Disclaimer: Do not own MCR just a fun Fanfiction.

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'Once again I'm here.' He said in his head trying to forget how it all happened. He turns around to see the moonlight hit a gravestone.

"Why do I keep coming here?" Gerard says with pain in his eyes. And he hears a girl say,

"Why do you keep coming here." He turns to see a girl in a white dress covered in blood.

"You're not real. You're dead. Just a memory." He says calmly with out any panic in his voice.

"I still live." She looks at him, and all he can focus on is her icy blue eyes.

"Just not as much." She said and he still looks at her.

"Why did you do it?" He says looking at the blood.

"I cut. Because I couldn't take it anymore." She says knowing she's going to cry.

"Why there was nothing wrong." He says she looks at the ground and looks at him. Her bloody tears stained her white dress.

"Yes there was the whole time just no one cared." She said pulling the razor out of her skin. And walks over and grabs its hand and puts it in his hand. She looks at him and...

He wakes up. He looks around and closes his eyes, yawns, then opens them again to see Mikey looking at him.

"Hey" Mikey said.

"Hey" Gerard didn't look at him just looked at the black sheets.

"She's here." Mikey said smiling looking at his brother waiting for him to look at him.

"Okay. I'll be down in a min." Mikey walked out. And Gerard got dressed and put the razor he found in his pocket. He gets down stairs to see his girlfriend. 'Melissa' He thought as you watched him walk down. You smiled and he grabs your hand.

"So what are you two gonna be up to?" Mike said pushing you.

"Nothing much you know the same make out." You say playing around even though you probably will be. And you push Mikey back.

"Ahaha, yeah mostly" Gerard says looking in your icy blue eyes. You and him walk out the door.

"What do you wanna do today?" He said to you.

"I don't know." You said looking at him.

"Oh, I know were to go." He said smiling and he squeezed your hand.

You guys walked and walked until you were staring at a cemetery. You don't have a smile on your face at all. You just stand there and he looks at you.

"My favourite place" he whispers. You hear it and look at him.

"Why'd you take me here?" You say with worry in your voice.

"I have to talk to you about something." He doesn't look at you.

"Okay..."you say and you get sick knowing you and him are over. He looks at you and before you can do anything and grabs your arm and pulls your arm warmer down. You look at him and you can't see his green eyes. You know there probably fixed on the fresh and old cuts. It starts raining but still standing there.

"I..."you try to say something and he cuts you off.

"Why?" you look at him as he asked still not looking at you and his eyes are still fixed on the cuts. you don't say anything and you here thunder.

"Why do you hate me so much? That would make you do this to yourself Melissa." He says and looks at you he sees you're scared to say anything.

"I don't hate you. I love you doll. Mom is dieing with cancer, Dad beats me." You say hugging him and feeling the rain on your head. He hugs you back.

"Don't do it anymore. Please?" He says, you hearing him cry.

"I wont." You look at him. And he kisses you and you pull away to look in his eyes. He looks at you.

"Sing to me." You say.

"What?" He says looking confused?

"Sing to me Gerard." You smile.

"Ok, what song." He says knowing what song you want him to sing.

"You know what song." You say pulling him closer to you. he looks at you and smiles.

"The whole song or your favorite part?" He kisses your head.

"Favourite part." you smile and knowing your going to get a cold because your still in the rain.

"Okay. -

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running"

"Can that be our wedding song?" You say looking up in his green eyes.

"But I made that song." He says whispering.

"That makes it even better" You say shaking.

"Oh, my god, you're gonna get a cold." He said. you walk back to his house.

"I figured you guys were gonna be back, it's raining" Mikey said. You smile and see Frank was sitting next to him.

"Hey, you must be freezing ill get some clothes for you, come with me." Gerard said and you follow him up to his room. You look around toys all around comics and drawings. "You seem quite... anything wrong?" He said handing you new clothes and you shake your head no, and you kiss him and he kisses you back.

"Can I ask you something?" You say knowing he's going to get mad, he nods and you look at him.

"Were is my razorblade?" He looks at you and pulls it out of his pocket and you see it. you got to grab it and before you get to touch it the throws it in the trash can next to you. "No, you promised." He said looking at you. You look and walk in the bathroom to see Frankie taking a piss.

"OMG!!" You scream and shut the door, and you see Gerard run to see what's going on and your just standing there red and smiling.

"What??!" He says, Frankie comes out.

