit perfectly in his arms.

"Why again did you come in last night?" he asked me.

"Because, I couldn't sleep and I didn't want to be alone."

"Why?" he asked me.

"I just wanted to be with you last night," I said to him, lying. I never lied to him before but I didn't want to worry him about it. He had enough on his hands already.

"Well, we need to get downstairs if we wanna eat," he spoke softly because he was still tired. I got up and ran to the door.

"If you wanna eat, you'll have to beat me to the kitchen," I said to him, playfully. He got up fast and raced after me. We both landed downstairs with a bang but I beat him. It was probably because he was still tired. We ate and talked about things going on. It was so hot outside and it was only 10 a.m.

After we ate, Gerard, Mikey, Frank, Ray, and Bob went to go practice at Ray's house because he had everything set up and then they would spend the rest of the day together. That was ok because Anna, Sara, Tiffany, and Jennifer wanted to spend a day with all of us. Like a girl's day out. Today turned out to be much more different than I expected.

We spent time at the mall and shopped for most of the day. We bought a lot amazingly. Then, we went to the movies to see a scary movie. It was good but we all tried to huddle in the corner and we had our knees up to our chest. The movie was great and a couple of guys kept checking us out.

They came over and started to flirt with me and I turned to them and said "Look, shut up. I'm taken and happy, so fuck off!!" After that, they left us alone. The day was great. Then we got our nails done but I had a black french manicure. It was nice even though most preps are in there but my nails were still black. We got home around 11 p.m. My mom didn't really care when I came home, as long as it wasn't past 4 in the morning since we were still living at Gerard's. That was the same time for him. When we came home, it was just me and Sara. She was staying the night in my room with me. When we got there, there was no noise in the house. We looked in all the rooms calling everyone's name but we couldn't find them.

We looked through the whole house and found that no one was there. Then, Sara called "Rachel!" I rushed down the stairs to the kitchen. She had a note in her hand. She handed it to me and I read it.

It said "Sara, Rachel, and Gerard, We all had to leave tonight. There were things we needed to get settled. Don't worry. We will be back in two or three days. I love you all and be safe. Don't let anyone you don't know into the house. Love always, Amy, Stacie, and George."

I set the note down and stared blankly at Sara. She looked the same at me. Why did they leave all of a sudden? What was going on? Why did they tell us to be so safe? Then, it came to me. John. He must have done something to make them leave so suddenly. This worried me so much. I was hoping to God that they were ok.

Sara and I sat up till Gerard came home. I let him read the note and the same thing was going through his head. Only he and his parents knew why we were staying at his house for so long. He comforted me because I couldn't take the pain of losing my mom. She meant so much to me. I needed her and she needed me. We had been through so much together. My head told me they were fine, but deep down in my gut, I knew something terrible was going to happen.

That night wasn't good for me at all. I couldn't sleep at all and keep pacing around my room. Gerard and Sara came in to check on me occasionally that night. I still couldn't stop moving around. I wouldn't sit still. I was so worried about Amy. She was the world to me. She meant more to me than Gerard did. I needed her in my life. I always had her and I always will. But what if will never comes? I told myself to not think that will is never going to come. It is.

The next day I wanted to go out and look for them. Gerard told me that I needed to stay at the house.

"Who knows, maybe John is using as this as a chance to get you alone and hurt you. I will not let you out of my sight. At least not until Amy, Stacie, and George come back. Until then, I want to know where you are at every time or be with you all day. I can't risk losing you. I wouldn't be able to stand life without you." Gerard spoke so forcefully but it was like he was protecting me.

I told him "Ok, I will do that because I couldn't live without you either." The day was nice. Before we went out, Gerard surprised me with a little present. It was a dozen BLACK roses. He had done something to them to be black but still as fresh and as sweet as always. They were wonderful. I spent all day with him. I got to hear the band practice one of their songs. It sounded really good. Gerard's part was mainly screaming but it still was good.

