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Will You Forgive Me? By Dee Disclaimer: This fanfic is 100% fake!
*** Chapter 1 Alexandra and her friend Katie were driving in the car. "Hey Alex, you remember your old boyfriend Gerard, right?" Katie asked her.
Katie broke her thoughts. "Well, Ray said Gerard is going to be at his house today." Ray was a good friend of both Alexandra and Katie. Gerard introduced Ray to Alex in college. Then, Alex introduced Ray to Katie. Ray and Katie started dating a few months after they met. "Gerard is going to be where?!" Alex yelled. Katie and Alex were going to Ray's house right at that moment. "Sorry, Alex." "Is this why we are going?" "Partly. I came to visit Ray. I brought you so you could talk to Gerard." "Why doesn't he go fuck the slut he has for a girlfriend?" "They broke up." "Why?" "He missed you." "Fucking typical guys. They date you, and tell you they'll love you forever. Then the next day, they break your fucking heart. A couple days after that, they come crawling back to you." "Yeah, that's boys for ya," Katie agreed. "Shit, we're here aren't we?" Alex asked. "Yeah. Just go talk to him." "Yeah, that's easy for you to say." "C'mon." They got out of the car and walked to Ray's front door. Katie knocked on the door. Ray answered the door seconds later. "Hey baby!" Ray said. He hugged and kissed Katie. He turned to Alex. "Alex!" He hugged her. Alex smiled at him. He smiled back. "Lex, there's someone here to see you." "I know, I heard." Alex looked at Katie. "Honey, you told her?" Ray asked Katie. "Hey! I thought I should of." "Well, let's not leave him hanging." Ray walked the girls in. He closed the door behind them and led them into the living room where Gerard sat. "Hey Gerard" Ray said. He looked at them but he was looking directly at Alex. "Hey." He said quietly. Alex realised he looked the same as the day they broke up with her. "You remember Katie and Alex?" He nodded his head. He put his head down. "Hi Alex."
"Hi Gerard." There was a moment of silence. Then, Ray broke the silence. "You girls can sit down." He pointed to a couch opposite of the couch Gerard was sitting on. They both sat down. Ray sat next to Gerard. "Can I talk to Alex alone?" Gerard whispered into Ray's ear. He nodded his head. "C'mon Katie, let's leave these two alone. We're just going to go out for a little bit." Gerard waited until they left before he said anything.
"So, how are you?" Gerard asked.
"Okay, bad start." "There's not gonna be a good start to this." "Okay...what have you been doing with your life since I...left.?" "Trying to forget about you." "Alex, you're not making this easy." "This isn't supposed to be easy, Gerard. You expect it to be easy to talk about you dumping me for a fucking slut?!" He sighed. "It's not easy now is it?" she asked. "No, no it's not." "Didn't think so." "I missed you Alex." "Don't get all soft on me, Gerard!" "I can't have you back?" "HAVE YOU BACK?!" Alex stood up. "YOU EXPECT ME TO TAKE YOU BACK?!" Gerard stood up. "Why not?!" "YOU FUCKING DUMPED ME FOR A SLUT AND I LATER FOUND OUT THAT YOU CHEATED ON ME!" "I regret it now!" "You fucking should! Gerard, I stopped pursuing a career in art because of you! I needed to stop thinking about you and that was the only way to do it!" "You can't keep on running away from your problems or the people who start the problems." "Yes I can!" "What if the person who started the problem didn't want you to run away from them?" Gerard moved closer. "I love you, Alexandra and I regret doing anything bad to you." "Why would you date a fucking slut?" "I guess I cared about her looks." "Oh! So now I dated someone who's shallow!" "No! Shit, that came out wrong!" "No, it came out just perfectly. You just helped me with my future life, and it doesn't see you in it." She started to walk away. "Please don't leave me." "Why shouldn't I?" "I need you." "Why?" "I need you to live." "What in the hell are you talking about?" "I can't live without you." "Gerard, stop." "I'm being serious." "Gerard, I'm sorry but I'm leaving." She quickly left.
Alex walked down the street a little ways before calling Katie. "Hello?" Katie said. "Katie! Please come back!" "Okay, what's wrong? You sound scared." "I'll tell you when you get here." Katie and Ray arrived where she was ten minutes later. Alex opened the back door and got in and closed the door. "What happened, Alex?" Ray asked. "Well, Gerard and I were talking. Then he was like, I need you to help me live and all this sh-." "Shit! Katie take me home. You guys leave. I'll call you later." Katie drove him home. He kissed Katie quickly and said goodbye to them. They watched him run into the house.