"I forgot to knock" You laugh. and go in the bathroom and change and come back out to see all of them getting ready for dinner, but you don't see Gerard you go upstairs and open the door just sitting there and looks at you and gives you a look.

"Gerard?" I get worried I know that look. 'He's paler then usual.' You say in your head, and he drops to the floor. "GERARD!!!!!?!" You cry and run towards him and see he had cut his wrists with your razorblade, you hear Mikey and Frankie's foot steps and they burst open the door to see you holding Gerard's head in your lap. Soon as you know it you're in the ambulance and holding Gerard's hand looking at him breath, he was rushed in and you wait in the waiting room with Mikey and Frankie.

"What happened?" Mikey said looking at you sadly.

"I...I...cut myself and he found out and and..."Your heart drops and you know what he meant. "Why do you hate me so much? that would make you do this to yourself Melissa." he didn't want you to cos' he loves you and he cares.

"What'd you do!?" Frankie says angry. A doctor comes in and says,

"Um, you are here with Mr. Way I believe?" The doctor says, and all three of us stand up.

"Yes" Mikey says looking worried.

"He's going to be fine." The doctor says "-a lot of blood loss, but fine."

"Can we see him?" Mikey asks.

"Yes, right in there" the doctor said walking away.

Mikey and Frank start walking you just stand there looking at the white door, they look at you and get worried. You walk and take one of each hand of there's and Mikey grabs the gold handle and there he is smiling his ass off and you feeling tears about to choke up on you.

"Hey guys" He says looking at us

"Why?" You say looking at him.

"Are you gonna do it again?" He says smiling.

"NO! YOU KNOW THAT I TOLD YOU!" You scream and run over to the bed and grab him and cry, Mikey and Frankie look at you because you're crying instead of hitting him for making that comment.

"Let's go guys." Gerard said sitting up. you look at his wrists there covered in band aids. He smiles at you and u get up and walk down the hall to hear the sound of a mother crying because he son just killed him self, and everything was in slow-motion you look to your side to see Gerard smiling and punching Mikey and so is Frankie, and you turn to see a boy in a wheelchair, and a kid in a room hooked up to a breathing machine, then every thing goes back to normal.

You get back to Gerard's house and you lay him down in his bed, he smiles at you and you just look at him knowing he's going to say something but he doesn't, he grabs you and kisses you, you get on top of him, and you know were this is going. It happened every night but tonight was a no-no, you could hold him down or you'd hurt his wrists, but he flips you over and you smile. He puts his CD in and plays your favourite song and slow motion for you kicked in again. He took your clothing off and you took his off, and he rammed into you making you moan and knowing your gonna want to get on top, but you know you can't because of his wrists; and then before you know it you explode inside and he does too. He lies next to you smiling, you kissed him, got dressed and left.

'I miss her already.' He says in his head, as he drifts off.

-the music started playing.

"Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running"

'She's beautiful' he said watching her come down the isle in her beautiful white dress and red roses, she's walking towards him and falls to her knees and blood is everywhere. He screams and holds he knowing she's dead. He sits there holding her hand and he puts it on her icy cold finger, he looks in her eyes not icy blue anymore just lifeless eyes, he cries.

'Why!?!??!' He said in his head, also shaking it.

"Because there was always something wrong." He looks over to see no one was there to say that to his left. but he looks to his right and...

He wakes up.

'What!?' He shot up out of bed, to see icy blue eyes in his face.

"You ok?" You look at him.

"Yeah." He says looking at you, Mikey walks in.

"Warped tour is today! Get up, get up, get up!"

"ergg..." He says, 'He's cranky' You say in your head He gets dressed and were off to English town for warped tour.

They get on the bus outside of the apartment, and throw your bags inside.

You walk inside and sit down looking all around thinking what warped tour is gonna be like.

"You okay?" Gerard says with a worried look. "Yes...you? You seemed kinda worried when I woke you this morning."

"Naa, I'm fine just a bad dream." He looks out the window and you grab his arm and you know you startled him because he jumps a little and you curl up right next to him.

'I want this forever' You say in your head 'I hope he feels the same way', You look up at him with your glassy eyes wondering if he'll kiss you.

'I'm so worried about her' Gerard says in his head 'I don't wanna lose her, I don't know what I would do'

"Hey guys?" you and Gerard look up to see Ray looking at you.

"Yeah dude?" Gerard says, looking back out the window seeing a bunch of fans hitting the bus.