That night we went out to eat and we decided to go to a club. I had been to one before on my sixteenth birthday because my mom took me there. It was fun and I wanted to go back. We went to the same one that Amy took me to, two years ago. It looked exactly the same. It wasn't very full but there were a good amount of people there. Much less did I know I would run into someone I never expected to see ever again.

Rachel and Anna met up with us there. It was a total blast. I danced basically the whole time and so did Anna and Rachel. They danced with some of the other guys of the band also. After a dance I told Gerard I was going to get some drinks. I got a Martini and he got a beer (This bar is specially for if you are 18 or older and you can drink). I went to the bartender and asked for the drinks.

As I was waiting, I felt someone touch my shoulder ever so lightly. I turned around quickly and saw someone who I literally hated.

It was my ex from four years ago. He had always been obsessed with me but I never liked him that much and I still went out with him. I could tell he was drunk by the way he was standing and his breath. It was horrible.

"Hey baby. Miss me much?" he asked, half falling over.

"Nope. I never did and never will. Can't you get it through your head that I didn't like you and I still don't." I said loudly to him over the blaring of the music. I got the two drinks and started to walk away. He grabbed my arm and turned me to him. He was in for the worst of it.

"Where ya going? You are supposed to stay with me remember? Forever." At the word 'forever' my spine chilled and my body froze. I would never ever be with him again. I was with Gerard now and I would be until the day we died together. I set down the drinks and smiled at him sweetly making him think I was gonna be his again.

I raised my fist slowly and then swung it as hard as I could at him. It hit him right in the jaw. He made a loud thud as he hit the floor.

The whole club went silent as Rachel, Anna, Gerard, Ray, Frank, Mikey, and Bob rushed over to me. They all looked at me with my hand still in a fist and the guy laying on the ground. I lowered my hand and smiled lightly.

"Some old business to deal with an ex." They all laughed at me and brought me back to the dance floor. We danced all night until 6 in the morning. We all were really drunk and Ray was the only one sober enough to drive. So we all crammed into his little car and went home.

Gerard and I were last to be dropped off. He was drunk but not as much as me. He helped me walk into the house and walk up the stairs. He didn't put me in my room because he meant that I would be with him EVERY HOUR of the day. He laid me on his bed with my clothes still on. We both didn't take the time to undress so we just slept in our clothes. I feel fast asleep as Gerard laid next to me. I figured that tonight would be pleasant sweet dreams, but again, I was wrong.

I was standing in the middle of a deserted cemetery. It looked as if it was 100 years old. I walked around looking at the tombstones. Then one particular one caught my eye. I walked over to it and looked at it. It was different from the others. It was not a faded, plants were not growing on it and it just seemed different. I got on my knees to read the name on the tombstone. I suddenly fell back in terror.

I was thinking "No, no, it cant be. No." The name on the tombstone was not mine................................ but Gerard's.

"He cant be dead. No, he is alive. NO!" These thoughts were rushing through my mind. I started to cry and my face fell into my hands. I heard soft footsteps behind me and they were approaching. Then they stopped right behind me. A hand lightly fell onto my shoulder and I quivered with fear.

Then, the person leaned into my ear and whispered, ever so softly, "If you love him, you'll die for him." I was screaming as I got up and ran away from the stranger. He chased after me and kept gaining on me. Then, I felt a sudden jolt that made me feel like I dove into a freezing lake. My eyes opened quickly and I sat up like shot. I was breathing heavily and my eyes were bloodshot. I looked up to see Gerard standing above me with an empty bucket in his hands. Was I screaming out loud? Was it real? I started to shiver from the cold of the water. Gerard must have poured the water on me to make me stop screaming and wake up. He had a look of fear in his eyes and his breathing was heavy also. I jumped up from the bed and pulled him into a tight hug and cried. I didn't want to think about my dream now, but it still entered my mind. What if my dream will come true this time?

