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I knew this day would come. I knew we'd eventually do it. We promised eachother that we wouldn't let the other die alone. And now one of us was dying and the other wasn't.

Cancer is a terrible thing.

There is no other better time to do it. So here we are. Knelt down next to eachother. With a gun pointing to the other's head. Yours pointing to mine and mine pointing to yours. Ready to pull the trigger.

We are both silent. Only the faint sound of your whispering can be heard.

"Gerard, I love you..." You whisper it repeatedly.

The only movement coming from our tears. Pouring down our faces. Our eyes staring at eachother. Not daring to look away. I could see the memories from our past flashing in your eyes. Your icy blue eyes. The memories of joy, happiness, love... and sorrow Yes, sorrow.

I remember.

That day I came home and found you. Found you with my best friend. I trusted you. I loved you. And you did that to me. You told me you were sorry. That you'd never do it again. I gave you another chance. Because I loved you so much. I still love you. We'll be together forever. There's not long now. A gunshot.

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You fell to the ground. Dead.

I was thinking. Maybe you deserved to die alone. After what you did to me. It hurt so bad. I thought it wouldn't. But it did. I carried on loving you anyway. But it lacked something. Maybe the trust. Or the thought that you didn't love me as much. You couldn't have. Since you went with someone else.

I stopped crying. My heart didn't feel broken. After what I had just done. Infact. I felt better. Like I didn't have any burden on my shoulder. Like I wasn't going to cry myself to sleep anymore. It felt good.

I guess all along to ease the pain that's what had to happen. You had to die. Maybe you were supposed to. Yeah... you were supposed to.

But I still loved you. I love you so much.

I stood up and walked out the door. Leaving you lying there. All alone. The gleam in your eyes had now faded. "So long and goodnight..."