"We're here but we can't get out yet cos' of the fans." Ray said still looking at you.

"Okay, well, we'll have to get out of here, then get out." Gerard says looking at him. you turn to face Gerard and you look at him.

"AHEM I'm still here" Ray says still looking at you and you don't care and you kiss Gerard. 'I love you' You say in your head.

Gerard smiles and shuts the shades so he cant see the fans anymore, Ray slams the door and you jump because it was so loud. and Gerard looks at the door.

"What's his problem?" Gerard says facing towards you now. "He's been really pissy lately."

"I don't know he's been around me so much but never talks just stares." You look at him with no expression on your face, and you kiss him again.

"I love you, Gerard I really do." You say and you look at him, "Please don't leave me please."

"Why would I do that I love you too you know that." He smiles and you just put your head on his lap. "Today's gonna be fun you get free shit cos' you're with me."

"Ahaha, yeah, I know, woo, free stuff!" You both laugh and smile and Ray walks in again.

"Lets go now were on were late there pissed, no time to kiss, come on" He grabs Gerard and I run with them to the stage.

"Ready?" You say looking at Gerard and he's sweating already and the show hasn't started.

"Yeah, always shugaw."you smile cos' you love they way he says sugar he says it like Shugaw.

"Good luck, I'm gonna be watching then, I'm gonna go to your tent and tell them I'm your girlfriend and get free shit." He laughs and walks out on stage.

"HOW THE FUCK ARE YA NEW JEARSEY!? IT'S GOOD TO BE FUCKING HOME!" He says as the fans cheer, and cry for them, you find you self singing and wait for it to be over. Gerard looks like he's gonna be sick and you hug him.

"Sick again?" You say looking at him.

"Yeah. Too fucking hot" He says smiling at you.

"Heck yes it is." You smile and kiss his forehead.

"Go get free shit, hah, and I'll be in the bus." He says walking away. you walk over looking for the MCR tent and you find it.

"Hi" You say looking at Ray. "Hey, hot-stuff, what are you doing here? It's not very safe." Ray says smirking and you look at him.

"I'm a big girl. I came here to buy stuff." you say with an attitude.

"Yeah, but there's big guys out there and people know you're Gerard's girlfriend you should be more careful." Ray says looking at you worried.

"I'm fine, so yeah, give meeee... that hoodie, that shirt, that shirt, that poster, and stickers." You say smiling. He packs it all up and gives it to you.

"That's gonna be $60.59." He says laughing.

"Not when Gerard loves me, ahaha." You say looking at him. "Hey uh..."

Before you could say anything, a swarm of fans come up to him and asking for pics and autographs.

"Wait, what?" Ray says looking at you.

"Nothing I'll be on the bus." You walk back your halfway there and a guy slaps your ass, you turn around and throw your new water bottle at him and you hit him in the head. He grabs you and you punch him, he pushes you, you get up and run and rushing into other people and knowing you were gonna get hurt for pushing them. You run until you hit the bus. You ram your arm against the door and gash it, and you kick it beacuse it's locked. Gerard opens the door and you run in.

"OH MY FUCKING GOD, WHAT THE FUCK!?" Gerard says holding you looking at your arm, you don't say anything because if you do your going to faint, because its so hot.

"What?!?" You see Frankie looking at you and he picks you up and lays you down on the couch.

"Oh my god, Oh my god, it's my fault I should have went with you I'm so sorry" He looks at you sad, but angry and hurt. He gets up and punches the wall, you want to say no its okay but you cant, you were still trying to breath.

"Dude chill, it's okay, you might upset her .Come on dude, it's not your fault if it was she would have stuck up her middle finger and would have shook her head, yeah?" He laughs and Gerard smirks, you just sit there still painting and holding you arm feeling the blood gushing out of it as it was a go-gert and you were pushing it out of the tube.

"Ahh man, get the paramedics, she really needs help with this cut." Frankie says looking at it, and you finally say something weak, silent, and soft but they can still here it.

"..no...."you say as your still trying to breath, then you shake your head as Frankie gets up and you say it again weak, silent, and soft but he hears it."...no..."

"What no? Your just gonna get upset talking." Frankie says looking at you, and you look at Gerard and you shake your head no and he looks at you with tears.

"You need one Melissa look at your arm, look." He looks at it, you pull down your arm warmer and slap your arm and shake your head no. He looks at the fresh cuts and looks at you.