I looked at Gerard's face while there was still fear in his eyes. I couldn't tell him and I didn't want him to know. He didn't need to. He had enough to deal with already. I was still crying and many things were still a blur. I could remember every detail of the whole dream. It seemed so real to me. The cemetery, the graves, the name on the tombstone, and the sound of the voice. It sounded so familiar to me. I knew I heard it somewhere before. I just could not remember where I did or when.

Gerard looked at me, still so scared, and softly spoke. "What happened? What was that?" I could not bring myself to tell him. I slightly shook my head. "No, I need to know. Please tell me. You can tell me. Please. You scared me then. I heard your screaming and I couldn't think what to do. It scared me to death." I shook my head again.

"I cant tell you. It is not that important and I don't want to worry you. You already have enough on your hands. Don't worry. Its fine."

"No, its not fine!!!!! You were screaming and thrashing around in the bed! You can not tell me it's fine when I just saw you like that!" He was yelling at me and I was beginning to get even more scared.

"I told you, I can't tell you. I don't want you to think about it. I don't want it to scare you." He begin to yell again but not as loud.

"How could something scare me?! The only thing that scares me is the thought of losing you."

"That's my fear too." He finally understood what had happened in the dream. He realized that I wasn't the one getting hurt but it was him. That was why I couldn't tell him. He gave me a loving look and pulled me in for a kiss and a hug.

"Don't be scared. I will not die. You will not lose me. I promise you that." The sound of my sobs became faint with each second in the embrace.

The next few days for me were terrifying. Every little noise made me jump and think of my dream. I had parts of the dream each night but I didn't wake up screaming again.

One day I was acting more unusual than I was. I was really alert and jumpy. Gerard decided I needed a day out with our friends. I agreed and thought that this would be a great way to get my mind off the dream. We went to the mall and shopped around.

While we were walking, a guy passed me and I glanced at him. Then I stopped quickly and spun around to look at him. I looked him right in the eye and he watched me as he walked away. I had seen him before. I swear I did. I just had no idea where.

"Who was that?" Gerard asked me as I turned back.

"He looked like someone I had seen at the movies or here a couple times before" I said, lying. The shopping didn't even help to get my mind off the subject.

When Gerard and I got home, I told him I wanted to go for a walk.

"Oh no you don't. Not after that dream. I don't want you going out alone."

I looked at him with the big puppy dog eyes and said "If it will make you feel better, I'll take a knife with me. Just please let me go out for a walk. I think it will help clear my mind. I'll only be our for an hour and I won't go too far, mother." He laughed at me and nodded his head.

As I was walking out the front door he said "Wait," and ran up the stairs. He came back down with a knife in his hands that Jake gave to him a long time ago.

On the side of the knife it read, "Promise me that when I'm gone, you'll kill my enemies." He handed it to me and gave me a long sweet kiss before I walked out. As I stepped outside, the night air was clear and crisp with a nice breeze.

I started walking out of the neighborhood and onto the road. I had been walking for a half an hour when I decided I would go visit Jake, in New Groven Cemetery. The walk was short there and no one was out this night. I was all alone.

I entered through the side gate of the cemetery. I was walking along them looking at all the people who had died. My grandparents were here and a couple who I knew from school who got sick and died.

I finally found Jake's grave. I looked around to see if there were any flowers that I could place on his grave. I saw a small rosebush two graves away. I went to it and pick off three roses. I walked back to Jake and kneeled down.

I read the tombstone and it said "Jake Michael Roger, a beloved friend, uncle and son. He was born on November 18, 1985 and died on June 7th, 2005. He will always be remembered and be in the hearts of his loved ones."

Tears filled my eyes as I read the heading. I could still remember his sweet smile and his loud laugh. I never did completely forgive him for trying to take me like that. I hated for myself for that and it tormented me that I never told him it was ok. I laid my head on the stone and tears came even more. He was a great friend to me and I missed so much. He was an all around wonderful person. And now he was gone. I would never see him again. Then, after my tears subsided, I heard footsteps behind me. I was thinking it was Gerard because I thought I had been out longer than an hour. The steps stopped behind me and I got up to face him.