Alex moved to the passenger seat so it was easier to talk to Katie. "I think Gerard has problems." Katie said. "You're telling me." "I'm being serious, Alex. He really needs you. I think he was just about to commit suicide. That's why Ray went home right away. He told me all about Gerard's problems. We just never told you because we figured you wouldn't care." "Well, I just want to forget about Gerard and go home."
They arrived back at their apartment five minutes later. Alex sat and watched TV while Katie was in the shower. Katie sat next to Alex when she was done. "Do you still have feelings for Gerard?" "I don't know. Maybe I do, but I don't know." "Oh. I was just wondering." Just then Katie's cell phone rang. "Hello?" "Hey hun." He sounded worried. "Hey. What's wrong?" Alex looked at Katie. "Gerard's in the hospital." "You're fucking serious?!" "Yes." "What did he do?" "Overdose." "Do you want us to come out there?" "If you want." "We'll be right there."
Katie hung up with Ray. "We're going out to the hospital. Gerard's there. I'll explain on the way." Katie told Alex everything Ray told her. Alex wanted to cry but she told herself not to.
They walked into the hospital seeing Ray sitting with his head down. They both hugged him. "He has no will to live." "What?" they both asked. "Gerard, he has no will to live." "What do you mean?" Alex asked. "He said he has no reason to live." Alex knew she had to visit him. She walked up to the front desk. "I need to visit Gerard Way." "Family members only please." "I'm his girlfriend." Katie and Ray looked at her. "Very well, this way." The nurse led her down a long hallway. She knocked on door number 213 and opened the door for her. "Thank you" Alex said.
Alex walked in slowly and closed the door behind her. "Alex?" Gerard asked weakly. Alex didn't say anything. She pulled a chair up next to him and started stroking his hair. "Gerard, live for me." "What?" Alex started crying. "Please don't die on me. I need you too." Gerard was stunned. "You really mean it?" She nodded her head. He leaned up to kiss her. She leaned down to meet him. They could feel their love growing back again. "I love you, Alexandra." "I love you too, Gerard." Gerard smiled and hugged her. She stayed in his arms. "I finally have someone to live for," he whispered.
It has been a couple months since that night. Gerard was in the hospital for a week. Alex and Gerard have been dating since then. It was a Friday night. Gerard was over at Alex and Katie's apartment visiting Alex. Katie was over at Ray and Gerard's apartment with Ray. They sat cuddling on the couch, watching a movie. Alex was getting bored but she didn't want Gerard to know. So, she started moving her hand across his chest. She went down to the bottom of his shirt and put her hand underneath his shirt. "Alex! What are you doing?" "Shhh." She kissed him quickly. She moved her hand lower to his bat belt buckle. She undid his belt. She could hear his breathing getting shallow. She unbuttoned his pants and reached inside his boxers. Gerard started moaning. She straddled him with her hand still inside. She started kissing his strong neck. "My turn," Gerard moaned. "No, not just yet." "Please, I want you." He attacked her neck unexpectedly. She flung her head back, moaning. Gerard put his hand on her back so she didn't fall off of him. Gerard stood up, still holding onto Alex. Alex wrapped her legs around Gerard's waist and her arms around his neck. They continued kissing while Gerard carried Alex into the bedroom. He laid her down gently. He continued kissing her neck while he took her pants off along with her underwear.
He took off her shirt and her bra. Alex sat up and took off his shirt. Gerard quickly took off his pants and boxers. "Lay down," Gerard ordered Alex. "I want to ride you though." He chuckled. "You need to get past me first." She glared at him. He smiled at her and kissed her. They continued kissing while Alex laid back down and Gerard got on top of her. He broke the kiss and looked her in the eyes. "Are you ready?" She nodded her head. He started kissing her again and gently entered her. He continued thrusting into her while his mouth moved to her neck. Alex pulled his face up to hers. He looked her in the eyes. "It's my turn now." He smiled. He got off of her and laid on his back. She sat on his lap. He put his hands on her hips, helping her. They continued thrusting into each other, moaning each other's names. Finally, Alex came. Gerard came a few seconds after her. Alex laid on his chest listening to Gerard's heart beat. Gerard stroked her hair.
A few minutes later, Alex got off of him and laid down next to him. Gerard pulled the blankets over them. He wrapped his arms around Alex. "I love you." He said. "I love you too." She smiled. He smiled and kissed her lightly. Alex closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep. But Gerard remained away watching Alex sleep. He saw her smile. He wondered what she was dreaming about. He wrapped his arms around her tighter and fell asleep.