"What...wha..." Frankie looks at your arm shocked, and not knowing what to do. "She doesn't wanna go because they'll look at her cuts." He says turning back to Gerard, he's just standing then backs up to the wall and slides down to sit.

"Melissa..I.." He says you feel your tears run down your cheeks and hear the door shut and Mikey comes walking in not seeing you and just looks at Gerard.

"It's so fucking hot yo..." He just looks at his brother then stairs at you. "WHAT!??!OH MY GOD!"

You roll off the couch on the floor and Frankie grabs you and sits you up against a wall.

"It's okay, I know what to do, okay?" He says looking at you, you just look at Gerard still looking at your arm and you crying, he still sits there silent. Frankie comes back and cleans up your cut, and the rest on your arm, he raps gauze around your whole arm.

"All better." He smiles buy the time he was done you caught your breath.

"He slapped my ass, I threw my water at him, he grabbed me, I punched him, he pushed me. I ran, he ran, I ran into the bus" You said as if they were your first words, Gerard gets up and walks out of the bus, you cry.

"He's just upset cos' you're like this I'll talk to him." Mikey says looking at you and he gets up and walks out too.

"Why do you do it" Frank says washing his hands.

"Because I...have to" You say looking at your arm that's bandaged.

"No, tell me, I promise I wont tell Gerard." Frankie says, giving you a water, you take it and open it.

"Because I don't mean to." You say.

"I don't..." Frankie was about to finish and you do for him.

"-understand I know, every night I go home alone, my dads drunk, calls me a slut and beats me. Every night I get back from Gerard's, then I get drunk and while I'm drunk I just cut because by then I cant feel the stinging." You say looking at him.

Frankie sits and looks at her wile the tears are streaming down her face.

"I love him, I really do." You say looking at him, he looks at you and he holds you.

-Back with Gerard and Mikey.-

"I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE THIS! WHY WOULD SHE DO THIS." Gerard says as a tear falls from his left eye, Mikey finally grabs Gerard.

"I don't know Gee, I really don't. She's really upset, maybe you should ask why." He says looking at Gerard and Gerard gets a angry look on his face.

"I ALREADY FUCKING DID! SHE SAID SHE WOULDINT DO IT AGAIN BUT SHE LIED. I EVEN SLIT MY WRISTS AND SHE FUCKING CRIED, NOW SHE'S STIL DOING IT!" Gerard says screaming at the top of his lungs.

"What'd she say?" Mikey says still staring.

"Her Mom and Dad, that's why and wh..." Mikey cut him off.

"You didn't go home with her?" Mikey asks standing there looking at the back of the stage.

"No, I didn't. I don't wanna tell her Dad what to do." Gerard said looking at the ground.

"Why does she, what exactly do her Mom and Dad do to make her do that?" Mike asks.

"Her dad............" he paused and realized how stupid he was for saying please don't do it and she's hurting at home.

"Her dad?" Mikey looks at him. "-beats her...and her mom has cancer" Gerard looking towards their tour bus.

-back with You and Frankie.-

You sat there as Frankie held you, you knew nothing was going to happen because Frankie is Gerard's friend and Frankie had a girlfriend. "He hates me....he does, he really does he dosen...." Before you should say the rest Frankie put his hand over his mouth.

"No he doesn't. Don't say that, Gee loves you, he loves you so much he won't shut the fuck up about you when you're not around." He says you feel your lips coming to a smile, and he kissed your head, you heard the bus door shut as you moved to the corner of the wall and Gerard walks in seeing you looking at him with fear.

"Melissa, I love you I'm sorry." He said with tears in his eyes running over and falling to his knees to your sight and grabbing you and holding you so tight.

"I love you Gerard, I'm so sorry I'm not gon.." you again couldn't finish what you were going to say. "It's okay, I'm going to ask you something." He says with a twinkle in his eyes, you look at him. "Live with me please?"

"Oh my god, really?" You said looking at him and smiling as he nods his head.

"Yes, I love you so much, but your gonna have to go on tour if you don't mind." He says looking at you in your eyes.

"YES!" You say jumping and grabbing his head and kissing him hard.

"But first, who did this to you?" He asks angry.

"I don't know, I didn't get to see his face." You say with no expression on your face.

"Hopefully it wont happen again." He says kissing your head.

"Yeah." You and Gerard turn to Mikey. "We wouldn't want anything bad happening to you." You smile and lay down on the couch.

"I'll be back" Gerard says smiling.