As I got up I heard the voice of my worst fear. "Well, well, well. If it isn't little miss Rachel Henderson."

I slowly turned and faced the person who said that. Standing there as plain as day, was John. I couldn't believe it. I thought he had left.

"What are you doing here?" I asked in an annoyed tone.

"Why, don't you want to see your only father?"

"My father is dead! He was a great dad no matter what you say! He was better than you will ever be. You can never take his place."

Rage was building up inside me and I thought I would burst from it. He walked over to me and smiled at me. I stood my ground and did not move a muscle.

He put his hand on my shoulder and said in my ear "But I am all that you have. Your mom has no idea where you or I am." I was thinking about her then. What did he do to her? I would kill him if she was dead.

"What did you do to her?!" I screamed at him.

"Oh nothing. She is perfectly fine and is looking for me. I didn't do anything to her, but that doesn't mean I won't do anything to you." He had a tone in his voice that scared me. He looked at the grave and said the worst thing to me he ever could.

"It was a shame to see someone so young die so tragically." It hit me then. He was the one who crashed into Jake's car. He was the one that caused the accident. He killed him.

"How could you? Why did you do that? He never did anything to you!"

"Oh, I just wanted to think of some way possible to make your life miserable." I was thinking I was glad he didn't get Gerard. "But then I wanted to make everyone else miserable about you." I reached into my back pocket as he kept babbling on and on.

I pulled the knife out and slowly flipped it open. Then I lifted it and fell into John. He was too quick though. He ducked and I fell right over him. He got out his knife and started to go for me. I ran at him and knocked him out and we both fell to the ground. I was leaning against the grave with blood coming from a scratch on my head. He was standing above me with a gun in his hand. He heard someone running near the cemetery and saw Gerard. He looked back at me and smiled.

"No Gerard. He will hurt you. Don't come" I was thinking. John looked at me and pulled out his gun. I tried to get up but the impact from the fall broke my leg and I couldn't get up.

"This is my chance. Now you can be gone and I won't have to worry about you anymore. If you love him, you'll die for him." He pointed the gun at me and I heard Gerard coming closer.

Before he got to me, there was a loud bang, followed by a silence that could even scare the dead. Five Years Later

We all were driving through our old hometown. It had been forever since we were here. The whole ride here was silent. No one spoke a word and knew they shouldn't. Then, the car came to a halt.

It had been five years, since that night. I slowly got out and face the only thing I feared. New Groven Cemetery. I had a dozen black roses in my hand with a small velvet box in the other. I walked throughout looking at all the graves.

I saw Jake's momentarily and stopped for him. I knelt down and said a few small words, got up and walked towards the middle.

Sitting proud in the middle of the cemetery was a grave. This what I had dreaded my whole life. Revisiting this place, but I knew I had to. I knelt down next to the grave and read it.

"Rachel Marie Henderson, born October 24, 1985 and died on August 28, 2005. She was a beloved daughter, friend, and girlfriend. She will always be in her loved one's hearts and will never be forgotten."

Tears filled my eyes and I started to cry. My one true love in the whole world, had died. I realized that she had died for me. I could never forgive myself for it because I thought it was my fault.

I laid the roses at the bottom of the grave and took out a small velvet box. I opened it to reveal a beautiful ring. Engraved upon the outside of the ring was "You're my Heaven in Life and Death." I have one exactly for me. It was our wedding rings.

I was going to ask her to marry me a week after her death. I never got the chance to. I missed seeing her so much. Just seeing the name of the town made my eyes tear up.

I laid down the box next to the roses and said softly "You died too young. I never got to tell you how much you meant to me. I love you and I always will. Even in death. I will see you again in the future." I got up and looked at her grave one last time

"Until then, So long and goodnight."