Alex woke up the next morning alone. She wondered where Gerard went. She saw a note on her bedside table. It read:
Alex, -Gerard She knew something was wrong because Gerard told her not to worry and he didn't want her going over to his house. Alex quickly got dressed and brushed her teeth. She walked out of her bedroom and saw Katie and Ray in the kitchen. "Ray, I'm going over to your place to see Gerard." "Alex, you can't. Didn't you read Gerard's note?" Ray asked. "Yes, there's something wrong and I need to find out what is wrong." "Alex, don't leave," Katie said. "I'm leaving." She got her keys and was out the door before they could stop her.
Alex quickly drove to Gerard's house. She knocked on the door. She got her cell phone out and called his house. A girl picked up. "Hello?" "Can I talk to Gerard?" "Who in the hell is this?" "His girlfriend." "His girlfriend? Darling, you must be mistaken, I'm his girlfriend. We broke up but then he came back to me this morning. Listen bitch, you better not touch my fucking man. If you do, you will regret it. Understand?" "Y-yeah." She said shakily and hung up. She quickly got in the car and drove away. She cried the whole way back home. She walked into her apartment collapsing to the ground from crying so badly. "Alex, what happened?" Katie asked, kneeling down next to her. "Gerard, he went back to his ex-girlfriend." Katie looked at Ray. "Alex, that isn't true." "Yes it is! I knocked on the door, he didn't answer. I call the house, she picks up. Obviously, they are doing something!" She cried harder. "You have it all wrong!" Ray said. "I called Gerard this morning telling him his ex came to our house demanding to talk to him. I told him he had to go talk to her or else Katie and I were going to be killed, she had a gun. Gerard said he was going to write you a note just saying he had to come home. He didn't want you to worry or be suspicious but I guess he didn't do a good job doing that. He wanted us to not let you go over there because he didn't know what she was going to do to him. Alex, he loves you with all his heart. When he calls, he'll tell you the truth." "I still don't believe you." She walked away into her bedroom.
Katie walked into Alex's bedroom an hour later. "Alex?" She was still crying. "Gerard wants to talk to you." Katie and Alex walked into the living room. "H-hello?" "Alex. I d-don't l-love you anymore. I n-never want to see you again." He hung up. Alex dropped the phone and ran back into her bedroom. Katie ran after her. "Alex, what did Gerard say?" "He said he doesn't love me anymore and he never wants to see me again!" She continued crying. Katie didn't know what to say, so she walked out to talk to Ray. "What did Gerard say to her?" "That he no longer loves her and he never wants to see her again." "She made him say it." "What?" "Gerard's ex, she made him say those things. If I know Gerard, he will call as soon as he can, telling the truth."
They sat down watching TV waiting for his call. "When do you think he'll call?" Katie asked. "When Laura, that's his ex, goes to sleep because she is probably watching him like a hawk." "Why do you think she came back to him?" Katie asked. "Either she missed him or she's pregnant. If she's pregnant, I highly doubt Gerard's the father because Laura has slept with so many men, even when she was dating Gerard. Plus, Gerard used protection." "Oh okay."
Gerard called around 2am that early morning. Ray and Katie fell asleep on the couch but were awaken by Ray's cell phone going off. "Hello?" Ray said in a tired tone. "Hey, it's me." "We knew you were going to call." "Yeah, I'm in a big jam. Laura said she's pregnant and she wants me to be the father!" "That's not right. You most definitely aren't the father, right?" "I didn't use protection." "Gerard! Listen, you can't be there with her right now. You need to talk to Alex. I'm coming to pick you up." "Are you fucking crazy? If I leave her alone here, she'll come there and put us all in danger." "She'll call you in the morning first though right?" "Probably. Yeah." "Well, you tell her you don't want anything to do with her until she finds the real baby's dad. Meaning, you get tested, if you aren't the father, you leave her the hell alone. If you are, then you have to be in the baby's life." "Alright, hurry over though." "Be there in five minutes." He hung up. "I'm going to go get Gerard. Don't wake up Alex though." "Alright." He kissed her quickly and left.
Gerard and Ray were back at the girls' place 15 minutes later. "Where's Alex?" Gerard asked. "In her bedroom." Katie said. "She's a wreck." Ray added. He nodded his head and walked slowly into her bedroom. He walked up to the side of her bed, she was laying on. She was sleeping, lying on her side facing him. He knew she was crying because her makeup was smeared badly. He stroked her cheek. "Alex." he whispered. "Alex." He said a little bit louder. Alex stirred and woke up. She looked at him. "You!" "Alex, let me talk to you about this." "I don't want to talk about it! You love her now! End of story!" Alex got out of bed and headed for the door. Gerard ran to it. "Let me out, you fucking bastard!" "Not until you let me talk to you." "I don't want to talk to you! Let me out!" Alex tried several times to get out but Gerard continued blocking her. Alex collapsed to the ground from crying. Gerard kneeled down and hugged her tightly. He felt her try to get away a few times but he stopped her. She buried her head in his neck. "I love you, not her," he whispered in her ear. He rocked her back and forth until she stopped crying. She pulled away from his embrace and looked at him. "What about what you said on the phone?" He wiped away her tears. "She made me say that to you. She was right there when I was talking to you." "Oh." "I love you, Alex." "I love you too." He kissed her gently. They continued holding each other in each other's arms.