"Do you really love me?" You say before he walks out of the bus.

"Yes I do sugar." He smiles and shuts the door, you smile and fall asleep, only to wake up to black hair in your face. You knew it was Gerard, he was sleeping, you get up and go on the computer.

-Gerard's P.O.V-

Gerard's walking around in the cemetery to see Melissa laying on a coffin, he runs up to her and shakes her, she doesn't move, just lays there with her eyes open. There was sick all over the ground and she had bruises all over.

"MELISSA!?!?!" He shouts trying to wake her up. "Come on please, please, please please." Tears stream down Gerard's face, he looks up to see the moon, and he looks back at her. She was hardly breathing.

"Darling..."Someone says behind him, he goes to turn, but he cant as someone gashes his neck to wake up.

Your P.O.V-

"Gerard wake up please, Oh My God, Mikey, Frank, Ray, Bob!?!?!" You see him screaming in his sleep still, until he wakes up and looks at you. "GERARD!?" You look at him and he just stares.

"...hey.." He says faintly.

"Hey....darling..." You say looking at him, scared.

"Hey..." He says again.

"You okay doll??" You ask.

"Yeah, I'll be right back." He gets up and walks to the bathroom, as soon as he goes in there you hear the front of the door bus open and slam shut. You just look at the door to see a man coming up to you, he grabs you, before you could say anything he puts his hand over your mouth. you try to scream, but he throws you on the couch. He jams the door so Gerard couldn't get out of the bathroom, you scream and Gerard hears you.

"OH MY GOD! ARE YOU OKAY! WHATS GOING ON!?" Gerard says screaming.

The man puts his hand over your mouth, you find your razorblade and cut his cheek. He grabs your neck and arm to make you drop the razor, he pins you down and punches you in the face. You still scream hoping someone will here as you hear the bus door slam and Frankie runs in and the guy gets off of you, and punches Frankie and runs off the bus. You look at your arms bleeding again cos' he grabbed you by them, and Frankie sees you roll of the couch on the floor as he un-jams the door so Gerard can get out, they run towards you and sit you up as you look at your wrists. Gerard's screaming and Frankie's talking to him wile your still sitting there. You wonder who the man was since you didn't get to see his face, your sitting there playing with the gauze on your wrists and Frankie comes over.

"Melissa, did you see his face?" He asks to you as you lift your head to see his eyes and shake your head, no. "Did he hurt you?" You nod your head yes, you lift up your long hair for him to see the big bruise on your neck and face. "I'll get you ice." Frankie says getting up and leaving the room.

"Your not safe here." Gerard says looking at the floor. "We're gonna have to lock the bus when you're in here okay?" You look at him and he sits next to you and cries.

"Why you? Why's this happening to you, I love you." Gerard says looking at your arms, you look at him and Gerard kisses you.

"Because God hates me you say looking at him." He looks at you and kisses you.

"No he doesn't."

Frankie walks back in with the ice, he hands it to you and you smile.

"I'm okay guys, it will be okay." They look at you like your crazy.

"Well, we're going to Florida." Frank says, still a little worried.

"I'll be fine, what are the chances what happened here is gonna happen there?" You say.

"True." Gerard says smiling.

"So I'll be okay don't worry." You look at your arm and the band aid was drenched in your blood. "I'm gonna go clean myself up." You get up and walk in the bathroom.

"Do you really think she'll be okay." Gerard asks Frankie.

"No. If you want the truth, no." Frankie says looking at him.

"What are we gonna do about her?" Gerard says looking at the bathroom door.

"Keep her safe." He says.

Ray walks in, and as soon as he does you walk out of the bathroom.

"Guys, I heard what happened, is she oka-" he looks at you "Are you okay???"

"I'm fine" You say looking at him. "How'd you find out?"

"Well Mikey saw the whole thing after Frank got on the bus first" Ray says.

"Okay I'm fine" You say looking around at the guys.

"Okay" they all say looking at you.

You walk off the bus just still pondering who it was, you see Mikey look at you with a sad look on his face.

"What?" You say looking at him.

"My girlfriend just broke up with me." He says looking at his cell phone.

"WHAT!? Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry Mikey. Is there anything I can do to help?" you ask touching his shoulder.

"No, I'm fine." He says walking away.

"Everything is falling apart, maybe I should go home. I don't want them to worry about me anymore and it seems like if everything gets worse." You say looking at your arm. "No your not leaving." You turn to see Frankie looking at you.

"Wha..." He cut you off.

"Gerard's a mess with out you, we cant bare to see him like that. He loves you to death." He says smiling at you.

"I...I don't want to be a burden." You say turning around to see Gerard in your face.

"Your not." Gerard says with a beer in his hand.

"Your drunk aren't you." you say looking at the ground.

"No this is my firs...." you cut him off.

"First goes to four with you darling." you say looking up at him with tears in your eyes, you try to hold them back but you cant, he looks at you and puts the beer down.

"Does it make you upset that I drink?" He says.

"No don't worry about it" You smile knowing he knows your scared of him getting liver cancer, you walk back on the bus to see...

See someone you feared your hole life.

"MELISSA YOU FUCKING GET OVER HERE" The voice, the same quote you have been hearing since you were five. The voice of your father. You look at him and see he's drunk you can tell, you just back away wondering why, why is he here!? "MELISSA!" He screams once again.

"No.." You run off the bus and run on stage, you don't care if Fall Out Boy is playing, you don't you're too scared. You know Gerard is behind you running after you but you know if you stop its all over again.

"MELISSA??" Gerard says screaming at you, you don't care in you head you say just keep running. Then you hear 'BAM' your heart jumps you turn to see Gerard on the ground and your father with a bat.

"FUCKING ASSHOLE! FUCK YOU NO FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE!" He looks at you with sad eyes.

"Mom died yesterday, IT'S YOUR FAULT, YOU FUCKING SLUT." Those were the last words you herd coming from him until you heard 'wam' when one of the guys from fall out boy hit him with there bass.

"GERARD!?" You run to him and he's passed out. "Darling.." you pass out. You wake up too see green eyes, and there full of sadness.

"....Ger..."you cant say anything.

"It's okay, I'm okay, your okay, but..." He says choking on his words.

"..b.." You attempt to say 'but', but you cant.

"Your dad's dead. I'm sorry." he says looking at you, you just grab his hand.

"Were am I?" You say finally feeling better.

"Tour bus, my room, it's 1:00 in the morning." He says getting covers out of the closet.

"Oh god...my Mom's dead..." You say with out an expression.

"I'm sorry." He says putting more covers on you, you sit up and feel weak.

"Ugh. Why do I feel so weak? Fuck." You say looking at him get on top of you.

"Cos' you've had a hard day." He kisses your neck and kisses your lips, then bites your lip.

"I hate feeling like this." You say kissing him back then you look at your arms. "I need new bandaids." He looks at your bloody bandages.

"Yes you do, I'll be back okay? I gotta tell the guys to get some cos' were gonna stop at CVS." He looks at you and kisses you and walks out of his room. You sit there looking at the door he entered just to use the bathroom, and he was locked out of it so he couldn't protect you.

"....its not me...is it?" You say still looking. "it's not me so who am I now?" You say looking at your hands then looking out the window that passes by, nothing but trees, the moonlight hitting your face and the stars twinkling you thought they would just blow up for being so beautiful. "This isn't me, I shouldn't do this to myself he loves me." You rip your bandages off of your left arm, and feel the stinging from the hair pulled out of your arm. you look back down and to see your cuts still bleeding. you guess you hit a vain but the pressure from the bandage was keeping it from bleeding. Gerard walks in and he sees you look at him with your bandaid in your grasp. "No more darling, i promise." He looks at you and takes your arm and looks at it.

"Look I....pfft.....I'm sorry about freaking out, I really am, I shouldn't have, I know what your going threw an..." You kiss him before he could say anything else, and he kisses you back. You bite his neck, then chest, then you shut the shades.

You wake up to hear the bus come to a stop and you look to your side to see Gerard sleeping and there was blood all over the white silk sheets because of your arm.

************** Gerard's dream.

"Darling what do you think" Melissa says looking at you, you look around and your out in the rain and she's holding your hand.

"About?" You say confused.

"This?" She says looking at you smiling.

"Uhm..." You say looking at her back and she frowns.

"OH FUCKING GOD! I KNEW IT." She screams but then she turns in horror and grabs you and doesn't let go.

"Melissa? What's wrong?" You say, looking around.

"Please don't let him hurt me again." She screams.

"What who, who's gonna hurt you, Melissa what are you talking about?" You say, then wake up.

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"Gee??" You say looking at Gerard waking up.

"Hey..."he says groggily.

"Why'd the bus stop?" You say looking at him worried.