Gerard's cell phone started ringing. He looked at it. "Fuck!" "Is it her?" "Yeah." Alex got up so Gerard could get up. "Hello?" "Where in the hell are you?" "That's none of your business." Gerard walked out to where Ray and Katie were. Alex followed him. Ray and Katie knew who he was talking to. "Well, you need to get the fuck back here!" "Why?" "I'm going to be having this fucking baby soon and you, the father, needs to be here!" "You don't even know if I'm the fucking father! You slept with so many men!" "I know you're the father!" "I doubt I am. Go get one of the other guys to help you. I'm done with you. I told you we were over. You have the baby then I'll take a DNA test. If I'm not the father, you leave me the hell alone. If I am, then I'll help take care of the baby. But, I will never date you again." "Fine, whatever." She hung up.
"What did she say?" Ray asked. Gerard walked over to the couch Alex was sitting on and sat next to her, putting his arm around her. She snuggled up close to him. "Well, I guess she agreed with me. When the baby is born, I'm going to take a DNA test and we'll take it from there." "Oh, okay." "Can I talk to you alone?" Alex whispered into Gerard's ear. He nodded his head. "Hey guys, can you leave for a few minutes? We need to talk." "Oh, yeah sure." Katie and Ray got up and went into Katie's bedroom. "What's the matter, baby?" "What if you're the father?" "Well, I guess I'll have to take care of the baby." "And be around her more." "I won't fall back in love with her." "Just in case you do, if you're the father, I don't want to date you anymore." "Baby, don't say that." "I'm being serious." She sat up. "Why?" "You break up with me for her. Then you come back to me. We're happy until we find out you might be the father of her baby!" "I love you though. Why can't you fucking understand that YOU are my fucking life!" "That's fucking bullshit. If I was your life you wouldn't have left me!" He sighed. "I just hope I'm not the father." "I hope you aren't either." She walked up to Gerard and wrapped her arms around him. "You understand right? That I won't date you if you're the father." "Yeah. It wouldn't be fair for you to date someone who fathered their ex-girlfriend's baby." "I'm glad you understand." She said. "I want to find out right now because it kills me not knowing!" "It's killing me as much as it's killing you," she agreed. He sighed. "Maybe sleep will help calm our nerves," Alex suggested. "You go ahead. I'm going to think for awhile." "Alright." She kissed him lightly and walked to her bedroom.
Several months had passed since that night. Laura had the baby. When it was 6 months old, the baby and Gerard got DNA tests done. They said they would send him the results in a week. He got tested on a Thursday, so he would get the results next Thursday. Gerard was afraid to see the results. So was everyone else.
A week had passed. Everyone was over at Alex and Katie's (everyone referred to as Katie, Alex, Gerard, and Ray) waiting for the mail to come. Gerard had the results sent to their apartment because he knew he was going to be at their apartment. When the mail came, Katie got it. She went through the mail until she found one addressed to Gerard. "Here it is." She handed it to him. Alex and Gerard both were crying at this point because they dreaded the worst. Gerard slowly opened the letter and read the results. When he was done reading it he pulled Alex into a hug. "I'm not the father." He whispered into her ear. Alex left his embrace and looked at him smiling. "Are you serious?" He nodded his head smiling. "Look." He handed her the letter. She read it and hugged him. He laughed. "So, you're not the father?" asked Ray. Alex stopped hugging him. "Nope." Ray and Katie both smiled. "Are you going to talk to Laura about it?" asked Ray. "I don't plan on it. But if she calls me then I have no choice." said Gerard. Just then, Gerard's cell phone started to ring. "Shit!" "Her?" "Yeah." He answered. "Hello?" "Did you get the fucking results?" "Yes." "They're fucking bullshit." "Why do you say that?" "Because you ARE the father of my baby!" "No, I'm not. Listen, we made a deal, I get tested. If I'm the father I help take care of the baby. If I'm not then I don't have anything to do with you." "Haha. That's what you think. Just wait, I'll be back for you."
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